Something trying to hold me back from meditations

[brandonmoreno321]

It's strange, but for the past 3 days I have REALLY fallen back on my meditations.  Prior to the 3 days, I had great enthusiasm towards my meditations, I was setting them as priority 1, nothing came before them. Been like this for months now, consistent meditations.   Now, I have to seemingly force myself to do meditations.  
I've been keeping up my aura of protection every day and considering doing a banishing ritual if this is indeed an enemy attack.  I just haven't felt such lack of motivation before towards my meditations. It's like I'm viewing them as too time consuming, I keep hearing a voice tell me I need to do them and I KNOW I need to do them, but then physically I just keep thinking it's too time consuming, or I begin the session and I lose all interest half-way through, needing to force myself to finish the sessions.   
It's becoming a hindrance.  I know my responsibilities, I know I need to be consistent with these meditations, but these strong unenthusiastic feelings towards them, I'm honestly at a loss.  I don't know if this holds any significance to the issue at hand, but I recently got a deck of tarot cards, The Celtic Dragon Tarot, I did a reading pertaining to my goals of raising my kundalini.   It's saying that on my current path that I will succeed, but along the way I will need time to rest up. It said that I obtained a goal through tireless effort, and a time of rest is needed.  Maybe I'm telling myself this is the time to rest? I'm not sure.   


HAIL SATAN!!! 

 

[Anakin Skywalker]

may i ask about how long per day you spend on meditation?

There *is* such thing as excessive meditation - there is no set in stone amount that is "too much" but it does depend on your experience and physical constitution at at the time.
Meditation is like working out - if you go apeshit on it immediately you do tend to burn out after a while.

On Tue, Aug 27, 2013 at 12:03 PM, <brandonmoreno321@... wrote:

  It's strange, but for the past 3 days I have REALLY fallen back on my meditations.  Prior to the 3 days, I had great enthusiasm towards my meditations, I was setting them as priority 1, nothing came before them. Been like this for months now, consistent meditations.   Now, I have to seemingly force myself to do meditations.  
I've been keeping up my aura of protection every day and considering doing a banishing ritual if this is indeed an enemy attack.  I just haven't felt such lack of motivation before towards my meditations. It's like I'm viewing them as too time consuming, I keep hearing a voice tell me I need to do them and I KNOW I need to do them, but then physically I just keep thinking it's too time consuming, or I begin the session and I lose all interest half-way through, needing to force myself to finish the sessions.   
It's becoming a hindrance.  I know my responsibilities, I know I need to be consistent with these meditations, but these strong unenthusiastic feelings towards them, I'm honestly at a loss.  I don't know if this holds any significance to the issue at hand, but I recently got a deck of tarot cards, The Celtic Dragon Tarot, I did a reading pertaining to my goals of raising my kundalini.   It's saying that on my current path that I will succeed, but along the way I will need time to rest up. It said that I obtained a goal through tireless effort, and a time of rest is needed.  Maybe I'm telling myself this is the time to rest? I'm not sure.   


HAIL SATAN!!! 

 

[Anakin Skywalker]

but i think you should do a banishing ritual to be safe. If there turns out to be nothing but you do it anyway, no harm will come to you. i say do it and be on the safe side.

On Tue, Aug 27, 2013 at 5:18 PM, Anakin Skywalker <anakinskywalker629@... wrote:

may i ask about how long per day you spend on meditation?

There *is* such thing as excessive meditation - there is no set in stone amount that is "too much" but it does depend on your experience and physical constitution at at the time.
Meditation is like working out - if you go apeshit on it immediately you do tend to burn out after a while.

On Tue, Aug 27, 2013 at 12:03 PM, <brandonmoreno321@... wrote:

  It's strange, but for the past 3 days I have REALLY fallen back on my meditations.  Prior to the 3 days, I had great enthusiasm towards my meditations, I was setting them as priority 1, nothing came before them. Been like this for months now, consistent meditations.   Now, I have to seemingly force myself to do meditations.  
I've been keeping up my aura of protection every day and considering doing a banishing ritual if this is indeed an enemy attack.  I just haven't felt such lack of motivation before towards my meditations. It's like I'm viewing them as too time consuming, I keep hearing a voice tell me I need to do them and I KNOW I need to do them, but then physically I just keep thinking it's too time consuming, or I begin the session and I lose all interest half-way through, needing to force myself to finish the sessions.   
It's becoming a hindrance.  I know my responsibilities, I know I need to be consistent with these meditations, but these strong unenthusiastic feelings towards them, I'm honestly at a loss.  I don't know if this holds any significance to the issue at hand, but I recently got a deck of tarot cards, The Celtic Dragon Tarot, I did a reading pertaining to my goals of raising my kundalini.   It's saying that on my current path that I will succeed, but along the way I will need time to rest up. It said that I obtained a goal through tireless effort, and a time of rest is needed.  Maybe I'm telling myself this is the time to rest? I'm not sure.   


HAIL SATAN!!! 

