I need help...please

[Hernan]

Last year I was new to satanism and will basically still am. I even dedicated feeling it was right to do it since i wanted to commit. But a few things happened last year that made me stop believing in anything. I developed eating disorders like Bulimia and Anorexia. My girlfriend left me (most likely was cheating on me)left me for her best friend without saying anything. And well depression. I have been depressed since I was 8. Always feelings suicidal and well i just hate life. I dont know what started it. I could never remember what really affected me to start feeling that way. I was raped when i was 8, i was bullied for being fat, my parents seperated for some time and well they fought a lot a lot, my dad wasnt there, I felt i was a failure because my mom always expected straight A's and i never got them so she always got angry and sometimes even beat me. I decided to believe in Jesus i got baptized when i was 8. But nothing ever got better. So last year i even attempted suicide. Not just once but three times. This year im still struggling with eating disorders, depression, and the thought of that girl that is still dating her best friend. I dont want to feel like this anymore. I want to get stronger. But i dont know where to begin and what to do. I just ask for guidance. Thank you to those that respond I appreciate it very much.

 

[anaxium]

Go to Joyofsatan.com and begin power meditating. Take 30 minutes to an hour each day to meditate brother. It will help. Clean your aura daily, do the foundation meditation. Work on opening your Chakra. One thing I would seriously recommend is for you to build an Aura of protection around you. Also try doing affirmations to help improve your situation. All the the meditation techniques that I listed are on the JoS website in the meditation section. 30 minutes of meditation a day can go a long way in improving things. Don't expect results right away, but it will help. We are here for you brother! As gentiles we stand united. And especially at desperate times like this it is imperative that we remain close to each other. If you need any more help just ask.

HAIL FATHER SATAN!!!
HAIL THE ALMIGHTY GODS OF DUAT!!!
HEIL HITLER!
HEIL HIMMLER!
HEIL THE TRUE HEROS OF HELL!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Hernan" <hernanteran@... wrote:

Last year I was new to satanism and will basically still am. I even dedicated feeling it was right to do it since i wanted to commit. But a few things happened last year that made me stop believing in anything. I developed eating disorders like Bulimia and Anorexia. My girlfriend left me (most likely was cheating on me)left me for her best friend without saying anything. And well depression. I have been depressed since I was 8. Always feelings suicidal and well i just hate life. I dont know what started it. I could never remember what really affected me to start feeling that way. I was raped when i was 8, i was bullied for being fat, my parents seperated for some time and well they fought a lot a lot, my dad wasnt there, I felt i was a failure because my mom always expected straight A's and i never got them so she always got angry and sometimes even beat me. I decided to believe in Jesus i got baptized when i was 8. But nothing ever got better. So last year i even attempted suicide. Not just once but three times. This year im still struggling with eating disorders, depression, and the thought of that girl that is still dating her best friend. I dont want to feel like this anymore. I want to get stronger. But i dont know where to begin and what to do. I just ask for guidance. Thank you to those that respond I appreciate it very much.

 

[HPS Lydia]

Sometimes things affect us more than we realize, and we need to deal with those to move on. In one sentence you said you don't know why you started feeling depressed from the age of 8, and in another you said you were raped at that age.

"I could never remember what really affected me to start feeling that way. I was raped when i was 8". You see the connection? This has affected you more than you are willing to accept, based on how you wrote (I majored in psychology). I'm just going by this post, so please excuse me if I am in error here, but this is all I have to go by.

A steady, daily power meditation program will help, as will daily yoga. If you want to tackle the issue fully, you need to deal with it head-on. You can use affirmations, or vibrate runes. Ansuz and Sowilo might be good choices (http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Odin.html).

Hope this helps.

Hail Satan!
Hail Set!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Hernan" <hernanteran@... wrote:

Last year I was new to satanism and will basically still am. I even dedicated feeling it was right to do it since i wanted to commit. But a few things happened last year that made me stop believing in anything. I developed eating disorders like Bulimia and Anorexia. My girlfriend left me (most likely was cheating on me)left me for her best friend without saying anything. And well depression. I have been depressed since I was 8. Always feelings suicidal and well i just hate life. I dont know what started it. I could never remember what really affected me to start feeling that way. I was raped when i was 8, i was bullied for being fat, my parents seperated for some time and well they fought a lot a lot, my dad wasnt there, I felt i was a failure because my mom always expected straight A's and i never got them so she always got angry and sometimes even beat me. I decided to believe in Jesus i got baptized when i was 8. But nothing ever got better. So last year i even attempted suicide. Not just once but three times. This year im still struggling with eating disorders, depression, and the thought of that girl that is still dating her best friend. I dont want to feel like this anymore. I want to get stronger. But i dont know where to begin and what to do. I just ask for guidance. Thank you to those that respond I appreciate it very much.

 

[Hernan Teran]

You might be right. But I always felt like it was nothing. I never felt much towards it. Therapists ive been to thought that caused it aswell but i could never really feel like it had a big impact on me. My sister which was 7 at the time was with me. I am afraid that she got raped. After I ran away from him I just remember crying with my sister in the bathroom. Then I just black out. But um i thank you for your help and I shall do these things. Thank you
From: "lydia_666@..." <lydia_666@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Sunday, January 22, 2012 9:40 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: I need help...please

  Sometimes things affect us more than we realize, and we need to deal with those to move on. In one sentence you said you don't know why you started feeling depressed from the age of 8, and in another you said you were raped at that age.

"I could never remember what really affected me to start feeling that way. I was raped when i was 8". You see the connection? This has affected you more than you are willing to accept, based on how you wrote (I majored in psychology). I'm just going by this post, so please excuse me if I am in error here, but this is all I have to go by.

A steady, daily power meditation program will help, as will daily yoga. If you want to tackle the issue fully, you need to deal with it head-on. You can use affirmations, or vibrate runes. Ansuz and Sowilo might be good choices (http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Odin.html).

Hope this helps.

Hail Satan!
Hail Set!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Hernan" <hernanteran@... wrote:

Last year I was new to satanism and will basically still am. I even dedicated feeling it was right to do it since i wanted to commit. But a few things happened last year that made me stop believing in anything. I developed eating disorders like Bulimia and Anorexia. My girlfriend left me (most likely was cheating on me)left me for her best friend without saying anything. And well depression. I have been depressed since I was 8. Always feelings suicidal and well i just hate life. I dont know what started it. I could never remember what really affected me to start feeling that way. I was raped when i was 8, i was bullied for being fat, my parents seperated for some time and well they fought a lot a lot, my dad wasnt there, I felt i was a failure because my mom always expected straight A's and i never got them so she always got angry and sometimes even beat me. I decided to believe in Jesus i got baptized when i was 8. But nothing ever got better. So last year i even attempted suicide. Not just once but three times. This year im still struggling with eating disorders, depression, and the thought of that girl that is still dating her best friend. I dont want to feel like this anymore. I want to get stronger. But i dont know where to begin and what to do. I just ask for guidance. Thank you to those that respond I appreciate it very much.

