darkmonkey666
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I don't know if this is a problem. Even though we are winning and probably will have a better Society within maybe just a couple of years. I find myself frustrated with just about everyone here and not wanting to bother with them. I can see that most people are much younger than me spiritually for the reason that most people that were around in the ancient times probably either died on the spiritual and got lost or had already achieved Godhood and left earth. I can't really say how old I am but everyone I talk to who is open senses this my friend who is the traditional idea of old soul who is coming to our side more and more still doesn't understand me she says I am much older than her. I wonder why I have to be here anyways. This is not an ego thing or that I think I am better than anyone more like a sadness and why am I here and realizing I can probably never have a full relationship or be understood by people. I was and still am struggling with this btw. I am not suicidal cause I realize I'd just end back here and have to go through the same shit again just in a different toilet. So I am basically trapped the thing is I will try to advance as much as possible and hopefully even maybe achieve Godhood before this life is over I mean even though I did a bunch of dumb stuff like drugs etc I am still pretty healthy and have a good body. That is the other reason I don't want to end it is cause I could be incarnated in a race mixed or not that great body. So I am trapped in an existence where I don't really belong anywhere of have any true purpose to be here other than to try to help out spiritually. I kind of knew that when i was growing up too I even remember them giving me a choice if I wanted to come here (don't know quite who that was) anyways at when I was around three years old I remember some entity came to me and said "there is no turning back now you are alive" I felt an excitement about this at the time but not so sure anymore.
I am about beginner to medium level in Spiritual power thanks to doing stupid stuff but I am trying to get better. I am just learning how to regain my spiritual abilities (although all this is familiar nothing new so I know at one point I was much more powerut) but I am more advanced in the level of understanding somehow than anyone I know this is where the problem comes from I am also suprised and confused the fact that I know of people who have much more spiritual power than me not being at the same level of understanding or wisdom about things or understanding me. I would think they would understand me I know one example personally. I have not really found one person in the physical world in all my years that really understood me or connected to me that well. Anyone I did connect with was online talking to people over the years but every one of them has been in either a country thousands of miles away or in my own so far away that I have always been alone in the physical.
I know there are others like me in fact some of the people who did a lot of great things such as the founders of the United States etc were probably really old souls too as well as a lot of just regular people outcast by society by the enemy throughout the ages. So it's not like I think I am the only one it's just I long for physical contact or being at home somewhere nothing with people that don't understand me helps.
Is there a working I can do to find a person like me in the physical if they exist anywhere near me. Do I ask the God's what do I do. Does anyone even understand what I am saying or feel my energy or anything you might know what I mean.
Or is this hopeless and I will be trapped here for a lot longer.
I guess I am ok I can be alone for another few years cause I was for most my life anyways but I wish it wasn't so.
I am about beginner to medium level in Spiritual power thanks to doing stupid stuff but I am trying to get better. I am just learning how to regain my spiritual abilities (although all this is familiar nothing new so I know at one point I was much more powerut) but I am more advanced in the level of understanding somehow than anyone I know this is where the problem comes from I am also suprised and confused the fact that I know of people who have much more spiritual power than me not being at the same level of understanding or wisdom about things or understanding me. I would think they would understand me I know one example personally. I have not really found one person in the physical world in all my years that really understood me or connected to me that well. Anyone I did connect with was online talking to people over the years but every one of them has been in either a country thousands of miles away or in my own so far away that I have always been alone in the physical.
I know there are others like me in fact some of the people who did a lot of great things such as the founders of the United States etc were probably really old souls too as well as a lot of just regular people outcast by society by the enemy throughout the ages. So it's not like I think I am the only one it's just I long for physical contact or being at home somewhere nothing with people that don't understand me helps.
Is there a working I can do to find a person like me in the physical if they exist anywhere near me. Do I ask the God's what do I do. Does anyone even understand what I am saying or feel my energy or anything you might know what I mean.
Or is this hopeless and I will be trapped here for a lot longer.
I guess I am ok I can be alone for another few years cause I was for most my life anyways but I wish it wasn't so.