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Xavier

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So I just realized something for some reason it seems like the enemy has put thoughts into me and I didn't really noticed. So here's the thing since I'm 16 I'm in highschool and I used to hang out with people a lot but I stopped because of how they did drugs and all and I chose to not be apart of it anymore. But the bad thing is in return I stay in my house all the time now and almost never leave the house. So the only time I really socialize is in school. I just now noticed the enemy took advantage of this and since I have been lonely they been making me constantly think about everything and today they tried making think the Gods just want power. So I played the xbox for awhile to get my mind from constantly thinking about it. So when I got off of it this is when it came to me.

I'm still building a aura of protection around me and clean my aura so I think I should do this more often. Here recently I've been on my laptop a lot and I seem drawn to it for no apparent reason and then I stay on it until it's late at night when I start to get tired so then that makes everything else like concentrating harder then I keep having a thought to tell me to go to sleep but I almost did different times but a flash of energy wakes me up and I'm thankful for that because I know if I ever stop building a aura protection just once I'll get fucked.

So all I'm asking brothers and sisters is advice I feel like shit right now and my thoughts and emotions are getting fucked up right now I'm trying my best right now but it's fucking hard. So if you can please help.



Hail Satan!!! Hail To The Gods Of Duat!!!
 
f I were you I would use lots of SATANIC electric blue demonic energy. Whenever you feel an enemy attack or if they are near engulf your self in it and place father satans sigil around the room and around your third eye/sisxt chakra area. This helps a lot. also burn the enemy with it. Your whole space :) this works. Be strong. They are getting desperate, don't you see? They ate losing power and KNOE we are growing stronger everyday! so be strong and a warrior no matter how hard it is. They have been messing with me as well but just STAND your ground. Hope this helps brother!




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On Thu, Dec 6, 2012 1:14 AM EST Xavier wrote:

So I just realized something for some reason it seems like the enemy has put thoughts into me and I didn't really noticed. So here's the thing since I'm 16 I'm in highschool and I used to hang out with people a lot but I stopped because of how they did drugs and all and I chose to not be apart of it anymore. But the bad thing is in return I stay in my house all the time now and almost never leave the house. So the only time I really socialize is in school. I just now noticed the enemy took advantage of this and since I have been lonely they been making me constantly think about everything and today they tried making think the Gods just want power. So I played the xbox for awhile to get my mind from constantly thinking about it. So when I got off of it this is when it came to me.

I'm still building a aura of protection around me and clean my aura so I think I should do this more often. Here recently I've been on my laptop a lot and I seem drawn to it for no apparent reason and then I stay on it until it's late at night when I start to get tired so then that makes everything else like concentrating harder then I keep having a thought to tell me to go to sleep but I almost did different times but a flash of energy wakes me up and I'm thankful for that because I know if I ever stop building a aura protection just once I'll get fucked.

So all I'm asking brothers and sisters is advice I feel like shit right now and my thoughts and emotions are getting fucked up right now I'm trying my best right now but it's fucking hard. So if you can please help.



Hail Satan!!! Hail To The Gods Of Duat!!!
 
Omg I waas typing so fast I made lots of grammatical and spelling errors. But you get what I was saying :p be strong brother.




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On Thu, Dec 6, 2012 1:35 AM EST Shannon Outlaw wrote:


f I were you I would use lots of SATANIC electric blue demonic energy. Whenever you feel an enemy attack or if they are near engulf your self in it and place father satans sigil around the room and around your third eye/sisxt chakra area. This helps a lot. also burn the enemy with it. Your whole space :) this works. Be strong. They are getting desperate, don't you see? They ate losing power and KNOE we are growing stronger everyday! so be strong and a warrior no matter how hard it is. They have been messing with me as well but just STAND your ground. Hope this helps brother!




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On Thu, Dec 6, 2012 1:14 AM EST Xavier wrote:

So I just realized something for some reason it seems like the enemy has put thoughts into me and I didn't really noticed. So here's the thing since I'm 16 I'm in highschool and I used to hang out with people a lot but I stopped because of how they did drugs and all and I chose to not be apart of it anymore. But the bad thing is in return I stay in my house all the time now and almost never leave the house. So the only time I really socialize is in school. I just now noticed the enemy took advantage of this and since I have been lonely they been making me constantly think about everything and today they tried making think the Gods just want power. So I played the xbox for awhile to get my mind from constantly thinking about it. So when I got off of it this is when it came to me.

I'm still building a aura of protection around me and clean my aura so I think I should do this more often. Here recently I've been on my laptop a lot and I seem drawn to it for no apparent reason and then I stay on it until it's late at night when I start to get tired so then that makes everything else like concentrating harder then I keep having a thought to tell me to go to sleep but I almost did different times but a flash of energy wakes me up and I'm thankful for that because I know if I ever stop building a aura protection just once I'll get fucked.