 

[Hernan Teran]

Thank you so much for your advice. I really appreciate it.
From: anaxium <anaxium@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Sunday, January 22, 2012 6:58 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: I need help...please

  Go to Joyofsatan.com and begin power meditating. Take 30 minutes to an hour each day to meditate brother. It will help. Clean your aura daily, do the foundation meditation. Work on opening your Chakra. One thing I would seriously recommend is for you to build an Aura of protection around you. Also try doing affirmations to help improve your situation. All the the meditation techniques that I listed are on the JoS website in the meditation section. 30 minutes of meditation a day can go a long way in improving things. Don't expect results right away, but it will help. We are here for you brother! As gentiles we stand united. And especially at desperate times like this it is imperative that we remain close to each other. If you need any more help just ask.

HAIL FATHER SATAN!!!
HAIL THE ALMIGHTY GODS OF DUAT!!!
HEIL HITLER!
HEIL HIMMLER!
HEIL THE TRUE HEROS OF HELL!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Hernan" <hernanteran@... wrote:

Last year I was new to satanism and will basically still am. I even dedicated feeling it was right to do it since i wanted to commit. But a few things happened last year that made me stop believing in anything. I developed eating disorders like Bulimia and Anorexia. My girlfriend left me (most likely was cheating on me)left me for her best friend without saying anything. And well depression. I have been depressed since I was 8. Always feelings suicidal and well i just hate life. I dont know what started it. I could never remember what really affected me to start feeling that way. I was raped when i was 8, i was bullied for being fat, my parents seperated for some time and well they fought a lot a lot, my dad wasnt there, I felt i was a failure because my mom always expected straight A's and i never got them so she always got angry and sometimes even beat me. I decided to believe in Jesus i got baptized when i was 8. But nothing ever got better. So last year i even attempted suicide. Not just once but three times. This year im still struggling with eating disorders, depression, and the thought of that girl that is still dating her best friend. I dont want to feel like this anymore. I want to get stronger. But i dont know where to begin and what to do. I just ask for guidance. Thank you to those that respond I appreciate it very much.

 

[Joshua Dye]

<td val[/IMG]Hello fellow one of the Dark one, My name is Josh and i'm new to this as i've lived under a Thelema aspect with Chaos magick influences and i feel i've been led to Satan. If i could get my mind of drugs(as of now i'm not physically hooked to anything) then i know i'd be free to work towards Godhead. HAIL SATAN & AZAZEL!!

--- On Sun, 1/22/12, anaxium <anaxium@... wrote:

From: anaxium <anaxium@...
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: I need help...please
To: [email protected]
Date: Sunday, January 22, 2012, 9:58 AM

  Go to Joyofsatan.com and begin power meditating. Take 30 minutes to an hour each day to meditate brother. It will help. Clean your aura daily, do the foundation meditation. Work on opening your Chakra. One thing I would seriously recommend is for you to build an Aura of protection around you. Also try doing affirmations to help improve your situation. All the the meditation techniques that I listed are on the JoS website in the meditation section. 30 minutes of meditation a day can go a long way in improving things. Don't expect results right away, but it will help. We are here for you brother! As gentiles we stand united. And especially at desperate times like this it is imperative that we remain close to each other. If you need any more help just ask.

HAIL FATHER SATAN!!!
HAIL THE ALMIGHTY GODS OF DUAT!!!
HEIL HITLER!
HEIL HIMMLER!
HEIL THE TRUE HEROS OF HELL!

--- In [[email protected]][email protected][/email], "Hernan" <hernanteran@... wrote:

Last year I was new to satanism and will basically still am. I even dedicated feeling it was right to do it since i wanted to commit. But a few things happened last year that made me stop believing in anything. I developed eating disorders like Bulimia and Anorexia. My girlfriend left me (most likely was cheating on me)left me for her best friend without saying anything. And well depression. I have been depressed since I was 8. Always feelings suicidal and well i just hate life. I dont know what started it. I could never remember what really affected me to start feeling that way. I was raped when i was 8, i was bullied for being fat, my parents seperated for some time and well they fought a lot a lot, my dad wasnt there, I felt i was a failure because my mom always expected straight A's and i never got them so she always got angry and sometimes even beat me. I decided to believe in Jesus i got baptized when i was 8. But nothing ever got better. So last year i even attempted suicide. Not just once but three times. This year im still struggling with eating disorders, depression, and the thought of that girl that is still dating her best friend. I dont want to feel like this anymore. I want to get stronger. But i dont know where to begin and what to do. I just ask for guidance. Thank you to those that respond I appreciate it very much.

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[[email protected]]

Have you ever heard of, maybe Lydia can help me with this, rapid eye movement to erase trauma? This is some thing I've used myself. I believe you can meditate on an event which happened - daydream basically on something that happened as though you were there, then move your eyes to the extreme left, then extreme right, back and forth 10 times for three sets.
Another very valuable tool to use is the necronomicon spell book under files on this forum. Its so easy I can do it! LOL seriously, read the whole thing, I believe 4 & 6 may be best in this situation. Hoping for the best!
HAIL SATAN!!!Sent via BlackBerry by AT&TFrom: "lydia_666@..." <lydia_666@... Sender: [email protected] Date: Sun, 22 Jan 2012 17:40:44 -0000To: <[email protected]ReplyTo: [email protected] Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: I need help...please
  Sometimes things affect us more than we realize, and we need to deal with those to move on. In one sentence you said you don't know why you started feeling depressed from the age of 8, and in another you said you were raped at that age.

"I could never remember what really affected me to start feeling that way. I was raped when i was 8". You see the connection? This has affected you more than you are willing to accept, based on how you wrote (I majored in psychology). I'm just going by this post, so please excuse me if I am in error here, but this is all I have to go by.

A steady, daily power meditation program will help, as will daily yoga. If you want to tackle the issue fully, you need to deal with it head-on. You can use affirmations, or vibrate runes. Ansuz and Sowilo might be good choices (http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Odin.html).

Hope this helps.

Hail Satan!
Hail Set!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Hernan" <hernanteran@... wrote:

Last year I was new to satanism and will basically still am. I even dedicated feeling it was right to do it since i wanted to commit. But a few things happened last year that made me stop believing in anything. I developed eating disorders like Bulimia and Anorexia. My girlfriend left me (most likely was cheating on me)left me for her best friend without saying anything. And well depression. I have been depressed since I was 8. Always feelings suicidal and well i just hate life. I dont know what started it. I could never remember what really affected me to start feeling that way. I was raped when i was 8, i was bullied for being fat, my parents seperated for some time and well they fought a lot a lot, my dad wasnt there, I felt i was a failure because my mom always expected straight A's and i never got them so she always got angry and sometimes even beat me. I decided to believe in Jesus i got baptized when i was 8. But nothing ever got better. So last year i even attempted suicide. Not just once but three times. This year im still struggling with eating disorders, depression, and the thought of that girl that is still dating her best friend. I dont want to feel like this anymore. I want to get stronger. But i dont know where to begin and what to do. I just ask for guidance. Thank you to those that respond I appreciate it very much.

