I feel disconnected from you guys, my Siblings in Satan. I don't think it's depression, but it is depressing. I want to have a spiritual purpose fighting enemy through RTR, it felt and feels so good to return the curses of the enemy to them. Lately have had a back & forth, I thought I was making progress. But have been removed from Safe Space, now I read in the Temple there's no individual ritual to be done. It's just not how it was before. Trying to adjust, but if I want to pay respectful homage or recite litany with love that should be my business and allowed.
Maybe I misunderstand, but feeling sad and am questioning things & myself, I am more Spiritual Satanist than Zevist, I'm trying to embrace these changes but I just feel that RTR & individual ritual are up to the practitioner & should be fine to do so long as nothing astrologically conflicts + there moon isn't void of course, respectfully.
I don't have the level of knowledge as the HP 's & JG/TG so again, maybe I misunderstood, but feeling

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I talk to God about it, I know he & The Gods are understanding, I just wish I was understanding, why, reasons for new protocol, also.
Because of a while back when we were told about our RTR's & that we made progress or achieved our goal, that that meant no more RTR unless on the schedule. I had thought that, but did finally do an individual one and it felt great. I couldn't understand why in the chat that the one sibling was told not to ask if others wanted to join in their respectful ritual to Khepri, I thought that it meant no individual rituals, which confused me and created a strain emotionally for me.
I plan to sit down and do a few rituals now. I will check back in and leave a post since I cannot access safe space to update my emotional status, but it has improved already. But to whoever reads this that is a sibling, thank you, I am so truly grateful for my misunderstanding, because now I get to go and refresh myself. I am like a dehydrated plant, and the rituals will be my sweet water.
I will read through some of the things on Forums & work towards interacting more through comments.