kitmorey819
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i want to share something now because eventhough ive been a Satanist for a long time i really feel safe here with so many knowledgeable people. i havnt told anyone about my past except my husband and 1 close friend. i need to get this off my chest and clear my name to someone.my parents divorced when i was 8 my mother who is of European and Native American blood re-married to a vile disgusting jew. i had liked a few of my mothers boyfriends but i hated this guy at a young age i just knew he was bad news. first there were cars, shopping sprees, big houses, expensive furniture, puppies, vacations, everything. then it stopped.
it got quiet. literally. from that day forward no one spoke to eachother. i have 2 brothers one moved out because he couldnt deal with him the other was counting the days. not one word was said in that house. my "parents" cooked dinner for themselfs or went out to nice restaurants but bought us frozen tv dinners to eat. i walked to school, walked home by the time i got home my stepfather got home and he would lock himself and my mother on one side of the house no one was allowed to be around his wife. no words were spoken it was just understood. i lived in silence and on top of that confinement. there were alarms and locks on every door and window and i was not allowed out in the yard after 5 could not go anywhere but school, was not allowed to see friends or have them come over and if they invited themselves this sick ass hole would call their parents and ask if my friends could cut the lawn and only then could they hang out with me!
the reasoning for this was i was and still am bad at math. i got A's B's in every subject besides math and he didnt trust me because i got into a fight when i was in the 4th grade with a girl on the play ground. so i took care of myself because there was no communication with my "parents" i did my laundry, cooked my food, cleaned my room. (im not sure about my brother though since we didnt talk) BUT he demanded i should take care of him (stating this by telling my mother to tell me then run and hide in their side of the house) i should be doing their laundry too i should be also be cleaning up after their mess. i attempted suicide it sounds stupid but i couldnt handle the confinement any longer. i was 12 (young and stupid) and i took a bottle of pills.after an hour i felt scared i was going to die i panicked i didnt really want to die i just wanted to harm myself. so i banged on their door and next thing i know i was alone in a hospital bed pissing and vomiting on myself with my stomach being pumped full of charcoal. my mother came in later to take a picture of me. evidence that i was crazy.then she left.
it took me 2 weeks to stabilize and a very long stay at a childrens psych ward which my stepfather said i should stay at.my mother became and still is a compulsive liar to cover up for him. i had a diary. i wrote i was alone and sad and my step father found it, took it and since it was written in pencil he erased a line and wrote "i want to cut my parents up in little pieces" i even took a picture of this later because it was clearly and obviously not my handwriting. i went home back to that silent house. i wish someone would have yelled at me at least i would have had some communication. since i was 7 i was deeply interested in witchcraft and so when i was 12 i became a spiritual Satanist but a very misguided one i didnt have much access to JOS and my mind was still polluted with crazy pills and a very polluted aura. so helping myself was difficult. i dont know how else to say this but this is a video of what happened next
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/6677175/ns/ ... PbdS2dYWSo
my step father broke the story to the howard stern show pretending to be our neighbor so he wanted the attention obviously and had my mother completely brainwashed. from the outside it sounds like whiny brats who dont listen to their parents but no one believes the child. this went on for weeks them being outside. since i walked back and forth to school i received death threats i had water thrown on me from cars and a lock down at my school from an unmarked van. the streets were flooded with news vans it was a huge story in our state.teachers hated me called me names they were worse than the kids. a German documentary crew flew in to do a story and made me eat a slice of pizza from the trash, a news woman smeared black stuff on my face after touching my face saying "you poor thing" no one listened to me i could tell the news crew my parents are horrible people and they would print something totally different.
now my mom has had cancer and hepatitis c her health is deteriorating. thankfully she cant have children and he is the last of his family that is alive. now im happy im married to a wonderful man have and i have a new name and we'll be living in Germany in April. ever since i left that house at 17 i had a wonderful life now im 20 but i have accomplished so many things things i never dreamed could happen i live so comfortably thanks to our father Satan. I only wish i was closer to him when things were rough in my childhood. (HUGE SIGH OF RELIEF) i hope this helps anyone going through a tough time especially teens if you have Satan with you during times of need you will get help ALWAYS you will be comforted and loved with him. stay FAR away from jews! HAIL SATAN!