 

[lordsoulsar]

Yes i agree start with the basics brother trust me you arent the only one who has had i a fucked up past i have been molested when i was around 8 too i felt depressed alot after got into alot of trouble at school at home and with the authorities and the christian false god jahova never saved me but thats when i realised if you want anything in thsis life you cant sit back and wait for answers to come to you you are the controller of your own destiny the key to having a good life is you and believe me i was suicidal before but couldnt go through with it satan can help you but first you have to help yourself i recomend you to forget evrything thing that has happened in your life everything you were told about christ and erase it completely dont have any doubts then do the dedication ritual if you havent already and let satan have acces to enter your body and control you so you can change your whole life and yes meditation is one youseful key but you should try to become familar with casting spells and magick this is what save me from brother to brother may we all find knowlege and wisdom HAIL FATHER SATAN!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "anaxium" <anaxium@... wrote:

Go to Joyofsatan.com and begin power meditating. Take 30 minutes to an hour each day to meditate brother. It will help. Clean your aura daily, do the foundation meditation. Work on opening your Chakra. One thing I would seriously recommend is for you to build an Aura of protection around you. Also try doing affirmations to help improve your situation. All the the meditation techniques that I listed are on the JoS website in the meditation section. 30 minutes of meditation a day can go a long way in improving things. Don't expect results right away, but it will help. We are here for you brother! As gentiles we stand united. And especially at desperate times like this it is imperative that we remain close to each other. If you need any more help just ask.

HAIL FATHER SATAN!!!
HAIL THE ALMIGHTY GODS OF DUAT!!!
HEIL HITLER!
HEIL HIMMLER!
HEIL THE TRUE HEROS OF HELL!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Hernan" <hernanteran@ wrote:

Last year I was new to satanism and will basically still am. I even dedicated feeling it was right to do it since i wanted to commit. But a few things happened last year that made me stop believing in anything. I developed eating disorders like Bulimia and Anorexia. My girlfriend left me (most likely was cheating on me)left me for her best friend without saying anything. And well depression. I have been depressed since I was 8. Always feelings suicidal and well i just hate life. I dont know what started it. I could never remember what really affected me to start feeling that way. I was raped when i was 8, i was bullied for being fat, my parents seperated for some time and well they fought a lot a lot, my dad wasnt there, I felt i was a failure because my mom always expected straight A's and i never got them so she always got angry and sometimes even beat me. I decided to believe in Jesus i got baptized when i was 8. But nothing ever got better. So last year i even attempted suicide. Not just once but three times. This year im still struggling with eating disorders, depression, and the thought of that girl that is still dating her best friend. I dont want to feel like this anymore. I want to get stronger. But i dont know where to begin and what to do. I just ask for guidance. Thank you to those that respond I appreciate it very much.

 

[HPS Lydia]

Yeah it sound like you're blocking it from yourself, detachment. It's a common way our subconscious deals with bad things. I used to do that after my brother was killed, and I think I still do at times. So I know it makes things easier than dealing with the pain, but we need to deal with it to move on.

This might sound cliche, but have you talked about it since with your sister? You say you're afraid she was also raped, so you don't know for sure. Talking to others involved, who were there, does help.

Hail Satan!
Hail Set!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Hernan Teran <hernanteran@... wrote:

You might be right. But I always felt like it was nothing. I never felt much towards it. Therapists ive been to thought that caused it aswell but i could never really feel like it had a big impact on me. My sister which was 7 at the time was with me. I am afraid that she got raped. After I ran away from him I just remember crying with my sister in the bathroom. Then I just black out. But um i thank you for your help and I shall do these things. Thank you


________________________________
From: "lydia_666@..." <lydia_666@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Sunday, January 22, 2012 9:40 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: I need help...please


 
Sometimes things affect us more than we realize, and we need to deal with those to move on. In one sentence you said you don't know why you started feeling depressed from the age of 8, and in another you said you were raped at that age.

"I could never remember what really affected me to start feeling that way. I was raped when i was 8". You see the connection? This has affected you more than you are willing to accept, based on how you wrote (I majored in psychology). I'm just going by this post, so please excuse me if I am in error here, but this is all I have to go by.

A steady, daily power meditation program will help, as will daily yoga. If you want to tackle the issue fully, you need to deal with it head-on. You can use affirmations, or vibrate runes. Ansuz and Sowilo might be good choices (http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Odin.html).

Hope this helps.

Hail Satan!
Hail Set!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Hernan" <hernanteran@ wrote:

Last year I was new to satanism and will basically still am. I even dedicated feeling it was right to do it since i wanted to commit. But a few things happened last year that made me stop believing in anything. I developed eating disorders like Bulimia and Anorexia. My girlfriend left me (most likely was cheating on me)left me for her best friend without saying anything. And well depression. I have been depressed since I was 8. Always feelings suicidal and well i just hate life. I dont know what started it. I could never remember what really affected me to start feeling that way. I was raped when i was 8, i was bullied for being fat, my parents seperated for some time and well they fought a lot a lot, my dad wasnt there, I felt i was a failure because my mom always expected straight A's and i never got them so she always got angry and sometimes even beat me. I decided to believe in Jesus i got baptized when i was 8. But nothing ever got better. So
last year i even attempted suicide. Not just once but three times. This year im still struggling with eating disorders, depression, and the thought of that girl that is still dating her best friend. I dont want to feel like this anymore. I want to get stronger. But i dont know where to begin and what to do. I just ask for guidance. Thank you to those that respond I appreciate it very much.

 

[HPS Lydia]

Welcome, but Satan isn't the "dark one", he's the bringer of light. That's what his title "Lucifer" means.

Start a power meditation program (found at joyofsatan.org) and the highs you will experience will make you see that drugs are just a damaging crutch that holds you back.

Hail Satan!
Hail Set!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Joshua Dye <iliveinraven@... wrote:

Hello fellow one of the Dark one, My name is Josh and i'm new to this as i've lived under a Thelema aspect with Chaos magick influences and i feel i've been led to Satan. If i could get my mind of drugs(as of now i'm not physically hooked to anything) then i know i'd be free to work towards Godhead.
HAIL SATAN & AZAZEL!!

 

[Brian Gibbons]

You have been reading to much kike misinfo Joshua,read the truth now.      joyofsatan.com
 Hail Satan Brian  "I will crush Christianity under my boot like a poisonous toad." - Adolf Hitler

From: Joshua Dye <iliveinraven@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Sunday, January 22, 2012 6:22 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: I need help...please

 

<td style="font:[/IMG]Hello fellow one of the Dark one, My name is Josh and i'm new to this as i've lived under a Thelema aspect with Chaos magick influences and i feel i've been led to Satan. If i could get my mind of drugs(as of now i'm not physically hooked to anything) then i know i'd be free to work towards Godhead. HAIL SATAN & AZAZEL!!

