childhood events

[lady_namaria]

I`ve had a terrible childhood.My father was and still is
alchoholic.Some things I dont really remember but they are still
hunting me.I would like to end this and heal myself from this,but I
dont know how.I tried to revenge and Ive done some black magice,but It
isnt enough.The wound is too deep and its still here.Im still living
with my parents and Im still having rough time,but now I can handle
it.But wounds from the past are still here.Can anyone give me some
advice to solve this???

 

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<em>Hey just try to hang in there okay? Have you tried talking to your dad and telling him how bad everything is and convincing him to get help? Maybe try some magick to help him with his alcoholic and realize what its doing? I don`t know. I`d find out the cause of that and try to fix it. </em> <em>As far as your past try remembering it the best you can. Go into a trance and replay things you remember. If you feel you are ready that is. How you deal with them is up to you. Whatever you feel is right.</em> <em>Good luck.</em> ----- Original Message ----- From: lady_namaria <[email protected] Date: Saturday, November 11, 2006 3:31 pm Subject: [Advanced_Meditation] childhood events

I`ve had a terrible childhood.My father was and still is
alchoholic.Some things I dont really remember but they are still
hunting me.I would like to end this and heal myself from this,but
I
dont know how.I tried to revenge and Ive done some black
magice,but It
isnt enough.The wound is too deep and its still here.Im still
living
with my parents and Im still having rough time,but now I can
handle
it.But wounds from the past are still here.Can anyone give me some
advice to solve this???

 

[*TIAMAT*]

Well, [/IMG]   "Qui deiderat pacem, praeparet bellum".

animus9@... escreveu:

<em>Hey just try to hang in there okay? Have you tried talking to your dad and telling him how bad everything is and convincing him to get help? Maybe try some magick to help him with his alcoholic and realize what its doing? I don`t know. I`d find out the cause of that and try to fix it. </em> <em>As far as your past try remembering it the best you can. Go into a trance and replay things you remember. If you feel you are ready that is. How you deal with them is up to you. Whatever you feel is right.</em> <em>Good luck.</em> ----- Original Message ----- From: lady_namaria <ivan.dundovic3@ os.t-com. hr Date: Saturday, November 11, 2006 3:31 pm Subject: [Advanced_Meditatio n] childhood events I`ve had a terrible childhood.My father was and still is
alchoholic.Some things I dont really remember but they are still
hunting me.I would like to end this and heal myself from this,but
I
dont know how.I tried to revenge and Ive done some black
magice,but It
isnt enough.The wound is too deep and its still here.Im still
living
with my parents and Im still having rough time,but now I can
handle
it.But wounds from the past are still here.Can anyone give me some
advice to solve this???

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[Acantha-Tara]

I have to agree pretty much, exept for one thing: To say "just get over it" without providing
the tools or a key to the tools is incomplete and heartless.

One of the ways the enemy tries to keep us from advancing spiritually is to ensure we are
kept so busy just trying to survive and remain safe that there is no time or energy or even
the ability to concentrate on anything else.

Include the desire for freedom from this abuse in your meditations and thoughts because
it's vital for advancement. Unlike the xtian pseudo-gods, Satan does not revel in our
suffering and only permits it if, in the long run, it will strengthen us, and even then, he
permits it only up to that point. Gratuituous suffering is not in his repertoir.

I am a woman well into middle age and I have suffered decades of horrendous abuse (and
so has my daughter), only fairly recently having learned to move beyond it. (And it's not
over yet, because a pair of dangerous psychopathic relatives have teamed up to try to
force me to sign over some of my legal rights. No need to belabour this, but suffice it to
say that both my daughter and I find this shit very debilitating and are coming to terms
with the fact that we will have to look over our shoulders for the rest of our lives, at least
until we can be sure psychic steps to stop them in their tracks are successful.) What I'm
sayinng is that in one form or another, we're going to get this stuff and the key to "getting
over it" lies in our spiritual progress and reliance on Satan and the demons.

In some situations, counselling can help IF you can locate a good one but one has to be
careful that they don't come from a judeo/xtian/newage perspective. It's unfortunate that
we don't seem to have counsellors/therapists who are also spiritual Satanists because their
perspective would be invaluable.

Also remember to call upon Satan and the demons for assistance. They do not ask that we
be "super-human" and know full well what we're up against.

This is obviously far from all the information you need to help yourself, but hopefully you
can take some encouragement and begin to move forward.

Acantha-Tara

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], *TIAMAT* <tiamat_gsa@... wrote:

Well, I just have one thing to say: Get over it.
As cold it may sound, its necessary. My life was a shit, too. Once we are born (reborn),
a "persecution" from IHVH starts and it can make our lives miserable, until Them get to us
(the Gods) to rescue... and then everything changes.
Trust Satan.
When the time comes, if you are faithful to Him, a dedicated satanist, He will help you
out. But know something in your heart: we are at war, and this is no "picnic". We MUST be
strong, no matter what. And I mean it.

