My first summoning experience, i think furfur came

[Diva]

Hi today i did my first summoning
Before i used to overthink all things in the forum but today i felt big urge to experience with our Gods, and i wanted to try even if i am beginner

i chose Furfur even if she is not my guardian demoness, i just felt like it, i draw sigil i do not know if i did it right you will find picture in this thread, i lit whiles candles since i do not have other colours, then i looked at sigil closed eyes and started saying loud furfur furfur furfur furfur and visualising the sigil, after i felt im good, i recited the prayer to Zeus, instead of feeling good to go, i do not know why i felt urge to cry, then i burnt frankincense since it is the only thing i have , and nothing happened, i picked the sigil paper and starting visualising again and saying furfur furfur furfur many times then while eyes closed i started to see pink, i continued i opened eyes i did not see her, i continued then i started feeling like an ant is walking in my crown chakra area, like if i have insect there

I continued looking at sigil, and to visualise better i hold sigil paper up with my hand and looked at it and i close eyes then open when needed and so on, suddenly i felt the paper is being moved, i opened eyes i saw and felt nothing, but when i close eyes i feel the paper moving, i thought it was because i am holding with only one hand two finger, i started holding with both, and continued eyes closed and saying furfur furfur furfur, then the paper clicked and bent a bit on my hand, to discern i opened eyes and looked at paper and waited to see if it will move , but nothing happened, but whenever i close eyes and focus on sigil i feel the paper moving, sometimes it moved continuously to the point i laughed since i thought this is real i felt like if someone if continuously pushing the paper and moving it , the paper felt alive on my hands, my eyes watred i had urge to cry, i thanked furfur so much for making me experience that, i tried again and again and again every single time i felt paper moving

Then i wanted to try something extreme, i put the paper on top of a small box, and said : please please please please please furfur respectivelty, if you want, if you want, just so i can be sure , please please, if you want, this is not a demand , can you move the paper while i am not touching and eyes open, directly instantly in the moment i finished sentence the paper clicked, i felt very weird my eyes watred again and i said oh this is real, i thanked her so much

I asked for same thing again since if it happens second time i will be 100000% sure but she did not do it, i told her it is okay thank you so much , and i picked sigil with both hands and closed eyes and again i feel the paper is alive, it moved a bit , sometimes like if there is a wave of energy in the paper , it doesnt move much, but eyes closed i feel the paper moving , i even once said please can you move the paper more and the paper slept from my fingers a little bit

I forgot a detail, the moment i felt this is real and had eyes watred, i felt pressure on my back, like if someone touched me, but it is not a hand, it is just pressure, i focused on the feeling and i guess it lowered a bit to the middle of my back and stayed there while i am feeling it , i moved forward and backed and felt that the feeling was in the same place where my back is touching the chair , so maybe i just thought that is a touch, but during the touch i really felt a pressure, then i moved forward in chair, and i felt pressure this time in both extremes of my upper back, near arm pit, i continued i hold sigil back, when i do not focus on visualising it it doesnt work or it works just a little, but when i focus on sijil i start feeling the paper moving, last thing i did is asked : please if it is okay i tell that in forum to really verify my experience can you move paper again and i will not doubt it when it happens, and it slept a bit from my finger, so i took it as a yes

I did not know how to end summoning session, i just told her: i do not know how to end ,please respectively i want to tell you i finished, we can end this now i do not know how thank you so much and i estinguished the candles

My question is : is my experience valid? It felt real, but i do not want to end delusional, thank you
Sorry for writing a long message

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Hail Furfur!

 

[Diva]

I could not insert picture, but i just draw the sigil in a normal paper of notebook, not completly white paper, it has the lines etc , and its not a perfect paper either , i cut it from the notebook and its a bit messy, but the sigil looks very beautiful i draw it in blue

 

[Diva]

Please feel free to tell the experience is fake if it is, i am posting this to confirm, not to boost my ego

 

[Diva]

I am very confused summoning ended , i wanted to see eyes closed if i will feel if paper of sigil will move, i still when grab it with both hands it moves, i tried with normal paper, same thing, i feel paper is moving and sometimes i feel it pushes against my finger to the point i feel if i release it will be still sticking to my finger, sometimes its pulled upwards too , is it my subconscious? Since i already ended summoning so furfur is not here

 

[Diva]

Beelzebub summoning:

I did furfur summoning in evening near night, and i couldnt stop myself from doing beelzebub summoning after, i did it, in first summoning i felt playful energy and felt peaceful , but during beelzebub summoning i felt very intense serious vibe, i felt i am doing something very serious to the point i got scared from time to time because of how serious the summoning felt, when i started visualising the sigil, and reciting his name, i felt a liiiittle cute breeze touch my hands before i recited Zeus prayer, is this real? Since the signs should be after not before, Then after the prayer nothing happened, so i closed eyes and continued visualising and reciting his name, and i felt tooo serious to the point i opened eyes many times , i couldnt continue eyes closed i got a bit scared since i felt this is serious not like furfur summoning which felt playful, and i felt the sign this time will be potent not like playful like the signs furfur gave me, i started asking for a sign and waiting, then suddenly the pressure again in same spot, middle of my back spine area, and then i ended summoning, so the pressure on my back i guess is real, i am waiting for your opinion, i really need it
I did not post this yesterday i felt it should stay private but today while thinking of it, i felt again the pressure in middle of my back but softly not like yesterday, and i said in my mind can i share this too in forum ? I heared yes , when i started writing i heard no, then i stoped and thought again then i said to myself loud instead of a thought but in spontaneous way : "take the first yes , the second no is just fear entering your mind and this is your mind making up stuff", and i followed the intuition and i did it.
I do not know how many signs during summoning are needed to confirm what is happening is real 100% and i would love a member to validate or invalidate the two experiences, or to comment on them & give me tips, thank you