--- On Sun, 1/22/12, anaxium <anaxium@... wrote:

From: anaxium <anaxium@...
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: I need help...please
To: [email protected]
Date: Sunday, January 22, 2012, 9:58 AM

  Go to Joyofsatan.com and begin power meditating. Take 30 minutes to an hour each day to meditate brother. It will help. Clean your aura daily, do the foundation meditation. Work on opening your Chakra. One thing I would seriously recommend is for you to build an Aura of protection around you. Also try doing affirmations to help improve your situation. All the the meditation techniques that I listed are on the JoS website in the meditation section. 30 minutes of meditation a day can go a long way in improving things. Don't expect results right away, but it will help. We are here for you brother! As gentiles we stand united. And especially at desperate times like this it is imperative that we remain close to each other. If you need any more help just ask.

HAIL FATHER SATAN!!!
HAIL THE ALMIGHTY GODS OF DUAT!!!
HEIL HITLER!
HEIL HIMMLER!
HEIL THE TRUE HEROS OF HELL!

--- In [[email protected]][email protected][/email], "Hernan" <hernanteran@... wrote:

Last year I was new to satanism and will basically still am. I even dedicated feeling it was right to do it since i wanted to commit. But a few things happened last year that made me stop believing in anything. I developed eating disorders like Bulimia and Anorexia. My girlfriend left me (most likely was cheating on me)left me for her best friend without saying anything. And well depression. I have been depressed since I was 8. Always feelings suicidal and well i just hate life. I dont know what started it. I could never remember what really affected me to start feeling that way. I was raped when i was 8, i was bullied for being fat, my parents seperated for some time and well they fought a lot a lot, my dad wasnt there, I felt i was a failure because my mom always expected straight A's and i never got them so she always got angry and sometimes even beat me. I decided to believe in Jesus i got baptized when i was 8. But nothing ever got better. So last year i even attempted suicide. Not just once but three times. This year im still struggling with eating disorders, depression, and the thought of that girl that is still dating her best friend. I dont want to feel like this anymore. I want to get stronger. But i dont know where to begin and what to do. I just ask for guidance. Thank you to those that respond I appreciate it very much.

[/TD]

 

[Brian Gibbons]

So sorry to hear that Herman.But I dedicated my life to Father Satan 2 years ago today.And in that time I lost my 11 year job,my house in a storm,and my wife.What has helped me brother to get through it all,is constant Yoga,and Power Meditations,and asking my GD and Satan for help too.As well as talking to the group about it.But don't ever isolate,its the worst thing you can do,and what the enemy wants you too.Good Luck Bro.
 Hail Satan Brian  "I will crush Christianity under my boot like a poisonous toad." - Adolf Hitler

From: Hernan <hernanteran@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Saturday, January 21, 2012 12:57 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] I need help...please

  Last year I was new to satanism and will basically still am. I even dedicated feeling it was right to do it since i wanted to commit. But a few things happened last year that made me stop believing in anything. I developed eating disorders like Bulimia and Anorexia. My girlfriend left me (most likely was cheating on me)left me for her best friend without saying anything. And well depression. I have been depressed since I was 8. Always feelings suicidal and well i just hate life. I dont know what started it. I could never remember what really affected me to start feeling that way. I was raped when i was 8, i was bullied for being fat, my parents seperated for some time and well they fought a lot a lot, my dad wasnt there, I felt i was a failure because my mom always expected straight A's and i never got them so she always got angry and sometimes even beat me. I decided to believe in Jesus i got baptized when i was 8. But nothing ever got better. So last year i even attempted suicide. Not just once but three times. This year im still struggling with eating disorders, depression, and the thought of that girl that is still dating her best friend. I dont want to feel like this anymore. I want to get stronger. But i dont know where to begin and what to do. I just ask for guidance. Thank you to those that respond I appreciate it very much.

 

[Laura Catharina]

I'm only 15 and I know I don't have much experience in life but since I started devoting myself to this religion everything got better. When you get into this, trust me your life is going to change because our Father is just like a friend, a teacher, someone you can always count on, and even though I'm going through a very hard time now, I know I'm not alone. Not to mention that we are here to help in anyway we can because we have the same beliefs and we just want to make the right thing.Hopo you find what you were looking for.
Hail Satan


From: Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@...
To: "[email protected]" <[email protected]
Sent: Monday, January 23, 2012 4:51 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] I need help...please

  So sorry to hear that Herman.But I dedicated my life to Father Satan 2 years ago today.And in that time I lost my 11 year job,my house in a storm,and my wife.What has helped me brother to get through it all,is constant Yoga,and Power Meditations,and asking my GD and Satan for help too.As well as talking to the group about it.But don't ever isolate,its the worst thing you can do,and what the enemy wants you too.Good Luck Bro.
 Hail Satan Brian  "I will crush Christianity under my boot like a poisonous toad." - Adolf Hitler

From: Hernan <hernanteran@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Saturday, January 21, 2012 12:57 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] I need help...please

  Last year I was new to satanism and will basically still am. I even dedicated feeling it was right to do it since i wanted to commit. But a few things happened last year that made me stop believing in anything. I developed eating disorders like Bulimia and Anorexia. My girlfriend left me (most likely was cheating on me)left me for her best friend without saying anything. And well depression. I have been depressed since I was 8. Always feelings suicidal and well i just hate life. I dont know what started it. I could never remember what really affected me to start feeling that way. I was raped when i was 8, i was bullied for being fat, my parents seperated for some time and well they fought a lot a lot, my dad wasnt there, I felt i was a failure because my mom always expected straight A's and i never got them so she always got angry and sometimes even beat me. I decided to believe in Jesus i got baptized when i was 8. But nothing ever got better. So last year i even attempted suicide. Not just once but three times. This year im still struggling with eating disorders, depression, and the thought of that girl that is still dating her best friend. I dont want to feel like this anymore. I want to get stronger. But i dont know where to begin and what to do. I just ask for guidance. Thank you to those that respond I appreciate it very much.

 

[Mike1]

Yeah, we all have to live through our hard times. "What doesn't kill You will make you stronger". At least we actually DO get stronger, unlike those pathetic xtians and other RHP followers.By the way Brian: You keep mentioning Yoga: is there a good, comprehensive Yoga handbook or other materials that would get me started? If it really helps then it would be a waste not use it. I'm thinking about some kind of compilation guide for total noobies, maybe something similar to SWTP for Satanists. 'Cause this one is a really good piece of manual (starts with the most basic stuff You can think of and need to master and gets You going). Hail Satan and all the true Gods! Hail Gods of War!  /Mike
From: Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@...
To: "[email protected]" <[email protected]
Sent: Monday, January 23, 2012 6:51 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] I need help...please

  So sorry to hear that Herman.But I dedicated my life to Father Satan 2 years ago today.And in that time I lost my 11 year job,my house in a storm,and my wife.What has helped me brother to get through it all,is constant Yoga,and Power Meditations,and asking my GD and Satan for help too.As well as talking to the group about it.But don't ever isolate,its the worst thing you can do,and what the enemy wants you too.Good Luck Bro.
 Hail Satan Brian  "I will crush Christianity under my boot like a poisonous toad." - Adolf Hitler

From: Hernan <hernanteran@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Saturday, January 21, 2012 12:57 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] I need help...please

  Last year I was new to satanism and will basically still am. I even dedicated feeling it was right to do it since i wanted to commit. But a few things happened last year that made me stop believing in anything. I developed eating disorders like Bulimia and Anorexia. My girlfriend left me (most likely was cheating on me)left me for her best friend without saying anything. And well depression. I have been depressed since I was 8. Always feelings suicidal and well i just hate life. I dont know what started it. I could never remember what really affected me to start feeling that way. I was raped when i was 8, i was bullied for being fat, my parents seperated for some time and well they fought a lot a lot, my dad wasnt there, I felt i was a failure because my mom always expected straight A's and i never got them so she always got angry and sometimes even beat me. I decided to believe in Jesus i got baptized when i was 8. But nothing ever got better. So last year i even attempted suicide. Not just once but three times. This year im still struggling with eating disorders, depression, and the thought of that girl that is still dating her best friend. I dont want to feel like this anymore. I want to get stronger. But i dont know where to begin and what to do. I just ask for guidance. Thank you to those that respond I appreciate it very much.

