need help badly very paranoid on the verge of insanity...

[sherilynishott]

I turn to all of u on this group because I don't know if this is just a mental problem or if it has to do with spiritual. Ok, I've been very paranoid lately over the most menial things. Such as I see the same numbers all the time, and now I fear for loved ones, etc. I'm away from my husband now because he's usmc and were waiting for our new house he's stationed 2000 miles away.... so I'm so fearful for him since I'm not there to supervise, if u will... its scaring me so badly-these thoughts- that I want to commit suicide. The funny thing is this has been going on for nearly a month-nothings happened but its only a week until I get to move with my husband and I'm only more paranoid. I was diagnosed with PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) because in my life it seems every good thing or person gets ripped away. I'm terrified to be happy because I fear if I be happy some strange force is going to be upset that I am or som and cause tragedy to keep me miserable forever. I had a brother die and the ironic thing is his first name is the same as my husbands and I'm so paranoid about that like I couldn't deal with losing 2 ----s. My brothers death was recent so I feel like I just want some peace and rest before the next tragedy! I was in the mental hospital finally feeling better talking in group about how much I love my brother and a week after I was released and happy he died. Btw just for reference I am on no head medication for ptsd or anything... on to these numbers I keep seeing like number 34 in particular... I loooked at my planetery chart and saw it prominent in there alongside the other recurring numbers.. the problem is I can't read it ! Does anyone know how and would be willing to interpret it for me? My birthday is jan 25 1992 born in michigan at 932 am. Btw if this is anything bad please do not tell me ! Id rather not know ... I need someone to tell me its all good even if its bullshit.. I need to fucking relax.. please hep .. thank u for your time you're greatly appreciated!!!!!

 

[protoj12]

First of all, hello and nice to meet your acquaintance. First of all I'll tell you that your situation is perfectly manageable. One thing I suggest is doing Void Meditation as described on JoyofSatan cause it teaches us how to focus on a single concept and focus our energy. It makes us able to detach ourselves from the unimportant and think about the necessities in life. I'm also very sorry to hear about your family deaths, but one thing you must realize is that life around you still goes on despite your situation and that being sad only makes life harder. I suggest reprogramming yourself to constantly look at the positives in life no matter what they be cause always dwelling on the negatives are a sure way to run yourself into the ground. I suggest you talk to a physician about your medical condition cause I know they offer some kinds of stress and depression relief medication. Just know that nothing truly bad can happen to you cause Father won't allow it and even if the worst thing imaginable happens to you(death?) you'd just be reincarnated and life a probably easier life. I'm not suggesting suicide cause that is just stupid cause there is so much to learn in this world. Try to distract yourself from all your worries with productiveness whatever it may be! Don't fret about reoccurred numbers cause I've been having that as well and I'm perfectly fine/sand and I actually am in a pretty rough situation but choose so not play the victim. I know you will be able to get through this and maybe try vibrating some runes or god names that will infuse you with confidence and power. You are loved, you are cherished, and nothing can honestly cause your own demise except yourself when you are of Father. Ave Satanas.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "sherilynishott" <sherilynishott@... wrote:

I turn to all of u on this group because I don't know if this is just a mental problem or if it has to do with spiritual. Ok, I've been very paranoid lately over the most menial things. Such as I see the same numbers all the time, and now I fear for loved ones, etc. I'm away from my husband now because he's usmc and were waiting for our new house he's stationed 2000 miles away.... so I'm so fearful for him since I'm not there to supervise, if u will... its scaring me so badly-these thoughts- that I want to commit suicide. The funny thing is this has been going on for nearly a month-nothings happened but its only a week until I get to move with my husband and I'm only more paranoid. I was diagnosed with PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) because in my life it seems every good thing or person gets ripped away. I'm terrified to be happy because I fear if I be happy some strange force is going to be upset that I am or som and cause tragedy to keep me miserable forever. I had a brother die and the ironic thing is his first name is the same as my husbands and I'm so paranoid about that like I couldn't deal with losing 2 ----s. My brothers death was recent so I feel like I just want some peace and rest before the next tragedy! I was in the mental hospital finally feeling better talking in group about how much I love my brother and a week after I was released and happy he died. Btw just for reference I am on no head medication for ptsd or anything... on to these numbers I keep seeing like number 34 in particular... I loooked at my planetery chart and saw it prominent in there alongside the other recurring numbers.. the problem is I can't read it ! Does anyone know how and would be willing to interpret it for me? My birthday is jan 25 1992 born in michigan at 932 am. Btw if this is anything bad please do not tell me ! Id rather not know ... I need someone to tell me its all good even if its bullshit.. I need to fucking relax.. please hep .. thank u for your time you're greatly appreciated!!!!!

 

[sherilynishott]

@protoj12
Thank you for replying to my post. Your words have brought me comfort. Ave satanas

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "protoj12" <protoj12@... wrote:

First of all, hello and nice to meet your acquaintance. First of all I'll tell you that your situation is perfectly manageable. One thing I suggest is doing Void Meditation as described on JoyofSatan cause it teaches us how to focus on a single concept and focus our energy. It makes us able to detach ourselves from the unimportant and think about the necessities in life. I'm also very sorry to hear about your family deaths, but one thing you must realize is that life around you still goes on despite your situation and that being sad only makes life harder. I suggest reprogramming yourself to constantly look at the positives in life no matter what they be cause always dwelling on the negatives are a sure way to run yourself into the ground. I suggest you talk to a physician about your medical condition cause I know they offer some kinds of stress and depression relief medication. Just know that nothing truly bad can happen to you cause Father won't allow it and even if the worst thing imaginable happens to you(death?) you'd just be reincarnated and life a probably easier life. I'm not suggesting suicide cause that is just stupid cause there is so much to learn in this world. Try to distract yourself from all your worries with productiveness whatever it may be! Don't fret about reoccurred numbers cause I've been having that as well and I'm perfectly fine/sand and I actually am in a pretty rough situation but choose so not play the victim. I know you will be able to get through this and maybe try vibrating some runes or god names that will infuse you with confidence and power. You are loved, you are cherished, and nothing can honestly cause your own demise except yourself when you are of Father. Ave Satanas.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "sherilynishott" <sherilynishott@ wrote:

