slow progress ..

[bay6joy6]

i dedicated a few months back and it marked a new beginning for me. My family are christians and my grandparents are REALLY christian!
my advancement has been very slow and its making me loose faith in my abilities as a satanist... I can only do energy meditation or any other meditation that doesn't require a mantra or "humming breath" which is a REALLY big problem.
i cannot open my chakras because of the voice usage and it is really fustrating, in each meditation i breath energy in each chakra as a replacement of the chakra opening meditation with the mantras but it hasnt done any thing.
can anyone give me advice on how to open my chakras?
also i cannot use proper guided meditation for opening the chakras because dedicating was very hard without been found out... so if i start chanting THHOOOOOOOTHHH x13 i will surley be discovered and well, my grandad might get a priest to perform an exorcist.. =.="
i would be very grateful for some answers or maybe just alittle support

i TRULEY want to empower myself and this slow progress is really getting to me. I want to join the fight and prove my worth to Father Satan and to my brothers and sisters

again thank you and any reply i would greatly appriciate
with love <3 Alice UK

and sorry for all the lines, i find it very hard to get straight to the point.. =]

HAIL Satan!

 

[Kait Jordan]

I had to deal with the exact same thing, and I still do. I know it probably wont help, but you might just have to be patient. 
That's what I did. I focused on the things that I was able to do, then when I finally got a chance to do something else, I jumped on it straight away. I know it can be frustrating, but if you can just be patient, it pays off. 

On Thu, Dec 1, 2011 at 7:35 AM, bay6joy6 <cute_kittyxx@... wrote:

  i dedicated a few months back and it marked a new beginning for me. My family are christians and my grandparents are REALLY christian!
my advancement has been very slow and its making me loose faith in my abilities as a satanist... I can only do energy meditation or any other meditation that doesn't require a mantra or "humming breath" which is a REALLY big problem.
i cannot open my chakras because of the voice usage and it is really fustrating, in each meditation i breath energy in each chakra as a replacement of the chakra opening meditation with the mantras but it hasnt done any thing.
can anyone give me advice on how to open my chakras?
also i cannot use proper guided meditation for opening the chakras because dedicating was very hard without been found out... so if i start chanting THHOOOOOOOTHHH x13 i will surley be discovered and well, my grandad might get a priest to perform an exorcist.. =.="
i would be very grateful for some answers or maybe just alittle support

i TRULEY want to empower myself and this slow progress is really getting to me. I want to join the fight and prove my worth to Father Satan and to my brothers and sisters

again thank you and any reply i would greatly appriciate
with love <3 Alice UK

and sorry for all the lines, i find it very hard to get straight to the point.. =]

HAIL Satan!