 

[Brian Gibbons]

Mike check the link on Yoga in the power meditations section,plus there is some good PDF's on the group sites too.
 Hail Satan Brian  "I will crush Christianity under my boot like a poisonous toad." - Adolf Hitler

From: Mike <misza2@...
To: "[email protected]" <[email protected]
Sent: Monday, January 23, 2012 10:58 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] I need help...please

  Yeah, we all have to live through our hard times. "What doesn't kill You will make you stronger". At least we actually DO get stronger, unlike those pathetic xtians and other RHP followers.By the way Brian: You keep mentioning Yoga: is there a good, comprehensive Yoga handbook or other materials that would get me started? If it really helps then it would be a waste not use it. I'm thinking about some kind of compilation guide for total noobies, maybe something similar to SWTP for Satanists. 'Cause this one is a really good piece of manual (starts with the most basic stuff You can think of and need to master and gets You going). Hail Satan and all the true Gods! Hail Gods of War!  /Mike
From: Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@...
To: "[email protected]" <[email protected]
Sent: Monday, January 23, 2012 6:51 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] I need help...please

  So sorry to hear that Herman.But I dedicated my life to Father Satan 2 years ago today.And in that time I lost my 11 year job,my house in a storm,and my wife.What has helped me brother to get through it all,is constant Yoga,and Power Meditations,and asking my GD and Satan for help too.As well as talking to the group about it.But don't ever isolate,its the worst thing you can do,and what the enemy wants you too.Good Luck Bro.
 Hail Satan Brian  "I will crush Christianity under my boot like a poisonous toad." - Adolf Hitler

From: Hernan <hernanteran@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Saturday, January 21, 2012 12:57 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] I need help...please

  Last year I was new to satanism and will basically still am. I even dedicated feeling it was right to do it since i wanted to commit. But a few things happened last year that made me stop believing in anything. I developed eating disorders like Bulimia and Anorexia. My girlfriend left me (most likely was cheating on me)left me for her best friend without saying anything. And well depression. I have been depressed since I was 8. Always feelings suicidal and well i just hate life. I dont know what started it. I could never remember what really affected me to start feeling that way. I was raped when i was 8, i was bullied for being fat, my parents seperated for some time and well they fought a lot a lot, my dad wasnt there, I felt i was a failure because my mom always expected straight A's and i never got them so she always got angry and sometimes even beat me. I decided to believe in Jesus i got baptized when i was 8. But nothing ever got better. So last year i even attempted suicide. Not just once but three times. This year im still struggling with eating disorders, depression, and the thought of that girl that is still dating her best friend. I dont want to feel like this anymore. I want to get stronger. But i dont know where to begin and what to do. I just ask for guidance. Thank you to those that respond I appreciate it very much.

 

[lord.kayle]

I am needing help too now, am too surrounded by xtians, and though some have been and are being helpful, some are - well it's become very obvious to me there are forces at work - beings - not only real physical people doing outrageously STRANGE things AGAINST ME to FUCK ME OVER BUT OTHERs too Besides - entities I believe are encouraging some to do things WRONG and against me! It's quite clear and seems that I am living in non-stop constant fear of/for my life.

THOUGH I Refuse to accept or adopt that and such!

It's outrageously strange though how Isolated I am and the course of events transpiring.

I woke up today only to have ANOTHER landlady manager now evicting me for NO REASON.

I am flat broke at the moment and my car is broke down

Oh and all this happened right after she purposely avoided contact with me ALL DAY LONG when I WAS LOCKED OUT OUTSIDE IN SUB-Zero FREEZING WEATHER and a Snow-storm Blizzard!

I know she purposely avoided me, because she hung up on me when I called to ask her to let me in because I had misplaced my key!

NOW SHE POSTED A NOTE ON THE DOOR GIVING ME 24 HOURS TO LEAVE AND MOVE ALL MY STUFF AND STATING THAT IF I CONTACTED HER SHE WOULD CALL THE OKANOGAN COUNTY SHERRIF'S!

I don't know what exactly the fuck is going on, but it's FUCKED UP and FUCKING WIERD!~

~ Hail Satan!~

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@... wrote:

So sorry to hear that Herman.But I dedicated my life to Father Satan 2 years ago today.And in that time I lost my 11 year job,my house in a storm,and my wife.What has helped me brother to get through it all,is constant Yoga,and Power Meditations,and asking my GD and Satan for help too.As well as talking to the group about it.But don't ever isolate,its the worst thing you can do,and what the enemy wants you too.Good Luck Bro.

 
Hail Satan
Brian 
"I will crush Christianity under my boot like a poisonous toad." - Adolf Hitler


________________________________
From: Hernan <hernanteran@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Saturday, January 21, 2012 12:57 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] I need help...please


 
Last year I was new to satanism and will basically still am. I even dedicated feeling it was right to do it since i wanted to commit. But a few things happened last year that made me stop believing in anything. I developed eating disorders like Bulimia and Anorexia. My girlfriend left me (most likely was cheating on me)left me for her best friend without saying anything. And well depression. I have been depressed since I was 8. Always feelings suicidal and well i just hate life. I dont know what started it. I could never remember what really affected me to start feeling that way. I was raped when i was 8, i was bullied for being fat, my parents seperated for some time and well they fought a lot a lot, my dad wasnt there, I felt i was a failure because my mom always expected straight A's and i never got them so she always got angry and sometimes even beat me. I decided to believe in Jesus i got baptized when i was 8. But nothing ever got better. So last
year i even attempted suicide. Not just once but three times. This year im still struggling with eating disorders, depression, and the thought of that girl that is still dating her best friend. I dont want to feel like this anymore. I want to get stronger. But i dont know where to begin and what to do. I just ask for guidance. Thank you to those that respond I appreciate it very much.

