Sadness and a Demon Friend

[bapholial1]

I feel lost. A sad experience has happened to me recently and now I feel alone. It's hard to talk to and meet new people. Even with good friends I always have very little to say now and I don't feel good about myself. I just feel negative and can't bring myself to meditate like I should. I'm in need of a push and a guide. Someone positive to be with me. Perhaps a demon? I've yet to meet my guardian, even though I've been dedicated for about 3 years. I do know his name from using a pendulum. It spelled it out clearly with no mistakes. He hasn't come to me, or I've been unaware if he did. What steps should I take to meeting him? Can I call upon other demons to be friendly with? Lastly, can someone please give me powerful meditations on feeling happier and outgoing? And a meditation for attracting friends?

 

[Light Yagami]

Well, I had made this post a while back: http://twinss-r.tumblr.com/behappyAnd I believe you could use runes in order to gain friends... or even squares (Jupiter square for happiness, Sun square for self-confidence etc etc); there are solutions as long as you want to achieve them.
 

Στις 6:17 π.μ. Δευτέρα, 3 Νοεμβρίου 2014, ο/η "bapholial@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] έγραψε:


  I feel lost. A sad experience has happened to me recently and now I feel alone. It's hard to talk to and meet new people. Even with good friends I always have very little to say now and I don't feel good about myself. I just feel negative and can't bring myself to meditate like I should. I'm in need of a push and a guide. Someone positive to be with me. Perhaps a demon? I've yet to meet my guardian, even though I've been dedicated for about 3 years. I do know his name from using a pendulum. It spelled it out clearly with no mistakes. He hasn't come to me, or I've been unaware if he did. What steps should I take to meeting him? Can I call upon other demons to be friendly with? Lastly, can someone please give me powerful meditations on feeling happier and outgoing? And a meditation for attracting friends?

 

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well i believe if you want to be happier and make freinds and be more confident you should do just that... go to bed one night and get enough energy(sleep about 9 to 10 hours).one thing that ive learned about society( haveing to because i have boarderline autism and its very hard to socialize with people)and being with freinds is that you have to conform to the standerds of whom ever your hanging out with. one thing that ive been doing even befor i was a satanist( ive been a satanist for a year now) is looking at someone who is better than me and takeing time and effort out of my day to make myself better than them..for example if you want to be strong and fit and be healthy, you would see some one who was stronger and more fit than you and you would make them yourself stronger and more healthy than them so over all youve just made yourself a more confedent and strong willed person... also how long a day do you meditate?
ps. when you were useing the pendulum what was it like and what happend? ive tryed to use one before and it didnt work so well :/