My spiritual journey has been going OK, ups and downs. I have been meditating twice per day, I think in the past several weeks I only missed 1 session (due to being extremely tired and falling asleep). This is a level of consistency I've never maintained before. And I've been staying sober.

Things are still really hard and many times I've contemplated going back to drugs and just living on the streets. I don't want to get a job and live in normie society, as people have never liked me much and I feel unwanted wherever I am. My life is still really messed up and I have a lot of serious problems, mental and otherwise. I'm really trying to keep it together, though, for 2 reasons: I still love my immediate family and don't want to hurt them more, and my duty/sense of purpose as a Zevist. I still struggle with the last one, though. Some days I question if I have a vocation on this path or not. But I am going to try. My gratitude as always to those who maintain and protect the Temple.

Tomorrow is a Full Moon in Sagittarius. This is a great time to begin a working for money, health, education, or anything relating to White magick. Make sure to check for the VoC which begins 4.5 hours after the height of the full phase.

Nemesis, Kosmike Nemesis, Keeper of the Universal Scales!
I look at Hypatia and my heart is drenched in blood
Direct your wrath against all injustice
Crush the head of Izfet with those who alongside it
Let the hearts of all varvarim be drenched in blood just as mine is
Multiply their suffering! let them choke in theirs own entropy which swallows them up in their own cycle of grief!

Pleasant Nemesis, defender of the righteous, lighten my burden, cleanse me of adversity, and bring Maat into my live!
Establish an unshakable balance, and may it serve all who stand under the gaze of the Gods
Blessed are the righteous and cursed are those who come against us
Adrasteia! When your anger burns inside me! I feel truly alive!
You fill my flesh with righteous wrath, against which our enemies have no argument
Thank you for showing the way to order and justice!
Beautiful! In all her righteous wrath!

When your restless gaze watch us unseen, I ask humble in awe:
Who dares to raise a hand against us when the sword of justice cuts off the palm of all evil?

If you ever find yourself faced with an easily solvable problem, and you know it to be so then solve the problem or issue. I say this because if one allows problem after problem to continue building up in our lives this can result in a state of inaction that we refer to as stagnation. Now this might not seem so bad at first to you, but this can quickly spiral out of control and cause you to think it is an impossibility. This level of inaction can then transfer over to other facets of your life, such as love, financial opportunities you name it. We are meant to seek adversity in life yes, but do not allow so much of it into your like that it overwhelms you. So I ask you Zevist Family, if you have a problem you know you can solve today, then take the action required and make it happen. Do not allow inaction to transform into an unbearable burden for you.