 

[Mike1]

OK, I've downloaded materials about Hatha and Kundalini Yoga from the Files section of the Group. After cursorily browsing these texts, I believe it's going to take a tremendous amounts of time, as all the exercises are linked into a proper "set" or a "series" and are not supposed to be performed singly. Guess I'd better start memorizing all the moves or at least keep my tablet close-by. As far as Hatha Yoga goes, it's gonna be a hard nut to crack. I just hope I won't break anything at my first attempt (I'm so inflexible that there's no way to perform all the asanas correctly... at least not at the beginning). Oh well, practice makes perfect  Hail Satan and all the true Gods! Hail Gods of War!  /Mike
From: Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@...
To: "[email protected]" <[email protected]
Sent: Monday, January 23, 2012 9:38 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] I need help...please

  Mike check the link on Yoga in the power meditations section,plus there is some good PDF's on the group sites too.
 Hail Satan Brian  "I will crush Christianity under my boot like a poisonous toad." - Adolf Hitler

From: Mike <misza2@...
To: "[email protected]" <[email protected]
Sent: Monday, January 23, 2012 10:58 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] I need help...please

  Yeah, we all have to live through our hard times. "What doesn't kill You will make you stronger". At least we actually DO get stronger, unlike those pathetic xtians and other RHP followers.By the way Brian: You keep mentioning Yoga: is there a good, comprehensive Yoga handbook or other materials that would get me started? If it really helps then it would be a waste not use it. I'm thinking about some kind of compilation guide for total noobies, maybe something similar to SWTP for Satanists. 'Cause this one is a really good piece of manual (starts with the most basic stuff You can think of and need to master and gets You going). Hail Satan and all the true Gods! Hail Gods of War!  /Mike
From: Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@...
To: "[email protected]" <[email protected]
Sent: Monday, January 23, 2012 6:51 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] I need help...please

  So sorry to hear that Herman.But I dedicated my life to Father Satan 2 years ago today.And in that time I lost my 11 year job,my house in a storm,and my wife.What has helped me brother to get through it all,is constant Yoga,and Power Meditations,and asking my GD and Satan for help too.As well as talking to the group about it.But don't ever isolate,its the worst thing you can do,and what the enemy wants you too.Good Luck Bro.
 Hail Satan Brian  "I will crush Christianity under my boot like a poisonous toad." - Adolf Hitler

From: Hernan <hernanteran@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Saturday, January 21, 2012 12:57 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] I need help...please

  Last year I was new to satanism and will basically still am. I even dedicated feeling it was right to do it since i wanted to commit. But a few things happened last year that made me stop believing in anything. I developed eating disorders like Bulimia and Anorexia. My girlfriend left me (most likely was cheating on me)left me for her best friend without saying anything. And well depression. I have been depressed since I was 8. Always feelings suicidal and well i just hate life. I dont know what started it. I could never remember what really affected me to start feeling that way. I was raped when i was 8, i was bullied for being fat, my parents seperated for some time and well they fought a lot a lot, my dad wasnt there, I felt i was a failure because my mom always expected straight A's and i never got them so she always got angry and sometimes even beat me. I decided to believe in Jesus i got baptized when i was 8. But nothing ever got better. So last year i even attempted suicide. Not just once but three times. This year im still struggling with eating disorders, depression, and the thought of that girl that is still dating her best friend. I dont want to feel like this anymore. I want to get stronger. But i dont know where to begin and what to do. I just ask for guidance. Thank you to those that respond I appreciate it very much.

 

[Hernan Teran]

Thank you I appreciate this. I'm 15 to by the way. Well thanks
From: Laura Catharina <laura.catharina@...
To: "[email protected]" <[email protected]
Sent: Monday, January 23, 2012 11:00 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] I need help...please

  I'm only 15 and I know I don't have much experience in life but since I started devoting myself to this religion everything got better. When you get into this, trust me your life is going to change because our Father is just like a friend, a teacher, someone you can always count on, and even though I'm going through a very hard time now, I know I'm not alone. Not to mention that we are here to help in anyway we can because we have the same beliefs and we just want to make the right thing.Hopo you find what you were looking for.
Hail Satan



From: Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@...
To: "[email protected]" <[email protected]
Sent: Monday, January 23, 2012 4:51 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] I need help...please

  So sorry to hear that Herman.But I dedicated my life to Father Satan 2 years ago today.And in that time I lost my 11 year job,my house in a storm,and my wife.What has helped me brother to get through it all,is constant Yoga,and Power Meditations,and asking my GD and Satan for help too.As well as talking to the group about it.But don't ever isolate,its the worst thing you can do,and what the enemy wants you too.Good Luck Bro.
 Hail Satan Brian  "I will crush Christianity under my boot like a poisonous toad." - Adolf Hitler

From: Hernan <hernanteran@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Saturday, January 21, 2012 12:57 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] I need help...please

  Last year I was new to satanism and will basically still am. I even dedicated feeling it was right to do it since i wanted to commit. But a few things happened last year that made me stop believing in anything. I developed eating disorders like Bulimia and Anorexia. My girlfriend left me (most likely was cheating on me)left me for her best friend without saying anything. And well depression. I have been depressed since I was 8. Always feelings suicidal and well i just hate life. I dont know what started it. I could never remember what really affected me to start feeling that way. I was raped when i was 8, i was bullied for being fat, my parents seperated for some time and well they fought a lot a lot, my dad wasnt there, I felt i was a failure because my mom always expected straight A's and i never got them so she always got angry and sometimes even beat me. I decided to believe in Jesus i got baptized when i was 8. But nothing ever got better. So last year i even attempted suicide. Not just once but three times. This year im still struggling with eating disorders, depression, and the thought of that girl that is still dating her best friend. I dont want to feel like this anymore. I want to get stronger. But i dont know where to begin and what to do. I just ask for guidance. Thank you to those that respond I appreciate it very much.

 

[Brian Gibbons]

lord kayle,none of us have the right to tell you what you should do,but if I were in your shoes,I would grab as much of my shit as I could carry,and get the fuck out of there.Trust Father and hit the road man.Even if you have to hitch hike.Find a place of safety.Some where you can start over.And don't tell anyone that you are a Spiritual Satanist.I have read your dire circumstances,in other posts,but that's what I would do if I were you.My heart goes out to you man,but I like many on here,have no way to help you,unless someone who reads this is willing to take you in man.Please find safety,and comfort somewhere else.  I live just outside of Birmingham Alabama,so you are too far from me man,plus I am dealing with getting one woman out,and my true Satanic Soul Mate moving in soon so.......
 Hail Satan Brian  "I will crush Christianity under my boot like a poisonous toad." - Adolf Hitler

From: lord.kayle <lord.kayle@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Monday, January 23, 2012 4:34 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: I need help...please

  I am needing help too now, am too surrounded by xtians, and though some have been and are being helpful, some are - well it's become very obvious to me there are forces at work - beings - not only real physical people doing outrageously STRANGE things AGAINST ME to FUCK ME OVER BUT OTHERs too Besides - entities I believe are encouraging some to do things WRONG and against me! It's quite clear and seems that I am living in non-stop constant fear of/for my life.

THOUGH I Refuse to accept or adopt that and such!

It's outrageously strange though how Isolated I am and the course of events transpiring.