Sincerely,

TiamaT.

"Qui deiderat pacem, praeparet bellum".


animus9@... escreveu:

Hey just try to hang in there okay? Have you tried talking to your dad and telling him
how bad everything is and convincing him to get help? Maybe try some magick to help him
with his alcoholic and realize what its doing? I don`t know. I`d find out the cause of that
and try to fix it.
As far as your past try remembering it the best you can. Go into a trance and replay
things you remember. If you feel you are ready that is. How you deal with them is up to
you. Whatever you feel is right.
Good luck.
----- Original Message -----

From: lady_namaria <ivan.dundovic3@...
Date: Saturday, November 11, 2006 3:31 pm
Subject: [Advanced_Meditation] childhood events

I`ve had a terrible childhood.My father was and still is
alchoholic.Some things I dont really remember but they are still
hunting me.I would like to end this and heal myself from this,but
I
dont know how.I tried to revenge and Ive done some black
magice,but It
isnt enough.The wound is too deep and its still here.Im still
living
with my parents and Im still having rough time,but now I can
handle
it.But wounds from the past are still here.Can anyone give me some
advice to solve this???







Lasciate Ogni Speranza Voi Ch' Entrate, e fate parte dell'esercito dell'Inferno!
"Morpheus: This is your last chance. After this, there is no turning back. You take the
blue pill - the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to
believe. You take the red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the
rabbit-hole goes. Follow the white rabbit". - The Matrix -1999.




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[lady_namaria]

My problem is that I have this pain still inside me,and its always
here.Lets say that I dont trust people,Im very explosive when
someone threats me in any way and I have no respect for people that
have weaknesess.
I am very strong,I would probably kill myself if I were weak.
I rely on the help of Lucifer and my GD Zagan,but still I want this
huge amount of pain and anger to disapear.Im really sick of it and
the way it influences me.Void meditations help.Probably I should use
this anger to destroy xtianity
--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], *TIAMAT*
<tiamat_gsa@... wrote:

Well, I just have one thing to say: Get over it.
As cold it may sound, its necessary. My life was a shit, too.

Once we are born (reborn), a "persecution" from IHVH starts and it
can make our lives miserable, until Them get to us (the Gods) to
rescue... and then everything changes.

Trust Satan.
When the time comes, if you are faithful to Him, a dedicated

satanist, He will help you out. But know something in your heart: we
are at war, and this is no "picnic". We MUST be strong, no matter
what. And I mean it.

Sincerely,

TiamaT.

"Qui deiderat pacem, praeparet bellum".


animus9@... escreveu:

Hey just try to hang in there okay? Have you tried talking to

your dad and telling him how bad everything is and convincing him to
get help? Maybe try some magick to help him with his alcoholic and
realize what its doing? I don`t know. I`d find out the cause of that
and try to fix it.

As far as your past try remembering it the best you can. Go into

a trance and replay things you remember. If you feel you are ready
that is. How you deal with them is up to you. Whatever you feel is
right.

Good luck.
----- Original Message -----

From: lady_namaria <ivan.dundovic3@...
Date: Saturday, November 11, 2006 3:31 pm
Subject: [Advanced_Meditation] childhood events

I`ve had a terrible childhood.My father was and still is
alchoholic.Some things I dont really remember but they are still
hunting me.I would like to end this and heal myself from

this,but

I
dont know how.I tried to revenge and Ive done some black
magice,but It
isnt enough.The wound is too deep and its still here.Im still
living
with my parents and Im still having rough time,but now I can
handle
it.But wounds from the past are still here.Can anyone give me

some

advice to solve this???







Lasciate Ogni Speranza Voi Ch' Entrate, e fate parte

dell'esercito dell'Inferno!

"Morpheus: This is your last chance. After this, there is no

turning back. You take the blue pill - the story ends, you wake up
in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the
red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-
hole goes. Follow the white rabbit". - The Matrix -1999.

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[lady_namaria]

I could get over it if I dont live with him anymore.Only two more
years and im moving never to come back again.My mother stays.She is
orthodox xtain.She could divorce,but her friend,priest, told here to
stay with her husband.She was psihicaly molested,beaten up many
times and the sorry list goes on and on.Im sometimes so angry
because people are so stupid.She says that she didnt want children
to have no father.I would love to have no father.
Well,Ill survive.I`ve survived all this years.It made me very
strong.Lucifer helped me many times.I think this I must solve by
myself.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Acantha-Tara"
<jaguarcat2002@... wrote:

I have to agree pretty much, exept for one thing: To say "just get

over it" without providing

the tools or a key to the tools is incomplete and heartless.