 

[En Haradren Amlug]

I had a very similar problem a few years ago, where I had a thoughtform constantly attached to my aura and chakras. That would do exactly this. I was so unmotivated to meditate, and whenever I did, I just couldn't focus for the life of me on my meditations, and it became painful to try.
Eventually after bannishing rituals, and lots of cleaning and clearing out of my room I managed to stop them attaching to me.

So this could be similar to what you're experiancing. Also, it can be in your planets, you're going through a negative phase which is making you feel this way. So look into this.

-En Haradren Amlug.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Anakin Skywalker <anakinskywalker629@... wrote:

but i think you should do a banishing ritual to be safe. If there turns out
to be nothing but you do it anyway, no harm will come to you. i say do it
and be on the safe side.


On Tue, Aug 27, 2013 at 5:18 PM, Anakin Skywalker <
anakinskywalker629@... wrote:

may i ask about how long per day you spend on meditation?

There *is* such thing as excessive meditation - there is no set in stone
amount that is "too much" but it does depend on your experience and
physical constitution at at the time.
Meditation is like working out - if you go apeshit on it immediately you
do tend to burn out after a while.


On Tue, Aug 27, 2013 at 12:03 PM, <brandonmoreno321@... wrote:

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It's strange, but for the past 3 days I have REALLY fallen back on my
meditations. Prior to the 3 days, I had great enthusiasm towards my
meditations, I was setting them as priority 1, nothing came before them.
Been like this for months now, consistent meditations. Now, I have to
seemingly force myself to do meditations.


I've been keeping up my aura of protection every day and considering
doing a banishing ritual if this is indeed an enemy attack. I just haven't
felt such lack of motivation before towards my meditations. It's like I'm
viewing them as too time consuming, I keep hearing a voice tell me I need
to do them and I KNOW I need to do them, but then physically I just keep
thinking it's too time consuming, or I begin the session and I lose all
interest half-way through, needing to force myself to finish the sessions.


It's becoming a hindrance. I know my responsibilities, I know I need to
be consistent with these meditations, but these strong unenthusiastic
feelings towards them, I'm honestly at a loss. I don't know if this holds
any significance to the issue at hand, but I recently got a deck of tarot
cards, The Celtic Dragon Tarot, I did a reading pertaining to my goals of
raising my kundalini. It's saying that on my current path that I will
succeed, but along the way I will need time to rest up. It said that I
obtained a goal through tireless effort, and a time of rest is needed.
Maybe I'm telling myself this is the time to rest? I'm not sure.



HAIL SATAN!!!

 

[High Priestess Myla Limlal]

could be a connection tubes cut it off
have you tried other meditations
vibrations w/ runes?
mantras
and squares
yoga
will help

 

[brandonmoreno321]

Anakin:--I usually spend about 2-3 hours a day on my meditations.  It consists of vibrating Isis 40 times in the morning, then afterwords vibrating Surya 20 times to clean my aura.  Then I vibrate Maum, Thaum, Haum, etc on my chakras and their extensions.  Then at night I vibrate Isis another 40 times then Surya 20 times to clean my aura before going to bed. 
En Haradren: I'll do the full aura cleaning meditation, vibrating surya 108 times.  Hopefully that will help remove any  thoughtform alongside the banishing ritual.  
HP Myla:  When I foucs on my back heart chakra extension to vibrate Yaum, I sometimes see a faint glimpse of red on it, could this be one of those tubes?  My meditation use to consist of only vibrating Maum, thaum, etc on my  main chakras for about a month, then I went to do doing the full King and Queen meditation for about a week,  where I then started my most recent program which has been going on for about a month now.  I did start a working with Uruz, to fill myself with strength, endurance, confidence and athleticism, vibrated it 20 times and stated my affirmations 20 times.  It got interrupted after 4 days or doing so, and I'm not sure if that could of had an effect or not.  

--- In [email protected], <limlal8@... wrote:

could be a connection tubes cut it off
have you tried other meditations
vibrations w/ runes?
mantras
and squares
yoga
will help

 

[En Haradren Amlug]

I'd also recomend the "Detatching Unwanted People/Entities" working on the Meditations page.

-En Haradren Amlug.

 

[the_fire_starter666]

This is not a problem nor something "trying to hold you back", but normal brain functioning and happens to everyone who is overmotivated. If you are too enthusiastic this is not going to last long. The key here is to do the power meditations in a relaxed state, coming automatically without putting effort at all. True power meditation is effortless.

That's why I really tell people to entirely ignore "motivation" and do it as a hobbie and a habit. You don't motivate or force yourself in order to tie your shoes in the morning. This is an effortless task, much like real power meditation.

If you forcing yourself it means that either you're putting too much time in power meditations more than it's comfortable to you, or you're doing it too consciously, trying to "get the (insert anything here) right" or worrying if you get wrong.

 

[the_fire_starter666]

I'll give you a personal example about what I mean. When I do my daily power meditations, I'm not like "WOW, YEAHH!!!I'm gonna do POWER MEDITATIONS!!YAHOO!!". It's just a normal everyday effortless thing to me, like driving, cooking e.t.c. I don't think too much about it nor care whether it will work or not. If you are like "YEAH!!WOWWW!!" about power meditations, obviously this is not very good because it's not gonna last long, it's extremely temporary and you shouldn't depend on that feeling in order to meditate.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "the_fire_starter666" <the_fire_starter666@... wrote:

This is not a problem nor something "trying to hold you back", but normal brain functioning and happens to everyone who is overmotivated. If you are too enthusiastic this is not going to last long. The key here is to do the power meditations in a relaxed state, coming automatically without putting effort at all. True power meditation is effortless.

