Re: I am new here-yet still feel confused-would like some responses?

[James Makela]

You have nothing to be afraid of your in the right place. Satan loves and cares about every Gentile. You sound like you've read the site and you should keep studying the site. You should also read the "Satanic Sermons" located on the JoS if you haven't already done so. In your post you sound scared and paranoid about Satanism. You should deprogram
Yourself by reading exposingchristianity.com this site will help you learn the truth about xianity and how you've been lied too. Start meditating. Do any of the basic meditations on the JoS and you can do the dedication ritual whenever you feel ready. Welcome to the group!

Hail Satan!

Sent from my iPhone

On Feb 28, 2013, at 11:02 AM, "jali29@..." <jali29@... wrote:

First of all, I am NOT here to judgde or to say someone is wrong in any way. I was raised to be a christian-as I got older I still had a sense of believing in a God...tho I rarely believed in hardly anything the Bible had said. I found contradictions in it, I didn't like how people would say if you were a woman you could not preach-I didn't like how it was strickly a 'mans' world....I questioned it all the time. I had always said if there was anything true about it at all was that a person should not judge another for any reason. (race, religion, sex, etc.) To me, a God would not judge you either-he/she/it would not say "because you have a vignia you can not teach my word" or say "because you are gay you cannot be apart of me" (so to speak) but for many years I claimed to be a christian-simply because I did believe that there was a God.

A few years ago I began research for astral projection, chakras, meditation, scrying, etc.. But I always had a fear of comming to something 'bad' and half the time I would be scared and never proceeded further. (one night while trying to astral prohect after weeks of trying I thought I was doing it-I felt a vibration like I was on a train, heard a loud whistling -then began to hear voices right by my head and heard someone say something like "is that her?" or "she is here" I freaked thinking that something was only waiting on the other side to try to scare if not harm me-since then I have not been as close)

This past janurary, around my birthday, I was doing research bout finding your spirit guide-when I came across this site. Joy of Satan. I initial reaction was "this is bad...this is evil...and if I continue I may endouver into something I can't get out of and wish to be dead and live in fear for the rest of my life" Yesterday while at work I thought about it again. I thought "I can at least read it...because if it does talk about killing, or anything I truly feel is wrong I can always just stop and know its wrong' so I went back to the site. Needless to change I was shocked and at the same time relieved it wasn't anything I THOUGHT it would be.

I do know the "christian" religion is just other religions put into one- I even knew about Horus which tells a very similar story as the one of 'Jesus' in the Bible-born from a virgin woman and such (and horus eye)

I've been reading so much in just two days...and while I'd very much like to continue-I still have some fear. Only in the sense of feeling 'tricked' If what I have read is true-then I do open it. I think what scares me is thinking that its absolutely okay-becomming a sanatist (which honestly I don't think I could let anyone know, even my family for fear of being outcasted and other things) I've always had an interest in 'witchcract' and when I was in high school began to endouver into that. I wasn't as afraid because I truly felt what the bible spoke about it was a lie-rituals happen its part of ANY religion-but I also was told and read in witchcraft there is no such thing as Satan only Gods and GOddesses-and I wouldn't do something to harm another person...that is until my step father found a poem I wrote, which initially was for a spell for a guy I was dateing at the time. In so many words it basically said that he would not find true love until he had been hurt just as much as he had hurt others (including me)....NOW....i live with him, and have a child with him and always felt it was the 'three fold' rule and I was being punished as well.

I did read that three fold, ten fold, etc are lies-but now I feel full of more questions and dont even know how to ask them.

I do feel people have power in them and no longer can tap into them due to the history and the way our world has progressed over time. At the same time I have met a few christians who have some really good lives-...so to speak. I have never met anyone who openly admitted to me to be a satanist...yet my brother last year did say he was studying about Sumerians and was believing in that-and when I read that on the site I felt even more compelled to learn more.


I am a capricorn...my 'chinese' astrology (with my birthdate) is a dragon..and my favorite colors are blue black and red....same as I have read about Satan form this time.

I am trying to rid my mind of what I've been taught and told for over 24 years now bout Satan being this red devlish looking thing (evil looking) but it is hard too. If you've read this far, please continue about a couple of dreams and feelings I've had...

