truthseek774
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I have read all of the JoS website and the many links to related sites therein.
I am a highly trained scientist but I have been passionately searching for answers and truth since early adulthood. Astronomical science was where I started but I have always felt that science just didn't get the importance of philosophical and even spiritual questions. I have read almost every conspiracy theory there is and so the info about Enki and genetic engineering etc. was very familiar.
I am a xian by family inheritance but I have never really BEEN a xian. None of it ever made sense to me. I could NEVER memorize my bible passages and regularly got whipped for it...literally. And this made it seem like spiritualism was something I just did not have the genetics to experience, because whatever it was that people think they felt from "having a relationship with Jesus/xianity", I never felt a darned thing, ever. I FEEL lots of spirit within myself, but it has NEVER been accentuated or improved with xianity.
A couple of nights ago while going to sleep and meditating, I had a conversation in my head thinking about becoming dedicated to Satan. I made the decision to do it and I will do so soon formally, with the ritual. If Satan is real I didn't want to seem like a leech, and so I wanted to give something back in case that was an actual conversation with Satan. So, while laying there I amplified my bio-electricity. I can just think about it and with some small effort I can make my entire body tingle with energy...I don't know what this is or if it is nothing, but I thought that maybe it is bio-electricity. So, I envisioned this energy flowing to my finger tips (I had my hands folded together as in prayer but with the index fingers pointing out together), until it felt like my finger tips were on fire. Then, I envisioned this energy separating from my finger tips and becoming a ball of light/energy that I held between my index finger tips and the front of my forehead. I continued pouring mental energy/bio-electricity into the ball until I was almost depleted, and then I gave the ball to Satan. I then envisioned the ball being hurled at light speed into YHWH, striking against it, and then collapsing into a needle-point of energy so that it could penetrate and make a hole through the body of YHWH. Then I had the vision of two entities being very happy about this...my mind said they were Satan and Astaroth but I highly doubt this is anything more than my imagination. After this envisioning of energy and energizing my body like that and sending it off, I was extremely tired and fell deeply asleep instantly.
That night, I woke up two times having an extremely sexual sensation. I have never EVER felt so sexual in my life. My hand was on my wife's hip stroking it - as I woke up - and I felt a sexual "lustiness" I have never ever felt before with anyone. This happened twice. It was a sexual lustiness I have never felt before, and which I honestly wouldn't even know how to feel again, and believe me, I have made myself extremely lusty before by abstinence. What I felt that night was beyond anything I would call normal, possibly even human. I didn't fully feel like myself while I was having that sensation...I felt...I don't know how to describe it...I felt "more full". I felt "deep". Then when I came-to consciously after a few seconds of that and felt like myself again, I fell right back asleep.
I also had a very vivid dream that night...of the city of Denver being hit with a Tunguska impact which obliterated it in a shockwave/gust of wind from above. This was followed by a nuclear bomb blast in about the same position, with the sensation being that the nuke blast was very small in comparison to the "Tunguska" blast. Then, I was running away from the city because "FEMA" people were rounding everyone up with a big fence that was sweeping in our way to catch us. Many people got outside of the fence but me and a bunch of other people got trapped. I was seconds away from not being trapped. I asked the security guard if I could get over the fence, and he said if I had been only a few seconds quicker I could have gone, but now I was trapped.
Then we were all trapped inside a small high-fenced area. A security guard came up and shot a pretty blonde woman in the back of the head and killed her. I yelled out and told everyone to attack, and we did, and I killed the security guard and took his gun and shot a bunch of other ones. Then we broke into their administrative building and I found some gasoline and burned the building down with it.
Then in the morning people were looking at the ashes, and it seemed that some people had a little bit of regret and sorrow for what had happened, and this confused me as I thought people should have all been happy to be free. They were saying something about "how" or "where" they used to live.
Then I was beside a corn field feeding a horse, and in the corn field were moose, deer, elk, cougars and bears. The cougars and bears were intimidating but they didn't attack. I found my rifle so that I could shoot a moose for everyone to eat, and then I woke up.
I woke up with what seem to be small itchy burn marks on my left side. They could be bug bites but we don't really have bugs here, and our bed is very clean. I also have sore areas on the skin on the stomach and back, but there's no bruising or anything visible to indicate why the might feel sore.
