Lossing my faith in Satanism

[xxdarkbeautyxx]

With my reasons for lossing my faith I will be pretty broad, just because there are too many to list.

It seems like the Gods and Father are just fucking with us, watching and choicing who drowns in their own misery and obtains a little enlightment in their controled life. Lately I have been reading the subject on the dog and Haures and it seems like the spiritual satanist are being way to harsh on the guy with the dieing dog and are not taking his feelings into account on the subject. If he really did all he said to help his dog why did Haures not help or at the very least explain why the lack of help.

On another situtation I have been practicing power meditation for over 7 months now and have yet to see much change in anything, I still can even see or feel auras. I even went to the extend to create a few of my own meditations, yet still nothing.

Now on the reincarnation note, we have pretty much zero real freedom in are death and rebirth. The sermon I read from I think Seth said that Father sets the exact time we die and what body we reincarnate into. If he sets the time we die he must also set are live as if we had freedom over are lives we would naturally die at different time periods, based on are OWN actions. Also if the souls we have were reincarnated doesn't that mean that we don't technial have are own souls just some used up one.

On the note revolving around having sexual relationships with a Demon/Demoness. Now this one is questionable because it could be my lack of power, but that just brings back up the above situation with the energyless power meditation. I have performed the ritual stating that I wanted to have a relationship with Vepar, and for months I dreamed of having sexual intercourse with Vepar, yet still I couldn't even see a image of her in my mind.

On another mediation note curcerning opening the chakras. I have performed the opening meditations around 5-6 times each for every chakra, I even performed breathing techniques to get energy flowing to them before the actually opening. And I still can even feel my chakras.

Now I know I'll get replys back saying I'm a idiot and don't know what I speak of, or that I'm blasmping aganist Father and the Gods, or that I got attacked by an angel or grey and that is why I am lossing my faith, or maybe even that I'm thinking to hard on this. But before you say any of these please take my feelings into account and try to feel the confusion that I feel, and just understand my situation.

 

[Lucian Black]

<td val[/IMG]first fate is an illusion fate does not exists, nothing is planned, the future is subjective, it can always change if father points out the exact moment of our death then he must expect our reactions but if we choose another path or others choose it for us, then we have changed the future, farther can only create a path you're the one who can choose it.
also there are more ways to work magick than the ones displayed on the JoS...

--- On Mon, 3/16/09, xxdarkbeautyxx <xxdarkbeautyxx@... wrote:

From: xxdarkbeautyxx <xxdarkbeautyxx@...
Subject: [Teens4Satan] Lossing my faith in Satanism
To: [email protected]
Date: Monday, March 16, 2009, 9:34 AM

With my reasons for lossing my faith I will be pretty broad, just because there are too many to list.

It seems like the Gods and Father are just fucking with us, watching and choicing who drowns in their own misery and obtains a little enlightment in their controled life. Lately I have been reading the subject on the dog and Haures and it seems like the spiritual satanist are being way to harsh on the guy with the dieing dog and are not taking his feelings into account on the subject. If he really did all he said to help his dog why did Haures not help or at the very least explain why the lack of help.

On another situtation I have been practicing power meditation for over 7 months now and have yet to see much change in anything, I still can even see or feel auras. I even went to the extend to create a few of my own meditations, yet still nothing.

Now on the reincarnation note, we have pretty much zero real freedom in are death and rebirth. The sermon I read from I think Seth said that Father sets the exact time we die and what body we reincarnate into. If he sets the time we die he must also set are live as if we had freedom over are lives we would naturally die at different time periods, based on are OWN actions. Also if the souls we have were reincarnated doesn't that mean that we don't technial have are own souls just some used up one.

On the note revolving around having sexual relationships with a Demon/Demoness. Now this one is questionable because it could be my lack of power, but that just brings back up the above situation with the energyless power meditation. I have performed the ritual stating that I wanted to have a relationship with Vepar, and for months I dreamed of having sexual intercourse with Vepar, yet still I couldn't even see a image of her in my mind.

