There is no need to feel ashamed or to have guilt trips, in Zevism things like alcohol aren't prohibited.
You are free to do what you want, using Wisdom and Balance are the important things to learn.
In the past a lot of time ago, I had the same problem as you, I did even worse.
I kept going for a period, it wasn't great, but I did that anyway.
One day, I had an horrible experience with being drunk, from that day I never touched alcohol again.
I did my errors, and I grew from those experiences. The fall is there to be reversed, as the Ethics states.
There is some kind of inner problem, holes on the aura, Chakras that needs to be cleaned. The problems may drive you to use alcohol, which isn't a solution.
As spiritual solutions, I advice to you to do the Rituals of Lord Valefor for healing, also the one of Lord Asclepius for healing.
Healing the phisical body, the aura from the holes and the like, and all the other levels and areas of your existence.
Being drunk, getting "high" and similar, do damages to the aura.
The one of Lord Abrasax if you have evil or bad connections, ties, influences to bad or degenerate people/entities.
Then everyday it's needed to do a daily cleaning and aura of protection (AoP).
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About material life. Putting your life together, having objectives, dreams, something you want to achieve in your life, a career, a job.
These are all areas of life that need to be mastered.
In the file below, I'll share an image with a basic routine of cleaning and aura of protection. Just don't start it during the void of Moon (VoC), see the Zevist Calendar of your location for this.
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Don't overdo, and don't fry yourself, keep a balanced pace in your routine.
I wish you all the best!