So all I'm asking brothers and sisters is advice I feel like shit right now and my thoughts and emotions are getting fucked up right now I'm trying my best right now but it's fucking hard. So if you can please help.



Hail Satan!!! Hail To The Gods Of Duat!!!
 
lol that happens to me a lot that's why I always have to read over everything I write. But thanks for the advice it helped me and I actually feel better right now.
From: Shannon Outlaw <soutlaw92@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Thursday, December 6, 2012 1:04 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Struggling

 
Omg I waas typing so fast I made lots of grammatical and spelling errors. But you get what I was saying :p be strong brother.

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On Thu, Dec 6, 2012 1:35 AM EST Shannon Outlaw wrote:


f I were you I would use lots of SATANIC electric blue demonic energy. Whenever you feel an enemy attack or if they are near engulf your self in it and place father satans sigil around the room and around your third eye/sisxt chakra area. This helps a lot. also burn the enemy with it. Your whole space :) this works. Be strong. They are getting desperate, don't you see? They ate losing power and KNOE we are growing stronger everyday! so be strong and a warrior no matter how hard it is. They have been messing with me as well but just STAND your ground. Hope this helps brother!




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On Thu, Dec 6, 2012 1:14 AM EST Xavier wrote:

So I just realized something for some reason it seems like the enemy has put thoughts into me and I didn't really noticed. So here's the thing since I'm 16 I'm in highschool and I used to hang out with people a lot but I stopped because of how they did drugs and all and I chose to not be apart of it anymore. But the bad thing is in return I stay in my house all the time now and almost never leave the house. So the only time I really socialize is in school. I just now noticed the enemy took advantage of this and since I have been lonely they been making me constantly think about everything and today they tried making think the Gods just want power. So I played the xbox for awhile to get my mind from constantly thinking about it. So when I got off of it this is when it came to me.

I'm still building a aura of protection around me and clean my aura so I think I should do this more often. Here recently I've been on my laptop a lot and I seem drawn to it for no apparent reason and then I stay on it until it's late at night when I start to get tired so then that makes everything else like concentrating harder then I keep having a thought to tell me to go to sleep but I almost did different times but a flash of energy wakes me up and I'm thankful for that because I know if I ever stop building a aura protection just once I'll get fucked.

So all I'm asking brothers and sisters is advice I feel like shit right now and my thoughts and emotions are getting fucked up right now I'm trying my best right now but it's fucking hard. So if you can please help.



Hail Satan!!! Hail To The Gods Of Duat!!!

 
I know that in a world full of extroverts it seems that you need to go out and socialize with people. It is necessary but don't let that kind of thing bug you or make you depressed. It definitely shouldn't effect you.
If anything go for a walk and meet some new people.

Sometimes I feel depressed and alone too. I will sometimes feel that no one will accept me or like me for who I am. Then I remember that I don't give a fuck what someone else thinks about me. Only Satan and the true gods of humanity. Sometimes I forget I'm always able to talk to Satan. Talking to Satan is a good way to get over the feeling of lonliness.

If you are lacking in trust in Satan just read the al jilwah or the joy of Satan website. I will sometimes read the exposing Christianity book or the black sun to help me remember why I'm with Satan. Not to mention the gift of meditation, astrology, and black magick.

Sometimes I have to force myself to turn My computer off, tv, or music player. Once I find it in myself I can focus 100 percent and do My meditations. I know that in the time it takes to watch one tv show I could do a destruction ritual or do a merkaba spin. Or a chakra spin, clean My aura, serpent meditation, or get rid of those negative ties.

I lost My job recently and instead of spending all day meditating, working out, and doing tai chi or yoga I feel compelled to relax. I've been working My ass off everyday with no rest except for the necessary sleep and there is no reason why I should stop now. I have a golden opportunity right now. Sometimes as satanists We have take complete control of our mind, force ourselves to do what is best, and destroy those foreign impulses.
Hail Satan
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On Wed, Dec 5, 2012 10:14 PM PST Xavier wrote:

So I just realized something for some reason it seems like the enemy has put thoughts into me and I didn't really noticed. So here's the thing since I'm 16 I'm in highschool and I used to hang out with people a lot but I stopped because of how they did drugs and all and I chose to not be apart of it anymore. But the bad thing is in return I stay in my house all the time now and almost never leave the house. So the only time I really socialize is in school. I just now noticed the enemy took advantage of this and since I have been lonely they been making me constantly think about everything and today they tried making think the Gods just want power. So I played the xbox for awhile to get my mind from constantly thinking about it. So when I got off of it this is when it came to me.

