wrote here a few months ago about how my kundalini raised half way a couple years ago, i kept it down by doing masturbation, it never reached past the heart chakra . the reason i didnt let it go any higher is because im not ready for ascension as numerous other people here and other places have told me because of my pre existent illness and central nervous system health
i have a type of epilepsy and also due to past enotional stress for over 7 years i have something called kidney yin deficiency in chinese medicine, basically my body is completely dried out from stress, my central nervous system was already very damaged from weening off anxiety medications and head injuries. ( the kundalini raised shortly after a head injury when i messed around with yoga and deep breathing ) . the problem now is because of all the stress and the kidney yin deficency essentially its like roots of a tree being dried up and scarred all my nerves. i now have permanent, numbness, tingling and burning in all my limbs, my balance is starting to get bad and now my vision is slowly starting to get worse. im only 28 years old and in chinese medicine terms we have something called jing, our life force, mine is very low and all my joints crack and ache and i am bed ridden. if i dont masturbate once in every couple weeks ill start get nightmares of snakes and bliss at my spine and the energy will try to raise again, but if anyone here knows anything about kundalini we NEED a healthy nervous system for kundalini to function and work properly, if it raises in my body it will be a disaster. hatha yoga did nothing for my nerves, and the central nervous system cannot be repaired and healed like the pheripheral one can. so do i let the energy raise in my extremely damaged body or what should i do? i feel like im ready to give up life and i have no answers other then hatha yoga but it can strengthen and clear the nadis and prepair for ascension but it cannot heal scarred nerves. regenration is impossible so its like i have the energy but not a vessel that can ever be healthy enough to handle the energy
i have a type of epilepsy and also due to past enotional stress for over 7 years i have something called kidney yin deficiency in chinese medicine, basically my body is completely dried out from stress, my central nervous system was already very damaged from weening off anxiety medications and head injuries. ( the kundalini raised shortly after a head injury when i messed around with yoga and deep breathing ) . the problem now is because of all the stress and the kidney yin deficency essentially its like roots of a tree being dried up and scarred all my nerves. i now have permanent, numbness, tingling and burning in all my limbs, my balance is starting to get bad and now my vision is slowly starting to get worse. im only 28 years old and in chinese medicine terms we have something called jing, our life force, mine is very low and all my joints crack and ache and i am bed ridden. if i dont masturbate once in every couple weeks ill start get nightmares of snakes and bliss at my spine and the energy will try to raise again, but if anyone here knows anything about kundalini we NEED a healthy nervous system for kundalini to function and work properly, if it raises in my body it will be a disaster. hatha yoga did nothing for my nerves, and the central nervous system cannot be repaired and healed like the pheripheral one can. so do i let the energy raise in my extremely damaged body or what should i do? i feel like im ready to give up life and i have no answers other then hatha yoga but it can strengthen and clear the nadis and prepair for ascension but it cannot heal scarred nerves. regenration is impossible so its like i have the energy but not a vessel that can ever be healthy enough to handle the energy