On another mediation note curcerning opening the chakras. I have performed the opening meditations around 5-6 times each for every chakra, I even performed breathing techniques to get energy flowing to them before the actually opening. And I still can even feel my chakras.

Now I know I'll get replys back saying I'm a idiot and don't know what I speak of, or that I'm blasmping aganist Father and the Gods, or that I got attacked by an angel or grey and that is why I am lossing my faith, or maybe even that I'm thinking to hard on this. But before you say any of these please take my feelings into account and try to feel the confusion that I feel, and just understand my situation.

[/TD]

 

[her majesty]

from reading what u wrote, im not going to call u an idiot or anything like that because i can promise you with my heart that everyone in this group felt the same way at one point of time in their satanic lives. you stated that you have been practicing for only 7 months. to your dismay, that is too short. some of us are naturally gifted so it may seem like we're more advanced, but we still need to practice. like me for example, i can make conatct with any deities, whenever i want. but that doesnt mean i dont get them confuse with an enemy. one time, i thought i was talking to father, until later, found out it was an angel playing around with me. i dont meditate like u do. im too lazy for it, thats one reason and secondly, i cant find the time to do it. there's no way i can tell you that this is real, except from my own expereinces. but even then, there are times i question myself whether or not the things i felt, or saw are real or not. im a dedicated satanist for two and a half years now. i can tell you that i felt the same way at first. for the first one and a half year of my satanic life, i didnt feel any different. i really thought that i was just hoping for nothing. but then , after i waited, and advacning myself furthur, there is change. i tried summoning a demon once too, and it failed miserably. now, i can summon and feel them there. this is real, i know it is. there are still times when im sad, i doubt everything in my life. but u have to know that it is normal. we're humans. we're not gods. these type of feelings are normal for us human to feel. as for your question abou reincarnation and what that guy said. i wouldnt put down my bet on it. we dont really trully know what happens after we die. everyone has a different answer to that question. whether father chose the time or not, whether our soul is the same or not. we dont know that. wll if u need anything just email me using that address.

her majesty

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "xxdarkbeautyxx" <xxdarkbeautyxx@... wrote:

With my reasons for lossing my faith I will be pretty broad, just because there are too many to list.

It seems like the Gods and Father are just fucking with us, watching and choicing who drowns in their own misery and obtains a little enlightment in their controled life. Lately I have been reading the subject on the dog and Haures and it seems like the spiritual satanist are being way to harsh on the guy with the dieing dog and are not taking his feelings into account on the subject. If he really did all he said to help his dog why did Haures not help or at the very least explain why the lack of help.

On another situtation I have been practicing power meditation for over 7 months now and have yet to see much change in anything, I still can even see or feel auras. I even went to the extend to create a few of my own meditations, yet still nothing.

Now on the reincarnation note, we have pretty much zero real freedom in are death and rebirth. The sermon I read from I think Seth said that Father sets the exact time we die and what body we reincarnate into. If he sets the time we die he must also set are live as if we had freedom over are lives we would naturally die at different time periods, based on are OWN actions. Also if the souls we have were reincarnated doesn't that mean that we don't technial have are own souls just some used up one.

On the note revolving around having sexual relationships with a Demon/Demoness. Now this one is questionable because it could be my lack of power, but that just brings back up the above situation with the energyless power meditation. I have performed the ritual stating that I wanted to have a relationship with Vepar, and for months I dreamed of having sexual intercourse with Vepar, yet still I couldn't even see a image of her in my mind.

On another mediation note curcerning opening the chakras. I have performed the opening meditations around 5-6 times each for every chakra, I even performed breathing techniques to get energy flowing to them before the actually opening. And I still can even feel my chakras.

Now I know I'll get replys back saying I'm a idiot and don't know what I speak of, or that I'm blasmping aganist Father and the Gods, or that I got attacked by an angel or grey and that is why I am lossing my faith, or maybe even that I'm thinking to hard on this. But before you say any of these please take my feelings into account and try to feel the confusion that I feel, and just understand my situation.