I turn to all of u on this group because I don't know if this is just a mental problem or if it has to do with spiritual. Ok, I've been very paranoid lately over the most menial things. Such as I see the same numbers all the time, and now I fear for loved ones, etc. I'm away from my husband now because he's usmc and were waiting for our new house he's stationed 2000 miles away.... so I'm so fearful for him since I'm not there to supervise, if u will... its scaring me so badly-these thoughts- that I want to commit suicide. The funny thing is this has been going on for nearly a month-nothings happened but its only a week until I get to move with my husband and I'm only more paranoid. I was diagnosed with PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) because in my life it seems every good thing or person gets ripped away. I'm terrified to be happy because I fear if I be happy some strange force is going to be upset that I am or som and cause tragedy to keep me miserable forever. I had a brother die and the ironic thing is his first name is the same as my husbands and I'm so paranoid about that like I couldn't deal with losing 2 ----s. My brothers death was recent so I feel like I just want some peace and rest before the next tragedy! I was in the mental hospital finally feeling better talking in group about how much I love my brother and a week after I was released and happy he died. Btw just for reference I am on no head medication for ptsd or anything... on to these numbers I keep seeing like number 34 in particular... I loooked at my planetery chart and saw it prominent in there alongside the other recurring numbers.. the problem is I can't read it ! Does anyone know how and would be willing to interpret it for me? My birthday is jan 25 1992 born in michigan at 932 am. Btw if this is anything bad please do not tell me ! Id rather not know ... I need someone to tell me its all good even if its bullshit.. I need to fucking relax.. please hep .. thank u for your time you're greatly appreciated!!!!!

 

[Masquerade]

Hi,
first of all you have to relax, this state of things is not going to last because things change constantly. anything you feel now will not last. any fear you have now will not last. knowing that one day you'll be happy and free you must reassure. other posts are very beautiful and true in my opinion, I add one thing that I found and I'm trying to use, hoping it would be useful if you decide to use it. I have many problems articulated among themselves of a psychological nature, and in seeking solutions I've read and learned a lot about energy techniques that just popped up. You might also try these if you think necessary.  Serve to eliminate fears, negative beliefs, blockages, treating phobias, trauma, stress, even physical problems because they say result from energy blocks ecc ecc. And it's easy and you do not need to know much.

Some can learn from the e-book free on the site below, as EFT.
On site and in e-book there are also articles and experiences on many issues, there is PTSD too. But you can also use it for anything else.

http://www.emofree.com/

There are also other techniques such as Psyk-k, logosintesis, TAT and other.
I do not know if all this just because I'm very skeptical and wonder how they like or as the secret and the like leave me a little puzzled. But I'm trying to try to see if it works unless you try you can not say. Moreover, the theory of meridians of EFT seems valid. If you decide to try I suggest you read a bit about these techniques and then you can make them well alone or if you prefer to go to an operator because there are too. Personally I am a little skeptical but I also am trying to work and it seems that work well.
Well, I told you that these exist if you decide to try them. You choose.
Just search on google energetics tecnniques or emotional tecniques, or negative belifs ecc..
I hope all goes well. Sorry for bad english.
Dark blessing.
May the Gods guide you.

AVE SATANA!!!!
-non può piovere per sempre-
Da: sherilynishott <sherilynishott@...
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Inviato: Gio 13 maggio 2010, 03:31:22
Oggetto: [JoyofSatan666] need help badly very paranoid on the verge of insanity...

  I turn to all of u on this group because I don't know if this is just a mental problem or if it has to do with spiritual. Ok, I've been very paranoid lately over the most menial things. Such as I see the same numbers all the time, and now I fear for loved ones, etc. I'm away from my husband now because he's usmc and were waiting for our new house he's stationed 2000 miles away.... so I'm so fearful for him since I'm not there to supervise, if u will... its scaring me so badly-these thoughts- that I want to commit suicide. The funny thing is this has been going on for nearly a month-nothings happened but its only a week until I get to move with my husband and I'm only more paranoid. I was diagnosed with PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) because in my life it seems every good thing or person gets ripped away. I'm terrified to be happy because I fear if I be happy some strange force is going to be upset that I am or som and cause tragedy to keep me miserable forever. I had a brother die and the ironic thing is his first name is the same as my husbands and I'm so paranoid about that like I couldn't deal with losing 2 ----s. My brothers death was recent so I feel like I just want some peace and rest before the next tragedy! I was in the mental hospital finally feeling better talking in group about how much I love my brother and a week after I was released and happy he died. Btw just for reference I am on no head medication for ptsd or anything... on to these numbers I keep seeing like number 34 in particular... I loooked at my planetery chart and saw it prominent in there alongside the other recurring numbers.. the problem is I can't read it ! Does anyone know how and would be willing to interpret it for me? My birthday is jan 25 1992 born in michigan at 932 am. Btw if this is anything bad please do not tell me ! Id rather not know ... I need someone to tell me its all good even if its bullshit.. I need to fucking relax.. please hep .. thank u for your time you're greatly appreciated!!!!!