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Due to this being a family matter and also going to be giving out personal information I figured it would be best to ask here.
My mother is an elderly women who was raised very Xian and has many issues. I've been able to chip away at her faith my entire life, and she is even ok with hearing me meditate and vibrate: though I do keep parts that would make her notice things on the quite side. She however is someone who is very attention seeking and lonely and I believe it's why we are connected because "goofiness" is within us.
She seeks to be the life of the party in many ways and has a bloated ego over it due to a life of people affirming she is awesome due to growing up around many low quality people. This isn't to say I myself don't have those same issues which is of course we are good for each other so we can grow off one another but for a very long time now I've noticed that it's as if she psychically attacks me often.
She will do little things that no matter what lead to us coming to blows on purpose, I very highly doubt she is aware of it, and or it's as if I can't stop thinking about her which as far as I know is feeding a system energy.
She is a sickly person and literally has outright stated and believes she doesn't want to do better or anything of the like. I understand I have to respect it but I don't want to stand for someone being a vampire to me. If I want to do and be better I'm aware my focus needs to be on my evolution.
So I ask you my wiser family members what exactly makes someone a vampire in plain terms? Can anyone be one, even someone who births a Zevist? I don't want to over react at all but if she is indeed one than I will have to make the hard choice and leave her be to rot on her own. I just want to know if I should commit to this relationship or not because I want to but if it's unhealthy than I'll have to take my losses and accept she's pretty much already gone.
The recent sermon on death has given me the motivation to ask such things if anyone is wondering as to why I'm asking. I had successfully tranced out and felt amazing afterwards until I got around her. She needled me and as always I have a harder time letting go than with other things. I am aware of a great amount of hate I bare towards her due to my childhood but I don't actively even feel it. So I'm not even sure if you could call it that I just know when I was younger I always desisted her for smoking around me even though it made it so I couldn't breath. Staying with an abuser cause "she thought it was the right thing to do" ect. All she has is endless excuses and for the most part I deal with them and know I have to give that break due to myself needing them as well cause that's just how you learn to be a better person. I offer this context so it can be used to judge the situation more honestly.
Prominent Neptune is someone I have as well so overreacting and hypersensitivity is also an issue of mine. Thank you for any responses and criticism if it can help me grow.
My mother is an elderly women who was raised very Xian and has many issues. I've been able to chip away at her faith my entire life, and she is even ok with hearing me meditate and vibrate: though I do keep parts that would make her notice things on the quite side. She however is someone who is very attention seeking and lonely and I believe it's why we are connected because "goofiness" is within us.
She seeks to be the life of the party in many ways and has a bloated ego over it due to a life of people affirming she is awesome due to growing up around many low quality people. This isn't to say I myself don't have those same issues which is of course we are good for each other so we can grow off one another but for a very long time now I've noticed that it's as if she psychically attacks me often.
She will do little things that no matter what lead to us coming to blows on purpose, I very highly doubt she is aware of it, and or it's as if I can't stop thinking about her which as far as I know is feeding a system energy.
She is a sickly person and literally has outright stated and believes she doesn't want to do better or anything of the like. I understand I have to respect it but I don't want to stand for someone being a vampire to me. If I want to do and be better I'm aware my focus needs to be on my evolution.
So I ask you my wiser family members what exactly makes someone a vampire in plain terms? Can anyone be one, even someone who births a Zevist? I don't want to over react at all but if she is indeed one than I will have to make the hard choice and leave her be to rot on her own. I just want to know if I should commit to this relationship or not because I want to but if it's unhealthy than I'll have to take my losses and accept she's pretty much already gone.
The recent sermon on death has given me the motivation to ask such things if anyone is wondering as to why I'm asking. I had successfully tranced out and felt amazing afterwards until I got around her. She needled me and as always I have a harder time letting go than with other things. I am aware of a great amount of hate I bare towards her due to my childhood but I don't actively even feel it. So I'm not even sure if you could call it that I just know when I was younger I always desisted her for smoking around me even though it made it so I couldn't breath. Staying with an abuser cause "she thought it was the right thing to do" ect. All she has is endless excuses and for the most part I deal with them and know I have to give that break due to myself needing them as well cause that's just how you learn to be a better person. I offer this context so it can be used to judge the situation more honestly.
Prominent Neptune is someone I have as well so overreacting and hypersensitivity is also an issue of mine. Thank you for any responses and criticism if it can help me grow.