I'm still building a aura of protection around me and clean my aura so I think I should do this more often. Here recently I've been on my laptop a lot and I seem drawn to it for no apparent reason and then I stay on it until it's late at night when I start to get tired so then that makes everything else like concentrating harder then I keep having a thought to tell me to go to sleep but I almost did different times but a flash of energy wakes me up and I'm thankful for that because I know if I ever stop building a aura protection just once I'll get fucked.

So all I'm asking brothers and sisters is advice I feel like shit right now and my thoughts and emotions are getting fucked up right now I'm trying my best right now but it's fucking hard. So if you can please help.



Hail Satan!!! Hail To The Gods Of Duat!!!
 
Do a  banishing ritual. Add on void meditation throughout the day, not just during a meditation session. In time, you will be better at discerning which thoughts are yours and which are the enemy's. It takes practice. Don't get down on yourself. Keep your spirits up, be positive, and keep doing your meditations, no matter what.
From: Shannon Outlaw <soutlaw92@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Thursday, December 6, 2012 2:04:46 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Struggling

 
Omg I waas typing so fast I made lots of grammatical and spelling errors. But you get what I was saying :p be strong brother.

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On Thu, Dec 6, 2012 1:35 AM EST Shannon Outlaw wrote:


f I were you I would use lots of SATANIC electric blue demonic energy. Whenever you feel an enemy attack or if they are near engulf your self in it and place father satans sigil around the room and around your third eye/sisxt chakra area. This helps a lot. also burn the enemy with it. Your whole space :) this works. Be strong. They are getting desperate, don't you see? They ate losing power and KNOE we are growing stronger everyday! so be strong and a warrior no matter how hard it is. They have been messing with me as well but just STAND your ground. Hope this helps brother!




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On Thu, Dec 6, 2012 1:14 AM EST Xavier wrote:

So I just realized something for some reason it seems like the enemy has put thoughts into me and I didn't really noticed. So here's the thing since I'm 16 I'm in highschool and I used to hang out with people a lot but I stopped because of how they did drugs and all and I chose to not be apart of it anymore. But the bad thing is in return I stay in my house all the time now and almost never leave the house. So the only time I really socialize is in school. I just now noticed the enemy took advantage of this and since I have been lonely they been making me constantly think about everything and today they tried making think the Gods just want power. So I played the xbox for awhile to get my mind from constantly thinking about it. So when I got off of it this is when it came to me.

I'm still building a aura of protection around me and clean my aura so I think I should do this more often. Here recently I've been on my laptop a lot and I seem drawn to it for no apparent reason and then I stay on it until it's late at night when I start to get tired so then that makes everything else like concentrating harder then I keep having a thought to tell me to go to sleep but I almost did different times but a flash of energy wakes me up and I'm thankful for that because I know if I ever stop building a aura protection just once I'll get fucked.

So all I'm asking brothers and sisters is advice I feel like shit right now and my thoughts and emotions are getting fucked up right now I'm trying my best right now but it's fucking hard. So if you can please help.



Hail Satan!!! Hail To The Gods Of Duat!!!

 
Hello:) 
I've been struggling with the 40 day program, day 1-3 can't seem to visualize the bright light etc..or do the aura cleansing or protection correctly i think im doing it wrong.? Anyone who seem to had the same trouble as me if you have any techniques or tips to help me that would be great thanks. :)
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That's actually fairly common. As you continue it will get easier because your soul and aura will become cleaner and more powerful. Just keep going and keep trying and it will get easier
 

Not really sure how to start but I am having a very difficult time accepting some things about myself.
Like many of you, I have a very troubled past. One that involves abandonment, betrayal, and immense pain. As a young boy my father married a jewess who caused me to experience many many pains. She enforced radical christian beliefs and looked at myself and my sister as burdens, and even lower than her pet's. I have questioned who and what I am since a very young age.
I struggle with something specific that happened when I was a young teen. It tears my soul apart every day, and contemplating suicide is no stranger to me. I do not want to go into depth on what happened because of my shame. It is so abhorant, I do not feel worthy of even living. What I did is an absolute atrocity and is of jewish nature. 
I live with this guilt, this curse upon my soul every day, and it has left a deep permanent scar. I try to heal myself, build up my aura but it always comes crashing down leaving me vulnerable. 
I trust in Father Satan, I wear a pentagram of silver around my neck every day, because I know he loves, forgives, and will never abandon his children. But I do not feel worthy, I feel shunned, just as I always have.
My entire life I have been an outcast. People always feeling sorry, guilty faces staring not knowing what to say so they stay silent..
I can hear the thoughts of others and feel their emotions before they do themselves. Moments before something happens I see it in my minds eye. I know I have power in me. Power from Satan and the other Gods, but I cannot apply it, like there is a clogged filter in my soul. 
I just want to forget, I just want it to end. Brothers and sisters please, what the fuck do I do?
 
This is a recent post by HPS Maxine. I hope it helps.

