ashleyslade0124
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I have come to realize I have serious problem that I failed to recognize for a long time because it seemed like all I was doing was having fun and playing, being creative. It suddenly dawned on me I have an issue here.
So I am into gaming, video games, card games, etc. The kind which I love most are games where I am able to create my own characters, build my own teams and stuff. Yu-Gi-Oh, Pokemon and the like.
Another thing I love doing is writing fiction and drawing, particularly stories about our Gods, ideally one's that could convey spiritual/occult concepts (another topic)
The problem is I obsess about all of the above trying to create a character, write a story etc over and over again constantly tweaking every little detail and I never feel fully satisfied with what I put together. It always feels like it's missing the mark. I will spend hours and hours all day trying to create something, then scrapping it and trying to create it again. Year after year I've done this. It's been a lifetime habit.
I've looked at my astrology chart and I don't know where else this could come from other than Pluto in the 5th house, Planet of Obsession in the House of Creativity.
And if that is the case what should I do about it? It's such an intense powerful drive to do this. I don't know what to do besides just taking my mind off of games and story writing. But I know with planets energy they have to come somewhere, especially Pluto must have an outlet somehow. I don't know what to do.
Thanks for any help anyone can give.
So I am into gaming, video games, card games, etc. The kind which I love most are games where I am able to create my own characters, build my own teams and stuff. Yu-Gi-Oh, Pokemon and the like.
Another thing I love doing is writing fiction and drawing, particularly stories about our Gods, ideally one's that could convey spiritual/occult concepts (another topic)
The problem is I obsess about all of the above trying to create a character, write a story etc over and over again constantly tweaking every little detail and I never feel fully satisfied with what I put together. It always feels like it's missing the mark. I will spend hours and hours all day trying to create something, then scrapping it and trying to create it again. Year after year I've done this. It's been a lifetime habit.
I've looked at my astrology chart and I don't know where else this could come from other than Pluto in the 5th house, Planet of Obsession in the House of Creativity.
And if that is the case what should I do about it? It's such an intense powerful drive to do this. I don't know what to do besides just taking my mind off of games and story writing. But I know with planets energy they have to come somewhere, especially Pluto must have an outlet somehow. I don't know what to do.
Thanks for any help anyone can give.