One of the ways the enemy tries to keep us from advancing

spiritually is to ensure we are

kept so busy just trying to survive and remain safe that there is

no time or energy or even

the ability to concentrate on anything else.

Include the desire for freedom from this abuse in your meditations

and thoughts because

it's vital for advancement. Unlike the xtian pseudo-gods, Satan

does not revel in our

suffering and only permits it if, in the long run, it will

strengthen us, and even then, he

permits it only up to that point. Gratuituous suffering is not in

his repertoir.

I am a woman well into middle age and I have suffered decades of

horrendous abuse (and

so has my daughter), only fairly recently having learned to move

beyond it. (And it's not

over yet, because a pair of dangerous psychopathic relatives have

teamed up to try to

force me to sign over some of my legal rights. No need to belabour

this, but suffice it to

say that both my daughter and I find this shit very debilitating

and are coming to terms

with the fact that we will have to look over our shoulders for the

rest of our lives, at least

until we can be sure psychic steps to stop them in their tracks

are successful.) What I'm

sayinng is that in one form or another, we're going to get this

stuff and the key to "getting

over it" lies in our spiritual progress and reliance on Satan and

the demons.

In some situations, counselling can help IF you can locate a good

one but one has to be

careful that they don't come from a judeo/xtian/newage

perspective. It's unfortunate that

we don't seem to have counsellors/therapists who are also

spiritual Satanists because their

perspective would be invaluable.

Also remember to call upon Satan and the demons for assistance.

They do not ask that we

be "super-human" and know full well what we're up against.

This is obviously far from all the information you need to help

yourself, but hopefully you

can take some encouragement and begin to move forward.

Acantha-Tara

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], *TIAMAT* <tiamat_gsa@

wrote:

Well, I just have one thing to say: Get over it.
As cold it may sound, its necessary. My life was a shit, too.

Once we are born (reborn),

a "persecution" from IHVH starts and it can make our lives

miserable, until Them get to us

(the Gods) to rescue... and then everything changes.
Trust Satan.
When the time comes, if you are faithful to Him, a dedicated

satanist, He will help you

out. But know something in your heart: we are at war, and this is

no "picnic". We MUST be

strong, no matter what. And I mean it.

Sincerely,

TiamaT.

"Qui deiderat pacem, praeparet bellum".


animus9@ escreveu:

Hey just try to hang in there okay? Have you tried talking to

your dad and telling him

how bad everything is and convincing him to get help? Maybe try

some magick to help him

with his alcoholic and realize what its doing? I don`t know. I`d

find out the cause of that

and try to fix it.
As far as your past try remembering it the best you can. Go

into a trance and replay

things you remember. If you feel you are ready that is. How you

deal with them is up to

you. Whatever you feel is right.
Good luck.
----- Original Message -----

From: lady_namaria <ivan.dundovic3@
Date: Saturday, November 11, 2006 3:31 pm
Subject: [Advanced_Meditation] childhood events

I`ve had a terrible childhood.My father was and still is
alchoholic.Some things I dont really remember but they are

still

hunting me.I would like to end this and heal myself from

this,but

I
dont know how.I tried to revenge and Ive done some black
magice,but It
isnt enough.The wound is too deep and its still here.Im still
living
with my parents and Im still having rough time,but now I can
handle
it.But wounds from the past are still here.Can anyone give me

some

advice to solve this???







Lasciate Ogni Speranza Voi Ch' Entrate, e fate parte

dell'esercito dell'Inferno!

"Morpheus: This is your last chance. After this, there is no

turning back. You take the

blue pill - the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe

whatever you want to

believe. You take the red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show

you how deep the

rabbit-hole goes. Follow the white rabbit". - The Matrix -1999.




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[*TIAMAT*]

Yes, Acantha-Tara, [/IMG] 
Acantha-Tara <jaguarcat2002@... escreveu:

I have to agree pretty much, exept for one thing: To say "just get over it" without providing
the tools or a key to the tools is incomplete and heartless.

One of the ways the enemy tries to keep us from advancing spiritually is to ensure we are
kept so busy just trying to survive and remain safe that there is no time or energy or even
the ability to concentrate on anything else.

Include the desire for freedom from this abuse in your meditations and thoughts because
it's vital for advancement. Unlike the xtian pseudo-gods, Satan does not revel in our
suffering and only permits it if, in the long run, it will strengthen us, and even then, he
permits it only up to that point. Gratuituous suffering is not in his repertoir.