 

[EtherealUraeus]

Hi Diva, thank you for sharing your experiences,
It is so great to hear how drawn you are to the Gods and that is a very good feeling to have as a Zevist, as we need our Gods very much and they also want to help us and get to know us.

I do have some points to add though, because we have to approach our Gods with the Highest respect.
Our Gods are very busy and you are right that Summonings are quite serious - the below excerpt is from the Summoning page (https://templeofzeus.org/DEMONOLATRY.php)...

1. It is important to have a specific purpose; know exactly why you are summoning a particular Demon.
2. When we ask assistance from a Demon, it is only proper to offer something in return. Be prepared to give something in return. This is something both you and the Demon should agree upon. Remember, the Elder Gods value one's word, honesty, integrity, and honor as of utmost importance. NEVER agree to anything you know you cannot follow through on. Giving something often involves fighting against the enemy in some way.

There are other ways to get to know the Gods without asking anything of them or possibly even inconveniencing them when you don't need their help with serious matters:
1. You can make prayers to them: Write a message for your GD, and
2. You can read more about them and on the Temple of Zeus website
3. You can also perform God rituals to be closer to them
(Since you mentioned you felt a connection with Furfur, here's a link to HPHC's sermon regarding their God ritual NEW GOD RITUALS LIVE: Lilith, Anubis, Furfur)
4. Meditate every day - The Gods appreciate this the most.

You have to make an effort to empower yourself so that you can be receptive to them when they do visit you. Channel all of your love and curiosity into your meditations and research, because when you are spiritually weak, you are completely cut off from the spiritual world. It's pointless asking for signs when you aren't open to them.

 

[Diva]

Hi Diva, thank you for sharing your experiences,
It is so great to hear how drawn you are to the Gods and that is a very good feeling to have as a Zevist, as we need our Gods very much and they also want to help us and get to know us.

I do have some points to add though, because we have to approach our Gods with the Highest respect.
Our Gods are very busy and you are right that Summonings are quite serious - the below excerpt is from the Summoning page (https://templeofzeus.org/DEMONOLATRY.php)...

1. It is important to have a specific purpose; know exactly why you are summoning a particular Demon.
2. When we ask assistance from a Demon, it is only proper to offer something in return. Be prepared to give something in return. This is something both you and the Demon should agree upon. Remember, the Elder Gods value one's word, honesty, integrity, and honor as of utmost importance. NEVER agree to anything you know you cannot follow through on. Giving something often involves fighting against the enemy in some way.

There are other ways to get to know the Gods without asking anything of them or possibly even inconveniencing them when you don't need their help with serious matters:
1. You can make prayers to them: Write a message for your GD, and
2. You can read more about them and on the Temple of Zeus website
3. You can also perform God rituals to be closer to them
(Since you mentioned you felt a connection with Furfur, here's a link to HPHC's sermon regarding their God ritual NEW GOD RITUALS LIVE: Lilith, Anubis, Furfur)
4. Meditate every day - The Gods appreciate this the most.

You have to make an effort to empower yourself so that you can be receptive to them when they do visit you. Channel all of your love and curiosity into your meditations and research, because when you are spiritually weak, you are completely cut off from the spiritual world. It's pointless asking for signs when you aren't open to them.

Thank you etherealureusI do not know what i can offer to them, do you have ideas? and i do not know how we can agree because i do not hear them.. is there a way around it or i should keep improving until i am able to hear ? The reason for summoning in my case is i felt strongly i should do it, out of nowhere i got big urge and i acted on it and it was to be able to advance in the path, i feel big urge to be in contact with them, i used to be scared before, but i could not stop myself yesterday from trying, i have needs now in my life, but i do not feel need to ask the Gods to help in summoning, besides in prayer as you said, but i feel i should summon to build a relation with them this is my reason i wonder if it is valid, what i used to do before is listen to musics related to the God and focus on their name to feel them, but @Blitzkreig [SG] told me i should use sigil in my previous thread, and this led me to summoning, i did yesterday before the two summonings a ritual, but i felt nothing, besides when i was cleaning aura before ritual, i felt good in a way i never felt before during aura and chakra cleaning, to the point i made sounds unintentionally, sounds of feeling so good, i think you experienced it before during meditation, but i believe this is because i do not know yet how to vibrate runes correctly.. i will advance on meditation and practices too , you are right, it is hard to get sign when one is not spiritually open, thank you
i forgot to mention, yesterday after the 2 summonings when i slept i thought they will visit me in dreams, i slept and i saw a very bad nightmare but i was very productive in the dream, i just kept dealing with everything step by step even when feeling fear or sadness, i did not freakout, girl power