 

[nastilles]

Hey am not a satanist but i think i have been an occultist long enough to answer you this questions. i have been personally doing the meditations on JoS even though i am still a right hand path magician and i can say they do work so probably the problems is with you. i started doing the meditations since in my order there are no meditation instructions and our instructors are so much fucked up so it leaves the student to research on everything so that didnt work for me. The good thing about magickians is that we make our own rules as long as they conform to nature and our will. that is for me. I would suggest you try to follow the procedure step by step since any alteration would mean something else. For me the meditations are like rituals and they should be treated like one and so look for one that ssuits you and follow it to the latter and i can assure you that it will work out. i used to be like you and now i think am heading places. JoS has really helped everybody in occult generally by compiling all that info in one website. Any question?

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "xxdarkbeautyxx" <xxdarkbeautyxx@... wrote:

With my reasons for lossing my faith I will be pretty broad, just because there are too many to list.

It seems like the Gods and Father are just fucking with us, watching and choicing who drowns in their own misery and obtains a little enlightment in their controled life. Lately I have been reading the subject on the dog and Haures and it seems like the spiritual satanist are being way to harsh on the guy with the dieing dog and are not taking his feelings into account on the subject. If he really did all he said to help his dog why did Haures not help or at the very least explain why the lack of help.

On another situtation I have been practicing power meditation for over 7 months now and have yet to see much change in anything, I still can even see or feel auras. I even went to the extend to create a few of my own meditations, yet still nothing.

Now on the reincarnation note, we have pretty much zero real freedom in are death and rebirth. The sermon I read from I think Seth said that Father sets the exact time we die and what body we reincarnate into. If he sets the time we die he must also set are live as if we had freedom over are lives we would naturally die at different time periods, based on are OWN actions. Also if the souls we have were reincarnated doesn't that mean that we don't technial have are own souls just some used up one.

On the note revolving around having sexual relationships with a Demon/Demoness. Now this one is questionable because it could be my lack of power, but that just brings back up the above situation with the energyless power meditation. I have performed the ritual stating that I wanted to have a relationship with Vepar, and for months I dreamed of having sexual intercourse with Vepar, yet still I couldn't even see a image of her in my mind.

On another mediation note curcerning opening the chakras. I have performed the opening meditations around 5-6 times each for every chakra, I even performed breathing techniques to get energy flowing to them before the actually opening. And I still can even feel my chakras.

Now I know I'll get replys back saying I'm a idiot and don't know what I speak of, or that I'm blasmping aganist Father and the Gods, or that I got attacked by an angel or grey and that is why I am lossing my faith, or maybe even that I'm thinking to hard on this. But before you say any of these please take my feelings into account and try to feel the confusion that I feel, and just understand my situation.

 

[High Priestess Maxine Dietrich]

Too many people have been indoctrinated with xianity. Satan and his Demons do not wave a magic wand and make everything 100% fine. I have healed several loved ones, including pets. Satan guided me through a healing for one of my cats. She still had to get surgery. Her uterus had pyometria and needed to be removed. I have also healed myself from some pretty bad health problems.

Satan and his Demons are not 100% powerful, yet they have given many of us help and also are trying to help humanity. The enemy has power too. Satan gives us the knowledge we need to take charge of our own lives. I have worked very hard for Satan for many years now. He has always been there for me and has always gotten me through, but I know I must use my own powers and work continuously in amplifying them. One of my pets had a serious disease. I healed her. To do this, I worked very hard. Satan halped me, but I did everything I could do and this meant 2 sessions of hatha yoga a day and more meditation, breathing exercises and so forth. I had to apply healing energies several times a day in the beginning. I did this for 2-3 weeks from a full to new moon to banish the disease.

Point being- this took a lot of energy. Satan and his Demons are not energy banks that everyone can draw upon to make their own miracles. Granted, when one is new, one is helped out, in many cases plenty, but we are expected to use our own energies and powers.

As for 7 months into meditation, is this without skipping a single day?

No, you are not an idiot. My advice to you is to continue on. I have been meditating for years and also doing hatha yoga which is exceptionally powerful in raising energies for many, many years, though on and off before I came to Satan.

