Something like a testimonial

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Hmm i guess this is like a testimonial and a little bit more... I hope it won't sound like complaining or anything .
So since i know myself i always thought it had to be something different than this... i always thought that i have powers like controlling the weather and having something different.. maybe it was just the need to feel special, idk if i could really control it but it was so convincing.

I had a xian mom that would scream at me for the most stupid reasons like i'm not reaching her expectations or not cleaning my room or not learning good enough when i was just 8 .. she used to abuse me psychologically and physically so at that moment i thought that going to church and always being that kind of brainwashed xian would make me happier, like it would change something, not to mention those nights when i'd just pray for hours..

Recently she complained that she used to beat me because she was single[dad went 1 year away to work in a diff country] and because she was seeing shadows at night[which she claimed to be demons..]and she was saved when she went to a church and prayed to idk what saint of theirs.. and i thought: "like this justifies your actions".. Anyhow I can't even say how happy i was when i found out that the way i felt when i was smaller is true.

I liked watching "A haunting" on Discovery Channel. So one friday night there was this "haunting" in which they involved some wicca girl who did a banishing ritual and ta-da! the entities there went away.. so since i was curious about it i typed "wicca" on google and then i looked over a forum in which there was this guy that said "wicca is bullshit , if you ever want to find something real you guys should try j.o.s." and there it was a link to it. So i clicked on it and when i saw the front page i was amazed and scared at the same time, after reading it i closed it and erased history, and the next day i looked over it again and the following days.. till after some months did the dedication ritual.

Last time i remember myself in that freaking building they call "church" it was some kind of ritual in which you had to drink "the blood of jewsus" . Fucking cannibals. I went outside as fast as i could and spit it . Did that because family made me go. They are all xians so if i'm different they think something's wrong with me. Also at the beginning i wasn't paying that much attention on where i was letting my stuff so they saw Lady's Astaroth sigil and father started screaming at me and i think he said something like "if you don't tell me wtf is this i swear i'll beat the heck out of you" and several days after he told me something like "you can pick wtvr you want, but if you don't pick us then you're not my daughter anymore" so i was like ... "free choice.. right".

Right now i'm overly happy because i can see shadows around people and colors, because i've been meditating a lot on my 3-rd eye. It's not my first attempt, i dedicated in december 2008 and since then i always tried getting better with power meds. Because i didn't respected that much a schedule of them i quit doing so and this is why i failed.
So this time i did the opening 3rd eye med for 3-4 times or even more with a break of 1 day between the period of 4 days. I learned that perseverance helps. I have no idea how can i thank Father for all the help He has given to me. If i hadn't found out the truth at that time i would've been dead by now most likely since i was so suicidal.

I hope i didn't bore anyone with this, i feel like i have so much more to say but nothing comes to my mind.


Hail Father Satan!

 

[Haizuru Ishida]

That's sort like my life in a nutshell.
And I especially know how you feel, since I sort of went through the same experiences.
thank you for sharing.

Ave Satanas!

On Fri Aug 19th, 2011 7:23 PM EDT sesen22@... wrote:

Hmm i guess this is like a testimonial and a little bit more... I hope it won't sound like complaining or anything .
So since i know myself i always thought it had to be something different than this... i always thought that i have powers like controlling the weather and having something different.. maybe it was just the need to feel special, idk if i could really control it but it was so convincing.

I had a xian mom that would scream at me for the most stupid reasons like i'm not reaching her expectations or not cleaning my room or not learning good enough when i was just 8 .. she used to abuse me psychologically and physically so at that moment i thought that going to church and always being that kind of brainwashed xian would make me happier, like it would change something, not to mention those nights when i'd just pray for hours..

Recently she complained that she used to beat me because she was single[dad went 1 year away to work in a diff country] and because she was seeing shadows at night[which she claimed to be demons..]and she was saved when she went to a church and prayed to idk what saint of theirs.. and i thought: "like this justifies your actions".. Anyhow I can't even say how happy i was when i found out that the way i felt when i was smaller is true.