I woke up today only to have ANOTHER landlady manager now evicting me for NO REASON.

I am flat broke at the moment and my car is broke down

Oh and all this happened right after she purposely avoided contact with me ALL DAY LONG when I WAS LOCKED OUT OUTSIDE IN SUB-Zero FREEZING WEATHER and a Snow-storm Blizzard!

I know she purposely avoided me, because she hung up on me when I called to ask her to let me in because I had misplaced my key!

NOW SHE POSTED A NOTE ON THE DOOR GIVING ME 24 HOURS TO LEAVE AND MOVE ALL MY STUFF AND STATING THAT IF I CONTACTED HER SHE WOULD CALL THE OKANOGAN COUNTY SHERRIF'S!

I don't know what exactly the fuck is going on, but it's FUCKED UP and FUCKING WIERD!~

~ Hail Satan!~

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@... wrote:

So sorry to hear that Herman.But I dedicated my life to Father Satan 2 years ago today.And in that time I lost my 11 year job,my house in a storm,and my wife.What has helped me brother to get through it all,is constant Yoga,and Power Meditations,and asking my GD and Satan for help too.As well as talking to the group about it.But don't ever isolate,its the worst thing you can do,and what the enemy wants you too.Good Luck Bro.

 
Hail Satan
Brian 
"I will crush Christianity under my boot like a poisonous toad." - Adolf Hitler


________________________________
From: Hernan <hernanteran@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Saturday, January 21, 2012 12:57 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] I need help...please


 
Last year I was new to satanism and will basically still am. I even dedicated feeling it was right to do it since i wanted to commit. But a few things happened last year that made me stop believing in anything. I developed eating disorders like Bulimia and Anorexia. My girlfriend left me (most likely was cheating on me)left me for her best friend without saying anything. And well depression. I have been depressed since I was 8. Always feelings suicidal and well i just hate life. I dont know what started it. I could never remember what really affected me to start feeling that way. I was raped when i was 8, i was bullied for being fat, my parents seperated for some time and well they fought a lot a lot, my dad wasnt there, I felt i was a failure because my mom always expected straight A's and i never got them so she always got angry and sometimes even beat me. I decided to believe in Jesus i got baptized when i was 8. But nothing ever got better. So last
year i even attempted suicide. Not just once but three times. This year im still struggling with eating disorders, depression, and the thought of that girl that is still dating her best friend. I dont want to feel like this anymore. I want to get stronger. But i dont know where to begin and what to do. I just ask for guidance. Thank you to those that respond I appreciate it very much.

 

[HPS Lydia]

It's about 15 minutes, for kundalini spinal series (not including the 15 minutes lying still at the end) and 10-45 minutes for the hatha (depending on how many reps you're doing, even a little bit is better than nothing). Just jumping in here to give you an idea. I used to keep my laptop on a chair in front of me while I was on my yoga mat so I could follow along.

Hail Satan!
Hail Set!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Mike <misza2@... wrote:

OK, I've downloaded materials about Hatha and Kundalini Yoga from the Files section of the Group. After cursorily browsing these texts, I believe it's going to take a tremendous amounts of time, as all the exercises are linked into a proper "set" or a "series" and are not supposed to be performed singly. Guess I'd better start memorizing all the moves or at least keep my tablet close-by. As far as Hatha Yoga goes, it's gonna be a hard nut to crack. I just hope I won't break anything at my first attempt (I'm so inflexible that there's no way to perform all the asanas correctly... at least not at the beginning). Oh well, practice makes perfect
 
Hail Satan and all the true Gods! 
Hail Gods of War!  
/Mike

 

[Brian Gibbons]

Yes Mike but the key is to make a program,that you will be comfortable with,you don't have to do it all.
 Hail Satan Brian  "I will crush Christianity under my boot like a poisonous toad." - Adolf Hitler

From: Mike <misza2@...
To: "[email protected]" <[email protected]
Sent: Monday, January 23, 2012 2:21 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] I need help...please

  OK, I've downloaded materials about Hatha and Kundalini Yoga from the Files section of the Group. After cursorily browsing these texts, I believe it's going to take a tremendous amounts of time, as all the exercises are linked into a proper "set" or a "series" and are not supposed to be performed singly. Guess I'd better start memorizing all the moves or at least keep my tablet close-by. As far as Hatha Yoga goes, it's gonna be a hard nut to crack. I just hope I won't break anything at my first attempt (I'm so inflexible that there's no way to perform all the asanas correctly... at least not at the beginning). Oh well, practice makes perfect  Hail Satan and all the true Gods! Hail Gods of War!  /Mike
From: Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@...
To: "[email protected]" <[email protected]
Sent: Monday, January 23, 2012 9:38 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] I need help...please

  Mike check the link on Yoga in the power meditations section,plus there is some good PDF's on the group sites too.
 Hail Satan Brian  "I will crush Christianity under my boot like a poisonous toad." - Adolf Hitler

From: Mike <misza2@...
To: "[email protected]" <[email protected]
Sent: Monday, January 23, 2012 10:58 AM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] I need help...please

  Yeah, we all have to live through our hard times. "What doesn't kill You will make you stronger". At least we actually DO get stronger, unlike those pathetic xtians and other RHP followers.By the way Brian: You keep mentioning Yoga: is there a good, comprehensive Yoga handbook or other materials that would get me started? If it really helps then it would be a waste not use it. I'm thinking about some kind of compilation guide for total noobies, maybe something similar to SWTP for Satanists. 'Cause this one is a really good piece of manual (starts with the most basic stuff You can think of and need to master and gets You going). Hail Satan and all the true Gods! Hail Gods of War!  /Mike
From: Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@...
To: "[email protected]" <[email protected]
Sent: Monday, January 23, 2012 6:51 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] I need help...please

  So sorry to hear that Herman.But I dedicated my life to Father Satan 2 years ago today.And in that time I lost my 11 year job,my house in a storm,and my wife.What has helped me brother to get through it all,is constant Yoga,and Power Meditations,and asking my GD and Satan for help too.As well as talking to the group about it.But don't ever isolate,its the worst thing you can do,and what the enemy wants you too.Good Luck Bro.
 Hail Satan Brian  "I will crush Christianity under my boot like a poisonous toad." - Adolf Hitler

From: Hernan <hernanteran@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Saturday, January 21, 2012 12:57 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] I need help...please

  Last year I was new to satanism and will basically still am. I even dedicated feeling it was right to do it since i wanted to commit. But a few things happened last year that made me stop believing in anything. I developed eating disorders like Bulimia and Anorexia. My girlfriend left me (most likely was cheating on me)left me for her best friend without saying anything. And well depression. I have been depressed since I was 8. Always feelings suicidal and well i just hate life. I dont know what started it. I could never remember what really affected me to start feeling that way. I was raped when i was 8, i was bullied for being fat, my parents seperated for some time and well they fought a lot a lot, my dad wasnt there, I felt i was a failure because my mom always expected straight A's and i never got them so she always got angry and sometimes even beat me. I decided to believe in Jesus i got baptized when i was 8. But nothing ever got better. So last year i even attempted suicide. Not just once but three times. This year im still struggling with eating disorders, depression, and the thought of that girl that is still dating her best friend. I dont want to feel like this anymore. I want to get stronger. But i dont know where to begin and what to do. I just ask for guidance. Thank you to those that respond I appreciate it very much.

