Multiple Personalities and Fathers Gender

[ukitsu43]

I think that I suffer from dissociative identity disorders. It can help and hurt at sometimes. But do you think that it is a blessing or a curse? I think one or a few of my alters knows what happened in my childhood because I cant remember a lot of it. And Im not sure that I want to either. Also, Ive been talking to a youtuber. VenusSatanas? Or Somethin like it. And she has a theory that Satan or Lucifer was also refered to as the morning star or lightbearer and is a feminine entity. Is that a possibility? It seems like that could certainly be true.