"I hate this place"

[engesongwok2]

Hello,I hate to be so negative,but I really am in a tough spot. I had the good fortune, or so I thought to get a scholarship almost 2 years ago. But unfortunately it came with the requirement for service time. The only place available to fulfill the agreement is where I currently live. I thought I could stick it out for 2 years, but me and my partner are really getting the sense of how impoverished, and how it just isn't a match for us culturally. Its gotta be 99% christian fundementalist, or "CF friendly".  I was just appalled that even the gay community is behind the xtian faith, like 100% and to their last dying breath. 
Well, in any case I have been applying to jobs to get out of here, and even trying to invent if possible other places to work to fulfill my obligation. I am almost there, as conditions are so poor that even the scholarship coordinator has sought to forgive my obligation here. However, there is the issue of a bonus that I got to get me to work here, which turned out NOT to be worth it. I may have to repay that.
I would like to know if there is some thing I can do spiritually to get me out of this commitment, and make my arrival in the new location smoother as the job I want to take has some problems, like its only intermittent and may not provide all that I need. I feel like I really am in between a rock and a hard place. Either living in a place that I just barely tolerate. (my partner hates with a passion to put it mildly) or to work at a better place, but have to travel a few thousand miles, and face financial hardship for a significant period after arrival. Maybe there is some other option I cant see at the moment, but I dont know what that is. 
There is something odd, however. My partner noticed that there are no synagogues around here, and NO mention of anyone celebrating any jewish holiday. Hes from the east coast and is used to hearing someone mention it. But nothing. He make the remark that no jew would be in a place that is this crappy. There is however, the usual church on every corner, along with dirt, busted up sidewalks, and trash everywhere. Along with severe alcoholism, despite the severe restrictions around buying wine, beer and hard alcohol.  

 

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ok i'm a ss newbie now when dealing with xtian i pretend to be them it's fun so to speak to hide who i'am now spiritually i can't say depends on what  you want and how powerful you are but make a pro and con list of both situations which ever fit's more in the pro slot with little to no cons i say we have a winner hoped this helped brother or sister 

On Thu, Oct 2, 2014 at 4:51 PM, engesongwok2@... [JoyofSatan666] <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

  Hello,I hate to be so negative,but I really am in a tough spot. I had the good fortune, or so I thought to get a scholarship almost 2 years ago. But unfortunately it came with the requirement for service time. The only place available to fulfill the agreement is where I currently live. I thought I could stick it out for 2 years, but me and my partner are really getting the sense of how impoverished, and how it just isn't a match for us culturally. Its gotta be 99% christian fundementalist, or "CF friendly".  I was just appalled that even the gay community is behind the xtian faith, like 100% and to their last dying breath. 
Well, in any case I have been applying to jobs to get out of here, and even trying to invent if possible other places to work to fulfill my obligation. I am almost there, as conditions are so poor that even the scholarship coordinator has sought to forgive my obligation here. However, there is the issue of a bonus that I got to get me to work here, which turned out NOT to be worth it. I may have to repay that.
I would like to know if there is some thing I can do spiritually to get me out of this commitment, and make my arrival in the new location smoother as the job I want to take has some problems, like its only intermittent and may not provide all that I need. I feel like I really am in between a rock and a hard place. Either living in a place that I just barely tolerate. (my partner hates with a passion to put it mildly) or to work at a better place, but have to travel a few thousand miles, and face financial hardship for a significant period after arrival. Maybe there is some other option I cant see at the moment, but I dont know what that is. 
There is something odd, however. My partner noticed that there are no synagogues around here, and NO mention of anyone celebrating any jewish holiday. Hes from the east coast and is used to hearing someone mention it. But nothing. He make the remark that no jew would be in a place that is this crappy. There is however, the usual church on every corner, along with dirt, busted up sidewalks, and trash everywhere. Along with severe alcoholism, despite the severe restrictions around buying wine, beer and hard alcohol.  

 

[James Hunter]

I don't feel so powerless, some inspiration has come to me I will post somethings I hope will be inspirational to others. 

On Friday, October 3, 2014 11:35 PM, "'izzyhendrix@...' deontabray@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] wrote:


  ok i'm a ss newbie now when dealing with xtian i pretend to be them it's fun so to speak to hide who i'am now spiritually i can't say depends on what  you want and how powerful you are but make a pro and con list of both situations which ever fit's more in the pro slot with little to no cons i say we have a winner hoped this helped brother or sister 
On Thu, Oct 2, 2014 at 4:51 PM, engesongwok2@... [JoyofSatan666] <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

  Hello,I hate to be so negative,but I really am in a tough spot. I had the good fortune, or so I thought to get a scholarship almost 2 years ago. But unfortunately it came with the requirement for service time. The only place available to fulfill the agreement is where I currently live. I thought I could stick it out for 2 years, but me and my partner are really getting the sense of how impoverished, and how it just isn't a match for us culturally. Its gotta be 99% christian fundementalist, or "CF friendly".  I was just appalled that even the gay community is behind the xtian faith, like 100% and to their last dying breath. 
Well, in any case I have been applying to jobs to get out of here, and even trying to invent if possible other places to work to fulfill my obligation. I am almost there, as conditions are so poor that even the scholarship coordinator has sought to forgive my obligation here. However, there is the issue of a bonus that I got to get me to work here, which turned out NOT to be worth it. I may have to repay that.
I would like to know if there is some thing I can do spiritually to get me out of this commitment, and make my arrival in the new location smoother as the job I want to take has some problems, like its only intermittent and may not provide all that I need. I feel like I really am in between a rock and a hard place. Either living in a place that I just barely tolerate. (my partner hates with a passion to put it mildly) or to work at a better place, but have to travel a few thousand miles, and face financial hardship for a significant period after arrival. Maybe there is some other option I cant see at the moment, but I dont know what that is. 
There is something odd, however. My partner noticed that there are no synagogues around here, and NO mention of anyone celebrating any jewish holiday. Hes from the east coast and is used to hearing someone mention it. But nothing. He make the remark that no jew would be in a place that is this crappy. There is however, the usual church on every corner, along with dirt, busted up sidewalks, and trash everywhere. Along with severe alcoholism, despite the severe restrictions around buying wine, beer and hard alcohol.