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I know I can’t change my life, and I know that overthinking doesn’t help, but I can’t stop wondering what things would be like if they were different. I’ve known this girl for a long time, and she seems to have everything. She’s tall, has a beautiful body, is the beauty queen of our state, has long wavy hair, is naturally gorgeous, plays several instruments, is rich, and doesn’t even need to work. Now she’s dating a very wealthy guy from my city.
I know she’s a different race than me (she’s Black and I’m white), but I can’t help thinking how lucky I would be if I had been born like her, living her life. I’m short, I don’t know how to play any instruments even though I’ve always wanted to, but my parents never had the money for that — and when they did, they invested in my siblings, not in me. I tried to learn what I could online, but it never went beyond what anyone else could easily pick up.
I have to work hard for everything I want, and I don’t have the best body or the most beautiful face. In other words, everything just feels miserable sometimes. I even end up hating myself because part of me feels like it’s somehow my fault. I’ve become a withdrawn person. I can’t seem to have big ambitions anymore — just the hope of living a life without constant stress and anxiety, being able to afford the basics. I keep telling myself that I deserve good things, but deep down, I don’t really believe it.
I just wanted to let this out somewhere, because I know I can’t snap my fingers and change everything — and even if magic were real, that wouldn’t guarantee miracles either.
I know she’s a different race than me (she’s Black and I’m white), but I can’t help thinking how lucky I would be if I had been born like her, living her life. I’m short, I don’t know how to play any instruments even though I’ve always wanted to, but my parents never had the money for that — and when they did, they invested in my siblings, not in me. I tried to learn what I could online, but it never went beyond what anyone else could easily pick up.
I have to work hard for everything I want, and I don’t have the best body or the most beautiful face. In other words, everything just feels miserable sometimes. I even end up hating myself because part of me feels like it’s somehow my fault. I’ve become a withdrawn person. I can’t seem to have big ambitions anymore — just the hope of living a life without constant stress and anxiety, being able to afford the basics. I keep telling myself that I deserve good things, but deep down, I don’t really believe it.
I just wanted to let this out somewhere, because I know I can’t snap my fingers and change everything — and even if magic were real, that wouldn’t guarantee miracles either.