suicidical thoughts

[marshjohn30]

Getting suicidical,,My Life is getting more worse than it was before. Im giving up,cant see any hope,feels like this is it. I m useless if i had a gun i would have shot all of my family now.im kinda suffered from social phobia too at my place there is no facility to get rid of this problem.

 

[Brian Gibbons]

Suicide is never the answer.Sometimes we just have to hold on,until things get better.The great thing about change is,it always comes and then everything seems better.The enemy is attacking very strong right now.So don't give in to those thoughts,just do your meditations,and trust that Father knows where you are.You are not alone,but the Gods are with you.
 Hail Satan
Brian 
"I will crush Christianity under my boot like a poisonous toad." - Adolf Hitler

From: marshjohn30 <marshjohn30@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Friday, March 2, 2012 1:29 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] suicidical thoughts

  Getting suicidical,,My Life is getting more worse than it was before. Im giving up,cant see any hope,feels like this is it. I m useless if i had a gun i would have shot all of my family now.im kinda suffered from social phobia too at my place there is no facility to get rid of this problem.

 

[kokabiel24]

Brian is right--also, do you know what I've found was the best remedy for my own depression? Rolling up my sleeves and doing Satan's work. You have the internet, right? So do some studying--who knows what you might learn, and what it might prompt you to do later on? Do something creative--that's of Satan too. Learn something new; something that interests you; study aliens or anything! It will get your focus off of yourself, if you think instead about doing something for others instead, like Satan, or something for humanity. And it's okay to be anti-social--some of the best ideas come to you in isolation. But as Brian said, you're not alone--you are NEVER alone--the Gods are real, and they care about you...talk to them. But don't give up and kill yourself--you will only be pushing the re-set button; you have THIS life, Satan put you here for a reason--so make the best of it. It's hard, but you can do it--start with little steps... And FUCK those people in your life trying to hold you down--just curse them; if I can survive my stepmother, I think I can survive anything...so can you. You have the advantage of Satan's power...here's an idea--have you ever studied the Satanic Keys? If you can afford it, it's not that expensive, it's available from the JOS on-line store, you can buy the book and it comes with a pronunciation CD, learn THAT--it's awesome! And you can feel the power...makes for some amazing rituals...or go and make a pizza, for the love of Satan, there's SO much to live for...

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@... wrote:

Suicide is never the answer.Sometimes we just have to hold on,until things get better.The great thing about change is,it always comes and then everything seems better.The enemy is attacking very strong right now.So don't give in to those thoughts,just do your meditations,and trust that Father knows where you are.You are not alone,but the Gods are with you.

 
Hail Satan
Brian 
"I will crush Christianity under my boot like a poisonous toad." - Adolf Hitler


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From: marshjohn30 <marshjohn30@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Friday, March 2, 2012 1:29 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] suicidical thoughts


 
Getting suicidical,,My Life is getting more worse than it was before. Im giving up,cant see any hope,feels like this is it. I m useless if i had a gun i would have shot all of my family now.im kinda suffered from social phobia too at my place there is no facility to get rid of this problem.

 

[marollbee]

hello
how how are u doing brain i am wiating for u respond

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@... wrote:

Suicide is never the answer.Sometimes we just have to hold on,until things get better.The great thing about change is,it always comes and then everything seems better.The enemy is attacking very strong right now.So don't give in to those thoughts,just do your meditations,and trust that Father knows where you are.You are not alone,but the Gods are with you.

 
Hail Satan
Brian 
"I will crush Christianity under my boot like a poisonous toad." - Adolf Hitler


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From: marshjohn30 <marshjohn30@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Friday, March 2, 2012 1:29 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] suicidical thoughts


 
Getting suicidical,,My Life is getting more worse than it was before. Im giving up,cant see any hope,feels like this is it. I m useless if i had a gun i would have shot all of my family now.im kinda suffered from social phobia too at my place there is no facility to get rid of this problem.

