Hello everyone! First... I am new to this... but eager to know more day by day. I am only 14, but I guarantee I AM NOT doing this for fun, I AM NOT doing this to "be cool". I do it, because I feel it. May weeks ago I have had lost my belief in God. My parents don't know it, because they are Christians, and I couldn't break my mother's heart telling her I think the whole Jesus crap is.... well, crap. I founded joyofsatan.org by mistake and as a self-proclaimed atheist, I said, why not give it a try. And... I believe it is true... I wanted answers... a religion that doesn't say "Believe and don't research". This is what got me away from Christianity.... thinking. The more I tough about my parents religion the sicker I was about it.
Also... my name is "Christian". "Cristian" in Romanian (my country and language). I even got my name because I was born on the day proceeding the easter Sunday or something like that. I am 14, I can't change my name! Nor I can tell people: "Stop calling me Christian, it's against me". Even I call myself Chris in my toughs
Is my name an impediment into being a true Satanist?
Also, I am not ready to dedicate my soul. I... let me formulate. I lived 14 years with hearing "God help us" every day, my mother preaching me to have faith (I love my mother beyond what ever she believes, please do not mock her). Yet, for the last days I mocked the christianity, made fun of it (yet my friends know I'm an atheist, I haven't told them I believe in Satan), I tried to make some close friends see how christianity pushes us and threatens we will be tortured in eternity if we don't believe, while Satanism has people that join because of their own free will. So I am not even close to my ex-religion.... but you must understand, somewhere in my subconscious, the phrase "Satan is evil" anchored and will take some time until I can fully accomodate with the ideea of being a satanist.
Does Father Satan feel mad on people like me? that need acomodation? And! Two days ffrom now I might have to recite an otrthodox poem (a little prayer) in wich I invocate Jesus.... I will need to do it, or else I am going to be looked upon by teachers.
Then... It's a friend of mine. He is really intelligent, top of the class in math/physics/chemistry, but he is a dedicated adventist (some branch of Christianity). Altrough he is so cultivated, and like me, open minded, he really believes in his god and... I really like his friendship, is there a problem if I am friends with one that never even goes out in saturdays because of his religion?
I am eager to start meditating right away... If I want to talk to someone about my demon... how can I do it?
Best regards,
Chris
Also... my name is "Christian". "Cristian" in Romanian (my country and language). I even got my name because I was born on the day proceeding the easter Sunday or something like that. I am 14, I can't change my name! Nor I can tell people: "Stop calling me Christian, it's against me". Even I call myself Chris in my toughs
Also, I am not ready to dedicate my soul. I... let me formulate. I lived 14 years with hearing "God help us" every day, my mother preaching me to have faith (I love my mother beyond what ever she believes, please do not mock her). Yet, for the last days I mocked the christianity, made fun of it (yet my friends know I'm an atheist, I haven't told them I believe in Satan), I tried to make some close friends see how christianity pushes us and threatens we will be tortured in eternity if we don't believe, while Satanism has people that join because of their own free will. So I am not even close to my ex-religion.... but you must understand, somewhere in my subconscious, the phrase "Satan is evil" anchored and will take some time until I can fully accomodate with the ideea of being a satanist.
Does Father Satan feel mad on people like me? that need acomodation? And! Two days ffrom now I might have to recite an otrthodox poem (a little prayer) in wich I invocate Jesus.... I will need to do it, or else I am going to be looked upon by teachers.
Then... It's a friend of mine. He is really intelligent, top of the class in math/physics/chemistry, but he is a dedicated adventist (some branch of Christianity). Altrough he is so cultivated, and like me, open minded, he really believes in his god and... I really like his friendship, is there a problem if I am friends with one that never even goes out in saturdays because of his religion?
I am eager to start meditating right away... If I want to talk to someone about my demon... how can I do it?
Best regards,
Chris