Michele Davis
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I meditate everyday. During this same time I speak to our Father Satan and to my Garden Demon. I thank them both. I speak to Father Satan differently than I do my Garden Demon. After meditating and giving Father Satan all the praise, gratitude and just thankful for all that SATAN gives his people. For the love that he gives me and for him to allow me to be one of his. I'm proud to be one of our Lord Satan. When I speak to mine Guardian demon it's peaceful. There's a connection that I've never had with anything before. It's a connection to where you can ask anyting and know that you're getting a truthful answer. It's not all about what I want or what I want to be given to me. It's a personal conversation for demons and humans. I'm peaceful from the minute that I start meditating. I think my guardian demon and tell him goodnight. But from the time I wake up in the morning to the time that I can finally go meditate in private then from the time that I am done talking to you my guardian demon and walk out back into the main part of this house I feel drained. You can see just the negativity and just a cloud of Doom that is smothering that runs through this house. I've said this in a past post unfortunately until my boyfriend gets back from this Contracting job that myself and my daughter are stuck here. I live with my mother she's also an enemy to me. There's so much that has fell all over me for so many years because of her. My adopted so-called brother that she brought in the house he was allowed to molest me. She claims she didn't know. I call bullshit on that she was a stay-at-home parent and we did not live in a big house. For right at 6 years, it started when I was five. I might remember if you add up everyday I might remember 30 days out of those six years. I lost my childhood. Instead of her confronting him, I knew it wouldn't do any good and I didn't even tell her or my dad until I was like 29. My dad couldn't stand the little bastard anyways and told my mom that he better not ever come around or he would kill him. However my mom still doesn't believe me. Then she decided to tell me after my father died on Christmas morning 2012 that she always resented my dad and myself. Then proceeded to tell me it's because she never wanted to get pregnant again. She has shown me that resentment my whole entire life. She makes my life horrible just incredibly horrible that I can't even imagine to try to explain. I honestly loathe her. I can't even look at her without wanted to throw a baseball at her Head. I really can't even put into words of how Wicked she is. Not just because of her religion and Bible beating BULLSHIT. Not just because of how selfish and self-centered she is. She's just hateful I mean honestly hateful Wicked bitch. No one around her is ever able to just breathe and be happy and not have to sidestep every single minute. My sister and my niece like nobody none of her family what's to come over here because of her her attitude it's HORRIBLE. When I meditate tonight during that time I am going to ask Father Satan to show me away to deal with this. Ask Father Satan Have him help me not have to be measurable here while I have to be. I hate this life here with her. I want my daughter and I out of here. I know that as soon as my sweet loving soon to be husband boyfriend of mine gets back then we'll be with him in his home. Happiest with love all around us. It's just the challenge of waiting until he gets back that I'm having a problem with. IF anyone has any suggestions whatsoever please please please feel free to share those with me because right now I'm at a loss and I'm just drained all the time.
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