Really difficult position....

[Crypsis]

Recently my brother has gotten a "wake up call" from god or something. He feels that his purpose in this world is not to work that shitty 9-5 life but to make a difference in this world. I feel the same way, but of course we both follow completely different paths.

He's been going on about the rapture a lot lately. How there are so many signs out there of the coming rapture. My oldest brother (I have 4 brothers) does a lot of research and has been talking to my other brother a lot lately. (Check out his site if you want www.thealphaomegaproject.com).

What troubles me so much is that my parents and my brother are trying to get me to go on the "right" path again. They know I've been reading about satanism and that I've been doing stuff. This got my mom really worried because of course in their religion "Satan" is EVIL, REALLY EVIL. And she's really worried that when the christians get "saved" that I won't come with them to heaven. She prays for me daily and she also prays that I may find JEBUS in my heart (i can barely say those words, it wants to come out as gibberish lol).

I feel trapped in this house. I cannot show them what I believe.
IDK WHAT TO DO.
If I show them anything they'll just bash it.
"It's evil!", "It's from the Devil!" They think everything bad is from satan. It fucking pisses me off when they talk about that shit.
My brother: "I said I was quitting weed, and right away someone offers me free weed! That's gotta be Satan trying to lure me back in!"
Ugh! Its not fucking Satan!

My brother said something else too. He said that my mom has been having trouble "talking" with god lately. As if something is blocking the connection between her and that filthy Vortex. Seems like my energy works are working heheh. its kinda funny, because I felt like I had the same thing when I just started my path. I had trouble meditating, so one night I went into a deep trance (I managed to meditate that night somehow..) and "looked" around my house. There were angels...... and i destroyed them. I put a barrier/dome (i visualized it red and black for some reason..) around the house to keep the angels from coming back, but my mother's daily prayers might be weakening it. (This dome is probably one of the things that disrupts my moms connection).

Anyways... i really hope to get an answer on what I could do in this position... I feel trapped in this house... I can't move out just yet because my parents dont feel that i'm ready yet. They went on a 2 and a half week vacation. it was great when they were gone. When they returned I felt a lot of discomfort... very unusual.. and this discomfort hasn't left yet..
I'm 18 btw.

 

[High Priest Jake]

You're 18 and your parents don't think you're "ready" to move out? You're 18 and you can decide for yourself. If you don't have money or anyone to stay with, then that is understandable, but for *everything* that you mentioned below, don't let your brother *or* your parents influence you in any way. It was hard to take my own advice when I was 18, but it can be done. You can choose which religion and if you feel that Satan has called you, then Satanism is YOUR path, not a "temptation." Now, don't you become deceived by the true enemies of humanities who just love to point their fingers at Satan, causing Satan to be rejected by his own creation.

Never cease to do power meditations. Your deluded brother and parents don't have to know that you're doing when you have your eyes closed at night. Make sure to make positive affirmations. We are the masters of our destinies. NOT those who are without.

666/88!!

High Priest Jake Carlson
http://www.joyofsatan.com

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Crypsis" <crypsiskilla@... wrote:

Recently my brother has gotten a "wake up call" from god or something. He feels that his purpose in this world is not to work that shitty 9-5 life but to make a difference in this world. I feel the same way, but of course we both follow completely different paths.

He's been going on about the rapture a lot lately. How there are so many signs out there of the coming rapture. My oldest brother (I have 4 brothers) does a lot of research and has been talking to my other brother a lot lately. (Check out his site if you want www.thealphaomegaproject.com).

What troubles me so much is that my parents and my brother are trying to get me to go on the "right" path again. They know I've been reading about satanism and that I've been doing stuff. This got my mom really worried because of course in their religion "Satan" is EVIL, REALLY EVIL. And she's really worried that when the christians get "saved" that I won't come with them to heaven. She prays for me daily and she also prays that I may find JEBUS in my heart (i can barely say those words, it wants to come out as gibberish lol).

I feel trapped in this house. I cannot show them what I believe.
IDK WHAT TO DO.
If I show them anything they'll just bash it.
"It's evil!", "It's from the Devil!" They think everything bad is from satan. It fucking pisses me off when they talk about that shit.
My brother: "I said I was quitting weed, and right away someone offers me free weed! That's gotta be Satan trying to lure me back in!"
Ugh! Its not fucking Satan!

