HELP ABOUT TO END MY LIFE

[Jake1]

To make a very long story short im 18 i feel like ive been cursed since the 1st day ive been born. i have been haven the worst fuckn luck with everything nothin but negitve. all i feel is deprssed rage and pain and it keeps happening to me its fuckn crazy words really cant explain it. Ive ask father and my gurdian demon Set to help me but everytime i do a ritual and what every i ask for its like the oppisite happens and im tryn to do my best in my meditations while im tryn to handle alot of shit thats happing rightnow in my life its to fuckn overwelming. Everytime a good thing happens or i get in a happy mood for some reason somethin negitive happens and hits me twice as hard its like i get punished for bein happy. Ive tryd meditations to clean my aura and all the other ones it workd for a while but now its like i dont even want to try anymore but i keep tryn and im not getn anywere. Im fuckn sic and tired of this bad negitve shit im fuckn loseing my mind i dont even know what to think anymore or do. Im all alone i have no one to help me in my life its like EVERYONE is aginst me even my family. Please i beg of anyone to help me im extremly desperet i dont want to end my life i feel like im here for a important reason but all i think about and want to do is kill myself! HELP ME PLEASE!!

Hail Satan
Hail Set

 

[GakunGak1]

Don't do it, bro! DON'T FUCKING DO IT!
Ending your life IS NOT and WILL NOT solve problems.
What you need to do, soldier, is stand up and fight! Not an easy task, but is necessary, man!
Once, back then, I felt to a depression and wanted to kill myself. Now I see that was a mistake and I am glad I am alive. You need to gather strength to stay alive. Then try to figure out what to do next.
The enemy is playing tricks on you, man, STAY STRONG and don't give up! Father Satan and your Guardian WILL protect you, but you need to
gather strength, and try to meditation for protection.
Hang in there, bro, we're all here with ya!
Talk to me, write anything so we know you're still with us.
No man or woman is left behind.
With respect,
GakunGak

Hail Satan
Hail my Guardian

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Jake <beast20999@... wrote:

To make a very long story short im 18 i feel like ive been cursed since the 1st day ive been born. i have been haven the worst fuckn luck with everything nothin but negitve. all i feel is deprssed rage and pain and it keeps happening to me its fuckn crazy words really cant explain it. Ive ask father and my gurdian demon Set to help me but everytime i do a ritual and what every i ask for its like the oppisite happens and im tryn to do my best in my meditations while im tryn to handle alot of shit thats happing rightnow in my life its to fuckn overwelming. Everytime a good thing happens or i get in a happy mood for some reason somethin negitive happens and hits me twice as hard its like i get punished for bein happy. Ive tryd meditations to clean my aura and all the other ones it workd for a while but now its like i dont even want to try anymore but i keep tryn and im not getn anywere. Im fuckn sic and tired of this bad negitve shit im fuckn loseing my mind i dont even know what to think anymore or do. Im all alone i have no one to help me in my life its like EVERYONE is aginst me even my family. Please i beg of anyone to help me im extremly desperet i dont want to end my life i feel like im here for a important reason but all i think about and want to do is kill myself! HELP ME PLEASE!!

Hail Satan
Hail Set

 

[Yoyo]

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Jake <beast20999@... wrote:

To make a very long story short im 18 i feel like ive been cursed since the 1st day ive been born. i have been haven the worst fuckn luck with everything nothin but negitve. all i feel is deprssed rage and pain and it keeps happening to me its fuckn crazy words really cant explain it. Ive ask father and my gurdian demon Set to help me but everytime i do a ritual and what every i ask for its like the oppisite happens and im tryn to do my best in my meditations while im tryn to handle alot of shit thats happing rightnow in my life its to fuckn overwelming. Everytime a good thing happens or i get in a happy mood for some reason somethin negitive happens and hits me twice as hard its like i get punished for bein happy. Ive tryd meditations to clean my aura and all the other ones it workd for a while but now its like i dont even want to try anymore but i keep tryn and im not getn anywere. Im fuckn sic and tired of this bad negitve shit im fuckn loseing my mind i dont even know what to think anymore or do. Im all alone i have no one to help me in my life its like EVERYONE is aginst me even my family. Please i beg of anyone to help me im extremly desperet i dont want to end my life i feel like im here for a important reason but all i think about and want to do is kill myself! HELP ME PLEASE!!