One dream, my father told me about was when he was a kid, he saw a little man that said "he's comming" and in his dream my dad said he had a bad attitude. He mouthed off saying he didn't give a f...(bad word) but as soon as he said it, his room turned dark red, he had a VERY bad feeling come about it and was scared so bad he was paralyzed and couldn't move. I've had a similar dream of being paralyzed (just one) but nothing as detailed as my fathers. In mine, I was walking abck to my room and had a feeling to turn around like something was following me. When I did I felt paralyzed and feel on my back. I couldn't move and fought so hard to scream for help and thought if I didn't break free I was going to be harmed by this floating skull in front me with a glowing greenish blue light. (it was so long ago I honestly dont remember the exact color)

Now the dream I really want to talk about happened a few months back...in my dream I was at work, and the Pope walked in tho I didn't feel good at all-infact I felt bad like something bad was going to happen that he wasn't who he portrayed to be. (my initial thought was demon, or devil honestly...but at this time I am interpreting this as to something I THOUGHT was bad..before I came across this site) to make a long story short-the pope walked to another room with me and said "a storm is comming" when I looked out the window and saw nothing but bright clear blue skies and the sun rays I said no it isn't-then it was as if someone hit a fast forward button and I saw dark clouds roll in, heard thunder and saw lightening and rain. Then the He stripped down, as if taking off his human appaearance down to this large Red...what I described , demon looking monster. I was afraid...but at the same time I knew i had to fight to stop this thing. Candles came up with a circle and star and I grabbed a candle in thinking "He can't continue the ritual without all of them" but he got mad and gave me a look. I still fought not willing to give it back until he came around the table at me-I was sure he was prepared to hit me or do something if I didn't let it go. I did, and took of fin my dream running-calling my family to make sure my son was okay. In my dream I new i had to tell someone to let people know..but also felt if I did and opened my mouth he would come after me and destroy me to keep my mouth shut. In my dream I did anyways only to feel my family would think I was crazy-and they did- in my dream after tellingg them I was sent into a mental institution where I was wrapped up then awoke scared and freaked out.

MIND you i never watch nor follow the pope, I am NOT catholic (tho growing up I never told a catholic friend they were in the wrong or anything, merely that I could understand where or why they took their stances on some issues, but I didn't agree because it wasn't right for me) and that is the truth, no matter how differnt a person is from me or belives I never think they are wrong-i merely think it is right for them and jus not right for me.

Im so confused, i guess im looking for confort i want to know if i go through this, with a ritual or something im not going to be scared and freaked out and wishing regret or endouver in something that will harm my family or friends (or even myself) Im looking for answers, to help me better in life, to be more spiritial and find something that truly fits how I feel-but because of what I was taught and raised on to learn I feel in the back of my mind I will always have this slight fear of being wrong or tricked or decieved and not able to get out....please do not think of me as a bad person, i am not perfect by no means-and I wouldn't come here to make a post seeking answers if I didn't agree in some way with this site. I have no money so I can't go buy a book-and i have always been one to believe that science and religion go hand in hand- NOT against one another.

Why is it at one time in my life I thought or had a strong feeling I was 'saved' according to the christian religion and at the same time constantly feel like I do not know enough and wanting to be more spiritual with something i truly belive without the fear of being wrong...without tthe fear of harm....honestly I feel lost and no clue where to go now.

I wanted to so badly last night to do a satanic ritual, sign my name in blood...at the same time the only thing that poped into my head is seeing something that would scare me to the point of tears, and feeling of being followed by something unseen that would only tormet me.

Please Im here for answers, not criticism. Thank you



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[Ali1]

Yes last night I was meditating and heard a deep.voice and it scared me so bad I was pulled from meditation and couldn't go back.
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James Makela <amaracer113@... wrote:

You have nothing to be afraid of your in the right place. Satan loves and cares about every Gentile. You sound like you've read the site and you should keep studying the site. You should also read the "Satanic Sermons" located on the JoS if you haven't already done so. In your post you sound scared and paranoid about Satanism. You should deprogram
Yourself by reading exposingchristianity.com this site will help you learn the truth about xianity and how you've been lied too. Start meditating. Do any of the basic meditations on the JoS and you can do the dedication ritual whenever you feel ready. Welcome to the group!

Hail Satan!

Sent from my iPhone

On Feb 28, 2013, at 11:02 AM, "jali29@..." <jali29@... wrote:

First of all, I am NOT here to judgde or to say someone is wrong in any way. I was raised to be a christian-as I got older I still had a sense of believing in a God...tho I rarely believed in hardly anything the Bible had said. I found contradictions in it, I didn't like how people would say if you were a woman you could not preach-I didn't like how it was strickly a 'mans' world....I questioned it all the time. I had always said if there was anything true about it at all was that a person should not judge another for any reason. (race, religion, sex, etc.) To me, a God would not judge you either-he/she/it would not say "because you have a vignia you can not teach my word" or say "because you are gay you cannot be apart of me" (so to speak) but for many years I claimed to be a christian-simply because I did believe that there was a God.