My brother said something else too. He said that my mom has been having trouble "talking" with god lately. As if something is blocking the connection between her and that filthy Vortex. Seems like my energy works are working heheh. its kinda funny, because I felt like I had the same thing when I just started my path. I had trouble meditating, so one night I went into a deep trance (I managed to meditate that night somehow..) and "looked" around my house. There were angels...... and i destroyed them. I put a barrier/dome (i visualized it red and black for some reason..) around the house to keep the angels from coming back, but my mother's daily prayers might be weakening it. (This dome is probably one of the things that disrupts my moms connection).

Anyways... i really hope to get an answer on what I could do in this position... I feel trapped in this house... I can't move out just yet because my parents dont feel that i'm ready yet. They went on a 2 and a half week vacation. it was great when they were gone. When they returned I felt a lot of discomfort... very unusual.. and this discomfort hasn't left yet..
I'm 18 btw.

 

[Allison P]

You know, High Priest Jake's got a good point. Now of course, if you
lack the funds to move, you can save up mony from your job (if you've
got one, that is), and eventually you'll have enough to get out of
there. Also, you can use rune magick to obtain money; the Fehu rune is
particularly good for doing this. Or, just visualize yourself being
surrounded by a green light or whichever colour you choos, and affirm,
'I am obtaining money in a positive, natural way. This money is mine
for the taking', or something to that effect, anyway.

As for your feeling of discomfort and such...like Jake said, keep
meditating! They need never know you are doing so. Add energy to this
dome you created; solar energy is good, since it's so powerful. And
keep affirming something like "This dome is protecting me completely
from my family's influence." You killed some angels? Good for you! I
killed two of them, and that was back before I'd decided for certain
I wanted to dedicate! Do the aura of protection meditation too, just
to be safe. Hope this helps. Hail Satan!

On 9/22/09, High Priest Jake <hammerofthegods_666@... wrote:
You're 18 and your parents don't think you're "ready" to move out? You're
18 and you can decide for yourself. If you don't have money or anyone to
stay with, then that is understandable, but for *everything* that you
mentioned below, don't let your brother *or* your parents influence you in
any way. It was hard to take my own advice when I was 18, but it can be
done. You can choose which religion and if you feel that Satan has called
you, then Satanism is YOUR path, not a "temptation." Now, don't you become
deceived by the true enemies of humanities who just love to point their
fingers at Satan, causing Satan to be rejected by his own creation.

Never cease to do power meditations. Your deluded brother and parents don't
have to know that you're doing when you have your eyes closed at night.
Make sure to make positive affirmations. We are the masters of our
destinies. NOT those who are without.

666/88!!

High Priest Jake Carlson
http://www.joyofsatan.com

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Crypsis" <crypsiskilla@... wrote:

Recently my brother has gotten a "wake up call" from god or something. He
feels that his purpose in this world is not to work that shitty 9-5 life
but to make a difference in this world. I feel the same way, but of course
we both follow completely different paths.

He's been going on about the rapture a lot lately. How there are so many
signs out there of the coming rapture. My oldest brother (I have 4
brothers) does a lot of research and has been talking to my other brother
a lot lately. (Check out his site if you want
www.thealphaomegaproject.com).

What troubles me so much is that my parents and my brother are trying to
get me to go on the "right" path again. They know I've been reading about
satanism and that I've been doing stuff. This got my mom really worried
because of course in their religion "Satan" is EVIL, REALLY EVIL. And
she's really worried that when the christians get "saved" that I won't
come with them to heaven. She prays for me daily and she also prays that I
may find JEBUS in my heart (i can barely say those words, it wants to come
out as gibberish lol).

I feel trapped in this house. I cannot show them what I believe.
IDK WHAT TO DO.
If I show them anything they'll just bash it.
"It's evil!", "It's from the Devil!" They think everything bad is from
satan. It fucking pisses me off when they talk about that shit.
My brother: "I said I was quitting weed, and right away someone offers me
free weed! That's gotta be Satan trying to lure me back in!"
Ugh! Its not fucking Satan!