 

[Brian Gibbons]

I wish that name fit but I assure you it doesn't. LOL
 Hail Satan
Brian 
"I will crush Christianity under my boot like a poisonous toad." - Adolf Hitler

From: marollbee <marollbee@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Friday, March 2, 2012 11:31 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: suicidical thoughts

  hello
how how are u doing brain i am wiating for u respond
--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@... wrote:

Suicide is never the answer.Sometimes we just have to hold on,until things get better.The great thing about change is,it always comes and then everything seems better.The enemy is attacking very strong right now.So don't give in to those thoughts,just do your meditations,and trust that Father knows where you are.You are not alone,but the Gods are with you.

 
Hail Satan
Brian 
"I will crush Christianity under my boot like a poisonous toad." - Adolf Hitler


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From: marshjohn30 <marshjohn30@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Friday, March 2, 2012 1:29 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] suicidical thoughts


 
Getting suicidical,,My Life is getting more worse than it was before. Im giving up,cant see any hope,feels like this is it. I m useless if i had a gun i would have shot all of my family now.im kinda suffered from social phobia too at my place there is no facility to get rid of this problem.

 

[Noromi Ol Enki]

If I may? I'm an under study Clinical Psychologist, Can I help? Perhaps we should talk, I assure you I will put any like thoughts in you . May I email you? Will you give me a Chance?

 

[Fabien]

If it is all or part of your family that you problem, then one of the best solutions is to emotionally detach from them. It is essential to know that you are not responsible for their emotions, even if what they say affect you you should not get involved emotionally in their emotions to themselves. Then, for you hold on to life, you have several options: go out with my friends, or acquaintances, or while meditating (do meditation, zen your work, your sense of peace, perspective), or go outside alone if you suffering from social phobia, even one in search of a focus (potentially any), provided that it helps you to detach yourself emotionally from the grip of your parents ...

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "marshjohn30" <marshjohn30@... wrote:

Getting suicidical,,My Life is getting more worse than it was before. Im giving up,cant see any hope,feels like this is it. I m useless if i had a gun i would have shot all of my family now.im kinda suffered from social phobia too at my place there is no facility to get rid of this problem.

 

[carlislerothstein]

If you go suicidal, you'd die without seeing the advent. It all happens this year. If you'd die, you'll either be stuck spiritually (or eaten by the enemies, not literally) and if and only if you'd reincarnate, it's too late the war has been fought and you didn't played your part

Think, real satanists value life

 

[darrklady13]

Killing yourself out of depression isn't the answer.

You will only have to come back again, and maybe even in WORSE circumstances then you are now.

Whatever lessons you need to learn, best to work on them now, that you are here...(sucks sometimes I know) then doing it again in a future lifetime.

hailz

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "kokabiel24" <moonshadow48@... wrote:

Brian is right--also, do you know what I've found was the best remedy for my own depression? Rolling up my sleeves and doing Satan's work. You have the internet, right? So do some studying--who knows what you might learn, and what it might prompt you to do later on? Do something creative--that's of Satan too. Learn something new; something that interests you; study aliens or anything! It will get your focus off of yourself, if you think instead about doing something for others instead, like Satan, or something for humanity. And it's okay to be anti-social--some of the best ideas come to you in isolation. But as Brian said, you're not alone--you are NEVER alone--the Gods are real, and they care about you...talk to them. But don't give up and kill yourself--you will only be pushing the re-set button; you have THIS life, Satan put you here for a reason--so make the best of it. It's hard, but you can do it--start with little steps... And FUCK those people in your life trying to hold you down--just curse them; if I can survive my stepmother, I think I can survive anything...so can you. You have the advantage of Satan's power...here's an idea--have you ever studied the Satanic Keys? If you can afford it, it's not that expensive, it's available from the JOS on-line store, you can buy the book and it comes with a pronunciation CD, learn THAT--it's awesome! And you can feel the power...makes for some amazing rituals...or go and make a pizza, for the love of Satan, there's SO much to live for...

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@ wrote:

Suicide is never the answer.Sometimes we just have to hold on,until things get better.The great thing about change is,it always comes and then everything seems better.The enemy is attacking very strong right now.So don't give in to those thoughts,just do your meditations,and trust that Father knows where you are.You are not alone,but the Gods are with you.