I am a woman well into middle age and I have suffered decades of horrendous abuse (and
so has my daughter), only fairly recently having learned to move beyond it. (And it's not
over yet, because a pair of dangerous psychopathic relatives have teamed up to try to
force me to sign over some of my legal rights. No need to belabour this, but suffice it to
say that both my daughter and I find this shit very debilitating and are coming to terms
with the fact that we will have to look over our shoulders for the rest of our lives, at least
until we can be sure psychic steps to stop them in their tracks are successful.) What I'm
sayinng is that in one form or another, we're going to get this stuff and the key to "getting
over it" lies in our spiritual progress and reliance on Satan and the demons.

In some situations, counselling can help IF you can locate a good one but one has to be
careful that they don't come from a judeo/xtian/ newage perspective. It's unfortunate that
we don't seem to have counsellors/ therapists who are also spiritual Satanists because their
perspective would be invaluable.

Also remember to call upon Satan and the demons for assistance. They do not ask that we
be "super-human" and know full well what we're up against.

This is obviously far from all the information you need to help yourself, but hopefully you
can take some encouragement and begin to move forward.

Acantha-Tara

--- In Advanced_Meditation @yahoogroups. com, *TIAMAT* <tiamat_gsa@ ... wrote:

Well, I just have one thing to say: Get over it.
As cold it may sound, its necessary. My life was a shit, too. Once we are born (reborn),
a "persecution" from IHVH starts and it can make our lives miserable, until Them get to us
(the Gods) to rescue... and then everything changes.
Trust Satan.
When the time comes, if you are faithful to Him, a dedicated satanist, He will help you
out. But know something in your heart: we are at war, and this is no "picnic". We MUST be
strong, no matter what. And I mean it.

Sincerely,

TiamaT.

"Qui deiderat pacem, praeparet bellum".


animus9@... escreveu:

Hey just try to hang in there okay? Have you tried talking to your dad and telling him
how bad everything is and convincing him to get help? Maybe try some magick to help him
with his alcoholic and realize what its doing? I don`t know. I`d find out the cause of that
and try to fix it.
As far as your past try remembering it the best you can. Go into a trance and replay
things you remember. If you feel you are ready that is. How you deal with them is up to
you. Whatever you feel is right.
Good luck.
----- Original Message -----

From: lady_namaria <ivan.dundovic3@ ...
Date: Saturday, November 11, 2006 3:31 pm
Subject: [Advanced_Meditatio n] childhood events

I`ve had a terrible childhood.My father was and still is
alchoholic.Some things I dont really remember but they are still
hunting me.I would like to end this and heal myself from this,but
I
dont know how.I tried to revenge and Ive done some black
magice,but It
isnt enough.The wound is too deep and its still here.Im still
living
with my parents and Im still having rough time,but now I can
handle
it.But wounds from the past are still here.Can anyone give me some
advice to solve this???







Lasciate Ogni Speranza Voi Ch' Entrate, e fate parte dell'esercito dell'Inferno!
"Morpheus: This is your last chance. After this, there is no turning back. You take the
blue pill - the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to
believe. You take the red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the
rabbit-hole goes. Follow the white rabbit". - The Matrix -1999.




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[Juno McDonald]

Very inspirational Acantha-Tara.  Each person needs to get themselves over it.  Whatever 'it' is that happened to them.  Maxine said in one of the sermons that a lot of the anger comes out with the new spiritual awakening, but the meditations have helped me greatly in getting over things.  
There is a thread here about forgiveness.  You don't have to forgive people who have hurt you, but carrying the baggage from it is hurting you, not the person who hurt you.  You need to advance yourself and not care about what happens with the other people.

June


Acantha-Tara <jaguarcat2002@... wrote:

I have to agree pretty much, exept for one thing: To say "just get over it" without providing
the tools or a key to the tools is incomplete and heartless.

One of the ways the enemy tries to keep us from advancing spiritually is to ensure we are
kept so busy just trying to survive and remain safe that there is no time or energy or even
the ability to concentrate on anything else.

Include the desire for freedom from this abuse in your meditations and thoughts because
it's vital for advancement. Unlike the xtian pseudo-gods, Satan does not revel in our
suffering and only permits it if, in the long run, it will strengthen us, and even then, he
permits it only up to that point. Gratuituous suffering is not in his repertoir.

I am a woman well into middle age and I have suffered decades of horrendous abuse (and
so has my daughter), only fairly recently having learned to move beyond it. (And it's not
over yet, because a pair of dangerous psychopathic relatives have teamed up to try to
force me to sign over some of my legal rights. No need to belabour this, but suffice it to
say that both my daughter and I find this shit very debilitating and are coming to terms
with the fact that we will have to look over our shoulders for the rest of our lives, at least
until we can be sure psychic steps to stop them in their tracks are successful.) What I'm
sayinng is that in one form or another, we're going to get this stuff and the key to "getting
over it" lies in our spiritual progress and reliance on Satan and the demons.