My brother said something else too. He said that my mom has been having
trouble "talking" with god lately. As if something is blocking the
connection between her and that filthy Vortex. Seems like my energy works
are working heheh. its kinda funny, because I felt like I had the same
thing when I just started my path. I had trouble meditating, so one night
I went into a deep trance (I managed to meditate that night somehow..) and
"looked" around my house. There were angels...... and i destroyed them. I
put a barrier/dome (i visualized it red and black for some reason..)
around the house to keep the angels from coming back, but my mother's
daily prayers might be weakening it. (This dome is probably one of the
things that disrupts my moms connection).

Anyways... i really hope to get an answer on what I could do in this
position... I feel trapped in this house... I can't move out just yet
because my parents dont feel that i'm ready yet. They went on a 2 and a
half week vacation. it was great when they were gone. When they returned I
felt a lot of discomfort... very unusual.. and this discomfort hasn't left
yet..
I'm 18 btw.

 

[chalchiuhnenetzin]

Just to second Jake's and Allison's words: you CAN get out of this. No, it won't be tomorrow, but there is light at the end of the tunnel. It is nothing short of astounding what your meditations can accomplish over time.

Here's a good money affirmation (taken from the JoS website) which definitely works: "I attract large sums of free and easy money in a positive way. This money is free and is all mine to keep and use as I wish."

If you need a job, start meditating on that and get applications out, to back it up.

I know that some people feel stymied because they perhaps don't have all the ritual "tools" they need or the privacy to perform their rituals. It's not really that big a problem. The ideal, in fact, is to not require any props. Do your rituals in your astral temple -- there you can have all the props you want and design it as you wish; it is also amenable to change (I have made changes to mine several times). No one need know you're doing it.

Use a little ingenuity and try not to become discouraged, knowing that you are working your way out of this.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Allison P <apocalypseofjon@... wrote:

You know, High Priest Jake's got a good point. Now of course, if you
lack the funds to move, you can save up mony from your job (if you've
got one, that is), and eventually you'll have enough to get out of
there. Also, you can use rune magick to obtain money; the Fehu rune is
particularly good for doing this. Or, just visualize yourself being
surrounded by a green light or whichever colour you choos, and affirm,
'I am obtaining money in a positive, natural way. This money is mine
for the taking', or something to that effect, anyway.

As for your feeling of discomfort and such...like Jake said, keep
meditating! They need never know you are doing so. Add energy to this
dome you created; solar energy is good, since it's so powerful. And
keep affirming something like "This dome is protecting me completely
from my family's influence." You killed some angels? Good for you! I
killed two of them, and that was back before I'd decided for certain
I wanted to dedicate! Do the aura of protection meditation too, just
to be safe. Hope this helps. Hail Satan!

On 9/22/09, High Priest Jake <hammerofthegods_666@... wrote:
You're 18 and your parents don't think you're "ready" to move out? You're
18 and you can decide for yourself. If you don't have money or anyone to
stay with, then that is understandable, but for *everything* that you
mentioned below, don't let your brother *or* your parents influence you in
any way. It was hard to take my own advice when I was 18, but it can be
done. You can choose which religion and if you feel that Satan has called
you, then Satanism is YOUR path, not a "temptation." Now, don't you become
deceived by the true enemies of humanities who just love to point their
fingers at Satan, causing Satan to be rejected by his own creation.

Never cease to do power meditations. Your deluded brother and parents don't
have to know that you're doing when you have your eyes closed at night.
Make sure to make positive affirmations. We are the masters of our
destinies. NOT those who are without.

666/88!!

High Priest Jake Carlson
http://www.joyofsatan.com

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Crypsis" <crypsiskilla@ wrote:

Recently my brother has gotten a "wake up call" from god or something. He
feels that his purpose in this world is not to work that shitty 9-5 life
but to make a difference in this world. I feel the same way, but of course
we both follow completely different paths.

He's been going on about the rapture a lot lately. How there are so many
signs out there of the coming rapture. My oldest brother (I have 4
brothers) does a lot of research and has been talking to my other brother
a lot lately. (Check out his site if you want
www.thealphaomegaproject.com).