Hail Satan
Hail Set

Do Not be desperate.Satan and the Gods are more than willing to Help You.

As for being cursed,do not believe this.These are thoughts and ideas that proceed from other sources than us.You won't end Your life,You will win against problems and be proud.

A very good thing You can do,is JUST do not give the enemy attention.You will re-claim Your rights once You're powerful and standing up again.

First of all,I would ask You to clean Your Aura and reinforce it to protect You.

http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... aning.html

Then Its important that You severe the spiritual links the enemy attaches to our soul

http://www.vovimbaghie.co.cc/severing_the_link.html

You need to be powerful and powerless.Death is the last option.If You have a home and something to eat,or even without these,death is never the best option

HAIL SATAN!

HAIL PAIMON!

HAIL ALL GODS OF DUAT!

HAIL THE HUMAN RACE!

HAIL HITLER!

 

[Alley Cat]

I have felt the same way for over half my life, and I really believe that it's the enemy that tries to encourage this behavior. You have to keep strong, you have this strength within you. Find it, and pull it out. When  you are meditating, and have trouble doing so, just say a quick prayer to Father Satan and/or your Guardian. This helps me much, when I have trouble too. 
I also agree with Yoyo, cleaning your aura, cutting the cords helps much. You can also imagine Satanic Blue fire cleaning your aura, and room (or the space where you meditate) for several minutes. Just imagine its heat, colour, etc. cleansing you and the entire area.
I agree with GakunGak, ending your life will not solve any problems. We are all here for you. If you need someone to talk to, feel free to message me... I know that feeling all too well of suicide and despair, and empathize.
Hail Satan.

From: GakunGak <drgnjvnv@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Sat, January 8, 2011 5:51:49 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: HELP ABOUT TO END MY LIFE

  Don't do it, bro! DON'T FUCKING DO IT!
Ending your life IS NOT and WILL NOT solve problems.
What you need to do, soldier, is stand up and fight! Not an easy task, but is necessary, man!
Once, back then, I felt to a depression and wanted to kill myself. Now I see that was a mistake and I am glad I am alive. You need to gather strength to stay alive. Then try to figure out what to do next.
The enemy is playing tricks on you, man, STAY STRONG and don't give up! Father Satan and your Guardian WILL protect you, but you need to
gather strength, and try to meditation for protection.
Hang in there, bro, we're all here with ya!
Talk to me, write anything so we know you're still with us.
No man or woman is left behind.
With respect,
GakunGak

Hail Satan
Hail my Guardian

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Jake <beast20999@... wrote:

To make a very long story short im 18 i feel like ive been cursed since the 1st day ive been born. i have been haven the worst fuckn luck with everything nothin but negitve. all i feel is deprssed rage and pain and it keeps happening to me its fuckn crazy words really cant explain it. Ive ask father and my gurdian demon Set to help me but everytime i do a ritual and what every i ask for its like the oppisite happens and im tryn to do my best in my meditations while im tryn to handle alot of shit thats happing rightnow in my life its to fuckn overwelming. Everytime a good thing happens or i get in a happy mood for some reason somethin negitive happens and hits me twice as hard its like i get punished for bein happy. Ive tryd meditations to clean my aura and all the other ones it workd for a while but now its like i dont even want to try anymore but i keep tryn and im not getn anywere. Im fuckn sic and tired of this bad negitve shit im fuckn loseing my mind i dont even know what to think anymore or do. Im all alone i have no one to help me in my life its like EVERYONE is aginst me even my family. Please i beg of anyone to help me im extremly desperet i dont want to end my life i feel like im here for a important reason but all i think about and want to do is kill myself! HELP ME PLEASE!!