In some situations, counselling can help IF you can locate a good one but one has to be
careful that they don't come from a judeo/xtian/ newage perspective. It's unfortunate that
we don't seem to have counsellors/ therapists who are also spiritual Satanists because their
perspective would be invaluable.

Also remember to call upon Satan and the demons for assistance. They do not ask that we
be "super-human" and know full well what we're up against.

This is obviously far from all the information you need to help yourself, but hopefully you
can take some encouragement and begin to move forward.

Acantha-Tara

--- In Advanced_Meditation @yahoogroups. com, *TIAMAT* <tiamat_gsa@ ... wrote:

Well, I just have one thing to say: Get over it.
As cold it may sound, its necessary. My life was a shit, too. Once we are born (reborn),
a "persecution" from IHVH starts and it can make our lives miserable, until Them get to us
(the Gods) to rescue... and then everything changes.
Trust Satan.
When the time comes, if you are faithful to Him, a dedicated satanist, He will help you
out. But know something in your heart: we are at war, and this is no "picnic". We MUST be
strong, no matter what. And I mean it.

Sincerely,

TiamaT.

"Qui deiderat pacem, praeparet bellum".


animus9@... escreveu:

Hey just try to hang in there okay? Have you tried talking to your dad and telling him
how bad everything is and convincing him to get help? Maybe try some magick to help him
with his alcoholic and realize what its doing? I don`t know. I`d find out the cause of that
and try to fix it.
As far as your past try remembering it the best you can. Go into a trance and replay
things you remember. If you feel you are ready that is. How you deal with them is up to
you. Whatever you feel is right.
Good luck.
----- Original Message -----

From: lady_namaria <ivan.dundovic3@ ...
Date: Saturday, November 11, 2006 3:31 pm
Subject: [Advanced_Meditatio n] childhood events

I`ve had a terrible childhood.My father was and still is
alchoholic.Some things I dont really remember but they are still
hunting me.I would like to end this and heal myself from this,but
I
dont know how.I tried to revenge and Ive done some black
magice,but It
isnt enough.The wound is too deep and its still here.Im still
living
with my parents and Im still having rough time,but now I can
handle
it.But wounds from the past are still here.Can anyone give me some
advice to solve this???







Lasciate Ogni Speranza Voi Ch' Entrate, e fate parte dell'esercito dell'Inferno!
"Morpheus: This is your last chance. After this, there is no turning back. You take the
blue pill - the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to
believe. You take the red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the
rabbit-hole goes. Follow the white rabbit". - The Matrix -1999.




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[*TIAMAT*]

Now you are talk[/IMG]

lady_namaria <[email protected] escreveu:

My problem is that I have this pain still inside me,and its always
here.Lets say that I dont trust people,Im very explosive when
someone threats me in any way and I have no respect for people that
have weaknesess.
I am very strong,I would probably kill myself if I were weak.
I rely on the help of Lucifer and my GD Zagan,but still I want this
huge amount of pain and anger to disapear.Im really sick of it and
the way it influences me.Void meditations help.Probably I should use
this anger to destroy xtianity
--- In Advanced_Meditation @yahoogroups. com, *TIAMAT*
<tiamat_gsa@ ... wrote:

Well, I just have one thing to say: Get over it.
As cold it may sound, its necessary. My life was a shit, too.
Once we are born (reborn), a "persecution" from IHVH starts and it
can make our lives miserable, until Them get to us (the Gods) to
rescue... and then everything changes.
Trust Satan.
When the time comes, if you are faithful to Him, a dedicated
satanist, He will help you out. But know something in your heart: we
are at war, and this is no "picnic". We MUST be strong, no matter
what. And I mean it.

Sincerely,

TiamaT.

"Qui deiderat pacem, praeparet bellum".


animus9@... escreveu:

Hey just try to hang in there okay? Have you tried talking to
your dad and telling him how bad everything is and convincing him to
get help? Maybe try some magick to help him with his alcoholic and
realize what its doing? I don`t know. I`d find out the cause of that
and try to fix it.
As far as your past try remembering it the best you can. Go into
a trance and replay things you remember. If you feel you are ready
that is. How you deal with them is up to you. Whatever you feel is
right.
Good luck.
----- Original Message -----

From: lady_namaria <ivan.dundovic3@ ...
Date: Saturday, November 11, 2006 3:31 pm
Subject: [Advanced_Meditatio n] childhood events

I`ve had a terrible childhood.My father was and still is
alchoholic.Some things I dont really remember but they are still
hunting me.I would like to end this and heal myself from
this,but
I
dont know how.I tried to revenge and Ive done some black
magice,but It
isnt enough.The wound is too deep and its still here.Im still
living
with my parents and Im still having rough time,but now I can
handle
it.But wounds from the past are still here.Can anyone give me
some
advice to solve this???