Something very important...
When one feels sorry, one opens one's self to negative energy in the way of making it extremely easy to be vulnerable to curses. 

This is why the Christian churches are forever promoting being sorry and repentance. Being sorry opens a person wide up. People would be shocked at how, especially the Catholic Church throws curses (the Jesuits are a spiritual assassin squad). Just as rotten as the Jews, as they are and always have been nothing more than a powerful tool for the Jews.

Azazel explained that feeling sorry is connected to punishment. Punishment = accepting curses.

Now, the more we meditate, the more we reach enlightenment. Enlightenment is awareness. Enlightenment is destroying the walls in our minds that prevent us from seeing reality, seeing truths and seeing the results of our actions.

Most people out there are walking around with walls up in denial of reality. This is why they can't see truths and facts that are in front of them every single day.

My point here is when we open our minds, we will experience much awareness, also inner awareness. 

There are others in our lives that were undeserving of behavior towards them. Ask yourself, if you could really have known at the time, would you still have done it? If not and it was serious enough, this can bring regret.

Harm and injustice that we've done to others over our lifetime, others that did NOT deserve it, will at some point manifest into our awareness. This can bring serious regret. This is on the soul. 

You can't hit the rewind button on your life or the lives of others, but what you can do is send the souls you've harmed positive energy, wherever they might be. I'm talking serious issues here. Seriously wronging and committing an injustice to someone who never deserved it. If you feel a need to do this, then it should be done to get it off your soul and make peace with the other's soul. 

This is just between you and the individuals and no one else.

Do not stew in regret. The enemy uses this more than you know. This sort of thing does not just go away unless we act on it. Those who are without can carry this sort of thing on their souls through lifetimes.

In a way, this is cleaning your soul and putting your mind to rest where there might be a lot of subconscious guilt that you haven't been consciously aware of. Enlightenment will open your mind to such things. Enlightenment is awareness.

Remember, certain things will crop into your mind that cause regret (unless someone is a full blown psychopath). Sending positive energy to the one's soul is an effective way to deal with this and to close the situation. Just make sure you feel strongly enough about it. This is not minor every day things. 
And stop dwelling on it.

High Priestess Maxine Dietrich
On Fri, 26 Apr 2019, 9:53 pm L W serpentrising666@... [JoyofSatan666], <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:
 
Not really sure how to start but I am having a very difficult time accepting some things about myself.
Like many of you, I have a very troubled past. One that involves abandonment, betrayal, and immense pain. As a young boy my father married a jewess who caused me to experience many many pains. She enforced radical christian beliefs and looked at myself and my sister as burdens, and even lower than her pet's. I have questioned who and what I am since a very young age.
I struggle with something specific that happened when I was a young teen. It tears my soul apart every day, and contemplating suicide is no stranger to me. I do not want to go into depth on what happened because of my shame. It is so abhorant, I do not feel worthy of even living. What I did is an absolute atrocity and is of jewish nature. 
I live with this guilt, this curse upon my soul every day, and it has left a deep permanent scar. I try to heal myself, build up my aura but it always comes crashing down leaving me vulnerable. 
I trust in Father Satan, I wear a pentagram of silver around my neck every day, because I know he loves, forgives, and will never abandon his children. But I do not feel worthy, I feel shunned, just as I always have.
My entire life I have been an outcast. People always feeling sorry, guilty faces staring not knowing what to say so they stay silent..
I can hear the thoughts of others and feel their emotions before they do themselves. Moments before something happens I see it in my minds eye. I know I have power in me. Power from Satan and the other Gods, but I cannot apply it, like there is a clogged filter in my soul. 
I just want to forget, I just want it to end. Brothers and sisters please, what the fuck do I do?
 
Do the final RTR!

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On Fri, Apr 26, 2019 at 21:54, L W serpentrising666@... [JoyofSatan666]<[email protected] wrote:  
Not really sure how to start but I am having a very difficult time accepting some things about myself.
Like many of you, I have a very troubled past. One that involves abandonment, betrayal, and immense pain. As a young boy my father married a jewess who caused me to experience many many pains. She enforced radical christian beliefs and looked at myself and my sister as burdens, and even lower than her pet's. I have questioned who and what I am since a very young age.
I struggle with something specific that happened when I was a young teen. It tears my soul apart every day, and contemplating suicide is no stranger to me. I do not want to go into depth on what happened because of my shame. It is so abhorant, I do not feel worthy of even living. What I did is an absolute atrocity and is of jewish nature. 
I live with this guilt, this curse upon my soul every day, and it has left a deep permanent scar. I try to heal myself, build up my aura but it always comes crashing down leaving me vulnerable. 
I trust in Father Satan, I wear a pentagram of silver around my neck every day, because I know he loves, forgives, and will never abandon his children. But I do not feel worthy, I feel shunned, just as I always have.
My entire life I have been an outcast. People always feeling sorry, guilty faces staring not knowing what to say so they stay silent..
I can hear the thoughts of others and feel their emotions before they do themselves. Moments before something happens I see it in my minds eye. I know I have power in me. Power from Satan and the other Gods, but I cannot apply it, like there is a clogged filter in my soul. 
I just want to forget, I just want it to end. Brothers and sisters please, what the fuck do I do?
 