 
Hail Satan
Brian 
"I will crush Christianity under my boot like a poisonous toad." - Adolf Hitler


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From: marshjohn30 <marshjohn30@
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Friday, March 2, 2012 1:29 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] suicidical thoughts


 
Getting suicidical,,My Life is getting more worse than it was before. Im giving up,cant see any hope,feels like this is it. I m useless if i had a gun i would have shot all of my family now.im kinda suffered from social phobia too at my place there is no facility to get rid of this problem.

 

[Hot Guy]

you wanna talk to someone about how you're feeling email me anytime.
i only warn you that i am only online for fridays, saturdays, and sundays usually and saturdays is limited as library closes sooner that day.but if you can work with my schedule we can work something out i think
From: Fabien <fab2334@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Friday, March 2, 2012 12:13 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: suicidical thoughts

  If it is all or part of your family that you problem, then one of the best solutions is to emotionally detach from them. It is essential to know that you are not responsible for their emotions, even if what they say affect you you should not get involved emotionally in their emotions to themselves. Then, for you hold on to life, you have several options: go out with my friends, or acquaintances, or while meditating (do meditation, zen your work, your sense of peace, perspective), or go outside alone if you suffering from social phobia, even one in search of a focus (potentially any), provided that it helps you to detach yourself emotionally from the grip of your parents ...

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "marshjohn30" <marshjohn30@... wrote:

Getting suicidical,,My Life is getting more worse than it was before. Im giving up,cant see any hope,feels like this is it. I m useless if i had a gun i would have shot all of my family now.im kinda suffered from social phobia too at my place there is no facility to get rid of this problem.

 

[Hot Guy]

satanists like me and other yes we do.
satan and his demons would also very much want you to live.
we, father, and his demons value your life.

From: carlislerothstein <carlislerothstein@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Friday, March 2, 2012 12:51 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: suicidical thoughts

 

If you go suicidal, you'd die without seeing the advent. It all happens this year. If you'd die, you'll either be stuck spiritually (or eaten by the enemies, not literally) and if and only if you'd reincarnate, it's too late the war has been fought and you didn't played your part

Think, real satanists value life

 

[Kenessa]

A lot of us go thru that... I been going thru that since I was 15. I finally just said to Father I put myself in ur hands even tho I still pray for him to take me home to him. I know he won't until HE says my time is up. Dont give up its hard I know. If u want to have a ear that will listen u can email me. It's easier to talk when ur ready to talk bout that kinda of thing with someone that is in the same shoes... Suicide is the enemies greatest weapon to US... Father will help I know it. You took a big big step by posting this.

Hail Father Satan

Sent from my iPhone

 

[marshjohn30]

Thank you for your support and kindness my brothers and sisters...i know well that my faith in father wont lose no matter how much this pain makes me cry and frustrate or whatever to make me kill myself,after all this I got patience. And i get time for meditations at noon too. My brother goes out for hours at everyday's noon like never before. I'm kinda sure it is happening just coz of Father. He made this to be happened just to give me time for meditation at noon too. Cant do power meditations at night or in the very early morning. But just rarely.Can do meditation and other such things only if am alone at home.

 

[Damien Garcia]

One step at a time my brother, one step at a time. "I TEACH AND GUIDE THOSE WHO FOLLOW MY INSTRUCTION" taken from the commandments of Satan - JOS

DamienHail Satan

From: marshjohn30 <marshjohn30@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Saturday, March 3, 2012 1:53 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: suicidical thoughts

  Thank you for your support and kindness my brothers and sisters...i know well that my faith in father wont lose no matter how much this pain makes me cry and frustrate or whatever to make me kill myself,after all this I got patience. And i get time for meditations at noon too. My brother goes out for hours at everyday's noon like never before. I'm kinda sure it is happening just coz of Father. He made this to be happened just to give me time for meditation at noon too. Cant do power meditations at night or in the very early morning. But just rarely.Can do meditation and other such things only if am alone at home.

 

[kokabiel24]

Good you're finding time for meditation, MJ--I think everyone at some time thinks "life is shit, nobody cares, why keep going?" but the thing is to just have patience--it will pass. If you're here, Father must have plans for you...it can take time to find out what--but if you hang in there, when you do find out it is really worth the wait....