Just thought I'd pass this along as an experience and anyone can comment if they wish.
I am a highly trained scientist but I have been passionately searching for answers and truth since early adulthood. Astronomical science was where I started but I have always felt that science just didn't get the importance of philosophical and even spiritual questions. I have read almost every conspiracy theory there is and so the info about Enki and genetic engineering etc. was very familiar.
I am a xian by family inheritance but I have never really BEEN a xian. None of it ever made sense to me. I could NEVER memorize my bible passages and regularly got whipped for it...literally. And this made it seem like spiritualism was something I just did not have the genetics to experience, because whatever it was that people think they felt from "having a relationship with Jesus/xianity", I never felt a darned thing, ever. I FEEL lots of spirit within myself, but it has NEVER been accentuated or improved with xianity.
A couple of nights ago while going to sleep and meditating, I had a conversation in my head thinking about becoming dedicated to Satan. I made the decision to do it and I will do so soon formally, with the ritual. If Satan is real I didn't want to seem like a leech, and so I wanted to give something back in case that was an actual conversation with Satan. So, while laying there I amplified my bio-electricity. I can just think about it and with some small effort I can make my entire body tingle with energy...I don't know what this is or if it is nothing, but I thought that maybe it is bio-electricity. So, I envisioned this energy flowing to my finger tips (I had my hands folded together as in prayer but with the index fingers pointing out together), until it felt like my finger tips were on fire. Then, I envisioned this energy separating from my finger tips and becoming a ball of light/energy that I held between my index finger tips and the front of my forehead. I continued pouring mental energy/bio-electricity into the ball until I was almost depleted, and then I gave the ball to Satan. I then envisioned the ball being hurled at light speed into YHWH, striking against it, and then collapsing into a needle-point of energy so that it could penetrate and make a hole through the body of YHWH. Then I had the vision of two entities being very happy about this...my mind said they were Satan and Astaroth but I highly doubt this is anything more than my imagination. After this envisioning of energy and energizing my body like that and sending it off, I was extremely tired and fell deeply asleep instantly.
That night, I woke up two times having an extremely sexual sensation. I have never EVER felt so sexual in my life. My hand was on my wife's hip stroking it - as I woke up - and I felt a sexual "lustiness" I have never ever felt before with anyone. This happened twice. It was a sexual lustiness I have never felt before, and which I honestly wouldn't even know how to feel again, and believe me, I have made myself extremely lusty before by abstinence. What I felt that night was beyond anything I would call normal, possibly even human. I didn't fully feel like myself while I was having that sensation...I felt...I don't know how to describe it...I felt "more full". I felt "deep". Then when I came-to consciously after a few seconds of that and felt like myself again, I fell right back asleep.
I also had a very vivid dream that night...of the city of Denver being hit with a Tunguska impact which obliterated it in a shockwave/gust of wind from above. This was followed by a nuclear bomb blast in about the same position, with the sensation being that the nuke blast was very small in comparison to the "Tunguska" blast. Then, I was running away from the city because "FEMA" people were rounding everyone up with a big fence that was sweeping in our way to catch us. Many people got outside of the fence but me and a bunch of other people got trapped. I was seconds away from not being trapped. I asked the security guard if I could get over the fence, and he said if I had been only a few seconds quicker I could have gone, but now I was trapped.
Then we were all trapped inside a small high-fenced area. A security guard came up and shot a pretty blonde woman in the back of the head and killed her. I yelled out and told everyone to attack, and we did, and I killed the security guard and took his gun and shot a bunch of other ones. Then we broke into their administrative building and I found some gasoline and burned the building down with it.
Then in the morning people were looking at the ashes, and it seemed that some people had a little bit of regret and sorrow for what had happened, and this confused me as I thought people should have all been happy to be free. They were saying something about "how" or "where" they used to live.
Then I was beside a corn field feeding a horse, and in the corn field were moose, deer, elk, cougars and bears. The cougars and bears were intimidating but they didn't attack. I found my rifle so that I could shoot a moose for everyone to eat, and then I woke up.
I woke up with what seem to be small itchy burn marks on my left side. They could be bug bites but we don't really have bugs here, and our bed is very clean. I also have sore areas on the skin on the stomach and back, but there's no bruising or anything visible to indicate why the might feel sore.
Just thought I'd pass this along as an experience and anyone can comment if they wish.
