rainbowbloodstain
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Since the beginning of this year I knew I wanted to join father Satan but my journey here wasn’t the best it was bumpy and tried to be blocked by the enemy. During the months of November and December I had some rough bumps of faith with the enemy. I tried meeting the devil (Not Lord Satan) which lead to bad things(and feelings) made me run to the false god. When I return I was gifted by him with a vision it was a nice vision(dream). It was a hill with the horizon coming down(or up it was hard to tell) and I saw a man there and it felt good and peaceful. After that I learn about the coat of many colors and I knew it was a vision, though unlike the boy in the story I was only given one not many. My doubt started to grow and my faith started to sway since I ask for more visions and did not get any.
My doubts grew and stop giving him my prays, my words, and my love and that night I said I would stop I been looking back into joy of Satan. I visit that site when I was younger back then I wondered about demons since me and my friends had been visited by one.... it had both good and bad sides to it. So that night I told my self with every ounce of energy I had that I would dedicate myself to the true God Lord Satan. Then I was given another vision. It was rapture I heard a voice telling my I had made my choice and this is my fate. The house I was in started to shake and the ground started to crack that is when I fell into the basement. I found a book in this basement, I wasn’t sure what it was but I knew it had great power... but other people wanted it I knew that.
I woke up thinking about my dream which felt more like a message, and any god willing to toss some one away wasn’t a god I want to serve. I kept thinking about that book... I think it was Lord Satan's book Al-Jilwah. I knew I want to head down this path, for about a week I did a some of research on it. Reading this group and exploring the JoS website. After reading about people who had done the dedication and those who *wanted* to do it... I did not want to be one of the people who wanted to do it. Despite being broke I said, I need to do this. Went to amazon spent less then 10 dollars got great incense and some black mini candles. The Incense came fast I was surprised though the candles had a lot of delays. Few weeks later (I did try and did do some meditations in the time being) I got them.
I felt so happy but I couldn’t do the dedication right away I live with people, I have almost zero privacy. So I waited trying to fund the moment where I would be alone I would of prefer it been a Thursday since I have the home to myself but the snow made their jobs close for that day. So I acted on a Monday which I have a lot less time to work with but I had everything ready to be set up with ease. So I did but not before doing some cleaning around the area... I felt it would have been disrespectful to do it in a dirty home. It didnt go a smooth as I had hope... I bled but not a lot got it on the paper wasn’t really enough to sign my name but I did had a lot of intention and I read it out loud. I went to burn it but not before knocking over the candle luckily it stayed lit and I burned the paper mostly only a small bit remain after checking the aftermath. I ended with a void meditation (its the only meditation I really have down) cleared my self of all thought and intentions which made me worry towards the end. I bitched the ending word so mote it be or what ever it suppose to be but I know I got it wrong but I did do a big HAIL SATAN hoping it would still work. (This was about 3 weeks ago.) I couldnt meditate aslong as I want or have my candle incense and all the stuff out before people came home... I dont think they would like it. I had to cut it short I know most people stay until the candle burns out but I didnt have the privacy Im guessing other members have.
I felt pretty bad after that, I felt like I botched the whole thing. I start to doubt if it work because all my flops. One about two days later... I get this feeling.. like energy it felt good... really good. Then that moment I knew I did it and something was letting me know I did. I felt pretty amazing since then, despite I have my worries about all the bad entities out there I know I have protection from my guardian. I just wanted to share my story maybe in hopes to inspire some of those people who want to do it and havent yet and just to let you guys know Im here and its great to be here.
Hail SATAN
My doubts grew and stop giving him my prays, my words, and my love and that night I said I would stop I been looking back into joy of Satan. I visit that site when I was younger back then I wondered about demons since me and my friends had been visited by one.... it had both good and bad sides to it. So that night I told my self with every ounce of energy I had that I would dedicate myself to the true God Lord Satan. Then I was given another vision. It was rapture I heard a voice telling my I had made my choice and this is my fate. The house I was in started to shake and the ground started to crack that is when I fell into the basement. I found a book in this basement, I wasn’t sure what it was but I knew it had great power... but other people wanted it I knew that.
I woke up thinking about my dream which felt more like a message, and any god willing to toss some one away wasn’t a god I want to serve. I kept thinking about that book... I think it was Lord Satan's book Al-Jilwah. I knew I want to head down this path, for about a week I did a some of research on it. Reading this group and exploring the JoS website. After reading about people who had done the dedication and those who *wanted* to do it... I did not want to be one of the people who wanted to do it. Despite being broke I said, I need to do this. Went to amazon spent less then 10 dollars got great incense and some black mini candles. The Incense came fast I was surprised though the candles had a lot of delays. Few weeks later (I did try and did do some meditations in the time being) I got them.
I felt so happy but I couldn’t do the dedication right away I live with people, I have almost zero privacy. So I waited trying to fund the moment where I would be alone I would of prefer it been a Thursday since I have the home to myself but the snow made their jobs close for that day. So I acted on a Monday which I have a lot less time to work with but I had everything ready to be set up with ease. So I did but not before doing some cleaning around the area... I felt it would have been disrespectful to do it in a dirty home. It didnt go a smooth as I had hope... I bled but not a lot got it on the paper wasn’t really enough to sign my name but I did had a lot of intention and I read it out loud. I went to burn it but not before knocking over the candle luckily it stayed lit and I burned the paper mostly only a small bit remain after checking the aftermath. I ended with a void meditation (its the only meditation I really have down) cleared my self of all thought and intentions which made me worry towards the end. I bitched the ending word so mote it be or what ever it suppose to be but I know I got it wrong but I did do a big HAIL SATAN hoping it would still work. (This was about 3 weeks ago.) I couldnt meditate aslong as I want or have my candle incense and all the stuff out before people came home... I dont think they would like it. I had to cut it short I know most people stay until the candle burns out but I didnt have the privacy Im guessing other members have.
I felt pretty bad after that, I felt like I botched the whole thing. I start to doubt if it work because all my flops. One about two days later... I get this feeling.. like energy it felt good... really good. Then that moment I knew I did it and something was letting me know I did. I felt pretty amazing since then, despite I have my worries about all the bad entities out there I know I have protection from my guardian. I just wanted to share my story maybe in hopes to inspire some of those people who want to do it and havent yet and just to let you guys know Im here and its great to be here.
Hail SATAN
maybe find a place outside the home that has privacy, like a wooded area or I find that my car is great for meditation! On a break from work or anytime really! Hail ENKI!!!