Hail Satan
Hail Set

 

[Lethe]

One more thing. I'd like to add that, as others have said, this feeling of being cursed and wanting to kill yourself is a trick. One of the oldest tricks in the book. That's exactly how you're supposed to feel so that you won't be able to use your power. Stop thinking that this instant. You are powerful, and you will come to know so soon enough.

Regards

 

[chalchiuhnenetzin]

Do NOT even consider that!

I too have felt I was "cursed from birth". I was born to a woman who despised me (past life issues plus she's insane) and who actively worked to make my life the mother of all fuck-ups. Add that to the enemy's machinations, and it's quite a brew ...

This makes NO DIFFERENCE to Satan! As others have pointed out before, they enemy preys on our faults and weaknesses so as to render us powerless and, if they think they can manage it, dead. That alone is enough to rouse my considerable fighting spirit -- passive I ain't !!

(Something else that MAY contribute to some of the discouragement and even desperation is a natural phenomenon: the shifting of the earth's magnetic poles. Magnetic North is out over the North Sea right now and heading toward Siberia. These things can and do affect people; the moon affects us, for example, so why not the iron core of the planet as well ...)

Anyway, hang in there. Do some simple and brief meditations -- I like to call them "mini-meditations" for even a few minutes at a time is helpful. When we are in a place where we are not completely on top of our game so to speak, it can be good to just go back to basics for a short time.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Lethe" <kireo_umoshiae@... wrote:

One more thing. I'd like to add that, as others have said, this feeling of being cursed and wanting to kill yourself is a trick. One of the oldest tricks in the book. That's exactly how you're supposed to feel so that you won't be able to use your power. Stop thinking that this instant. You are powerful, and you will come to know so soon enough.

Regards

 

[Lethe]

Death is not what you think it is. If you really are unlucky, suicide will only cause you more troubles. But guess what? You have just hit a streak of good luck, because you've met me. XD

Honestly, I don't know if I can help you, but I'd like to try.

Stay away from negativity as much as possible. I know that's hard to do. You have to learn to anticipate it, to know when it's coming. That's largely dependent on intuition, but it's also as simple as staying away from people who are obviously not in the greatest of moods themselves.

Negative people is probably one of your biggest issues. They're infectious vampires and they always find ways to trap you so that you feel obligated to them. You're not obligated to anyone. Family is hard to get away from, but friends and coworkers is easy: just leave them.

Plant seeds of positivity everywhere you go. There a tons of ways to do this. Cleaning your aura is a good start, but you might want to also try expanding your cleansed aura to fill each room as you walk in it, so that your positivity infects others.

I think I'd need to know more about your situation before saying anything else, and I'd really like to help, so why don't you send the longer version of your story to my personal email address? Just hit "Reply to Sender" instead of "Reply Via Web post".

If you decide to mail me, be sure to include details about how long you've been practicing and what kind of spells and rituals you're doing and what types of things you ask for (if that's not too personal). I have some theories as to why they're not working (based on experience), but more information would be useful.

Heil Satan

--- Jake <beast20999@... wrote:

To make a very long story short im 18 i feel like ive been cursed since the 1st day ive been born. i have been haven the worst fuckn luck with everything nothin but negitve. all i feel is deprssed rage and pain and it keeps happening to me its fuckn crazy words really cant explain it. Ive ask father and my gurdian demon Set to help me but everytime i do a ritual and what every i ask for its like the oppisite happens and im tryn to do my best in my meditations while im tryn to handle alot of shit thats happing rightnow in my life its to fuckn overwelming. Everytime a good thing happens or i get in a happy mood for some reason somethin negitive happens and hits me twice as hard its like i get punished for bein happy. Ive tryd meditations to clean my aura and all the other ones it workd for a while but now its like i dont even want to try anymore but i keep tryn and im not getn anywere. Im fuckn sic and tired of this bad negitve shit im fuckn loseing my mind i dont even know what to think anymore or do. Im all alone i have no one to help me in my life its like EVERYONE is aginst me even my family. Please i beg of anyone to help me im extremly desperet i dont want to end my life i feel like im here for a important reason but all i think about and want to do is kill myself! HELP ME PLEASE!!

