My first summoning experience, i think furfur came

[Diva]

Hi today i did my first summoning
Before i used to overthink all things in the forum but today i felt big urge to experience with our Gods, and i wanted to try even if i am beginner

i chose Furfur even if she is not my guardian demoness, i just felt like it, i draw sigil i do not know if i did it right you will find picture in this thread, i lit whiles candles since i do not have other colours, then i looked at sigil closed eyes and started saying loud furfur furfur furfur furfur and visualising the sigil, after i felt im good, i recited the prayer to Zeus, instead of feeling good to go, i do not know why i felt urge to cry, then i burnt frankincense since it is the only thing i have , and nothing happened, i picked the sigil paper and starting visualising again and saying furfur furfur furfur many times then while eyes closed i started to see pink, i continued i opened eyes i did not see her, i continued then i started feeling like an ant is walking in my crown chakra area, like if i have insect there

I continued looking at sigil, and to visualise better i hold sigil paper up with my hand and looked at it and i close eyes then open when needed and so on, suddenly i felt the paper is being moved, i opened eyes i saw and felt nothing, but when i close eyes i feel the paper moving, i thought it was because i am holding with only one hand two finger, i started holding with both, and continued eyes closed and saying furfur furfur furfur, then the paper clicked and bent a bit on my hand, to discern i opened eyes and looked at paper and waited to see if it will move , but nothing happened, but whenever i close eyes and focus on sigil i feel the paper moving, sometimes it moved continuously to the point i laughed since i thought this is real i felt like if someone if continuously pushing the paper and moving it , the paper felt alive on my hands, my eyes watred i had urge to cry, i thanked furfur so much for making me experience that, i tried again and again and again every single time i felt paper moving

Then i wanted to try something extreme, i put the paper on top of a small box, and said : please please please please please furfur respectivelty, if you want, if you want, just so i can be sure , please please, if you want, this is not a demand , can you move the paper while i am not touching and eyes open, directly instantly in the moment i finished sentence the paper clicked, i felt very weird my eyes watred again and i said oh this is real, i thanked her so much

I asked for same thing again since if it happens second time i will be 100000% sure but she did not do it, i told her it is okay thank you so much , and i picked sigil with both hands and closed eyes and again i feel the paper is alive, it moved a bit , sometimes like if there is a wave of energy in the paper , it doesnt move much, but eyes closed i feel the paper moving , i even once said please can you move the paper more and the paper slept from my fingers a little bit

I forgot a detail, the moment i felt this is real and had eyes watred, i felt pressure on my back, like if someone touched me, but it is not a hand, it is just pressure, i focused on the feeling and i guess it lowered a bit to the middle of my back and stayed there while i am feeling it , i moved forward and backed and felt that the feeling was in the same place where my back is touching the chair , so maybe i just thought that is a touch, but during the touch i really felt a pressure, then i moved forward in chair, and i felt pressure this time in both extremes of my upper back, near arm pit, i continued i hold sigil back, when i do not focus on visualising it it doesnt work or it works just a little, but when i focus on sijil i start feeling the paper moving, last thing i did is asked : please if it is okay i tell that in forum to really verify my experience can you move paper again and i will not doubt it when it happens, and it slept a bit from my finger, so i took it as a yes

I did not know how to end summoning session, i just told her: i do not know how to end ,please respectively i want to tell you i finished, we can end this now i do not know how thank you so much and i estinguished the candles

My question is : is my experience valid? It felt real, but i do not want to end delusional, thank you
Sorry for writing a long message

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Hail Furfur!

 

[Diva]

I could not insert picture, but i just draw the sigil in a normal paper of notebook, not completly white paper, it has the lines etc , and its not a perfect paper either , i cut it from the notebook and its a bit messy, but the sigil looks very beautiful i draw it in blue

 

[Diva]

Please feel free to tell the experience is fake if it is, i am posting this to confirm, not to boost my ego

 

[Diva]

I am very confused summoning ended , i wanted to see eyes closed if i will feel if paper of sigil will move, i still when grab it with both hands it moves, i tried with normal paper, same thing, i feel paper is moving and sometimes i feel it pushes against my finger to the point i feel if i release it will be still sticking to my finger, sometimes its pulled upwards too , is it my subconscious? Since i already ended summoning so furfur is not here

 

[Diva]

Beelzebub summoning:

I did furfur summoning in evening near night, and i couldnt stop myself from doing beelzebub summoning after, i did it, in first summoning i felt playful energy and felt peaceful , but during beelzebub summoning i felt very intense serious vibe, i felt i am doing something very serious to the point i got scared from time to time because of how serious the summoning felt, when i started visualising the sigil, and reciting his name, i felt a liiiittle cute breeze touch my hands before i recited Zeus prayer, is this real? Since the signs should be after not before, Then after the prayer nothing happened, so i closed eyes and continued visualising and reciting his name, and i felt tooo serious to the point i opened eyes many times , i couldnt continue eyes closed i got a bit scared since i felt this is serious not like furfur summoning which felt playful, and i felt the sign this time will be potent not like playful like the signs furfur gave me, i started asking for a sign and waiting, then suddenly the pressure again in same spot, middle of my back spine area, and then i ended summoning, so the pressure on my back i guess is real, i am waiting for your opinion, i really need it
I did not post this yesterday i felt it should stay private but today while thinking of it, i felt again the pressure in middle of my back but softly not like yesterday, and i said in my mind can i share this too in forum ? I heared yes , when i started writing i heard no, then i stoped and thought again then i said to myself loud instead of a thought but in spontaneous way : "take the first yes , the second no is just fear entering your mind and this is your mind making up stuff", and i followed the intuition and i did it.
I do not know how many signs during summoning are needed to confirm what is happening is real 100% and i would love a member to validate or invalidate the two experiences, or to comment on them & give me tips, thank you