spiritual help questions

[plotome93]

i will make this short i hope lol 3 concerns[/B] here   #1 [/B]the more i meditate the more past issues rise up and make me cry especially when i used to be xtian by force years ago.  i remember before becoming one i was an initiated teen witch [many years ago] i had power, prestige etc.  just recently found out my former sister witch who initiated me is now a Christain.  anyway, i didn't meditate or do satanic rituals etc. i just had an inborn gift.  next thing i know i was bullied by adults into xtianity where they told me to denounce satan and whatever made me successful so that jewsus can bless and save me BS.  falling into it i lost my power, friends, the love of my life you name it. instead of being blessed by this false God it was a dam curse that would plague me for 15 yrs of my life in agony. i didn't know it until too late. i kept attracting countless abusive xtian partners, friends and bad jobs w/xtians you name it.  i went to College the filth was there too along with the abuse from them.  one Pastor years ago who asked me to stay over his house with his family called me satan for questioning the bible and then was adept enough to summon 13 greys to attack me for doing so.  never understood Pastoral abuse.  i never saw an ET in my life scared life out of me and i never went near those people again left lone a church.  the religion dam near killed me numerous of times before running to satan because i almost died.  satan saved my life and more if that religion is false with no power than how the heck was i able to loose mine and these xtians were rich let me tell you.  any advice there?#2[/B] can Gods/or demons marry a mortal? can they be jealous if you're seeing someone else while having an affair with them.  i heard a satanist in this group talking about loving an incubus months back #3[/B] i have 2 different culture backgrounds and a group of my ancestors tell me they are mad about my partner and they want me to follow thier beliefs[nothing religous] because the beliefs[family ways] of my maternal side isn't doing me any justice.  i do rituals to honor my ancestors and only one in my family who does.  are ancestors guardians turned Gods? a high priest said they were Gods as they are on a higher plane.  and why would ancestors fight and get mad with my other family beliefs? doesn't make sense  #4 just curious i'm very attractive and tried looking for a satanic dating site and no luck.  people i meet tell me they are xtians when i wish for a powerful satanist to some day marry.  any advice or rituals?  i ask this question a year ago in this group and one guy told me maybe i'm suppose to marry a God or Demon because i had no luck finding love smh
hope read every ones advice on these 4 topics
ALL HAIL TO THE MAGNEFICENT SATAN!

 

[ssreverend]

1. Will power. That is all the xians have, is will power, and thought forms. That is why these xuans have manifested some money and a little bit of kiddy power. You have lost your real power you had because you were no longer entitled to those abilities after denouncing Satan. However, because you have had experience in strengthening these powers, it should not be hard for you to work on and develop them again after dedication.
2. You can summon a succubus/incubi by a ritual to Satan, and if you state you want a mongogmous relationship for eternity, you will get that. It does state though, they can be very jealous and bring harm to your mortal companion if you were to ever get with one. Not any reason not to think they'd not also be a little upset with you too. So you may not "marry" them as that is a Christian creation, but it will be mirrored after the petition to father Satan
3. Unfortunately that's just what religion does, it brings people together, and starts wars. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
4. I am not one to not be humble and leveled, but I myself am what many others would consider attractive. I have not met another spiritual satanist in real life and I do not even know where I'd go to find one. I'm 19, and knowing I have a life ahead of me full of countless women to choose from, sounds thrilling to most, but it doesn't interest me one bit unless they're a spiritual satanist I can invest my time into, and knowing the odds of that... only makes me believe I should just work on my own powers and my own self and likely should summon a succubus to start developing the relationship with her.
However, I did not think about talking with Satan about helping me manifest a spiritual satanist human. Hmmmmmm