What troubles me so much is that my parents and my brother are trying to
get me to go on the "right" path again. They know I've been reading about
satanism and that I've been doing stuff. This got my mom really worried
because of course in their religion "Satan" is EVIL, REALLY EVIL. And
she's really worried that when the christians get "saved" that I won't
come with them to heaven. She prays for me daily and she also prays that I
may find JEBUS in my heart (i can barely say those words, it wants to come
out as gibberish lol).

I feel trapped in this house. I cannot show them what I believe.
IDK WHAT TO DO.
If I show them anything they'll just bash it.
"It's evil!", "It's from the Devil!" They think everything bad is from
satan. It fucking pisses me off when they talk about that shit.
My brother: "I said I was quitting weed, and right away someone offers me
free weed! That's gotta be Satan trying to lure me back in!"
Ugh! Its not fucking Satan!

My brother said something else too. He said that my mom has been having
trouble "talking" with god lately. As if something is blocking the
connection between her and that filthy Vortex. Seems like my energy works
are working heheh. its kinda funny, because I felt like I had the same
thing when I just started my path. I had trouble meditating, so one night
I went into a deep trance (I managed to meditate that night somehow..) and
"looked" around my house. There were angels...... and i destroyed them. I
put a barrier/dome (i visualized it red and black for some reason..)
around the house to keep the angels from coming back, but my mother's
daily prayers might be weakening it. (This dome is probably one of the
things that disrupts my moms connection).

Anyways... i really hope to get an answer on what I could do in this
position... I feel trapped in this house... I can't move out just yet
because my parents dont feel that i'm ready yet. They went on a 2 and a
half week vacation. it was great when they were gone. When they returned I
felt a lot of discomfort... very unusual.. and this discomfort hasn't left
yet..
I'm 18 btw.

 

[ollie]

Ok this is a nice position to be in, because you are going to have to work extra hard to develope. This is a good thing as hopefully the gods will see you trying your hardest pushing through and they will come and hopefully make a difference.

For now i advice making your room a space of your own do banishing rituals and create thought forms to protect it, make it your little fortress and temple that you can be yourself in.

http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... tform.html

http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... shing.html

I personaly believe that anyone can believe whatever they like aslong as they dont shove it in my face and aslong as they are happy, but if you think your family would be better without christianity or if they are really starting to shove it in your face then you should try to talk them round. Be clever about it dont just come out with it, drop little hints, mention it in conversations, try to make them not go to church anything that wont scare them away but will make them interested.

Hope this helps if you need any more advice let us know.

"To the brave belong everything!!"
HAIL SATAN!!

 

[Crypsis]

Thank you all for your very encouraging responses.

I will try the money affirmation for the next couple of days.
I do have a job (McDonalds...).
I can start working full time when I'm done high school, which is in January. Hopefully I can save up enough so I can move out next summer.

One other thing on the dome. A couple of days ago my brother told me about a dream he had. He was doing construction on a building or something with some other people when all of a sudden parts of the building came crashing down. He was stuck and he was calling out for help for a very long time. There was a man who saw it happen, but didn't bother to help. He didn't hear my brother's cries for help. Then the man put earphones in and laughed and left...

When I put energy into the dome I affirm every time that it blocks their spiritual connection with their "God".. This dream of his really fascinated me, cuz I knew exactly what it meant and where it came from.

I laugh at them secretly for thinking all this bullshit. But at the same time I feel sorry for them for not Knowing the Truth.


Thanks again Brothers and Sister

Hail SATAN!!!


ps-
I will let you know in the near future how things are going.

Ave Satanas
Crypsis

 

[Allison P]

Yeah, keep us posted! Good luck.

On 9/23/09, Crypsis <crypsiskilla@... wrote:
Thank you all for your very encouraging responses.

I will try the money affirmation for the next couple of days.
I do have a job (McDonalds...).
I can start working full time when I'm done high school, which is in
January. Hopefully I can save up enough so I can move out next summer.

One other thing on the dome. A couple of days ago my brother told me about a
dream he had. He was doing construction on a building or something with some
other people when all of a sudden parts of the building came crashing down.
He was stuck and he was calling out for help for a very long time. There was
a man who saw it happen, but didn't bother to help. He didn't hear my
brother's cries for help. Then the man put earphones in and laughed and
left...

