For those who is in deeply in love! I am not sayin this to scare you or anything. All I want you to be realistic and not get too obsessed.
(sorry if my english is bad)
Last summer, I met someone. I knew already in May, this was going to happen, I even got his name(I used a Ouija Board). Later, I actually met him(I'm gay though) and he didn't seem like my type at first. Then It was something about him, I literally felt his soul or something from within.
A week later he noticed something about me(my psychic gifts) that I knew things I shouldn't have known etc.
So I told him the truth of who I am, an SS! He got so curious, I was like not surprised at all...something inside me did NOT want him to become an SS. I don't know why, but he became an SS. After he got hes Full Astrology Chart from our beloved Maxine. He turned in to an arogant son of a bitch. Just because there stood he had excellent intellect etc. And therefor thought he could do more of that shit he was doing(DRUGS).
Everytime he did it after he became an SS, I literally felt it. When he lied to my face, I fucking felt it. He treated me like trash, but I also treated him like trash. So he is not that bad though.
But then I started to having that feeling in my Solar Plexus, I only get that feeling when someone dies. So I understood it wasn't death which will occur, and I had right.
I finally asked, and he told me I haven't feelings for you anymore. That was one PUNCH in my face. I knew it, but hearing it was the worst part.
The period after the break-up was horrible! My best friend in the entire UNIVERSE helped me out, she is an SS too.
Yes I tried after to make the relationship work, did plenty of spells, ritual and so much more.
I have NEVER felt something so unexplainable for anyone before, it was then I realized I love him. I told him that...He didn't care though, typical.
After 6 months now, I thought I was okay with it, and moved on and shit. But, then I dreamed he found someone else, which stands in his chart that he will find someone new at this time of the year. I realized, I am still not okay, I have just been protending for my best friend, and my other friends.(everyone)
Now, I don't meditate...can't feel the power anymore, "lost" the psychic gifts I have/had. It feels like a grudge of anger inside me ready to explode. When I tried to date someone new, and looked how excited they was. I bailed.
Feel like needles through my veins, and that someone is ripping my soul out to more than 1000 pieces.
That I have betrayed Father Satan in some way, and have failed absoloutley everything. And have suicide thoughts.
I even failed school, Math and my exam.
After all this, I still love him...don't understand why.
Faith is some serious HORSESHIT!!(sorry, not to be rude)
So, the point of all this experience is, don't make the same mistake I did. Listen to your soul, chakras, inside voices whatsoever!
Empower yourself to find your true happiness..I wasn't strong enough to do it, or at least not yet.
(sorry if my english is bad)
Last summer, I met someone. I knew already in May, this was going to happen, I even got his name(I used a Ouija Board). Later, I actually met him(I'm gay though) and he didn't seem like my type at first. Then It was something about him, I literally felt his soul or something from within.
A week later he noticed something about me(my psychic gifts) that I knew things I shouldn't have known etc.
So I told him the truth of who I am, an SS! He got so curious, I was like not surprised at all...something inside me did NOT want him to become an SS. I don't know why, but he became an SS. After he got hes Full Astrology Chart from our beloved Maxine. He turned in to an arogant son of a bitch. Just because there stood he had excellent intellect etc. And therefor thought he could do more of that shit he was doing(DRUGS).
Everytime he did it after he became an SS, I literally felt it. When he lied to my face, I fucking felt it. He treated me like trash, but I also treated him like trash. So he is not that bad though.
But then I started to having that feeling in my Solar Plexus, I only get that feeling when someone dies. So I understood it wasn't death which will occur, and I had right.
I finally asked, and he told me I haven't feelings for you anymore. That was one PUNCH in my face. I knew it, but hearing it was the worst part.
The period after the break-up was horrible! My best friend in the entire UNIVERSE helped me out, she is an SS too.
Yes I tried after to make the relationship work, did plenty of spells, ritual and so much more.
I have NEVER felt something so unexplainable for anyone before, it was then I realized I love him. I told him that...He didn't care though, typical.
After 6 months now, I thought I was okay with it, and moved on and shit. But, then I dreamed he found someone else, which stands in his chart that he will find someone new at this time of the year. I realized, I am still not okay, I have just been protending for my best friend, and my other friends.(everyone)
Now, I don't meditate...can't feel the power anymore, "lost" the psychic gifts I have/had. It feels like a grudge of anger inside me ready to explode. When I tried to date someone new, and looked how excited they was. I bailed.
Feel like needles through my veins, and that someone is ripping my soul out to more than 1000 pieces.
That I have betrayed Father Satan in some way, and have failed absoloutley everything. And have suicide thoughts.
I even failed school, Math and my exam.
After all this, I still love him...don't understand why.
Faith is some serious HORSESHIT!!(sorry, not to be rude)
So, the point of all this experience is, don't make the same mistake I did. Listen to your soul, chakras, inside voices whatsoever!
Empower yourself to find your true happiness..I wasn't strong enough to do it, or at least not yet.