I liked watching "A haunting" on Discovery Channel. So one friday night there was this "haunting" in which they involved some wicca girl who did a banishing ritual and ta-da! the entities there went away.. so since i was curious about it i typed "wicca" on google and then i looked over a forum in which there was this guy that said "wicca is bullshit , if you ever want to find something real you guys should try j.o.s." and there it was a link to it. So i clicked on it and when i saw the front page i was amazed and scared at the same time, after reading it i closed it and erased history, and the next day i looked over it again and the following days.. till after some months did the dedication ritual.

Last time i remember myself in that freaking building they call "church" it was some kind of ritual in which you had to drink "the blood of jewsus" . Fucking cannibals. I went outside as fast as i could and spit it . Did that because family made me go. They are all xians so if i'm different they think something's wrong with me. Also at the beginning i wasn't paying that much attention on where i was letting my stuff so they saw Lady's Astaroth sigil and father started screaming at me and i think he said something like "if you don't tell me wtf is this i swear i'll beat the heck out of you" and several days after he told me something like "you can pick wtvr you want, but if you don't pick us then you're not my daughter anymore" so i was like ... "free choice.. right".

Right now i'm overly happy because i can see shadows around people and colors, because i've been meditating a lot on my 3-rd eye. It's not my first attempt, i dedicated in december 2008 and since then i always tried getting better with power meds. Because i didn't respected that much a schedule of them i quit doing so and this is why i failed.
So this time i did the opening 3rd eye med for 3-4 times or even more with a break of 1 day between the period of 4 days. I learned that perseverance helps. I have no idea how can i thank Father for all the help He has given to me. If i hadn't found out the truth at that time i would've been dead by now most likely since i was so suicidal.

I hope i didn't bore anyone with this, i feel like i have so much more to say but nothing comes to my mind.


Hail Father Satan!

 

[roadtohel]

Thank you very much for sharing, don't be shy. We are all learning here and all the "testimonials" we have the better. Many people will learn from you. BTW Your mother has no excuse for her actions, when people lose sight of their inner problems they manifest them on the outside and often times it is onto others because they no longer can see where the real problem is coming from. I'm sorry you had to go through that, but we all have to walk our path, no matter how painful.
Hail Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Haizuru Ishida <wolfguardian1@... wrote:

That's sort like my life in a nutshell.
And I especially know how you feel, since I sort of went through the same experiences.
thank you for sharing.

Ave Satanas!

On Fri Aug 19th, 2011 7:23 PM EDT sesen22@... wrote:

Hmm i guess this is like a testimonial and a little bit more... I hope it won't sound like complaining or anything .
So since i know myself i always thought it had to be something different than this... i always thought that i have powers like controlling the weather and having something different.. maybe it was just the need to feel special, idk if i could really control it but it was so convincing.

I had a xian mom that would scream at me for the most stupid reasons like i'm not reaching her expectations or not cleaning my room or not learning good enough when i was just 8 .. she used to abuse me psychologically and physically so at that moment i thought that going to church and always being that kind of brainwashed xian would make me happier, like it would change something, not to mention those nights when i'd just pray for hours..

Recently she complained that she used to beat me because she was single[dad went 1 year away to work in a diff country] and because she was seeing shadows at night[which she claimed to be demons..]and she was saved when she went to a church and prayed to idk what saint of theirs.. and i thought: "like this justifies your actions".. Anyhow I can't even say how happy i was when i found out that the way i felt when i was smaller is true.

I liked watching "A haunting" on Discovery Channel. So one friday night there was this "haunting" in which they involved some wicca girl who did a banishing ritual and ta-da! the entities there went away.. so since i was curious about it i typed "wicca" on google and then i looked over a forum in which there was this guy that said "wicca is bullshit , if you ever want to find something real you guys should try j.o.s." and there it was a link to it. So i clicked on it and when i saw the front page i was amazed and scared at the same time, after reading it i closed it and erased history, and the next day i looked over it again and the following days.. till after some months did the dedication ritual.

Last time i remember myself in that freaking building they call "church" it was some kind of ritual in which you had to drink "the blood of jewsus" . Fucking cannibals. I went outside as fast as i could and spit it . Did that because family made me go. They are all xians so if i'm different they think something's wrong with me. Also at the beginning i wasn't paying that much attention on where i was letting my stuff so they saw Lady's Astaroth sigil and father started screaming at me and i think he said something like "if you don't tell me wtf is this i swear i'll beat the heck out of you" and several days after he told me something like "you can pick wtvr you want, but if you don't pick us then you're not my daughter anymore" so i was like ... "free choice.. right".

