greysama86
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- Dec 10, 2007
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Hello to you all!
First I wanna let you know that English is not my first language so if something sounds "off" that is probably the cause.
I wanted to write this message especially for those that, like me, are just starting with this new way of living and are kind of struggling with all the new activities (meditation, visualization, etc.)
--- Background: You can skip it if you are in a hurry ---
I wanted to let you know that I have been very skeptical all my life, I WAS a PROUD atheist (silly me jaja) and I used to have small disputes with my believers friends because of my jokes about their religions (I wasn't actually wrong about those xD). As an atheist I had a serious issue with the concept of "FAITH" but since I DO care about my friends I wanted to understand them (not to share their faith, just to understand why they had it and why it was so important to them). So one day I began to research about religions. Now, in perspective, I think that I was just trying to find what I was missing...
One day, surfing on the web, I found Joy of Satan. I read some articles and found them very interesting, but after 5 or 6 articles I just kept on with my daily activities.
It was like 4 o 5 years later that, talking with a friend, I recalled some things that I had read in JoS. So once I got the chance, I found the site again and gave it another try.
In less than a week I was a believer myself and I performed the Dedication Ritual.
--- Actual Message: THIS IS THE IMPORTANT PART ---
When I performed the Dedication Ritual I was, like probably most of you, as open (spiritually speaking) as a ROCK... a really hard one actually. I still am (I've got A LITTLE softer tho). I can't sense almost anything and I have SERIOUS difficulties trying to visualize anything for more than 10 or 20 seconds without having it mutated in something else against my will (basically my mind does whatever it wants).
I AM NOT COMPLAINING!!! I am just describing my struggles so others new to this might see that it's not only them.
So, why am I writing this? Because I KNOW that it IS very frustrating... But I also KNOW that If you think you are all alone, just struggling for nothing or that you can't feel your Guardian Demon because Father has not accepted you... YOU ARE WRONG!!! JUST PLAIN WRONG!!! In fact, you probably haven't been more wrong in all your life... (sorry, but it HAD to be said).
I want to give you a little advice: Look for small things. Things that might just be "coincidence". Just notice them, take a mental note. A weird dream, a message in this list that is JUST what you where looking for, something you say without thinking that just happens to be what you needed to hear, stuff like that. Do it for a little while... and count them. They are a little to many to be just coincidences, aren't them?
Father and the Demons are there with you, even if you cant feel them.
They show you their presence in more than one way, but you must be looking for those sings and you must be willing to see them for what they are.
As I said before, I still can't hear them, or see them. The only thing I am actually able to do is to feel energy and even with that I am not always certain of what or who is the source. But... EVERY TIME I have a doubt about why somethings happens, or why I can't do something, or whatever... I just check this Group, and the answer is already there, in the first page, waiting for me to read it. That is the way Father and the Gods speak to me. Though all of you (and of course THANK YOU ALL VERY MUCH!!). That is also why I wanted to write this.
Of course, it might be different for you. Maybe you will find Fathers answers in your friends, or your family, or maybe even inside your head... I really don't know... but I DO KNOW Father and the Gods are speaking to you, you just have to actually listen.
Have a great day!
Hail Satan!!!
First I wanna let you know that English is not my first language so if something sounds "off" that is probably the cause.
I wanted to write this message especially for those that, like me, are just starting with this new way of living and are kind of struggling with all the new activities (meditation, visualization, etc.)
--- Background: You can skip it if you are in a hurry ---
I wanted to let you know that I have been very skeptical all my life, I WAS a PROUD atheist (silly me jaja) and I used to have small disputes with my believers friends because of my jokes about their religions (I wasn't actually wrong about those xD). As an atheist I had a serious issue with the concept of "FAITH" but since I DO care about my friends I wanted to understand them (not to share their faith, just to understand why they had it and why it was so important to them). So one day I began to research about religions. Now, in perspective, I think that I was just trying to find what I was missing...
One day, surfing on the web, I found Joy of Satan. I read some articles and found them very interesting, but after 5 or 6 articles I just kept on with my daily activities.
It was like 4 o 5 years later that, talking with a friend, I recalled some things that I had read in JoS. So once I got the chance, I found the site again and gave it another try.
In less than a week I was a believer myself and I performed the Dedication Ritual.
--- Actual Message: THIS IS THE IMPORTANT PART ---
When I performed the Dedication Ritual I was, like probably most of you, as open (spiritually speaking) as a ROCK... a really hard one actually. I still am (I've got A LITTLE softer tho). I can't sense almost anything and I have SERIOUS difficulties trying to visualize anything for more than 10 or 20 seconds without having it mutated in something else against my will (basically my mind does whatever it wants).
I AM NOT COMPLAINING!!! I am just describing my struggles so others new to this might see that it's not only them.
So, why am I writing this? Because I KNOW that it IS very frustrating... But I also KNOW that If you think you are all alone, just struggling for nothing or that you can't feel your Guardian Demon because Father has not accepted you... YOU ARE WRONG!!! JUST PLAIN WRONG!!! In fact, you probably haven't been more wrong in all your life... (sorry, but it HAD to be said).
I want to give you a little advice: Look for small things. Things that might just be "coincidence". Just notice them, take a mental note. A weird dream, a message in this list that is JUST what you where looking for, something you say without thinking that just happens to be what you needed to hear, stuff like that. Do it for a little while... and count them. They are a little to many to be just coincidences, aren't them?
Father and the Demons are there with you, even if you cant feel them.
They show you their presence in more than one way, but you must be looking for those sings and you must be willing to see them for what they are.
As I said before, I still can't hear them, or see them. The only thing I am actually able to do is to feel energy and even with that I am not always certain of what or who is the source. But... EVERY TIME I have a doubt about why somethings happens, or why I can't do something, or whatever... I just check this Group, and the answer is already there, in the first page, waiting for me to read it. That is the way Father and the Gods speak to me. Though all of you (and of course THANK YOU ALL VERY MUCH!!). That is also why I wanted to write this.
Of course, it might be different for you. Maybe you will find Fathers answers in your friends, or your family, or maybe even inside your head... I really don't know... but I DO KNOW Father and the Gods are speaking to you, you just have to actually listen.
Have a great day!
Hail Satan!!!