Maybe you need to cut yourself some slack... being raised in xtian belief system will affect your perception of EVERYTHING even if you don’t realize it. When we are kids, that type of brain washing changes you. I’m constantly having to stop the chatter going on in my brain and challenge it, NO I am not going to feel guilty for that, NO I am not going to be afraid of this, etc. Regret for something you did long ago is part of that. Its extremely hard to change xtian brainwashing it once it takes hold. You should be holding yourself accountable for things you do now - but try to let that crap in the past go. I’m sure everyone here has regret for something in the past, be it ignorance, negligence etc. Can’t change what happened. I’m sure it will never happen again if it affects you so much. All you can do is focus on now. As you get older it will be easier to move on from mistakes. Don’t keep picking it apart trying to find why it happened- there are no answers probably to this, and its just feeding more regret and guilt. Tell yourself you are confident and moving past these things when they pop up. And what of the mental gifts you mention? Take the energy and focus you spend guilt tripping and put it instead into developing those! Not xtian goyim garbage thats sucking you dry emotionally. Fuck suicide. You’re very empathic, so you should work on closing chakras and putting up shields to stop that from coming in when you don’t want it to. This rotten stinking filth guilt and regret nonsense was planted in your head long ago, and that is not your fault! See it for what it is, and stop blaming yourself. Change the channel to something useful, and develop your gifts. That’s my two cents anyways. Ave Satanas darlings

Skickat från min iPhone
 
Unfortunately I am hardly ever alone, which has a chance of changing in June but it makes it nearly impossible to do any vibrations. I have done it once but it was rushed. 
I feel like I'm starting to lose it. Mentally and spiritually.I'm so tired. I just want to sleep forever. 
I don't feel like I belong in this world. 

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On Fri, Apr 26, 2019 at 20:33, ol ol ool27@... [JoyofSatan666]<[email protected] wrote:   Do the final RTR!

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On Fri, Apr 26, 2019 at 21:54, L W serpentrising666@... [JoyofSatan666]<[email protected] wrote:  
Not really sure how to start but I am having a very difficult time accepting some things about myself..
Like many of you, I have a very troubled past. One that involves abandonment, betrayal, and immense pain. As a young boy my father married a jewess who caused me to experience many many pains. She enforced radical christian beliefs and looked at myself and my sister as burdens, and even lower than her pet's. I have questioned who and what I am since a very young age.
I struggle with something specific that happened when I was a young teen. It tears my soul apart every day, and contemplating suicide is no stranger to me. I do not want to go into depth on what happened because of my shame. It is so abhorant, I do not feel worthy of even living. What I did is an absolute atrocity and is of jewish nature. 
I live with this guilt, this curse upon my soul every day, and it has left a deep permanent scar. I try to heal myself, build up my aura but it always comes crashing down leaving me vulnerable. 
I trust in Father Satan, I wear a pentagram of silver around my neck every day, because I know he loves, forgives, and will never abandon his children. But I do not feel worthy, I feel shunned, just as I always have.
My entire life I have been an outcast. People always feeling sorry, guilty faces staring not knowing what to say so they stay silent..
I can hear the thoughts of others and feel their emotions before they do themselves. Moments before something happens I see it in my minds eye. I know I have power in me. Power from Satan and the other Gods, but I cannot apply it, like there is a clogged filter in my soul. 
I just want to forget, I just want it to end. Brothers and sisters please, what the fuck do I do?
 
If you have an phone go somewhere else and do the vibrations do it when people are sleeping. Do it quietly. It really will help you. If you think about it day to day what you do you will be creative I mean I guess even if you are in a public place but its loud and waiting for sometime you could probably pull it off and no one would hear you very quietly think creative.

With that said you will need to let go think positive thoughts. Feeling guilt over something is a waste and brings curses on yourself. If you need to do something nice for the person you wronged if possible or send them positive energy. If the person doesnt fully or even know you wronged them then dont confess and make it worse just do something good for them. Dont be hard on yourself. Move on and work on bettering yourself. We are not all perfect especially not when we had an xtian mindset. I dont even think the Gods care that much about all the little things we do in our lives unless its between Satanists. Not suggesting you be totally an unethical Jerk just suggesting you get out of the xtian mindset. There is nothing watching you or judging you 24 7.