Right now i'm overly happy because i can see shadows around people and colors, because i've been meditating a lot on my 3-rd eye. It's not my first attempt, i dedicated in december 2008 and since then i always tried getting better with power meds. Because i didn't respected that much a schedule of them i quit doing so and this is why i failed.
So this time i did the opening 3rd eye med for 3-4 times or even more with a break of 1 day between the period of 4 days. I learned that perseverance helps. I have no idea how can i thank Father for all the help He has given to me. If i hadn't found out the truth at that time i would've been dead by now most likely since i was so suicidal.

I hope i didn't bore anyone with this, i feel like i have so much more to say but nothing comes to my mind.


Hail Father Satan!

 

[Catlovers Foreva]

Feel u sis,we've a lot of similarities,lol,except i come from a mudslime background,my parents still together,well kinda,n im a guy.Hail iblis.

On Sat, 20 Aug 2011 14:48 PDT roadtohel wrote:

Thank you very much for sharing, don't be shy. We are all learning here and all the "testimonials" we have the better. Many people will learn from you. BTW Your mother has no excuse for her actions, when people lose sight of their inner problems they manifest them on the outside and often times it is onto others because they no longer can see where the real problem is coming from. I'm sorry you had to go through that, but we all have to walk our path, no matter how painful.
Hail Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Haizuru Ishida <wolfguardian1@... wrote:

That's sort like my life in a nutshell.
And I especially know how you feel, since I sort of went through the same experiences.
thank you for sharing.

Ave Satanas!

On Fri Aug 19th, 2011 7:23 PM EDT sesen22@... wrote:

Hmm i guess this is like a testimonial and a little bit more... I hope it won't sound like complaining or anything .
So since i know myself i always thought it had to be something different than this... i always thought that i have powers like controlling the weather and having something different.. maybe it was just the need to feel special, idk if i could really control it but it was so convincing.

I had a xian mom that would scream at me for the most stupid reasons like i'm not reaching her expectations or not cleaning my room or not learning good enough when i was just 8 .. she used to abuse me psychologically and physically so at that moment i thought that going to church and always being that kind of brainwashed xian would make me happier, like it would change something, not to mention those nights when i'd just pray for hours..

Recently she complained that she used to beat me because she was single[dad went 1 year away to work in a diff country] and because she was seeing shadows at night[which she claimed to be demons..]and she was saved when she went to a church and prayed to idk what saint of theirs.. and i thought: "like this justifies your actions".. Anyhow I can't even say how happy i was when i found out that the way i felt when i was smaller is true.

I liked watching "A haunting" on Discovery Channel. So one friday night there was this "haunting" in which they involved some wicca girl who did a banishing ritual and ta-da! the entities there went away.. so since i was curious about it i typed "wicca" on google and then i looked over a forum in which there was this guy that said "wicca is bullshit , if you ever want to find something real you guys should try j.o.s." and there it was a link to it. So i clicked on it and when i saw the front page i was amazed and scared at the same time, after reading it i closed it and erased history, and the next day i looked over it again and the following days.. till after some months did the dedication ritual.

Last time i remember myself in that freaking building they call "church" it was some kind of ritual in which you had to drink "the blood of jewsus" . Fucking cannibals. I went outside as fast as i could and spit it . Did that because family made me go. They are all xians so if i'm different they think something's wrong with me. Also at the beginning i wasn't paying that much attention on where i was letting my stuff so they saw Lady's Astaroth sigil and father started screaming at me and i think he said something like "if you don't tell me wtf is this i swear i'll beat the heck out of you" and several days after he told me something like "you can pick wtvr you want, but if you don't pick us then you're not my daughter anymore" so i was like ... "free choice.. right".

