Childhood

[Baconator Fries]

my grandmother cursed me and my mother when I was a child (she just said I curse you. I don't think she has any superpowers in magic, she's just a terribly toxic energy vampire and crazy. Watching what happens to people around her, I just understand that it's dangerous. She told my grandfather that she would poison him (I heard this when I was 10) and now I continue to suffer from a phobia of poisoning. I lived with her until I was 17 and it was the most terrible time in my life. I got to the point where I became a drug addict because I didn't know how to cope. Literally in 3 years away from her, I began to completely despise drugs and was able to love myself and start to heal. I suffered from terrible social phobia and other shit because she loved to talk bullshit like "what will people say" and other nonsense that I should not give a shit about. my mother set me against my grandmother and my grandmother set me against against my mother throughout my life, as far as I can remember, then they would make up for a couple of months (sometimes weeks) and this fucking circle can't be broken. Because of this, I grew up very anxious. Now I live in a different country from my mother and when I rarely call her, she continues to carry the same bullshit that they made up and now her mother is good or they had a fight and she is shitty again. I consider these two people completely fucked up and dangerous because I am still struggling with their malicious influence on my psyche. Any advice?
I just wanted to talk it out.

 

[Hs666]

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In addition to what you have already done. You must know that normal people do not have any kind of power. When you start the path, your AoP and cleansing work will keep you out of all kinds of such things: Curses, negative energy, evil eye, thought forms, etc.

I recommend you take a look here and do it, this is really underrated, but it is of great importance: Healing the Emotional Body

 

[Baconator Fries]

In addition to what you have already done. You must know that normal people do not have any kind of power. When you start the path, your AoP and cleansing work will keep you out of all kinds of such things: Curses, negative energy, evil eye, thought forms, etc.

I recommend you take a look here and do it, this is really underrated, but it is of great importance: Healing the Emotional Body

I've been doing this for about 7 days and I've become more emotional than usual and I'm thinking too deeply

 

[Baconator Fries]

In addition to what you have already done. You must know that normal people do not have any kind of power. When you start the path, your AoP and cleansing work will keep you out of all kinds of such things: Curses, negative energy, evil eye, thought forms, etc.

I recommend you take a look here and do it, this is really underrated, but it is of great importance: Healing the Emotional Body

this work brings out emotions

 

[Hs666]

I've been doing this for about 7 days and I've become more emotional than usual and I'm thinking too deeply

Keep working on it. You will face yourself, it is inevitable. This will happen anyway, because from yourself you can't escape, but doing it this way is a smart way to do it, and it can prevent bad escalations in the future.

 

[Engineered Trasformation]

I just wanted to talk it out.

I know how this sucks. I think one of the human things the enemy fucked the most is family.
I have seen and lived the worst patterns in family ties, so highly charged with envy, resentment. I was at a funeral and a brother whispered to her sister, at their father's funeral, how to treat papers for money in his inheritance. And a fight started in the subsequent days. Their father was heavily hated because their mother put all the family against him, while he was just a normal man, everyone bashed him and destroyed his self esteem. Just a quick example, I could relate many more.
Distancing from your family is a good choice, provided what you relate here. I'm with you, in a way.
Those patterns are so imbedded in the mind that, in addition to the above mentioned meditation, I suggest self-hypnosis to talk with your inner self (ypu may have more than one, if you suffered heavy trauma), listen to them, and reprogram as needed.