Hail Satan
 
It is not an infrequent phenomenon that many people come to Satan to be saved from disastrous circumstances related to the beliefs, empty faith in, and imposed mental problems by the enemy. This relationship with these bad entities and people wallowing in ignorance and lack of any spiritual understanding, creates a situation where life can become really miserable, to the point one is also unable to escape from this misery, and it just keeps stacking up. This is not everyone of course, but many people are in this particular situation.

Everyone in this world goes, and will go hard times, despite of their level of power, great fortune, or spiritual power or any other form of power involved. To give one example here, everyone in this world thinks that money is the solution to all problems, and indeed, money solves a lot of problems, if not extremely many problems, but not all problems. There are endless amounts of other problems which especially have deeper roots and are not solvable by money.

To name one example one Gentile European billionaire, I believe from Norway, his children went into vacation at Sri Lanka, and they 'happened' to be in the blast radius that was created by the Jews through the "ISIS" terrorists. We all know that the jews created this organization but that is besides the point. The man lost three of his four children in the blast. As it should be understood from such events, "money" is not the universal solution to all problems, and can also create further problems if mismanaged. He can't pay anyone to bring him his children back, and this is a tragedy.

This is an example of the brutality of life and how everything cannot be just 'solved' by merely a single tool such as money, wealth, fame, or other things. Definitely, every tool helps. However Gentiles are only told that everything is solely a financial problem, in which many cases it's not. Many people have solved this problem and they are plagued by an array of other problems, and some of which many of you here who are "poor blokes" may not even experience. These problems can be mental, emotional, faith based, loneliness, depression, and all sorts of other woes.

To put this very simply, we need our Gods in our life, and in a sense, they also enjoy our attention and our friendship. We are their students, and we grow through their teaching. In the same way one who goes into a school and simply fails or gets very low grades, but is in this school for a reason, so do people here have to understand that underperformance or negative circumstances, can be turned around.

However, I never sugar coat anything personally and you have to know, the more things are against you, and the more things out of control, the more effort you will have to put into them, and nothing will come for free. Of course many people may choose the lazy way out and to consider that there is no solution to their problems, but everyone knows this is a lie. While perfection may be utopian and more of a 'light in the dark' to follow, life can become very good, especially if one puts their devotion into fixing themselves.

Another thing I wanted to bring to everyone's attention is that our "Life", when we are a Satanist, is a life with meaning. Very deep and profound meaning. Meaning that other people will never have, and also it's a life of prospects, where one can advance, evolve, and fix things that others may never have the chance to fix. The opportunities that lay in front of loyal and practising Satanists, both to relate themselves to our Great Gods, and to fix their own soul until they seize and master it, are extreme. To not get very sob, yes, the Gods love us, and also, the Gods invest on us their time, attention, energy, and help.

There are many people in this life who are beaten down and I understand people taking the way out with suicide, but most of the time, people haven't wronged anyone else but themselves. Most people who contemplate about suicide only do so about "Themselves" and lack of perceived expectations or experience into life. The perception is stuck in a very individualistic and egotistic mode.

If one expands past this thought, and they understand themselves as a living being that also belongs in a communion with the Gods, our people, our race, our mission in general, then one should understand that one is obligated to make the best use of life possible about themselves. And a chain cannot last if pieces choose to cut. However a chain becomes stronger when each piece of it helps the piece next to it with support, and this is why community is here. You don't even have to give a real name here, and you can explain to other brothers and sisters what is very wrong with your life, and they can help you...

...Provided you also want to help yourself.

When one becomes a Satanist, one is taken and lifted from the literal spiritual, mental, and in many cases physical swamp. If the swamp is not physical, then it's most of the times guaranteed to be a swamp in the two other levels. Even if one is really good and clear, they still have a lot of climbing to do.

People frequently come and say that they believe 'suicide' will solve anything. On inspection, for a person to be lead to the situation to be confronted with the choice of suicide, there is either fear, or mass problems, or both. If one has gotten 50 years in prison, or if one is absolutely on a situation where they are 200% stuck, maybe suicide can be a viable option. In Satanism, one will not get punished further as in Christianity if they "Suicide", but that doesn't mean this doesn't come coupled by a natural problem which is related to suicide.

Lack of understanding of spiritual laws makes many think that "suicide" will solve their problems and put them on a blank state. But that is absolutely wrong. By the laws of the universe such as the laws of the invisible light, beyond our basic perception, we have our mental, spiritual body. This unit just dislocates from the body after death. In this case, you will be the same as you are today, but on another 'dimension'. Many people upon death or when close to death they experience this 'drawing out' of the body, and those who suicide, just see their dead body there. And there comes the greatest regret from an action one cannot go back to.

