damn it this stupid voice in my head keeps shouting insults about en

[deathkillxx]

something has been bugging me intentionally nagging insults about anyone i choose to care about (enki included) just to pick on me
it claims its my own soul it behaves similar to how i behave but it is all twisted

nagging insulting

much like a bully trying to piss a weak nerd on purpose
it says

i will stay here and bug you as long as i want there is nothing you can do you cant do shit

i start to think about good things about enki then this voice begins yelling at me enkis an idiot he dont know shit (whatever voice is shouting at me is not my own it cant be i even got the honor to meet enki once even feel his energy hes real he exists i know i can trust him somehow despite my built up well of doubt and i feel hes very wise unlike this voice shouting at me is saying)

i am not an idiot i know for a fact enki clearly knows far more then i or anyone in this group perhaps may know i mean hes the one who got joy of satan started right

i keep telling this thing in me to shut up it refuses and tries to tell me to shut up myself

what is this thing on occasion it has been able to get me to do things against my will by exploiting my emotions then hitching a ride on them
it comes and goes

gives off intense rage and black energy then throws it at me then seems to cast all sort of net like lines all over me then leaves when someone tries to catch it in the act

so far i have found the part of me it is using to stay in me

it appears to be a dense thick but small black ball in me right next to a bright white ball in me

these two orbs of energy in me seem to argue at each other all the time fighting one another

the location i have managed to identify these energys in me

is near my heart chakra

the lil center energy part of me

they seem to be literally fighting over my chakra centers

the black one keeps trying to force negative energy into me and bitches at the white one and the white one keeps struggling to clean the mess up while demanding the black one stops

they argue fight and bitch continuously this black thing in me has managed to deceive many who have attempted to help me and used me to trick them
its only recently i managed to pinpoint it

if it really is part of me then i think i may have something similar to a doppleganger in me

one of those things that is pretty much just an evil copy of someone else

if anyone can help me deal with this it would be nice
(i also been looking for a new teacher to teach me this satanic stuff all i got are xian brain washed mentors who think they know it alls)

ok i think it stopped yelling at me but this thing in me has been made aware to me for the last 3 days and it refuses to go away i have noticed beings would show up to get rid of it but later on it just seems to come back

it is gone but appears to have taken some energy of mine with it i feel like i been well i feel like i don't have any care anymore (that is the wrong words probably but i never been that good with words at certain times like this)

 

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hey dude this is whats called internal struggle. The best thing you can do is sit by yourself and ask it to manifest itself or ask it talk to you. Slowly hear its reasons and what it wants to do. then write everything down. When you finally write everything down. Analyse the reasons and write down is it logical or not what it says. When you have analyse everything and confirm it bullshit you can silence it with confidence. The white or black thing is nothing but your imagination. White is not good black is not bad they are both a voice of reason inside all of us and you have given them a color.

 

[hamie120]

It's not neccessarily just an 'internal struggle'. Ever heard of Clairaudience? I am a clairaudient myself (look it up in JOS in the Witchcraft or Meditation pages), and you can either HEAR voices with your external ears or your internal ears, through your mind. I hear the voices in my head, and it can be Demons (guardians or other demons you call up in rituals), Spirits on a plane of existance close to yours, or even ANGELS. You have to be careful. This voice can be your own mind, if it sounds like it's coming from you, but if you hear a voice that is louder than your own mind, it's likely something else. You may be thinking something about the day you've had so far in a quiet place, and all of a sudden your thoughts are like echoes in your mind, and another voice (one that you can hear gender, emotions (angry, sad, happy...), and even accents. I have never heard gender or emotions in my thoughts, but other voices that go through my head are very expressive. Keep an eye on the details of the voices going through your head. Do a Void Meditation to get rid of the voices, or try to create a mental block (I prefer a doorway, I can only hear the voices while the door is open.) to keep your mind to yourself.

Developing your mental abilities is the fund of Spiritual Satanism.

 

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Ok i dont know much about clairaudience or anything the most important is to know what it really is and stop finger pointing. Use whatever method use self examining and whatever but remember you must know something to fix something. Ive been around magick almost all my life so in magick nothing is as it seems if something that seems to help can actually destroy. So understanding is the most first step to anything. Have you ever wondered why when everyone claims to talk to Satan different people seem to say different things. THINK OF IT WHY!!

Its not stupidity but ignorance that harms people. A stupid man can always learn but an ignorant man will decay in his own bubble.

Hail Satan

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "hamie120" <hamie120@... wrote:

It's not neccessarily just an 'internal struggle'. Ever heard of Clairaudience? I am a clairaudient myself (look it up in JOS in the Witchcraft or Meditation pages), and you can either HEAR voices with your external ears or your internal ears, through your mind. I hear the voices in my head, and it can be Demons (guardians or other demons you call up in rituals), Spirits on a plane of existance close to yours, or even ANGELS. You have to be careful. This voice can be your own mind, if it sounds like it's coming from you, but if you hear a voice that is louder than your own mind, it's likely something else. You may be thinking something about the day you've had so far in a quiet place, and all of a sudden your thoughts are like echoes in your mind, and another voice (one that you can hear gender, emotions (angry, sad, happy...), and even accents. I have never heard gender or emotions in my thoughts, but other voices that go through my head are very expressive. Keep an eye on the details of the voices going through your head. Do a Void Meditation to get rid of the voices, or try to create a mental block (I prefer a doorway, I can only hear the voices while the door is open.) to keep your mind to yourself.

Developing your mental abilities is the fund of Spiritual Satanism.

 

[Tabitha Hamelin]

Do u think that I am finger pointing? What am I pointing fingers at? Do you see demons, or even Father Satan? THAT IS CALLED CLAIRVOYANCE. Can you hear, physically, your Guardian Demon or Father SATAN? THAT IS CALLED CLAIRAUDIENCE. Can you feel, physically feel, your Guardian Demon , or father when either of them are guiding you or consoling you when something goes wrong? THAT IS CLAIRSENTIENCE. For you to just IMMEDIATELY write this off as nothing more than his mind is very short-sighted and ignorant of you. I recommend researching a bit before being an amateur psychologist. I don't care how long you've been a satanist, if you are still here, obviously, you still have a bit to learn, or else you would have reached the GOD-HEAS BY NOW!

HAIL SATAN!!!

-----Original Message-----
From: "shon_666@..." <shon_666@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: 15/09/09 3:39 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: damn it this stupid voice in my head keeps shouting insults about enki

Ok i dont know much about clairaudience or anything the most important is to know what it really is and stop finger pointing. Use whatever method use self examining and whatever but remember you must know something to fix something. Ive been around magick almost all my life so in magick nothing is as it seems if something that seems to help can actually destroy. So understanding is the most first step to anything. Have you ever wondered why when everyone claims to talk to Satan different people seem to say different things. THINK OF IT WHY!!

Its not stupidity but ignorance that harms people. A stupid man can always learn but an ignorant man will decay in his own bubble.

Hail Satan



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