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Dalovey_wolf

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Okay so this is what happen I made a deal with my guardians and father. I don't know if the said yes or no but I had to ask for help. You see I am not one to up and fall in love. The thing is that I never have felt that push to anyone. Maybe not even the one and only boy I like in high school. I like girls also but I have always dreamed of belonging to a man. It's why I never dated I think. The man protects me ya know I dreamed of him alot as a child then when I came to you all I began to see him as more of a guardian then a love. I mean yes I have been kissed and there was sexual stuff but no one else said they had such thing so I began to put it in the friends section. Is something wrong with me that I can see a cute guy knowing he thinks I'm cute but still not want to be around him in that way. Well I met a guy and he was a cute one but he was a fast one. He thinks he loves me bit I know I know best. The thing is I keep thinking he is not the one but I want to give it time and I know I don't love him and i said it anyway. I tried meditating on it but my mind always whent to just stop he's right. I think I lost it I mean how could I love someone in a dream more then a real person even when I was a kid I alway thought he would come for me and now I find satanism and find out what's going down. The deal was of he don't show up then I will let him go. But he didn't just not show up I don't even have an email from him?was this the answer? I am not sad that he did this I think that makes me a bad person well kinda
 
I think the guys crazy to say he's in "love" already. I think you should concentrate on meditating and take your time into any kind of relationship with someone quick like that. As for your "dream guy" I think dreams are there to tell us things..I think maybe your dream guy is around. You just maybe have to be patient and you'll run into him one day. Meanwhile keep praising our Great Father Satan good ..luck.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Dalovey_wolf" <dharris791@... wrote:

Okay so this is what happen I made a deal with my guardians and father. I don't know if the said yes or no but I had to ask for help. You see I am not one to up and fall in love. The thing is that I never have felt that push to anyone. Maybe not even the one and only boy I like in high school. I like girls also but I have always dreamed of belonging to a man. It's why I never dated I think. The man protects me ya know I dreamed of him alot as a child then when I came to you all I began to see him as more of a guardian then a love. I mean yes I have been kissed and there was sexual stuff but no one else said they had such thing so I began to put it in the friends section. Is something wrong with me that I can see a cute guy knowing he thinks I'm cute but still not want to be around him in that way. Well I met a guy and he was a cute one but he was a fast one. He thinks he loves me bit I know I know best. The thing is I keep thinking he is not the one but I want to give it time and I know I don't love him and i said it anyway. I tried meditating on it but my mind always whent to just stop he's right. I think I lost it I mean how could I love someone in a dream more then a real person even when I was a kid I alway thought he would come for me and now I find satanism and find out what's going down. The deal was of he don't show up then I will let him go. But he didn't just not show up I don't even have an email from him?was this the answer? I am not sad that he did this I think that makes me a bad person well kinda
 
Ah, the affairs of the heart. *sighs dramatically and puts back of hand to forehead*
;)

Is it lust for this boy in your life, Friend?
That could be it, when you heart cries out otherwise.
Sometimes the ones we like know this, and play games with our heart and head. Cliched, but true.

As for your Guardian, that's pretty normal, I guess They are just being Themselves.

Hail Satan!




--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Dalovey_wolf" <dharris791@... wrote:

Okay so this is what happen I made a deal with my guardians and father. I don't know if the said yes or no but I had to ask for help. You see I am not one to up and fall in love. The thing is that I never have felt that push to anyone. Maybe not even the one and only boy I like in high school. I like girls also but I have always dreamed of belonging to a man. It's why I never dated I think. The man protects me ya know I dreamed of him alot as a child then when I came to you all I began to see him as more of a guardian then a love. I mean yes I have been kissed and there was sexual stuff but no one else said they had such thing so I began to put it in the friends section. Is something wrong with me that I can see a cute guy knowing he thinks I'm cute but still not want to be around him in that way. Well I met a guy and he was a cute one but he was a fast one. He thinks he loves me bit I know I know best. The thing is I keep thinking he is not the one but I want to give it time and I know I don't love him and i said it anyway. I tried meditating on it but my mind always whent to just stop he's right. I think I lost it I mean how could I love someone in a dream more then a real person even when I was a kid I alway thought he would come for me and now I find satanism and find out what's going down. The deal was of he don't show up then I will let him go. But he didn't just not show up I don't even have an email from him?was this the answer? I am not sad that he did this I think that makes me a bad person well kinda
 

Al Jilwah: Chapter IV

"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Shaitan

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