However, when this is done, there is no going back, and one has to stay in the astral, potentially suffer or be lost, and cause further damnation to come unto themselves. This has nothing to do with external punishment, it's that one's constitution, even in astral form, will draw them to sources of negativity, self wallowing, and many ugly things. In many cases it can take decades until the planetary alignments, viable bodies, and so forth, become available, for one to reincarnate. One will be therefore stuck in this wallowing state which increases itself, and then one will reincarnate, and his life will merely "replay" over for better or for worse due to karmic flaws inherent in his spirit. Then, one may be locked in a situation where they again find themselves in the same loop.

To give a rough estimate of how long the above can take, it can be from any to 10, to 25 to 70 years, to a century. I know this may sound like too much, but yes, sometimes, conditions for reincarnation may take that long, and this is highly dependable on circumstances. The loop of these events in itself can last potentially hundreds of years throughout reincarnations. Now this is one path one can take with suicide. It's a really wasting process. Plus, you learn nothing from it at all. If anything it brings the soul closer to death. And despite of people who brush this off, nobody really wants 'death' for themselves in a full sense of the word.

One has to remember that keeping yourself alive is not only for your own sake, but also for the sake of higher goals and objectives that are shared with others. It's really disgraceful to abandon post when there are no real missiles coming in. You got to love yourself and your life, and if you do not love yourself, consider then others who are tied to you.

Most problems that people have can be solved within a span of 2 or 3 years, and we are talking to a very considerable extent. This includes lack of employment, job problems, lack of school or teaching experience, and all sorts of problems which most of the time get people under. During this time of 2 to 3 years, one can do workings to free the soul and proceed with these things.If you take in perspective the years it leads to get to total failure, 2-3 years of effort to advance is nothing. Then, you gain momentum and you can advance more and more. Think of this paralleled to meditation in a sense.

In extremely stubborn cases, these may need to be repeated for years, while also physical effort is maintained. The trick here is however that most people get depressed and more depressed by lack of growth, and this growth if it happens is quite motivational. At the end of this, one's confidence will be far more bolstered in their ability to survive, and potentially under any circumstances. Even if you believe there is no way out of most problems, there definitely is, but for some of these you will need to consult your GD (you do not need to hear them, just open your head up to the possibility of things being better and do your part to seek solutions).

The fundamental thing however that will keep your life in place is this: To have a hold of your mind, your thoughts, and your soul energies. Through this beginning you can achieve and correct 99% of problems that go on your way, merely through self realization and self control. If one attains this, then most problems you will be able to also solve if you put your mind to them. Most people also do not suffer so much from tragic external circumstances, just hard circumstances which have a very powerful effect on them because they do not silence their mind. This allows the growth of fear and insecurity. You are capable of solving your problems, and you can do it. What is necessary first is to set yourself in order.

Think of this like being very drunk and drinking some very powerful coffee, confusion to a wake up call. When you are in the mode of drunkenness, it may appear as if your life it gone and that you can only drink more. Drunkenness here can be made parallel to confusion. The more confusion goes, the more able you will be to lay down your plans and contain yourself in order to move forward. This is your black coffee here.

Satan values people who have resolve, and if you show this resolve, or at least try to summon it, he will help you. People who evoke the mercy of others as a habit, only to parasitize, or ask for a helping hand to draw others down, in the satisfaction of the rising of misery, are detestable.

Lastly, do not forget that the community is here to help with problems and support one another. We are a family for a very deep reason. Consult those who have move knowledge here in the forums, and those of you who are advancing and have moved past problems, turn back and extend your hand as the hand of the Gods was extended to you. This way everyone rises and we are empowering ourselves and our shared existence.

it's normal for sheep to endlessly cry, never fix anything, pointlessly wallow in the misery of their own choice to be sheep.

But as far as we are concerned, we can only get up, pack up as wolves and keep going. Your life can be improved, be in knowledge of that, and work towards this end. You have to initiate this by moving and getting up first and foremost. And keeping on the good track despite worry of failures.

And remember: You are a Satanist . One must keep this tightly in their mind. Satan helps his own.

-High Priest Hooded Cobra 666
 
Come on man, you're SS. Don't let it get you to this point. Listen to some good music, watch a movie, do some yoga especially kundalini yoga (there are silent asanas), and send the soul that you wronged positive energy. A good number of Meditations are silent and kundalini yoga raises loads of energy. Also, you can do the 'meditation on Satan' on the website. His energy may help you a lot through this time.Don't just sit there, do something:)Plus,the enemy loves it when one of us is feeling down, because it makes their psychic attacks easier and more successful.Hail Satan!
On Mon, 29 Apr 2019, 12:35 am L W serpentrising666@... [JoyofSatan666], <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:
  Unfortunately I am hardly ever alone, which has a chance of changing in June but it makes it nearly impossible to do any vibrations. I have done it once but it was rushed. 
I feel like I'm starting to lose it. Mentally and spiritually.I'm so tired. I just want to sleep forever. 
I don't feel like I belong in this world. 

