I really don’t know if this is appropriate, but I am looking for help. I was once a member almost 12 years ago. I didn’t associate with anyone if I’m honest I practiced entirely by myself.
I feel myself being pulled back to this. And if there’s anyone who’d be willing to talk with me I would genuinely greatly appreciate any help or wisdom that is offered.
I feel almost silly typing this but it feels like something is pulling me towards finding out more in relation to Barbatos. I don’t know how I’m supposed to go about any of this to be truthful.
I stopped practicing because I started to see a pale woman in a white dress with long dark black hair. Not just asleep but in the waking world. She never really went away. I just stopped seeing her physically.
I should mention I have Aphantasia, so visualization is essentially black on black still frames for me. I can still see her when I close my eyes even now. My astral temple has even stayed unchanging and amazingly vivid in my mind.
I feel myself being pulled back to this. And if there’s anyone who’d be willing to talk with me I would genuinely greatly appreciate any help or wisdom that is offered.
I feel almost silly typing this but it feels like something is pulling me towards finding out more in relation to Barbatos. I don’t know how I’m supposed to go about any of this to be truthful.
I stopped practicing because I started to see a pale woman in a white dress with long dark black hair. Not just asleep but in the waking world. She never really went away. I just stopped seeing her physically.
I should mention I have Aphantasia, so visualization is essentially black on black still frames for me. I can still see her when I close my eyes even now. My astral temple has even stayed unchanging and amazingly vivid in my mind.
