read the latest replies , brother.
1st. i didnt meet a jew, so all i know about jews is what i have read on the internet. so i underestimated their fugliness. 2nd. and ive read a part gentile a part jew had suffered from emotional stuff, so i thought thats why i was so emotionally problematic, like since my childhood. 3rd. ive read that a jew used to serve Hitler ( correct me on this one, i was sure ive read it on JoS groups but now i doubt it ) , so i thought that jews can choose to serve Satan, i thought that way because, as i said, i have underestimated their threat. 6. maybe the obsession is true, but not in a positive way. (obviously its not a good thing to make a conclusion that your childhood friend is a jew and slowly detaching our relationship without her knowing. she is not the only i did that.)
and yes i am struggling against my personalities, since probably the time i had my own conciousness. and probably it was an emotional and "desperate" call for help. i couldnt decide if i was a jew or not, so i probably wanted a Satanist to tell me that my personality doesnt match one, to clear my suspicion about myself. but i was having really hard days and probably just started "losing-my-mind" and writing all kinds of bullshit on the internet. therefore i apologize for this stupid post.
Hail Satan!!