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deadizbetter

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I would also ask if there is anyway that I could be given a little advise on wanting to be dead. You have said this a common theme lately. what's going on? I've grown to aceept that most people do not underdstand my spirituality but it seems like I am still far from jumping back on the boat of life and happiness well I don't even dream about being happy anymore. At times I feel in between life and death already.It is not easy being on this world. There's so much happening in the human world that just makes me sick.
unfortunately- even music and writing does not shake away the disgust.The only thing holding me here is I must like the pain a little- I guess I know I have not done what I am here to do yet, but admittedly that matters less and less as of late.
 
The enemy has really been trying to pull me away from Father. And there were 2-3 people before you talking about ending it. I think the enemy is really trying to hit the group lately. I now have a thoughtform or something that sucks at my heart chakra when ever I meditate and whatever I do I can't seem to get rid of it. I have had huge outbursts of anger then saddness then anger then saddness and really strong too. So I know the enemy has really been after me and like I said it seems like the group has been being attacked alot. Actually, I think some brothers and sisters from the Hell's army group was trying to get some of us to join up and a warning about the enemy. So do not kill yourself cause this is definetly the enemy amping up or something. I tried doing some of the things HP V. wrote about and the thoughtform still sucks on my chakras and trys to pull them out whenever I meditate and its almost imposible to do it now. lol, lately I have really really been exercising my hate for the enemy. Anyways, do not kill yourself cause I also now have been experiencing the lack of interest in things and just KNOW it is the enemy pushing on us. Do not give in/give up as the enemy is trying to make you do just that. We all just have to keep on going and push through it. (to the group -) Also, I just now realized that my paranoid skitsofrenic JW father found out about what my beliefs are and that was a few days before I had the paralized attack thing happen and then the blood sucker that will not let me meditate, do you think he is praying for me or something?



Hail Father Satan and the Gods of Old!







--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "deadizbetter" <jenneagle79@... wrote:

I would also ask if there is anyway that I could be given a little advise on wanting to be dead. You have said this a common theme lately. what's going on? I've grown to aceept that most people do not underdstand my spirituality but it seems like I am still far from jumping back on the boat of life and happiness well I don't even dream about being happy anymore. At times I feel in between life and death already.It is not easy being on this world. There's so much happening in the human world that just makes me sick.
unfortunately- even music and writing does not shake away the disgust.The only thing holding me here is I must like the pain a little- I guess I know I have not done what I am here to do yet, but admittedly that matters less and less as of late.
 
Yes, the enemy is attacking with a vengeance right now. But, it only means we must attack harder. They are strong, but we are stronger. Why? Because we have the Truth. We are of Satan, and we are winning! Always remember, they attack so desperately because they are slipping. But we must not stop until they are totally and utterly destroyed!   I advise everyone to repeat the Severing of the Link given by High Priest Vovim Baghie <em>at least</em> once every two days. The enemy will keep putting it back. Destroy it again and again until they eventually give up.   You cannot afford to give into the tactics of the enemy. Any doubts, negative thoughts, etc concerning Father Satan and his truth, are implanted by the enemy. Therefore, if you know where they are coming from, they need not affect you.   The enemy will try and try and try to bring you down, more so if you are a big threat to them, but if you are strong and if you fight and Trust in Satan, they will not succeed. If they cannot get to you Spiritually, they will try physically through family members, friends, various situations etc. A close friend might suddenly reject you for your beliefs, family might harass you or "pray" for you causing mild psychic attack, you might get stuck with a seemingly impossible situation that causes frustration and upset in your life, all of these are attempts from the enemy to bring you down.    Many who come here end up falling away, back into xianity, because they are not strong. They give in. True Satanists, those who are really meant to be here, will never give in, no matter what they are faced with. This is not an easy path. Not at all. But definitely, the most rewarding.   You have to keep fighting relentlessly. If something is attacking you, fight it until it is destroyed.   And above all, you need to focus on Power Meditation and advancing Spiritually!! Psychic warfare is of utmost importance.   Everyone who truly wishes to fight the enemy and dedicate themselves as a Satanic Warrior should join the Hells Army Group. We need to be united, and we need to be able to guide eachother, help eachother and work together. This group gives us a means of doing that.   Hail Father Satan!
 
From: thesataniclazy <thesataniclazy@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Mon, March 29, 2010 11:07:39 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: in reponse to death

  The enemy has really been trying to pull me away from Father. And there were 2-3 people before you talking about ending it. I think the enemy is really trying to hit the group lately. I now have a thoughtform or something that sucks at my heart chakra when ever I meditate and whatever I do I can't seem to get rid of it. I have had huge outbursts of anger then saddness then anger then saddness and really strong too. So I know the enemy has really been after me and like I said it seems like the group has been being attacked alot. Actually, I think some brothers and sisters from the Hell's army group was trying to get some of us to join up and a warning about the enemy. So do not kill yourself cause this is definetly the enemy amping up or something. I tried doing some of the things HP V. wrote about and the thoughtform still sucks on my chakras and trys to pull them out whenever I meditate and its almost imposible to do it now. lol, lately I have really really been exercising my hate for the enemy. Anyways, do not kill yourself cause I also now have been experiencing the lack of interest in things and just KNOW it is the enemy pushing on us. Do not give in/give up as the enemy is trying to make you do just that. We all just have to keep on going and push through it. (to the group -) Also, I just now realized that my paranoid skitsofrenic JW father found out about what my beliefs are and that was a few days before I had the paralized attack thing happen and then the blood sucker that will not let me meditate, do you think he is praying for me or something?

