The Gods Confused on how to move forward

[ModernHeathen88]

Hi everyone, apologies for the length.

I've been dedicated to Zeus since 2015. I previously went by VabzirVonpho on the old forum.

For the first 5 years or so I was consistent in my meditations/rituals/online activism. Then I had my first child and things slowed down drastically for me. Then having my 2nd about 3 years later.

I lost contact with the Gods and everyone here and was just living like a mundane. I still held onto my beliefs and always experienced signs from the Gods, seeing very sacred numbers in the strangest places, things like that.

Recently however I've been in a pretty dark spot, with everything going on in the world, relationship problems and lacking self worth. I took comfort in talking to some friends who are xians. I liked the community and the acceptance. It went as far as one of them blessing me and giving me a book and another friend praying for me and giving me some coins with prayers on them.

I felt such intense spiritual conflict. I even considered attending church with one of them. However, I kept my scepticism.

After a long time of thinking I found myself back here at the ToZ. I found it strange how it changed names, but after re-reading it, I know this is where I belong.

My question is, after being exposed like that, do I just continue? Do I re-dedicate myself? I feel like that would help. I would greatly appreciate any advice.

Thanks

 

[Power of Justice [SG]]

Hi everyone, apologies for the length.

I've been dedicated to Zeus since 2015. I previously went by VabzirVonpho on the old forum.

For the first 5 years or so I was consistent in my meditations/rituals/online activism. Then I had my first child and things slowed down drastically for me. Then having my 2nd about 3 years later.

I lost contact with the Gods and everyone here and was just living like a mundane. I still held onto my beliefs and always experienced signs from the Gods, seeing very sacred numbers in the strangest places, things like that.

Recently however I've been in a pretty dark spot, with everything going on in the world, relationship problems and lacking self worth. I took comfort in talking to some friends who are xians. I liked the community and the acceptance. It went as far as one of them blessing me and giving me a book and another friend praying for me and giving me some coins with prayers on them.

I felt such intense spiritual conflict. I even considered attending church with one of them. However, I kept my scepticism.

After a long time of thinking I found myself back here at the ToZ. I found it strange how it changed names, but after re-reading it, I know this is where I belong.

My question is, after being exposed like that, do I just continue? Do I re-dedicate myself? I feel like that would help. I would greatly appreciate any advice.

Thanks

You desire a sense of community and belonging. You can find that here with all of us. Just begin a meditation routine if you previously stopped and focus on cleaning for the most part. Clean your aura and chakras. There's no need to dedicate again.

 

[april]

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Greetings and welcome back! As SG Power of Justice stated, there is no need to redo the dedication.

I'd recommend reading the newer Sermons to get an idea of what changed and which additions we have gone through.
Currently, we are also doing a group ritual schedule, feel free to join us if you have time.
There is also a new ToZ Online Temple now with channels to freely chat with other Zevists (although direct messaging is still done exclusively through the forums--except for contacting NGs, SGs, etc. for various projects and such if necessary). The ability to message others on the forums gets unlocked if you make 30 or 50 comments/posts if I recall correctly.
Since you mentioned you have done online activism previously, there is an official online activism project called Outreach now, led by SG Alexandros Iowno, to join this please message NG Ayleth or NG Satchives in the Online Temple platform, please make sure to mention your past experience if you do decide to message one of them.
In any case, we are happy to have you here, welcome back. Please don't waste this opportunity, it's really precious to be here and I'm sure you know this; be active and helpful and you will gain a ton. There is also a Donor Platform where sacred rituals and such can be bought if you are interested. To get used to the environment again, I suggest being active in the online temple and browsing through the newer Sermons the Clergy has published. Thank you.

For Returning Members

"We want to be part of this Golden Age transition and herald it as its bringers, and I officially declare, that anything that represents the enemy context will progressively disappear.
We must refuse to dwell on anything that has its roots in the interpolations of the enemy. " - High Priest Hooded Cobra 666

Temple of Zeus Announcement and Q&A by High Priest Hooded Cobra 666 (Explaining the changes, etc.):
Temple Of Zeus Is Now Live
Official Live AMA Video from ToZ
Answering Concerns About ToZ [The Other Side Of It]
Climb To The Gods: We Won't Dumb It Down

Beelzebub/Baalzebul vs Satan/Lucifer (Both are the same God):
ZEVISTS: Our New Name, Zeus & Thunder Power - Sat & Zev
Plutarch & Herodotus - Who Are The Gods?
Zeus, Satya, Reforms & The Time Before "Satanism" - Moving Into the Golden Age [Update 1: Resources]
The Tripartite Nature Of Zeus: Satan/Beelzebul & Satanic Lore

What happened to HPS Maxine?:
About HPS Maxine And The JoS
New Rituals & Schedule Now Live: HPS Maxine's Ritual & Lord Balaam's Ritual

What Happened to the Other Inactive Clergy:
Demotion of Clergy - New Rules

There are also few Sermons I would like to share on the topic of coming back to Zevism.

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