always_late4dinner
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I was raised as a Jehovah's Witness for ... well, pretty much all my life. I never knew about Joy of Satan until I watched this Youtube Video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cqi5F5MqqTQ and a commenter had posted joyofsatan.org. I went, out of curiosity (I originally thought it was more about the video lol) but, I had free time on my hands today, as I called in sick from work (weird bug going around, and it HURTS! .<) Anyway, the boyfriend isn't home so I've spent a good ... 2 and a half hours just reading through the vast amount of information on this website. To be honest, it makes sense, but part of me is still unsure about it (possibly from how I was raised. I don't know). But I do want to believe in it. It sounds weird, but I never really bought into the teachings in the Kingdom Hall. The Elders were strange, and the people there are very catty. My mother got disfellowshiped because she put me on 'the pill', due to ... well, bad woman issues, and even though it was for a medical issue, they said it was bad parenting on her part, because it gave me more of a reason to have sex as I wouldn't get caught or get pregnant or something like that. I don't know, I was young. But that's pretty much the gyst of it. Once she was disfellowshiped, all of our friends turned their back to us. Mother was very hurt from this, and called the organization a cult. I can see what she means now, as they used fear to keep us there. I never was truly into it, but I only went because I didn't want to die indefinitely. I could tell you more about it, but considering how everyone pretty much hates Jehovah, I can only assume you all know everything about it, and what it's like during 'meetings'.
Anyway, EVERYTHING on joyofsatan is ... well, totally opposite of what I've been taught (and what I've been taught to believe). I would personally like to know more about Satan before I actually go through with this (for instance, he created us? I thought Jehovah did? And, hell is real? I was told from the Kingdom Hall that Hell didn't exist, and that Satan walks the Earth in the form of a human being? But the priests from joyofsatan said they've seen hell ... I'm so confused). If someone could kind of explain some of this to me, I'll try to wrap my head around this. I don't exactly want to pledge myself to Satan until I know everything first, cuz I'd assume that'd be a little rude to Lucifer if I decide to follow him and I don't know anything about him, you know? Besides, I kind of have the same mindset as an Athiest; if you can't see it, then it's not real. I've never seen an angel OR Jehovah or Jesus (... obviously lol). But people say they've seen demons and Satan himself ... will I see them too? I'd at least like to know something before I do this, as I'm unsure if this is bullshit or not, and if it IS, I'm gonna look pretty stupid to Jehovah ... I mean, if he's even real. Thanks again, sorry for the long post, but this is just how I talk lol.
Anyway, EVERYTHING on joyofsatan is ... well, totally opposite of what I've been taught (and what I've been taught to believe). I would personally like to know more about Satan before I actually go through with this (for instance, he created us? I thought Jehovah did? And, hell is real? I was told from the Kingdom Hall that Hell didn't exist, and that Satan walks the Earth in the form of a human being? But the priests from joyofsatan said they've seen hell ... I'm so confused). If someone could kind of explain some of this to me, I'll try to wrap my head around this. I don't exactly want to pledge myself to Satan until I know everything first, cuz I'd assume that'd be a little rude to Lucifer if I decide to follow him and I don't know anything about him, you know? Besides, I kind of have the same mindset as an Athiest; if you can't see it, then it's not real. I've never seen an angel OR Jehovah or Jesus (... obviously lol). But people say they've seen demons and Satan himself ... will I see them too? I'd at least like to know something before I do this, as I'm unsure if this is bullshit or not, and if it IS, I'm gonna look pretty stupid to Jehovah ... I mean, if he's even real. Thanks again, sorry for the long post, but this is just how I talk lol.