Mantennos informados, ¡buena suerte!

Hello! It's been a few days now. Lately, I've been feeling more stable, eating more soups, especially chicken soups! I can walk and move around a little more now, and most importantly, I've had a lot of "revelations," so to speak. It's as if I'm more aware of my mistakes and have discovered many bad habits I had and still have, which I started correcting about two days ago.
For example, I've been eating lying down for a year and a few months because it was the easiest way to digest and didn't use as much energy. Two days ago, I tried eating sitting down, and wow! It was the worst. Nausea, horrible discomfort, and terrible anxiety, in addition to indigestion.
Then I realized I had to correct it. So I continue to eat lying down, but every three days I stand up a little more. When I'm completely upright, I sit in a chair. I think it's the best option if I want to eat without discomfort.
The second is that my body is completely inactive. I did the stomach kundalini, and the second step completely destroyed me. My bowel went crazy and started passing gas, which made me have to go to the bathroom, and it was a terrible pain. Oh my goodness, I was terrible all day, and my bowel is still sensitive.
So I think I'll put these exercises aside for now and focus on Hatha yoga, since I can do some of them normally, and I feel like if I keep at it, I'll be more active after a month. Talking also tires me out. A few weeks ago I did a ritual to Father Satan, and just reciting all the runes not only left me exhausted all day, but I even had trouble breathing. So I'll have to do this rune thing when my body is more active and I have my probiotics and gut flora under control. And the hardest part, the anxiety, I'd say it's the hardest because when guests come over, even if I don't think about it, it attacks me, makes me uncomfortable, makes me overthink, etc. A few days ago, a friend came to see me, and I got angry because my body interpreted it as a threat. It tensed up and made me feel bad. I've never considered my friend to be bad because he's been so supportive, and that's what I hate about myself: dwelling on silly thoughts and not being able to find solutions, unlike others.
I know these seem like obvious things, and they are, but when you constantly think about pain and discomfort, you become "blinded," so to speak, and you don't see other ways or perspectives.
I'm not sure if it was the Zevistans who performed the Valefor ritual (if it was, I'm very grateful to them because they made me see all the bad things) and gave me many ideas for change. Thank you so much!
También iba a recomendar kombucha y kéfir. Son muy buenos. El kéfir también te ayudará a subir de peso. Puedes hacer kombucha en casa; mi madre lo hacía hace años y es bastante fácil. Solo asegúrate de que no se formen otras cosas, como moho.
Recomiendo comprar kombucha y verterla en la mezcla de té y azúcar para iniciar el nuevo lote. Si tienes una buena base como esta, será mucho menos probable que crezcan bacterias dañinas, ya que las cepas probióticas de la kombucha que añadas tendrán una base mucho más fuerte que superará a cualquier otra. Una vez iniciada, puedes seguir haciendo nuevos lotes con la base que ya tienes.
Un suplemento diario de magnesio también es importante para todos, ya que la mayoría de las personas presentan una deficiencia grave de magnesio. El magnesio también se utiliza en los intestinos, y verá que el suplemento también favorece la digestión.
Todas estas cosas tienen solución. Nunca dudes de que siempre hay una manera de resolver cualquier problema, y el camino puede aparecer incluso si antes no lo creías posible. Los médicos están entrenados para pensar solo en pastillas, medicamentos o cirugías, pero esas no son la solución a un problema como este. Los alimentos y bebidas probióticos podrán curarte. Puedes beber kombucha todos los días y te sentirás mejor. Es muy económica si la preparas tú mismo y puedes preparar un galón o más de una vez, que estará lista en unas dos semanas. Recomiendo beberla con pajita porque puede ser muy ácida y perjudicial para los dientes.
Hi! I asked all my contacts if they had kefir. I'm currently taking probiotics prescribed by a doctor... I think they've helped. But, even though it's not the best, I have some lactose- and gluten-free kefir yogurt my parents bought from the supermarket. So I thought I'd try it next week while I look for natural kefir. Even if it's not the best, it's something.
Can you ask your doctor ( general practitioner) to give you some infusion with vitamins and minerals? It should not cost much, in my country is really cheap or free if you have any kind of insurance. This would give your body nutrients you need. And if you can, spend your time in sunshine at least couple of minutes a day if possible. Morning sunshine is the best. Sun gives life, give it a try, breathe it in.

but it could be a good idea to ask some doctor about the infusion...
Just today, I went to see the nutritionist I had an appointment with. I mustered up my courage and, feeling nauseous, went, and... it turned out the trip had been for nothing because they were charging me an exorbitant amount just for the consultation. Plus, in my country they have discounts for doctor visits, but they turned me down. They wanted to charge me and not give me the discount. So I told my mom we should go home; I felt terrible on the way home and I consider it a wasted trip. However, afterward, I received a call from the doctor I went to the first time, saying they would give me a free consultation with a nutritionist because they saw I was terrible, and that it would be on October 8th. So, in the meantime, I'm going to start adding oatmeal to my diet and more cooked fruits, to see which ones are easier to digest and all that. Adding a supplement knowing that I have a sensitive digestive system can be risky, so while I wait, I'll add foods that can give me some of those nutrients.
Thank you all for your messages and support, and of course, for your valuable advice. Thank you so much, and I will continue fighting to live. I will overcome everything, I will endure more pain, but in the end, I firmly believe I will pull through and be able to walk by your side and continue with you in the rituals I had to abandon for my health.
I will comment on my progress as I go, so I hope it doesn't sound shameless, but I will ask for more advice from time to time
