Seeking Help

[A]

I'm having a bit of trouble putting my thoughts into words here. A few months ago, my life was launched into a vicious nighttime battle. My nightmares are getting worse, the paranoia is growing, and I know that alien enemies are behind it.
One particular dream, I was staring face to face with a grey. We communicated telepathically. I felt his contempt for humanity and his condescending nature.
When his thoughts became too personal and violent, I stepped to him and ripped out his big black eyes.
At the time, I thought i killed him. But this grey is still alive and still watching me. When i feel him watching me, I know he remembers what i did to his eyes, it's kindof like a familiar animosity.
Every time i lay down to sleep, I feel beasts laying upon me. There is one in particular who sits on my legs and stares at me.
Needless to say, the past few months of trying to sleep have been truly horrifying. My rituals and meditations for help are constantly interrupted.
I am avoiding violence and fear as much as i can, as i don't want to fuel their intent.
Every dream I have of success results in my death. An example of another dream,
I was aboard some kind of grey ship and in physical combat with them. It felt like hours that i pummeled, punched, and sliced hundreds of them (they never stopped coming). The corpses began to pile and they were overwhelming me, so in a blaze of hellfire I spawned smoldering flames which engulfed the entire ship, but i think killed me along with them.
I'm still dealing with insomnia, horrible paranoia, and possibly could be losing life force.
When I call upon our gods for help, in desperate need, the attacks may stop for a day or two.
I really do not understand what the problem is, or how to completely cure it. I feel singled out and damaged.
I do believe however that i can fight back, every grey i have encountered seems genuinely terrified of fire. No matter how tactical i get, these encounters always result in a blast of fire that takes a lot out of me (or in dreams kills me).
Can someone please provide some advice, an encouraging word, or even a prodding.
Any kind of acknowledgment will make me feel a little better.

 

[En Haradren Amlug]

This is the sort of thing where you have to 'stick in there'. We are of Satan! The True God! He protects us and always watches out for us. Remember that He is always going to be there for us. He would never, will never, put us up against something we cannot face along.

One thing i'd like to suggest, when you say you feel beasts lying on you when you lie down. Beasts are of Satan, of us. And we are of them. Talk to them, feel them and let them feel you. Let them know what they are doing to you, and what they should really be doing, turning against the greys, the enemies of Father Satan.

I've had this feeling of someone watching me before. I've gotten it when there have been angels and greys watching me. What i do is i reach out with my astral body, and rip their heads clean off. Then i burn away their energy, their very presence.
Keep up protections around your whole room, or house.

To do this, visualize an electric blue energy all over the walls, roof and floors of the room starting from the edges and spreading. And affirm something along the lines of this.

"This Powerful energy is strongly protecting this room in the name of Satan. Only those that he alows may enter."

Repeat this till the walls are glowing with the energy, and continue to do this nightly.
Also keep up your protection aura, every day or more.

Breath in white/gold energy whilst affirming:

"I am breathing in powerful protective energy that is building an aura of protection around me. This aura is protecting me at all times in every way."
As you affirm this, feel the energy coming into you, and building a strong aura around you, feel yourself being encased in concrete, or steel. Feel the weight and strength of it.
You can also add: "Any and all negative energy is being sent back to my enemies" or something close to that.

Good luck, keep strong, and always trust in Father Satan!

Hail Satan! Praise the True Gods of Old!

-En Haradren Amlug.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "A" <xxkillsmilebleedxx@... wrote:

I'm having a bit of trouble putting my thoughts into words here. A few months ago, my life was launched into a vicious nighttime battle. My nightmares are getting worse, the paranoia is growing, and I know that alien enemies are behind it.
One particular dream, I was staring face to face with a grey. We communicated telepathically. I felt his contempt for humanity and his condescending nature.
When his thoughts became too personal and violent, I stepped to him and ripped out his big black eyes.
At the time, I thought i killed him. But this grey is still alive and still watching me. When i feel him watching me, I know he remembers what i did to his eyes, it's kindof like a familiar animosity.
Every time i lay down to sleep, I feel beasts laying upon me. There is one in particular who sits on my legs and stares at me.
Needless to say, the past few months of trying to sleep have been truly horrifying. My rituals and meditations for help are constantly interrupted.
I am avoiding violence and fear as much as i can, as i don't want to fuel their intent.
Every dream I have of success results in my death. An example of another dream,
I was aboard some kind of grey ship and in physical combat with them. It felt like hours that i pummeled, punched, and sliced hundreds of them (they never stopped coming). The corpses began to pile and they were overwhelming me, so in a blaze of hellfire I spawned smoldering flames which engulfed the entire ship, but i think killed me along with them.
I'm still dealing with insomnia, horrible paranoia, and possibly could be losing life force.
When I call upon our gods for help, in desperate need, the attacks may stop for a day or two.
I really do not understand what the problem is, or how to completely cure it. I feel singled out and damaged.
I do believe however that i can fight back, every grey i have encountered seems genuinely terrified of fire. No matter how tactical i get, these encounters always result in a blast of fire that takes a lot out of me (or in dreams kills me).
Can someone please provide some advice, an encouraging word, or even a prodding.
Any kind of acknowledgment will make me feel a little better.