Hail Father Satan and the Gods of Old!

--- In JoyofSatan666@ yahoogroups. com, "deadizbetter" <jenneagle79@ ... wrote:

I would also ask if there is anyway that I could be given a little advise on wanting to be dead. You have said this a common theme lately. what's going on? I've grown to aceept that most people do not underdstand my spirituality but it seems like I am still far from jumping back on the boat of life and happiness well I don't even dream about being happy anymore. At times I feel in between life and death already.It is not easy being on this world. There's so much happening in the human world that just makes me sick.
unfortunately- even music and writing does not shake away the disgust.The only thing holding me here is I must like the pain a little- I guess I know I have not done what I am here to do yet, but admittedly that matters less and less as of late.
 
Hello brother, my mother is a crazy JW too! Whenever she would pray I would have strong leg cramps and feel sucking sensations on my body. My ex-husband molested my daughter and he is also a JW. I was molested by JWs when I was a little girl as well. My body went through so my battles from infancy on to adulthood. Father SATAN is so wonderful and he has been there for me in all of my past lives and this one. The enemy knows his children and tries to make us forget past lives and strengths. Father SATAN has been healing my mind and body and making me so gorgeous and strong. The enemy is not even allowed near me now!!!!! HAIL FATHER ENKI/SATAN/LUCIFER FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!! Sent via BlackBerry from T-MobileFrom: "thesataniclazy" <thesataniclazy@... Date: Mon, 29 Mar 2010 09:07:39 -0000To: <[email protected]Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: in reponse to death
  The enemy has really been trying to pull me away from Father. And there were 2-3 people before you talking about ending it. I think the enemy is really trying to hit the group lately. I now have a thoughtform or something that sucks at my heart chakra when ever I meditate and whatever I do I can't seem to get rid of it. I have had huge outbursts of anger then saddness then anger then saddness and really strong too. So I know the enemy has really been after me and like I said it seems like the group has been being attacked alot. Actually, I think some brothers and sisters from the Hell's army group was trying to get some of us to join up and a warning about the enemy. So do not kill yourself cause this is definetly the enemy amping up or something. I tried doing some of the things HP V. wrote about and the thoughtform still sucks on my chakras and trys to pull them out whenever I meditate and its almost imposible to do it now. lol, lately I have really really been exercising my hate for the enemy. Anyways, do not kill yourself cause I also now have been experiencing the lack of interest in things and just KNOW it is the enemy pushing on us. Do not give in/give up as the enemy is trying to make you do just that. We all just have to keep on going and push through it. (to the group -) Also, I just now realized that my paranoid skitsofrenic JW father found out about what my beliefs are and that was a few days before I had the paralized attack thing happen and then the blood sucker that will not let me meditate, do you think he is praying for me or something?

Hail Father Satan and the Gods of Old!

--- In JoyofSatan666@ yahoogroups. com, "deadizbetter" <jenneagle79@ ... wrote:

I would also ask if there is anyway that I could be given a little advise on wanting to be dead. You have said this a common theme lately. what's going on? I've grown to aceept that most people do not underdstand my spirituality but it seems like I am still far from jumping back on the boat of life and happiness well I don't even dream about being happy anymore. At times I feel in between life and death already.It is not easy being on this world. There's so much happening in the human world that just makes me sick.
unfortunately- even music and writing does not shake away the disgust.The only thing holding me here is I must like the pain a little- I guess I know I have not done what I am here to do yet, but admittedly that matters less and less as of late.
 
My brother/sister, in death you can accomplish nothing. The war is here and now, on Earth! We can't find dead, the enemy knows that. You have to stay strong my brother/sister, you can beat this. I know how you feel...I've had some rather emotionally fucked times in my life and have gotten very close to ending it. I am so thankful I did not, I am very thankful I have found Satanism as well.

You have allot to live for, the world is beautiful as it is ugly.
That emotion you are feeling isn't real, it is not rational. You have got to live, you must value your life! Living is important, especially for us Satanists. In the face of adversity, we must stand strong. In a world full of sheep, we rise as wolves! Living isn't easy, that certainly is true. We have things against us, that is apparent. We can't let them win. We can't roll over and die! We can't leave this world for the sheep to plunder and the enemy to ravish. THIS IS OUR WORLD, THIS OUR LIFE! We need you here brother/sister, your life has value! Never doubt your life has value nor throw it away! You just have to be strong and see this through...

The enemy could probably be picking on you. Have you tried doing a banishing ritual? Do your cleanse your aura daily? Have you tried building an aura of protection around yourself? It might help.

HAIL SATAN, FUCK GOD
--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "deadizbetter" <jenneagle79@... wrote:

I would also ask if there is anyway that I could be given a little advise on wanting to be dead. You have said this a common theme lately. what's going on? I've grown to aceept that most people do not underdstand my spirituality but it seems like I am still far from jumping back on the boat of life and happiness well I don't even dream about being happy anymore. At times I feel in between life and death already.It is not easy being on this world. There's so much happening in the human world that just makes me sick.
unfortunately- even music and writing does not shake away the disgust.The only thing holding me here is I must like the pain a little- I guess I know I have not done what I am here to do yet, but admittedly that matters less and less as of late.
 
You simply sound depressed..... you should get out in the sun more or go to your local store, walmart or whatever, and get some Vitamin D-3, it helps the body produce the hormones which help you get an optimistic outlook on life.

They take 3 days or so after taking daily to start working, but the effect is natural and worth it. It even helps focus, which is good for meditating.
 

Al Jilwah: Chapter IV

"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Shaitan

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