Feeling rejected by family

[Anonymous]

Hello, I just got off the phone with my brother and his wife. I feel rejected, its very subtle, yet effectively hurtful. Its like I don't know them at all. I am not sure what it is exactly. I can only project. I remember speaking to one of my sisters about wicca and even JOS, but that was years ago. I thought she was cool with it, and wouldn't mention anything. Perhaps she did? I don't know.  I didn't make a direct attack to her on her faith, but said something negative recently on facebook about xtianity to someone else. I guess that will be the last I will do that. Perhaps she saw that. Please don't want to think, question or take a joke about anything. Its pretty sad. Of course they couldn't wait to talk about being involved with their local church, and some program for helping the homeless. It sounded like it made them happy, and sounded honorable. But at the same time, something about it sounded subtly abusive. Like the organization was helping, but with many, many strings attached. I could also detect some judgement about if the homeless people were really trying to help themselves.  I made the mistake of mentioning anything to anyone. I keep forgetting that some people have severe judgements about any form of satanism. I have a difficult time thinking its something I have to hide, or guard myself from saying the wrong thing to the wrong person. I also resent hearing certain people constantly giving a nod to xtianity whenever they can. Some of these people also don't exactly follow the faith, except when the image or lip service benefits them. Its just too weird.  Anyways, its an eye opener for me, if uncomfortable. Its some weird religion with the odd mantra of 'unconditional love' except when it doesn't suit them, or it there is something they don't understand or agree with. I never took my brother as being the religious type, but I suppose he is now for whatever reason. I think he likes the opportunity to give the boot to homeless people who aren't motivated. His wife is going back to school (she says) to finish 5 classes to get a BS in psychology. She has only been talking about that for the last 12 years, so I will believe it when it happens. Any comments, or statements of support will be welcome. Hail satan.

 

[Allison P]

I'm sorry. That must have been hard for you. It's very frustrating,
yes. I do feel your pain! I have not told my mother and father of my
religion; I chose not to. But I am open about it with strangers.
Sounds weird I know, but nonetheless...it is, believe it or not,
harder to discuss Satanism or Satan with your parents than with
strangers. Least it is with me. I know they just would not understand,
though I know they would not reject me, as they are not religious.
Though my dad has some, well, new age-y tendencies. Lol. And yes, I
know in the Al Jilwah, it says you shouldn't speak of Satan and his
attributes, but damn it, I want to talk about him! I want to open
people's eyes, at least attempt to do so. It makes me so mad, like
what you said; everybody says 'yay'! and 'great job'! to someone when
they talk about helping in their church community, or how wonderful
their prayer group in the church is; but if someone even mentions
Satanism you get the 'oh, you must have had an awful, abused
childhood! I'll pray for you'. Bah! It's so bloody stupid! I want to,
in my own way, try and help change people's views of Father. I have to
at least try; I feel it is my duty to do so. Is it easy? No. But it
is, in my opinion, necessary.

Well, I hope my rambling helped somewhat. Just remember, family is not
always of the blood. And with us, it's deeper than blood; we are
family of the soul, in Satan's name. Hail Father Satan always!

On 7/10/12, Enki's Friend <enkisfriend@... wrote:
Hello, I just got off the phone with my brother and his wife. I feel
rejected, its very subtle, yet effectively hurtful. Its like I don't know
them at all. I am not sure what it is exactly. I can only project. I
remember speaking to one of my sisters about wicca and even JOS, but that
was years ago. I thought she was cool with it, and wouldn't mention
anything. Perhaps she did? I don't know.

I didn't make a direct attack to her on her faith, but said something
negative recently on facebook about xtianity to someone else. I guess that
will be the last I will do that. Perhaps she saw that. Please don't want to
think, question or take a joke about anything. Its pretty sad. Of course
they couldn't wait to talk about being involved with their local church, and
some program for helping the homeless. It sounded like it made them happy,
and sounded honorable. But at the same time, something about it sounded
subtly abusive. Like the organization was helping, but with many, many
strings attached. I could also detect some judgement about if the homeless
people were really trying to help themselves.

I made the mistake of mentioning anything to anyone. I keep forgetting that
some people have severe judgements about any form of satanism. I have a
difficult time thinking its something I have to hide, or guard myself from
saying the wrong thing to the wrong person. I also resent hearing certain
people constantly giving a nod to xtianity whenever they can. Some of these
people also don't exactly follow the faith, except when the image or lip
service benefits them. Its just too weird.

Anyways, its an eye opener for me, if uncomfortable. Its some weird religion
with the odd mantra of 'unconditional love' except when it doesn't suit
them, or it there is something they don't understand or agree with. I never
took my brother as being the religious type, but I suppose he is now for
whatever reason. I think he likes the opportunity to give the boot to
homeless people who aren't motivated. His wife is going back to school (she
says) to finish 5 classes to get a BS in psychology. She has only been
talking about that for the last 12 years, so I will believe it when it
happens. Any comments, or statements of support will be welcome. Hail satan.