Vent

[Sol Rei 666]

Well, in 3 years ago, i was a bad person, i know that i changed, but i jave a strange feeling.
I can't put it into words, but let's imagine a scenario: Someone does something bad or not cool, And when I criticize that action, it's like I don't feel like I have the right to speak on the matter, it's like I don't feel like a good person.
Even though I've changed, even though I've earned forgiveness from the people I messed with, even though it's all in the past 3 freaking years, i cant forget it, i still blame myself. Im stuck in the past.

 

[Henu the Great]

Well, in 3 years ago, i was a bad person, i know that i changed, but i jave a strange feeling.
I can't put it into words, but let's imagine a scenario: Someone does something bad or not cool, And when I criticize that action, it's like I don't feel like I have the right to speak on the matter, it's like I don't feel like a good person.
Even though I've changed, even though I've earned forgiveness from the people I messed with, even though it's all in the past 3 freaking years, i cant forget it, i still blame myself. Im stuck in the past.

I recommend meditation on the concept of "Be here now". There is only one moment in existence, and that is now. There is no past, and no future. Both of the aforementioned states are sort of extensions of the present, if that makes sense. So, meditate on the "be here now" idea.