I have experienced many of Satan's miracles. he has always been there for me in my time of need, but I am expected to use my own powers and this is for everyone else too. To take charge of our own lives, to be independent and have self-esteem, we need to become Gods in our own right. This is what Satanism is all about. The Powers of Hell are stretched thin right now. There are priorities.

As for the dog, yes, this is sad, but if the dog's kidneys were failed real bad and there were other severe health problems, sometimes this is too much. One of my cats got real sick. I wasn't able to raise enough energy in the short of time I had and I failed to heal him, though I gave it 1,000%. We had to rush him to the vet where he had emergency surgery.

I strongly suggest you continue on and stick with this. 7 months is not enough. Try hatha yoga as well. After a few weeks, if you do hatha yoga every single day consistently, you will definitely feel your witchpower and aura.

http://www.666blacksun.com/Yoga.html

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "xxdarkbeautyxx" <xxdarkbeautyxx@... wrote:

With my reasons for lossing my faith I will be pretty broad, just because there are too many to list.

It seems like the Gods and Father are just fucking with us, watching and choicing who drowns in their own misery and obtains a little enlightment in their controled life. Lately I have been reading the subject on the dog and Haures and it seems like the spiritual satanist are being way to harsh on the guy with the dieing dog and are not taking his feelings into account on the subject. If he really did all he said to help his dog why did Haures not help or at the very least explain why the lack of help.

On another situtation I have been practicing power meditation for over 7 months now and have yet to see much change in anything, I still can even see or feel auras. I even went to the extend to create a few of my own meditations, yet still nothing.

Now on the reincarnation note, we have pretty much zero real freedom in are death and rebirth. The sermon I read from I think Seth said that Father sets the exact time we die and what body we reincarnate into. If he sets the time we die he must also set are live as if we had freedom over are lives we would naturally die at different time periods, based on are OWN actions. Also if the souls we have were reincarnated doesn't that mean that we don't technial have are own souls just some used up one.

On the note revolving around having sexual relationships with a Demon/Demoness. Now this one is questionable because it could be my lack of power, but that just brings back up the above situation with the energyless power meditation. I have performed the ritual stating that I wanted to have a relationship with Vepar, and for months I dreamed of having sexual intercourse with Vepar, yet still I couldn't even see a image of her in my mind.

On another mediation note curcerning opening the chakras. I have performed the opening meditations around 5-6 times each for every chakra, I even performed breathing techniques to get energy flowing to them before the actually opening. And I still can even feel my chakras.

Now I know I'll get replys back saying I'm a idiot and don't know what I speak of, or that I'm blasmping aganist Father and the Gods, or that I got attacked by an angel or grey and that is why I am lossing my faith, or maybe even that I'm thinking to hard on this. But before you say any of these please take my feelings into account and try to feel the confusion that I feel, and just understand my situation.

 

[midnight_rose_91]

I don't think you're an idiot at all. From the looks of it, nobody else thinks that either. I do think you're learning something, though. You can say you're going to be this or that forever, but beliefs do change over time, so it's best not to claim that but enjoy being what you are for as long as it will last. (you'll probably come back anyways, more experienced than before.)

What you decide to do is up to you and you alone. No one should tell you what to do, or what is the right choice because really, only you know what is best for you.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "xxdarkbeautyxx" <xxdarkbeautyxx@... wrote:

With my reasons for lossing my faith I will be pretty broad, just because there are too many to list.

It seems like the Gods and Father are just fucking with us, watching and choicing who drowns in their own misery and obtains a little enlightment in their controled life. Lately I have been reading the subject on the dog and Haures and it seems like the spiritual satanist are being way to harsh on the guy with the dieing dog and are not taking his feelings into account on the subject. If he really did all he said to help his dog why did Haures not help or at the very least explain why the lack of help.

On another situtation I have been practicing power meditation for over 7 months now and have yet to see much change in anything, I still can even see or feel auras. I even went to the extend to create a few of my own meditations, yet still nothing.