When I put energy into the dome I affirm every time that it blocks their
spiritual connection with their "God".. This dream of his really fascinated
me, cuz I knew exactly what it meant and where it came from.

I laugh at them secretly for thinking all this bullshit. But at the same
time I feel sorry for them for not Knowing the Truth.


Thanks again Brothers and Sister

Hail SATAN!!!


ps-
I will let you know in the near future how things are going.

Ave Satanas
Crypsis

 

[whatshisface117]

I was going to offer some more advice on this topic but it seems everyone beat me to it at usual lol =b.

There is something important however that you need to know. When you are imaging energy, color is very important. Black is a death energy color, along with grey. If your visualizing your house being covered in this energy its eventually going to cause alot of problems for you and everyone else in that house.

If you want to create a barrier of protection, make the energy bright white, or gold. You could then create an affirmation on it, specifying it to block out any xtian influence. Or whatever you want really. The more you do this, the more powerful the barrier will become.

Good luck Brother, don't allow your misguided family to sway you.
-Hail Father, Lord Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Crypsis" <crypsiskilla@... wrote:

Recently my brother has gotten a "wake up call" from god or something. He feels that his purpose in this world is not to work that shitty 9-5 life but to make a difference in this world. I feel the same way, but of course we both follow completely different paths.

He's been going on about the rapture a lot lately. How there are so many signs out there of the coming rapture. My oldest brother (I have 4 brothers) does a lot of research and has been talking to my other brother a lot lately. (Check out his site if you want www.thealphaomegaproject.com).

What troubles me so much is that my parents and my brother are trying to get me to go on the "right" path again. They know I've been reading about satanism and that I've been doing stuff. This got my mom really worried because of course in their religion "Satan" is EVIL, REALLY EVIL. And she's really worried that when the christians get "saved" that I won't come with them to heaven. She prays for me daily and she also prays that I may find JEBUS in my heart (i can barely say those words, it wants to come out as gibberish lol).

I feel trapped in this house. I cannot show them what I believe.
IDK WHAT TO DO.
If I show them anything they'll just bash it.
"It's evil!", "It's from the Devil!" They think everything bad is from satan. It fucking pisses me off when they talk about that shit.
My brother: "I said I was quitting weed, and right away someone offers me free weed! That's gotta be Satan trying to lure me back in!"
Ugh! Its not fucking Satan!

My brother said something else too. He said that my mom has been having trouble "talking" with god lately. As if something is blocking the connection between her and that filthy Vortex. Seems like my energy works are working heheh. its kinda funny, because I felt like I had the same thing when I just started my path. I had trouble meditating, so one night I went into a deep trance (I managed to meditate that night somehow..) and "looked" around my house. There were angels...... and i destroyed them. I put a barrier/dome (i visualized it red and black for some reason..) around the house to keep the angels from coming back, but my mother's daily prayers might be weakening it. (This dome is probably one of the things that disrupts my moms connection).

Anyways... i really hope to get an answer on what I could do in this position... I feel trapped in this house... I can't move out just yet because my parents dont feel that i'm ready yet. They went on a 2 and a half week vacation. it was great when they were gone. When they returned I felt a lot of discomfort... very unusual.. and this discomfort hasn't left yet..
I'm 18 btw.

 

[Crypsis]

Good news so far.

I have noticed less discomfort after strenghtening the dome with powerful White Gold energy. Usually when my mom has one of her religious lectures with me I feel a lot of discomfort... This time the feeling of discomfort was significantly less. I will keep putting energy into this dome to further perfect it.

Another thing, I may have found a place to stay. My friend and his brother are looking for an appt. If they are successfull I could move in with them when I'm finished with highschool. The thing is though, they're on welfare. Their father is (was?) an alcoholic. They lived with their dad in a house which was paid for by their supposedly rich aunt. They think that their dad is crazy so their moving out.
My parents would freak if they find out about all this stuff about my friend and his background and stuff.

Anyways, I'll find out in time if this is the direction I have to take.

Hail Satan!