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On Fri, Apr 26, 2019 at 20:33, ol ol ool27@... [JoyofSatan666]<[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:   Do the final RTR!

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On Fri, Apr 26, 2019 at 21:54, L W serpentrising666@... [JoyofSatan666]<[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:  
Not really sure how to start but I am having a very difficult time accepting some things about myself..
Like many of you, I have a very troubled past.. One that involves abandonment, betrayal, and immense pain. As a young boy my father married a jewess who caused me to experience many many pains. She enforced radical christian beliefs and looked at myself and my sister as burdens, and even lower than her pet's. I have questioned who and what I am since a very young age.
I struggle with something specific that happened when I was a young teen. It tears my soul apart every day, and contemplating suicide is no stranger to me. I do not want to go into depth on what happened because of my shame. It is so abhorant, I do not feel worthy of even living. What I did is an absolute atrocity and is of jewish nature. 
I live with this guilt, this curse upon my soul every day, and it has left a deep permanent scar. I try to heal myself, build up my aura but it always comes crashing down leaving me vulnerable. 
I trust in Father Satan, I wear a pentagram of silver around my neck every day, because I know he loves, forgives, and will never abandon his children. But I do not feel worthy, I feel shunned, just as I always have.
My entire life I have been an outcast. People always feeling sorry, guilty faces staring not knowing what to say so they stay silent..
I can hear the thoughts of others and feel their emotions before they do themselves. Moments before something happens I see it in my minds eye. I know I have power in me. Power from Satan and the other Gods, but I cannot apply it, like there is a clogged filter in my soul. 
I just want to forget, I just want it to end. Brothers and sisters please, what the fuck do I do?
 
Thank you guys, I am finding my strength again. I am doing what I can with the little privacy I have. Just gotta stay strong for a little while longer and my situation will improve. In the meantime I will do what clensing rituals I can along with the final RTR. 
Hail Satan!

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On Mon, Apr 29, 2019 at 4:08, R B brownron007@... [JoyofSatan666]<[email protected] wrote:   Come on man, you're SS. Don't let it get you to this point. Listen to some good music, watch a movie, do some yoga especially kundalini yoga (there are silent asanas), and send the soul that you wronged positive energy. A good number of Meditations are silent and kundalini yoga raises loads of energy. Also, you can do the 'meditation on Satan' on the website. His energy may help you a lot through this time.Don't just sit there, do something:)Plus,the enemy loves it when one of us is feeling down, because it makes their psychic attacks easier and more successful.Hail Satan!
On Mon, 29 Apr 2019, 12:35 am L W serpentrising666@... [JoyofSatan666], <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:
  Unfortunately I am hardly ever alone, which has a chance of changing in June but it makes it nearly impossible to do any vibrations. I have done it once but it was rushed. 
I feel like I'm starting to lose it. Mentally and spiritually.I'm so tired. I just want to sleep forever. 
I don't feel like I belong in this world. 

Sent from Yahoo Mail on Android
On Fri, Apr 26, 2019 at 20:33, ol ol ool27@... [JoyofSatan666]<[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:   Do the final RTR!

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On Fri, Apr 26, 2019 at 21:54, L W serpentrising666@... [JoyofSatan666]<[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:  
Not really sure how to start but I am having a very difficult time accepting some things about myself..
Like many of you, I have a very troubled past.. One that involves abandonment, betrayal, and immense pain. As a young boy my father married a jewess who caused me to experience many many pains. She enforced radical christian beliefs and looked at myself and my sister as burdens, and even lower than her pet's. I have questioned who and what I am since a very young age.
I struggle with something specific that happened when I was a young teen. It tears my soul apart every day, and contemplating suicide is no stranger to me. I do not want to go into depth on what happened because of my shame. It is so abhorant, I do not feel worthy of even living. What I did is an absolute atrocity and is of jewish nature. 
I live with this guilt, this curse upon my soul every day, and it has left a deep permanent scar. I try to heal myself, build up my aura but it always comes crashing down leaving me vulnerable. 
I trust in Father Satan, I wear a pentagram of silver around my neck every day, because I know he loves, forgives, and will never abandon his children. But I do not feel worthy, I feel shunned, just as I always have.
My entire life I have been an outcast. People always feeling sorry, guilty faces staring not knowing what to say so they stay silent..
I can hear the thoughts of others and feel their emotions before they do themselves. Moments before something happens I see it in my minds eye. I know I have power in me. Power from Satan and the other Gods, but I cannot apply it, like there is a clogged filter in my soul. 
I just want to forget, I just want it to end. Brothers and sisters please, what the fuck do I do?
 

Al Jilwah: Chapter IV

"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Shaitan

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