Now on the reincarnation note, we have pretty much zero real freedom in are death and rebirth. The sermon I read from I think Seth said that Father sets the exact time we die and what body we reincarnate into. If he sets the time we die he must also set are live as if we had freedom over are lives we would naturally die at different time periods, based on are OWN actions. Also if the souls we have were reincarnated doesn't that mean that we don't technial have are own souls just some used up one.

On the note revolving around having sexual relationships with a Demon/Demoness. Now this one is questionable because it could be my lack of power, but that just brings back up the above situation with the energyless power meditation. I have performed the ritual stating that I wanted to have a relationship with Vepar, and for months I dreamed of having sexual intercourse with Vepar, yet still I couldn't even see a image of her in my mind.

On another mediation note curcerning opening the chakras. I have performed the opening meditations around 5-6 times each for every chakra, I even performed breathing techniques to get energy flowing to them before the actually opening. And I still can even feel my chakras.

Now I know I'll get replys back saying I'm a idiot and don't know what I speak of, or that I'm blasmping aganist Father and the Gods, or that I got attacked by an angel or grey and that is why I am lossing my faith, or maybe even that I'm thinking to hard on this. But before you say any of these please take my feelings into account and try to feel the confusion that I feel, and just understand my situation.

 

[Korey Dansy]

I thank you for the reply. Every once in a while I skipped days but the days I did meditation I was doing them 2-3 times a day, each time over a hour each. I have but one question to ask of you, What is a good hatha yoga site? I can't seem to find any with at least a list of meditations.

From: High Priestess Maxine Dietrich <maxine.dietrich@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Tuesday, March 17, 2009 12:41:47 PM
Subject: [Teens4Satan] Re: Lossing my faith in Satanism



Too many people have been indoctrinated with xianity. Satan and his Demons do not wave a magic wand and make everything 100% fine. I have healed several loved ones, including pets. Satan guided me through a healing for one of my cats.. She still had to get surgery. Her uterus had pyometria and needed to be removed. I have also healed myself from some pretty bad health problems.

Satan and his Demons are not 100% powerful, yet they have given many of us help and also are trying to help humanity. The enemy has power too. Satan gives us the knowledge we need to take charge of our own lives. I have worked very hard for Satan for many years now. He has always been there for me and has always gotten me through, but I know I must use my own powers and work continuously in amplifying them. One of my pets had a serious disease. I healed her. To do this, I worked very hard. Satan halped me, but I did everything I could do and this meant 2 sessions of hatha yoga a day and more meditation, breathing exercises and so forth. I had to apply healing energies several times a day in the beginning. I did this for 2-3 weeks from a full to new moon to banish the disease.

Point being- this took a lot of energy. Satan and his Demons are not energy banks that everyone can draw upon to make their own miracles. Granted, when one is new, one is helped out, in many cases plenty, but we are expected to use our own energies and powers.

As for 7 months into meditation, is this without skipping a single day?

No, you are not an idiot. My advice to you is to continue on. I have been meditating for years and also doing hatha yoga which is exceptionally powerful in raising energies for many, many years, though on and off before I came to Satan.

I have experienced many of Satan's miracles. he has always been there for me in my time of need, but I am expected to use my own powers and this is for everyone else too. To take charge of our own lives, to be independent and have self-esteem, we need to become Gods in our own right. This is what Satanism is all about. The Powers of Hell are stretched thin right now. There are priorities.

As for the dog, yes, this is sad, but if the dog's kidneys were failed real bad and there were other severe health problems, sometimes this is too much. One of my cats got real sick. I wasn't able to raise enough energy in the short of time I had and I failed to heal him, though I gave it 1,000%. We had to rush him to the vet where he had emergency surgery.

I strongly suggest you continue on and stick with this.. 7 months is not enough. Try hatha yoga as well. After a few weeks, if you do hatha yoga every single day consistently, you will definitely feel your witchpower and aura.

http://www.666black sun.com/Yoga. html

--- In Teens4Satan@ yahoogroups. com, "xxdarkbeautyxx" <xxdarkbeautyxx@ ... wrote:

With my reasons for lossing my faith I will be pretty broad, just because there are too many to list.

