carlislerothstein
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hey. I'm Cliff, I've been a satanist for some time now, but unlike most of you, never was I able to witness father satan, although he manifests in all the good that happened in my life.
I'm not an exposed satanist either because everyone (almost) around here are xtians, so they'd probably burn me at stake, if you know what I mean. But I must say that I believe that father Satan would save me from this madness.
ugh so about my problem. I had this almost obe, up to the part where the soul could jump out my body, but these occured unintentionally. Just woke up from a dream then it's a sleep paralysis, the thing is when that happen, there's this dark figure or shadow, i dont know, but it's infront me. The first time it was there I feel like it was pulling my soul out (i'm scared) called father satan for help but the shadow is still there so I just struggled until I got released (btw that was last monday) then yesterday night I had another episode with the shade, it is more aggressive and I 'kinda' saw an eye in the shadow. The pull is stronger and faster, and it's focused on my spiritual throat, then i just knew it was kinda absorbing me (was it?) so i thought, 'no, no, I won't' cuz obviously it wants to take me.
My anxiety is that i dont know if it's one of father's allies or not. Cuz I thought demons would bear a positive, bright aura, those shadows were giving me fear and darkness alone.
I don't know but, do you guys know? are they enemies? Is it just me perceiving them as scary?
I already called help from orobas, but since I cant really communcate with them, I'm not certain that is..
may Satan's light shine in darkness
I'm not an exposed satanist either because everyone (almost) around here are xtians, so they'd probably burn me at stake, if you know what I mean. But I must say that I believe that father Satan would save me from this madness.
ugh so about my problem. I had this almost obe, up to the part where the soul could jump out my body, but these occured unintentionally. Just woke up from a dream then it's a sleep paralysis, the thing is when that happen, there's this dark figure or shadow, i dont know, but it's infront me. The first time it was there I feel like it was pulling my soul out (i'm scared) called father satan for help but the shadow is still there so I just struggled until I got released (btw that was last monday) then yesterday night I had another episode with the shade, it is more aggressive and I 'kinda' saw an eye in the shadow. The pull is stronger and faster, and it's focused on my spiritual throat, then i just knew it was kinda absorbing me (was it?) so i thought, 'no, no, I won't' cuz obviously it wants to take me.
My anxiety is that i dont know if it's one of father's allies or not. Cuz I thought demons would bear a positive, bright aura, those shadows were giving me fear and darkness alone.
I don't know but, do you guys know? are they enemies? Is it just me perceiving them as scary?
I already called help from orobas, but since I cant really communcate with them, I'm not certain that is..
may Satan's light shine in darkness