 

[Shannon Outlaw]

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  Hail our Creator God Satan.
From: "lydia_666@..." <lydia_666@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Tuesday, January 24, 2012 1:35 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: I need help...please

  It's about 15 minutes, for kundalini spinal series (not including the 15 minutes lying still at the end) and 10-45 minutes for the hatha (depending on how many reps you're doing, even a little bit is better than nothing). Just jumping in here to give you an idea. I used to keep my laptop on a chair in front of me while I was on my yoga mat so I could follow along.

Hail Satan!
Hail Set!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Mike <misza2@... wrote:

OK, I've downloaded materials about Hatha and Kundalini Yoga from the Files section of the Group. After cursorily browsing these texts, I believe it's going to take a tremendous amounts of time, as all the exercises are linked into a proper "set" or a "series" and are not supposed to be performed singly. Guess I'd better start memorizing all the moves or at least keep my tablet close-by. As far as Hatha Yoga goes, it's gonna be a hard nut to crack. I just hope I won't break anything at my first attempt (I'm so inflexible that there's no way to perform all the asanas correctly... at least not at the beginning). Oh well, practice makes perfect
 
Hail Satan and all the true Gods! 
Hail Gods of War!  
/Mike

 

[Mike1]

Alright, I'm just after my first day with Yoga (both Kundalini and Hatha). Kundalini exercises took me about fifty minutes (counting the ten minutes rest at the end) and Hatha - about thirty minutes (counting the "lay still" at the end part). I was a bit lost, had to look into the instructions all the way, guess it will take less time in the future (with the same number of repetitions) once I get used to it and remember what to do. And properly organize things. And yeah, having a laptop or (as in my case) a tablet really helps. Anyway, I'm pretty sure I didn't perform all the exercises correctly but heck, that was my very first time *blushes* Gotta improve on these.Virtually no different feelings after Kundalini set (that should come in time); quite intense "buzzing" after Hatha (guess that's because a faster/better blood flow throughout the body).That stuff sounds like fun (Hatha especially but damn, I've got no flexibility at all). Hail Satan and all the true Gods! Hail Gods of War!  /Mike
From: "lydia_666@..." <lydia_666@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Tuesday, January 24, 2012 6:35 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: I need help...please

  It's about 15 minutes, for kundalini spinal series (not including the 15 minutes lying still at the end) and 10-45 minutes for the hatha (depending on how many reps you're doing, even a little bit is better than nothing). Just jumping in here to give you an idea. I used to keep my laptop on a chair in front of me while I was on my yoga mat so I could follow along.

Hail Satan!
Hail Set!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Mike <misza2@... wrote:

OK, I've downloaded materials about Hatha and Kundalini Yoga from the Files section of the Group. After cursorily browsing these texts, I believe it's going to take a tremendous amounts of time, as all the exercises are linked into a proper "set" or a "series" and are not supposed to be performed singly. Guess I'd better start memorizing all the moves or at least keep my tablet close-by. As far as Hatha Yoga goes, it's gonna be a hard nut to crack. I just hope I won't break anything at my first attempt (I'm so inflexible that there's no way to perform all the asanas correctly... at least not at the beginning). Oh well, practice makes perfect
 
Hail Satan and all the true Gods! 
Hail Gods of War!  
/Mike

 

[Brian Gibbons]

Yes Shannon its a great way to wake up too doing Hatha stretches. Hail Satan Brian  "I will crush Christianity under my boot like a poisonous toad." - Adolf Hitler

From: Shannon Outlaw <soutlaw92@...
To: "[email protected]" <[email protected]
Sent: Tuesday, January 24, 2012 12:29 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: I need help...please

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  Hail our Creator God Satan.
From: "lydia_666@..." <lydia_666@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Tuesday, January 24, 2012 1:35 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: I need help...please

  It's about 15 minutes, for kundalini spinal series (not including the 15 minutes lying still at the end) and 10-45 minutes for the hatha (depending on how many reps you're doing, even a little bit is better than nothing). Just jumping in here to give you an idea. I used to keep my laptop on a chair in front of me while I was on my yoga mat so I could follow along.

Hail Satan!
Hail Set!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Mike <misza2@... wrote:

OK, I've downloaded materials about Hatha and Kundalini Yoga from the Files section of the Group. After cursorily browsing these texts, I believe it's going to take a tremendous amounts of time, as all the exercises are linked into a proper "set" or a "series" and are not supposed to be performed singly. Guess I'd better start memorizing all the moves or at least keep my tablet close-by. As far as Hatha Yoga goes, it's gonna be a hard nut to crack. I just hope I won't break anything at my first attempt (I'm so inflexible that there's no way to perform all the asanas correctly... at least not at the beginning). Oh well, practice makes perfect
 
Hail Satan and all the true Gods! 
Hail Gods of War!  
/Mike

 

[Mike1]

True. Although I overdid it yesterday. Or did them the wrong way. Or both. Woke up in the morning with pain in my glenohumeral joints, bit of pain in the lower back (but that's nothing new, Yoga or not) and muscle stiffness in my neck and upper back. Guess bow I'll have to wait all these conditions out before I can continue and obviously, the pain and stiffness are the indicators that I did something wrong. Or too much. Probably forced myself while doing Hatha after all. Oh well, I'll have to approach from a different angle now, hope I'll work it out soon xD Hail Satan and all the true Gods! Hail Gods of War!  /Mike
From: Shannon Outlaw <soutlaw92@...
To: "[email protected]" <[email protected]
Sent: Tuesday, January 24, 2012 8:29 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: I need help...please

  <var [/IMG]</var>Hey [/IMG]</var>
  Hail our Creator God Satan.
From: "lydia_666@..." <lydia_666@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Tuesday, January 24, 2012 1:35 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: I need help...please

  It's about 15 minutes, for kundalini spinal series (not including the 15 minutes lying still at the end) and 10-45 minutes for the hatha (depending on how many reps you're doing, even a little bit is better than nothing). Just jumping in here to give you an idea. I used to keep my laptop on a chair in front of me while I was on my yoga mat so I could follow along.

Hail Satan!
Hail Set!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Mike <misza2@... wrote:

OK, I've downloaded materials about Hatha and Kundalini Yoga from the Files section of the Group. After cursorily browsing these texts, I believe it's going to take a tremendous amounts of time, as all the exercises are linked into a proper "set" or a "series" and are not supposed to be performed singly. Guess I'd better start memorizing all the moves or at least keep my tablet close-by. As far as Hatha Yoga goes, it's gonna be a hard nut to crack. I just hope I won't break anything at my first attempt (I'm so inflexible that there's no way to perform all the asanas correctly... at least not at the beginning). Oh well, practice makes perfect
 
Hail Satan and all the true Gods! 
Hail Gods of War!  
/Mike