Sexual attacks make it impossible to meditate and I got some enemies

[WhiteBoiSamedi]

I need help still, still homeless, and after much clarity yes, many things that sound outlandong in my previous posts have some truth to them.

Now, due to a long history of spiritual warfare, ideological differences, religious shit, etc. It has escalated and now there is a constant sexually intrusive energy on me at all times. It's a mix of a Qlippothic cult being after me and weaponizing everything I do and dont do, say, and think, personal vendettas from a very sexually perverted family who all have weirdly ritualistic and almost sorta sacrifical-feeling sexual aggression towards or interest in me in weird unhealthy ways.

I have done many RTR's. I have even experimented with sigils and parchment burning rituals and imbuing RTR energy into small servitors to protect me and raid Israel every now and again. They make dents in my issues, but it's a lot to do and I'm homeless and can't focus well. It can't be ignored. It's bad and does things to my soul and subconscious, it's associated with bad people due to interference and taking advantage of other people's curses on me to make them stronger and more resistant to cleansing or banishing, and I am previously traumatized, emotionally blocked hard, frozen, and can't do much without a lot of stress or getting countered from 16 different directions. I've also gotten massively betrayed by fake normies pretending to not be spiritual then getting really upset when I talk about Satanism with others in the group and bind/pray for me. The trust issues are immense and also taken advantage of and redirected at the Gods to further disconnect me from them and make me feel like they're abusing me or talking shit because I procrastinate on projects that could genuinely help me due to :negative reacgoon expansion" spells to harshen everything they say to me unless I'm actively divinating via something like drawing, scrying and card reading.

If I can't meditate without worrying about being astrally raped, am disempowered, and fucking homeless and have my relationships with the Gods aggressively and emotionally countered whilst I am already fragile and desperately need a friend and a hug, and need to stay alive on the streets and rely on others for food and money, the fuck do I really do other than more RTR's, Power Rituals, and prayer?

 

[Henu the Great]

Keep your mouth shut about your personal beliefs. You'll invite trouble by speaking about occult information with people who are clueless about these subjects and or basically serving the enemy either directly or indirectly.

Second, take care of your spiritual hygiene on a daily basis. Clean aura, chakras, and build an aura of protection.

One way to take care of the above is listed below.

Returning Curses Part 1

Returning Curses Part 2

These two points alone will improve your situation drastically.

More information to study: https://templeofzeus.org/Meditation & https://templeofzeus.org/Magick

 

[VanceViktori888]

I have had similar issues in the past. Spiritual Hygiene is essential, you may have to do extra. Pray Honestly to the Gods to help you rise above this, the Gods won’t be angry if you’re desperate. Just ask their aid as respectfully and calmly as you can. Always do your best also to apply brother Henu the Great’s advice here too, and maintain your composure as best you can.

 

[darchseed]

Echoing Henu's and Vance's advice. I also would suggest starting the 40 day meditation program. As I can tell you from experience, that throwing yourself into multiple RTRs while neglecting the fundamentals, only leads to spiritual burnout.

Also avoiding meditation because of fears of being astrally raped, only guarantees that you will be.