That's why I really tell people to entirely ignore "motivation" and do it as a hobbie and a habit. You don't motivate or force yourself in order to tie your shoes in the morning. This is an effortless task, much like real power meditation.

If you forcing yourself it means that either you're putting too much time in power meditations more than it's comfortable to you, or you're doing it too consciously, trying to "get the (insert anything here) right" or worrying if you get wrong.

 

[brandonmoreno321]

Hah, well I wasn't jumping for joy every time I began a meditation session but I see what you mean.  I view the meditations as a personal responsibility, that should be consistent as skipping a day can cause problems. I take my responsibilities pretty seriously which could be why I'm having these problems.  I tend to only do my meditations around 11am, because otherwise I get a call around 2-4pm from either friends or family, and end up being gone the entire day, and get home around 2am.  By that time I'm pretty exhausted and only want to sleep.    

Thinking about it now, it seems like I put myself in some kind of pseudo time schedule, where meditations has to be done before 2pm, otherwise it would be interrupted, and I don't like them to be interrupted.  So I probably just created this entire situation myself due to my constant worrying of my meditations being interrupted if I don't do them in time.  Well damn, thanks Fire Starter.  Read what I needed to. 

 

[tappouzumaki]

fire starter, i think your method of meditation is related with the base chackra(constance, repetition)
but
Probably OP need more 2-chackra(action)and 3-chackra energy
Probably cause he said " I know my responsibilities, I know I need to be consistent" this is a first-chackra thought.
So he have the energies blocked in the 1 chackra

brandon,
try to vibrate aum kraam krim kraum sau bahumaya nama (/svaha)
for the 2 chackra(action/physical energy)
Hail Satan

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "the_fire_starter666" <the_fire_starter666@... wrote:

I'll give you a personal example about what I mean. When I do my daily power meditations, I'm not like "WOW, YEAHH!!!I'm gonna do POWER MEDITATIONS!!YAHOO!!". It's just a normal everyday effortless thing to me, like driving, cooking e.t.c. I don't think too much about it nor care whether it will work or not. If you are like "YEAH!!WOWWW!!" about power meditations, obviously this is not very good because it's not gonna last long, it's extremely temporary and you shouldn't depend on that feeling in order to meditate.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "the_fire_starter666" <the_fire_starter666@ wrote:

This is not a problem nor something "trying to hold you back", but normal brain functioning and happens to everyone who is overmotivated. If you are too enthusiastic this is not going to last long. The key here is to do the power meditations in a relaxed state, coming automatically without putting effort at all. True power meditation is effortless.

That's why I really tell people to entirely ignore "motivation" and do it as a hobbie and a habit. You don't motivate or force yourself in order to tie your shoes in the morning. This is an effortless task, much like real power meditation.

If you forcing yourself it means that either you're putting too much time in power meditations more than it's comfortable to you, or you're doing it too consciously, trying to "get the (insert anything here) right" or worrying if you get wrong.

 

[the_fire_starter666]

You're making it much more complex than it's necessary.

--- In [email protected], <tappouzumaki@... wrote:

fire starter, i think your method of meditation is related with the base chackra(constance, repetition)
but
Probably OP need more 2-chackra(action)and 3-chackra energy
Probably cause he said " I know my responsibilities, I know I need to be consistent" this is a first-chackra thought.
So he have the energies blocked in the 1 chackra

brandon,
try to vibrate aum kraam krim kraum sau bahumaya nama (/svaha)
for the 2 chackra(action/physical energy)
Hail Satan

--- [/IMG][email protected], "the_fire_starter666" <the_fire_starter666@... wrote:

I'll give you a personal example about what I mean. When I do my daily power meditations, I'm not like "WOW, YEAHH!!!I'm gonna do POWER MEDITATIONS!!YAHOO!!". It's just a normal everyday effortless thing to me, like driving, cooking e.t.c. I don't think too much about it nor care whether it will work or not. If you are like "YEAH!!WOWWW!!" about power meditations, obviously this is not very good because it's not gonna last long, it's extremely temporary and you shouldn't depend on that feeling in order to meditate.

--- [/IMG][email protected], "the_fire_starter666" <the_fire_starter666@ wrote:

This is not a problem nor something "trying to hold you back", but normal brain functioning and happens to everyone who is overmotivated. If you are too enthusiastic this is not going to last long. The key here is to do the power meditations in a relaxed state, coming automatically without putting effort at all. True power meditation is effortless.

That's why I really tell people to entirely ignore "motivation" and do it as a hobbie and a habit. You don't motivate or force yourself in order to tie your shoes in the morning. This is an effortless task, much like real power meditation.

If you forcing yourself it means that either you're putting too much time in power meditations more than it's comfortable to you, or you're doing it too consciously, trying to "get the (insert anything here) right" or worrying if you get wrong.