Hail Satan
Hail Set

 

[morticia]

the stronger u are the more the enemy wants to fuck w/ u. i know it's easy for me to sit back here all nice and comfortable and tell u to hold on. u are, after all, the one that's going thru this. u are a very strong, powerful person and will be able to do very many great things in Satan's name. just hang in there a little while longer and u'll see this. Father Satan loves u and he's counting on u to help spread the word. Set loves u too. just talk to them and let them comfort u. dont forget we're here for u also too. u can e-mail me if u want. all hail Satan and the Gods of Duat!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Alley Cat <alleycat.citymouse@... wrote:

I have felt the same way for over half my life, and I really believe that it's
the enemy that tries to encourage this behavior. You have to keep strong, you
have this strength within you. Find it, and pull it out. When you are
meditating, and have trouble doing so, just say a quick prayer to Father Satan
and/or your Guardian. This helps me much, when I have trouble too.

I also agree with Yoyo, cleaning your aura, cutting the cords helps much. You
can also imagine Satanic Blue fire cleaning your aura, and room (or the space
where you meditate) for several minutes. Just imagine its heat, colour, etc.
cleansing you and the entire area.

I agree with GakunGak, ending your life will not solve any problems.
We are all here for you. If you need someone to talk to, feel free to message
me... I know that feeling all too well of suicide and despair, and empathize.

Hail Satan.




________________________________
From: GakunGak <drgnjvnv@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Sat, January 8, 2011 5:51:49 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: HELP ABOUT TO END MY LIFE


Don't do it, bro! DON'T FUCKING DO IT!
Ending your life IS NOT and WILL NOT solve problems.
What you need to do, soldier, is stand up and fight! Not an easy task, but is
necessary, man!
Once, back then, I felt to a depression and wanted to kill myself. Now I see
that was a mistake and I am glad I am alive. You need to gather strength to stay
alive. Then try to figure out what to do next.
The enemy is playing tricks on you, man, STAY STRONG and don't give up! Father
Satan and your Guardian WILL protect you, but you need to

gather strength, and try to meditation for protection.
Hang in there, bro, we're all here with ya!
Talk to me, write anything so we know you're still with us.
No man or woman is left behind.
With respect,
GakunGak

Hail Satan
Hail my Guardian

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Jake <beast20999@ wrote:

To make a very long story short im 18 i feel like ive been cursed since the 1st
day ive been born. i have been haven the worst fuckn luck with everything nothin
but negitve. all i feel is deprssed rage and pain and it keeps happening to me
its fuckn crazy words really cant explain it. Ive ask father and my gurdian
demon Set to help me but everytime i do a ritual and what every i ask for its
like the oppisite happens and im tryn to do my best in my meditations while im
tryn to handle alot of shit thats happing rightnow in my life its to fuckn
overwelming. Everytime a good thing happens or i get in a happy mood for some
reason somethin negitive happens and hits me twice as hard its like i get
punished for bein happy. Ive tryd meditations to clean my aura and all the other
ones it workd for a while but now its like i dont even want to try anymore but i
keep tryn and im not getn anywere. Im fuckn sic and tired of this bad negitve
shit im fuckn loseing my mind i dont even know what to think anymore or do. Im
all alone i have no one to help me in my life its like EVERYONE is aginst me
even my family. Please i beg of anyone to help me im extremly desperet i dont
want to end my life i feel like im here for a important reason but all i think
about and want to do is kill myself! HELP ME PLEASE!!

Hail Satan
Hail Set