It seems like the Gods and Father are just fucking with us, watching and choicing who drowns in their own misery and obtains a little enlightment in their controled life. Lately I have been reading the subject on the dog and Haures and it seems like the spiritual satanist are being way to harsh on the guy with the dieing dog and are not taking his feelings into account on the subject. If he really did all he said to help his dog why did Haures not help or at the very least explain why the lack of help.

On another situtation I have been practicing power meditation for over 7 months now and have yet to see much change in anything, I still can even see or feel auras. I even went to the extend to create a few of my own meditations, yet still nothing.

Now on the reincarnation note, we have pretty much zero real freedom in are death and rebirth. The sermon I read from I think Seth said that Father sets the exact time we die and what body we reincarnate into. If he sets the time we die he must also set are live as if we had freedom over are lives we would naturally die at different time periods, based on are OWN actions. Also if the souls we have were reincarnated doesn't that mean that we don't technial have are own souls just some used up one.

On the note revolving around having sexual relationships with a Demon/Demoness. Now this one is questionable because it could be my lack of power, but that just brings back up the above situation with the energyless power meditation. I have performed the ritual stating that I wanted to have a relationship with Vepar, and for months I dreamed of having sexual intercourse with Vepar, yet still I couldn't even see a image of her in my mind.

On another mediation note curcerning opening the chakras. I have performed the opening meditations around 5-6 times each for every chakra, I even performed breathing techniques to get energy flowing to them before the actually opening. And I still can even feel my chakras.

Now I know I'll get replys back saying I'm a idiot and don't know what I speak of, or that I'm blasmping aganist Father and the Gods, or that I got attacked by an angel or grey and that is why I am lossing my faith, or maybe even that I'm thinking to hard on this. But before you say any of these please take my feelings into account and try to feel the confusion that I feel, and just understand my situation.

 

[chandan.isidore]

yeah i think we might have misunderstood about satan and sumerian god enki........................

you can identify by reading in lost book of enki........

in that they said enki created us...............he created everything and also gods came to earth in search of gold.........i thought gods are capable of creating planets and universe and all
can't they create a metal named gold........

 

[[email protected]]

Look my mom is christian i've been baptized and confirmed and guess what!!! I can feel aura's no trouble I've found so many things from people without even talking to them...Look what you need to know is that some people are born with it and some people have a lot of trouble...My mom has insane ammounts of power I "accidently" brought Belial into our house and she banished him without a sweat...Power is MOSTLY herriditary...but everyone has THEIR OWN power...Don't give up just because you arn't immediatley good at something...I was horribly at school for a long time i had around a 1.5 gpa for soooo long but as soon as i hit high school it became easy...I'm trying to show you that not everything ever and even with the Father and or God nothing is EVER easy never and i swear to you you have to work for whatever you want otherwise something will beat the shit out of you for demanding you...If you want something badly GO FOR IT...if you can't do something...well guess what YOU CAN!!! it's called practice personally for aura reading imagine the 64 chalkra points and imagine them as spheres and make them one solid color on the outside but make the spheres transparent and put every color you can think of inside those spheres...Then imagine the shadow of a person forming around those spheres...After that pulls threads of transparent color with swirling colors inside it to every joint and chalkra point in the shadow...Give the shadow the form and look of someone you know...Then with your third eye look at that person next time you see them and concentrate...You WILL NOT see their feelings when you draw this pattern...YOU WILL *FEEL* THEIR aura pulsing off of them and when you feel like your running on empty do what I do...Pull power off of them...I'm really sad to admit but i tried out for football this year and i imagined a phsyclone off of all their chalkra points and pulled as hard as I could...I could literally feel their energy inside me and It made the other guy so tired he couldn't see straight...It was wrong I admit but work at what I told you and you will feel a constant pressure in your forehead because your third eye will be so large that you will constantly have so much energy stored that you can constantly see anyones aura...That's how I was taught hope it helps also if you don't have heridetary powers it DOES NOT matter you can still work hard and get them... (I know I can't spell so don't comment on that please...)