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dell'esercito dell'Inferno!
"Morpheus: This is your last chance. After this, there is no
turning back. You take the blue pill - the story ends, you wake up
in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the
red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-
hole goes. Follow the white rabbit". - The Matrix -1999.




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[Acantha-Tara]

Now THAT's part of the process I was talking about, not just a "get over it" without any
suggestions as to a concrete, workable method. "...direct the anger ... transmute the
energy..." -- excellent advice and a good wake-up call.

We could live to be a thousand, as the saying goes, and we'll still remember the shit, some
of it as if it were yesterday, but it will eventually cease to have control over us because we
will have gained perspective, objectivity and moved past that point. It's unfortunate, to be
sure, that these memories will be with us forever, even when the events are long past, but
we can work through them. Not overnight; some days will be worse than others but over
time one can look back and see definite progress.

Meditations and rituals are invaluable tools and should be taken as full advantage of as we
can.

Acantha-Tara

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], *TIAMAT* <tiamat_gsa@... wrote:

Now you are talking in a correct way!
Yes, direct this anger against the assholes, and also transmutate this energy to
something good for you, for your advancement (there are many meditations in the JoS site
that can help you with this). Unfortunattely the pain won't go way, it can perhaps get
weaker with time, but it has marked you forever. So use it. You are strong, no doubt, or
you wouldn't have gotten so far...

Think about how you want your life to be in the future, and fight for it, learn from all
this despair that you are capable of changing your reallity... work on your meditations,
keep Satan and the Demons in your mind 24x7, in all your activities, and specially don't do
anything out of a rage...its not wrong to feel anger, but it is wrong to keep it inside, and
its also wrong to do something stupid, so its better to channel it and change it into a
powerfull warfare energy.

Remember: controlling the mind and the body is one's strongest way to achieve one's
true essence, and that is the Gods' essence, Satan's Consciousness.

There is nothing more I can say than trust Father.

Best wishes,

TiamaT.

lady_namaria <ivan.dundovic3@... escreveu:
My problem is that I have this pain still inside me,and its always
here.Lets say that I dont trust people,Im very explosive when
someone threats me in any way and I have no respect for people that
have weaknesess.
I am very strong,I would probably kill myself if I were weak.
I rely on the help of Lucifer and my GD Zagan,but still I want this
huge amount of pain and anger to disapear.Im really sick of it and
the way it influences me.Void meditations help.Probably I should use
this anger to destroy xtianity
--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], *TIAMAT*
<tiamat_gsa@ wrote:

Well, I just have one thing to say: Get over it.
As cold it may sound, its necessary. My life was a shit, too.
Once we are born (reborn), a "persecution" from IHVH starts and it
can make our lives miserable, until Them get to us (the Gods) to
rescue... and then everything changes.
Trust Satan.
When the time comes, if you are faithful to Him, a dedicated
satanist, He will help you out. But know something in your heart: we
are at war, and this is no "picnic". We MUST be strong, no matter
what. And I mean it.

Sincerely,

TiamaT.

"Qui deiderat pacem, praeparet bellum".


animus9@ escreveu:

Hey just try to hang in there okay? Have you tried talking to
your dad and telling him how bad everything is and convincing him to
get help? Maybe try some magick to help him with his alcoholic and
realize what its doing? I don`t know. I`d find out the cause of that
and try to fix it.
As far as your past try remembering it the best you can. Go into
a trance and replay things you remember. If you feel you are ready
that is. How you deal with them is up to you. Whatever you feel is
right.
Good luck.
----- Original Message -----

From: lady_namaria <ivan.dundovic3@
Date: Saturday, November 11, 2006 3:31 pm
Subject: [Advanced_Meditation] childhood events

I`ve had a terrible childhood.My father was and still is
alchoholic.Some things I dont really remember but they are still
hunting me.I would like to end this and heal myself from
this,but
I
dont know how.I tried to revenge and Ive done some black
magice,but It
isnt enough.The wound is too deep and its still here.Im still
living
with my parents and Im still having rough time,but now I can
handle
it.But wounds from the past are still here.Can anyone give me
some
advice to solve this???







Lasciate Ogni Speranza Voi Ch' Entrate, e fate parte
dell'esercito dell'Inferno!
"Morpheus: This is your last chance. After this, there is no
turning back. You take the blue pill - the story ends, you wake up
in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the
red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-
hole goes. Follow the white rabbit". - The Matrix -1999.




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blue pill - the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to
believe. You take the red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the
rabbit-hole goes. Follow the white rabbit". - The Matrix -1999.