it got quiet. literally. from that day forward no one spoke to eachother. i have 2 brothers one moved out because he couldnt deal with him the other was counting the days. not one word was said in that house. my "parents" cooked dinner for themselfs or went out to nice restaurants but bought us frozen tv dinners to eat. i walked to school, walked home by the time i got home my stepfather got home and he would lock himself and my mother on one side of the house no one was allowed to be around his wife. no words were spoken it was just understood. i lived in silence and on top of that confinement. there were alarms and locks on every door and window and i was not allowed out in the yard after 5 could not go anywhere but school, was not allowed to see friends or have them come over and if they invited themselves this sick ass hole would call their parents and ask if my friends could cut the lawn and only then could they hang out with me!
the reasoning for this was i was and still am bad at math. i got A's B's in every subject besides math and he didnt trust me because i got into a fight when i was in the 4th grade with a girl on the play ground. so i took care of myself because there was no communication with my "parents" i did my laundry, cooked my food, cleaned my room. (im not sure about my brother though since we didnt talk) BUT he demanded i should take care of him (stating this by telling my mother to tell me then run and hide in their side of the house) i should be doing their laundry too i should be also be cleaning up after their mess. i attempted suicide it sounds stupid but i couldnt handle the confinement any longer. i was 12 (young and stupid) and i took a bottle of pills.after an hour i felt scared i was going to die i panicked i didnt really want to die i just wanted to harm myself. so i banged on their door and next thing i know i was alone in a hospital bed pissing and vomiting on myself with my stomach being pumped full of charcoal. my mother came in later to take a picture of me. evidence that i was crazy.then she left.
it took me 2 weeks to stabilize and a very long stay at a childrens psych ward which my stepfather said i should stay at.my mother became and still is a compulsive liar to cover up for him. i had a diary. i wrote i was alone and sad and my step father found it, took it and since it was written in pencil he erased a line and wrote "i want to cut my parents up in little pieces" i even took a picture of this later because it was clearly and obviously not my handwriting. i went home back to that silent house. i wish someone would have yelled at me at least i would have had some communication. since i was 7 i was deeply interested in witchcraft and so when i was 12 i became a spiritual Satanist but a very misguided one i didnt have much access to JOS and my mind was still polluted with crazy pills and a very polluted aura. so helping myself was difficult. i dont know how else to say this but this is a video of what happened next
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/6677175/ns/ ... PbdS2dYWSo
my step father broke the story to the howard stern show pretending to be our neighbor so he wanted the attention obviously and had my mother completely brainwashed. from the outside it sounds like whiny brats who dont listen to their parents but no one believes the child. this went on for weeks them being outside. since i walked back and forth to school i received death threats i had water thrown on me from cars and a lock down at my school from an unmarked van. the streets were flooded with news vans it was a huge story in our state.teachers hated me called me names they were worse than the kids. a German documentary crew flew in to do a story and made me eat a slice of pizza from the trash, a news woman smeared black stuff on my face after touching my face saying "you poor thing" no one listened to me i could tell the news crew my parents are horrible people and they would print something totally different.
now my mom has had cancer and hepatitis c her health is deteriorating. thankfully she cant have children and he is the last of his family that is alive. now im happy im married to a wonderful man have and i have a new name and we'll be living in Germany in April. ever since i left that house at 17 i had a wonderful life now im 20 but i have accomplished so many things things i never dreamed could happen i live so comfortably thanks to our father Satan. I only wish i was closer to him when things were rough in my childhood. (HUGE SIGH OF RELIEF) i hope this helps anyone going through a tough time especially teens if you have Satan with you during times of need you will get help ALWAYS you will be comforted and loved with him. stay FAR away from jews! HAIL SATAN!