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "marshjohn30" <marshjohn30@... wrote:

Thank you for your support and kindness my brothers and sisters...i know well that my faith in father wont lose no matter how much this pain makes me cry and frustrate or whatever to make me kill myself,after all this I got patience. And i get time for meditations at noon too. My brother goes out for hours at everyday's noon like never before. I'm kinda sure it is happening just coz of Father. He made this to be happened just to give me time for meditation at noon too. Cant do power meditations at night or in the very early morning. But just rarely.Can do meditation and other such things only if am alone at home.

 

[Allison P]

Just be patient, and hang in there. Just remember, if you kill
yourself, the enemy wins! You mustn't let them win. Have faith in
Father, and in yourself. Besides, you won't do Father Satan, or
yourself, if you end your own life. 'Cause if you die like that,
you'll just reincarnate and end up back in a similar situation.

I know I'm probably sounding unsympathetic here, but believe me, I'm
not. I'm sorry you're going through whatever all you're going through,
but Satanism is about being strong, and becoming master of one's
destiny. Is it always easy? Hell no! But it's worth it, and in the end
you'll be glad you stuck around, instead of doing what the enemy wants
and taking the easy way out. Meditate when you've the time, and just
do the best you can. Be strong my Brother, and remember that Father
Satan and the other Gods are always there for you. As are we. Hail
Father Satan!

On 3/2/12, marshjohn30 <marshjohn30@... wrote:
Thank you for your support and kindness my brothers and sisters...i know
well that my faith in father wont lose no matter how much this pain makes me
cry and frustrate or whatever to make me kill myself,after all this I got
patience. And i get time for meditations at noon too. My brother goes out
for hours at everyday's noon like never before. I'm kinda sure it is
happening just coz of Father. He made this to be happened just to give me
time for meditation at noon too. Cant do power meditations at night or in
the very early morning. But just rarely.Can do meditation and other such
things only if am alone at home.

 

[Hot Guy]

im in an assisted living type home these days so for me being alone does not happen like ever so you my friend are lucky to get what you do.
for me best i can do it get the best headphones i got and crank up the Volume to Max Level.
i may think about buying a speaker to increase volume in this. i mean i may not be able to be alone so much but i think it fine as long as yo can get right meditation music and make it loud enough to tune people out.
so basically i am saying if you can't wait for people to leave and if you are like me and you are impatient at times i say do something alone the lines of that.
hope this helps
HAIL SATAN
From: marshjohn30 <marshjohn30@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Friday, March 2, 2012 11:53 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: suicidical thoughts

  Thank you for your support and kindness my brothers and sisters...i know well that my faith in father wont lose no matter how much this pain makes me cry and frustrate or whatever to make me kill myself,after all this I got patience. And i get time for meditations at noon too. My brother goes out for hours at everyday's noon like never before. I'm kinda sure it is happening just coz of Father. He made this to be happened just to give me time for meditation at noon too. Cant do power meditations at night or in the very early morning. But just rarely.Can do meditation and other such things only if am alone at home.

 

[jeonissatanas]

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "kokabiel24" <moonshadow48@... wrote:

Good you're finding time for meditation, MJ--I think everyone at some time thinks "life is shit, nobody cares, why keep going?" but the thing is to just have patience--it will pass. If you're here, Father must have plans for you...it can take time to find out what--but if you hang in there, when you do find out it is really worth the wait....

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "marshjohn30" <marshjohn30@ wrote:

Thank you for your support and kindness my brothers and sisters...i know well that my faith in father wont lose no matter how much this pain makes me cry and frustrate or whatever to make me kill myself,after all this I got patience. And i get time for meditations at noon too. My brother goes out for hours at everyday's noon like never before. I'm kinda sure it is happening just coz of Father. He made this to be happened just to give me time for meditation at noon too. Cant do power meditations at night or in the very early morning. But just rarely.Can do meditation and other such things only if am alone at home.

Just do not give up man! you are not only the one who is going through this,father satan and the gods are with you everytime.Satanism is not the easy road,you have to be patient and keep doing power meditations and empower yourself.You will be getting bliss inside you.Satanism is the one and only true religion of humanity. SATAN IS GOD OF EARTH AND HE IS THE ONLY ONE GOD WHO LOVES AND CARES YOU!