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[lady_namaria]

I could never forgive him for what he has done to me.And I will
never forgive.
When I think about my childhood,I was a very good child.I had so
much love for everyone...Maybe I would end up like some stupid
christian.Maybe I needed this?To grow up knowing not all the people
are "good".I`ve learned my lesson.I would be a perfect victim if I
had a nice family.I know this.
I dont care what happens to him.In all my pain I`ve finished one
college and now will start with new one.I have Lucifer and he made
me strong.Strong enough to walk alone....

Ave Satanas


--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Juno McDonald
<juno_tessarae@... wrote:

Very inspirational Acantha-Tara. Each person needs to get

themselves over it. Whatever 'it' is that happened to them.
Maxine said in one of the sermons that a lot of the anger comes out
with the new spiritual awakening, but the meditations have helped
me greatly in getting over things.

There is a thread here about forgiveness. You don't have to

forgive people who have hurt you, but carrying the baggage from it
is hurting you, not the person who hurt you. You need to advance
yourself and not care about what happens with the other people.

June


Acantha-Tara <jaguarcat2002@...

wrote: I have to
agree pretty much, exept for one thing: To say "just get over it"
without providing

the tools or a key to the tools is incomplete and heartless.

One of the ways the enemy tries to keep us from advancing

spiritually is to ensure we are

kept so busy just trying to survive and remain safe that there

is no time or energy or even

the ability to concentrate on anything else.

Include the desire for freedom from this abuse in your

meditations and thoughts because

it's vital for advancement. Unlike the xtian pseudo-gods, Satan

does not revel in our

suffering and only permits it if, in the long run, it will

strengthen us, and even then, he

permits it only up to that point. Gratuituous suffering is not

in his repertoir.

I am a woman well into middle age and I have suffered decades of

horrendous abuse (and

so has my daughter), only fairly recently having learned to move

beyond it. (And it's not

over yet, because a pair of dangerous psychopathic relatives

have teamed up to try to

force me to sign over some of my legal rights. No need to

belabour this, but suffice it to

say that both my daughter and I find this shit very debilitating

and are coming to terms

with the fact that we will have to look over our shoulders for

the rest of our lives, at least

until we can be sure psychic steps to stop them in their tracks

are successful.) What I'm

sayinng is that in one form or another, we're going to get this

stuff and the key to "getting

over it" lies in our spiritual progress and reliance on Satan

and the demons.

In some situations, counselling can help IF you can locate a

good one but one has to be

careful that they don't come from a judeo/xtian/newage

perspective. It's unfortunate that

we don't seem to have counsellors/therapists who are also

spiritual Satanists because their

perspective would be invaluable.

Also remember to call upon Satan and the demons for assistance.

They do not ask that we

be "super-human" and know full well what we're up against.

This is obviously far from all the information you need to help

yourself, but hopefully you

can take some encouragement and begin to move forward.

Acantha-Tara

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], *TIAMAT*

<tiamat_gsa@ wrote:

Well, I just have one thing to say: Get over it.
As cold it may sound, its necessary. My life was a shit,

too. Once we are born (reborn),

a "persecution" from IHVH starts and it can make our lives

miserable, until Them get to us

(the Gods) to rescue... and then everything changes.
Trust Satan.
When the time comes, if you are faithful to Him, a dedicated

satanist, He will help you

out. But know something in your heart: we are at war, and this

is no "picnic". We MUST be

strong, no matter what. And I mean it.

Sincerely,

TiamaT.

"Qui deiderat pacem, praeparet bellum".


animus9@ escreveu:

Hey just try to hang in there okay? Have you tried talking

to your dad and telling him

how bad everything is and convincing him to get help? Maybe try

some magick to help him

with his alcoholic and realize what its doing? I don`t know. I`d

find out the cause of that

and try to fix it.
As far as your past try remembering it the best you can. Go

into a trance and replay

things you remember. If you feel you are ready that is. How you

deal with them is up to

you. Whatever you feel is right.
Good luck.
----- Original Message -----

From: lady_namaria <ivan.dundovic3@
Date: Saturday, November 11, 2006 3:31 pm
Subject: [Advanced_Meditation] childhood events

I`ve had a terrible childhood.My father was and still is
alchoholic.Some things I dont really remember but they are

still

hunting me.I would like to end this and heal myself from

this,but

I
dont know how.I tried to revenge and Ive done some black
magice,but It
isnt enough.The wound is too deep and its still here.Im

still

living
with my parents and Im still having rough time,but now I can
handle
it.But wounds from the past are still here.Can anyone give

me some

advice to solve this???







Lasciate Ogni Speranza Voi Ch' Entrate, e fate parte

dell'esercito dell'Inferno!

"Morpheus: This is your last chance. After this, there is no

turning back. You take the

blue pill - the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe

whatever you want to

believe. You take the red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I

show you how deep the

rabbit-hole goes. Follow the white rabbit". - The Matrix -1999.