Right now i'm overly happy because i can see shadows around people and colors, because i've been meditating a lot on my 3-rd eye. It's not my first attempt, i dedicated in december 2008 and since then i always tried getting better with power meds. Because i didn't respected that much a schedule of them i quit doing so and this is why i failed.
So this time i did the opening 3rd eye med for 3-4 times or even more with a break of 1 day between the period of 4 days. I learned that perseverance helps. I have no idea how can i thank Father for all the help He has given to me. If i hadn't found out the truth at that time i would've been dead by now most likely since i was so suicidal.

I hope i didn't bore anyone with this, i feel like i have so much more to say but nothing comes to my mind.


Hail Father Satan!

 

[Catlovers Foreva]

Feel u sis,we've a lot of similarities,lol,except i come from a mudslime background,my parents still together,well kinda,n im a guy.Hail iblis.

On Sat, 20 Aug 2011 14:48 PDT roadtohel wrote:

Thank you very much for sharing, don't be shy. We are all learning here and all the "testimonials" we have the better. Many people will learn from you. BTW Your mother has no excuse for her actions, when people lose sight of their inner problems they manifest them on the outside and often times it is onto others because they no longer can see where the real problem is coming from. I'm sorry you had to go through that, but we all have to walk our path, no matter how painful.
Hail Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Haizuru Ishida <wolfguardian1@... wrote:

That's sort like my life in a nutshell.
And I especially know how you feel, since I sort of went through the same experiences.
thank you for sharing.

Ave Satanas!

On Fri Aug 19th, 2011 7:23 PM EDT sesen22@... wrote:

Hmm i guess this is like a testimonial and a little bit more... I hope it won't sound like complaining or anything .
So since i know myself i always thought it had to be something different than this... i always thought that i have powers like controlling the weather and having something different.. maybe it was just the need to feel special, idk if i could really control it but it was so convincing.

I had a xian mom that would scream at me for the most stupid reasons like i'm not reaching her expectations or not cleaning my room or not learning good enough when i was just 8 .. she used to abuse me psychologically and physically so at that moment i thought that going to church and always being that kind of brainwashed xian would make me happier, like it would change something, not to mention those nights when i'd just pray for hours..

Recently she complained that she used to beat me because she was single[dad went 1 year away to work in a diff country] and because she was seeing shadows at night[which she claimed to be demons..]and she was saved when she went to a church and prayed to idk what saint of theirs.. and i thought: "like this justifies your actions".. Anyhow I can't even say how happy i was when i found out that the way i felt when i was smaller is true.

I liked watching "A haunting" on Discovery Channel. So one friday night there was this "haunting" in which they involved some wicca girl who did a banishing ritual and ta-da! the entities there went away.. so since i was curious about it i typed "wicca" on google and then i looked over a forum in which there was this guy that said "wicca is bullshit , if you ever want to find something real you guys should try j.o.s." and there it was a link to it. So i clicked on it and when i saw the front page i was amazed and scared at the same time, after reading it i closed it and erased history, and the next day i looked over it again and the following days.. till after some months did the dedication ritual.

Last time i remember myself in that freaking building they call "church" it was some kind of ritual in which you had to drink "the blood of jewsus" . Fucking cannibals. I went outside as fast as i could and spit it . Did that because family made me go. They are all xians so if i'm different they think something's wrong with me. Also at the beginning i wasn't paying that much attention on where i was letting my stuff so they saw Lady's Astaroth sigil and father started screaming at me and i think he said something like "if you don't tell me wtf is this i swear i'll beat the heck out of you" and several days after he told me something like "you can pick wtvr you want, but if you don't pick us then you're not my daughter anymore" so i was like ... "free choice.. right".

Right now i'm overly happy because i can see shadows around people and colors, because i've been meditating a lot on my 3-rd eye. It's not my first attempt, i dedicated in december 2008 and since then i always tried getting better with power meds. Because i didn't respected that much a schedule of them i quit doing so and this is why i failed.
So this time i did the opening 3rd eye med for 3-4 times or even more with a break of 1 day between the period of 4 days. I learned that perseverance helps. I have no idea how can i thank Father for all the help He has given to me. If i hadn't found out the truth at that time i would've been dead by now most likely since i was so suicidal.

I hope i didn't bore anyone with this, i feel like i have so much more to say but nothing comes to my mind.


Hail Father Satan!