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[lady_namaria]

Yes,there is no way to forget this.I just wait for the day when
justice will come.I`ve made some things to speed up this justice and
when that time comes I will be free.
Meditations really help.They are tool for almoust everything.



--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Acantha-Tara"
<jaguarcat2002@... wrote:

Now THAT's part of the process I was talking about, not just

a "get over it" without any

suggestions as to a concrete, workable method. "...direct the

anger ... transmute the

energy..." -- excellent advice and a good wake-up call.

We could live to be a thousand, as the saying goes, and we'll

still remember the shit, some

of it as if it were yesterday, but it will eventually cease to

have control over us because we

will have gained perspective, objectivity and moved past that

point. It's unfortunate, to be

sure, that these memories will be with us forever, even when the

events are long past, but

we can work through them. Not overnight; some days will be worse

than others but over

time one can look back and see definite progress.

Meditations and rituals are invaluable tools and should be taken

as full advantage of as we

can.

Acantha-Tara

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], *TIAMAT* <tiamat_gsa@

wrote:

Now you are talking in a correct way!
Yes, direct this anger against the assholes, and also

transmutate this energy to

something good for you, for your advancement (there are many

meditations in the JoS site

that can help you with this). Unfortunattely the pain won't go

way, it can perhaps get

weaker with time, but it has marked you forever. So use it. You

are strong, no doubt, or

you wouldn't have gotten so far...

Think about how you want your life to be in the future, and

fight for it, learn from all

this despair that you are capable of changing your reallity...

work on your meditations,

keep Satan and the Demons in your mind 24x7, in all your

activities, and specially don't do

anything out of a rage...its not wrong to feel anger, but it is

wrong to keep it inside, and

its also wrong to do something stupid, so its better to channel it

and change it into a

powerfull warfare energy.

Remember: controlling the mind and the body is one's strongest

way to achieve one's

true essence, and that is the Gods' essence, Satan's Consciousness.

There is nothing more I can say than trust Father.

Best wishes,

TiamaT.

lady_namaria <ivan.dundovic3@ escreveu:
My problem is that I have this pain still inside

me,and its always

here.Lets say that I dont trust people,Im very explosive when
someone threats me in any way and I have no respect for people

that

have weaknesess.
I am very strong,I would probably kill myself if I were weak.
I rely on the help of Lucifer and my GD Zagan,but still I want

this

huge amount of pain and anger to disapear.Im really sick of it

and

the way it influences me.Void meditations help.Probably I should

use

this anger to destroy xtianity
--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], *TIAMAT*
<tiamat_gsa@ wrote:

Well, I just have one thing to say: Get over it.
As cold it may sound, its necessary. My life was a shit, too.
Once we are born (reborn), a "persecution" from IHVH starts and

it

can make our lives miserable, until Them get to us (the Gods) to
rescue... and then everything changes.
Trust Satan.
When the time comes, if you are faithful to Him, a dedicated
satanist, He will help you out. But know something in your

heart: we

are at war, and this is no "picnic". We MUST be strong, no

matter

what. And I mean it.

Sincerely,

TiamaT.

"Qui deiderat pacem, praeparet bellum".


animus9@ escreveu:

Hey just try to hang in there okay? Have you tried talking to
your dad and telling him how bad everything is and convincing

him to

get help? Maybe try some magick to help him with his alcoholic

and

realize what its doing? I don`t know. I`d find out the cause of

that

and try to fix it.
As far as your past try remembering it the best you can. Go

into

a trance and replay things you remember. If you feel you are

ready

that is. How you deal with them is up to you. Whatever you feel

is

right.
Good luck.
----- Original Message -----

From: lady_namaria <ivan.dundovic3@
Date: Saturday, November 11, 2006 3:31 pm
Subject: [Advanced_Meditation] childhood events

I`ve had a terrible childhood.My father was and still is
alchoholic.Some things I dont really remember but they are

still

hunting me.I would like to end this and heal myself from
this,but
I
dont know how.I tried to revenge and Ive done some black
magice,but It
isnt enough.The wound is too deep and its still here.Im

still

living
with my parents and Im still having rough time,but now I can
handle
it.But wounds from the past are still here.Can anyone give

me

some
advice to solve this???







Lasciate Ogni Speranza Voi Ch' Entrate, e fate parte
dell'esercito dell'Inferno!
"Morpheus: This is your last chance. After this, there is no
turning back. You take the blue pill - the story ends, you wake

up

in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take

the

red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the

rabbit-

hole goes. Follow the white rabbit". - The Matrix -1999.




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"Morpheus: This is your last chance. After this, there is no

turning back. You take the

blue pill - the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe

whatever you want to

believe. You take the red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show

you how deep the

rabbit-hole goes. Follow the white rabbit". - The Matrix -1999.




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