A few years ago I began research for astral projection, chakras, meditation, scrying, etc.. But I always had a fear of comming to something 'bad' and half the time I would be scared and never proceeded further. (one night while trying to astral prohect after weeks of trying I thought I was doing it-I felt a vibration like I was on a train, heard a loud whistling -then began to hear voices right by my head and heard someone say something like "is that her?" or "she is here" I freaked thinking that something was only waiting on the other side to try to scare if not harm me-since then I have not been as close)

This past janurary, around my birthday, I was doing research bout finding your spirit guide-when I came across this site. Joy of Satan. I initial reaction was "this is bad...this is evil...and if I continue I may endouver into something I can't get out of and wish to be dead and live in fear for the rest of my life" Yesterday while at work I thought about it again. I thought "I can at least read it...because if it does talk about killing, or anything I truly feel is wrong I can always just stop and know its wrong' so I went back to the site. Needless to change I was shocked and at the same time relieved it wasn't anything I THOUGHT it would be.

I do know the "christian" religion is just other religions put into one- I even knew about Horus which tells a very similar story as the one of 'Jesus' in the Bible-born from a virgin woman and such (and horus eye)

I've been reading so much in just two days...and while I'd very much like to continue-I still have some fear. Only in the sense of feeling 'tricked' If what I have read is true-then I do open it. I think what scares me is thinking that its absolutely okay-becomming a sanatist (which honestly I don't think I could let anyone know, even my family for fear of being outcasted and other things) I've always had an interest in 'witchcract' and when I was in high school began to endouver into that. I wasn't as afraid because I truly felt what the bible spoke about it was a lie-rituals happen its part of ANY religion-but I also was told and read in witchcraft there is no such thing as Satan only Gods and GOddesses-and I wouldn't do something to harm another person...that is until my step father found a poem I wrote, which initially was for a spell for a guy I was dateing at the time. In so many words it basically said that he would not find true love until he had been hurt just as much as he had hurt others (including me)....NOW....i live with him, and have a child with him and always felt it was the 'three fold' rule and I was being punished as well.

I did read that three fold, ten fold, etc are lies-but now I feel full of more questions and dont even know how to ask them.

I do feel people have power in them and no longer can tap into them due to the history and the way our world has progressed over time. At the same time I have met a few christians who have some really good lives-...so to speak. I have never met anyone who openly admitted to me to be a satanist...yet my brother last year did say he was studying about Sumerians and was believing in that-and when I read that on the site I felt even more compelled to learn more.


I am a capricorn...my 'chinese' astrology (with my birthdate) is a dragon..and my favorite colors are blue black and red....same as I have read about Satan form this time.

I am trying to rid my mind of what I've been taught and told for over 24 years now bout Satan being this red devlish looking thing (evil looking) but it is hard too. If you've read this far, please continue about a couple of dreams and feelings I've had...

One dream, my father told me about was when he was a kid, he saw a little man that said "he's comming" and in his dream my dad said he had a bad attitude. He mouthed off saying he didn't give a f...(bad word) but as soon as he said it, his room turned dark red, he had a VERY bad feeling come about it and was scared so bad he was paralyzed and couldn't move. I've had a similar dream of being paralyzed (just one) but nothing as detailed as my fathers. In mine, I was walking abck to my room and had a feeling to turn around like something was following me. When I did I felt paralyzed and feel on my back. I couldn't move and fought so hard to scream for help and thought if I didn't break free I was going to be harmed by this floating skull in front me with a glowing greenish blue light. (it was so long ago I honestly dont remember the exact color)

Now the dream I really want to talk about happened a few months back...in my dream I was at work, and the Pope walked in tho I didn't feel good at all-infact I felt bad like something bad was going to happen that he wasn't who he portrayed to be. (my initial thought was demon, or devil honestly...but at this time I am interpreting this as to something I THOUGHT was bad..before I came across this site) to make a long story short-the pope walked to another room with me and said "a storm is comming" when I looked out the window and saw nothing but bright clear blue skies and the sun rays I said no it isn't-then it was as if someone hit a fast forward button and I saw dark clouds roll in, heard thunder and saw lightening and rain. Then the He stripped down, as if taking off his human appaearance down to this large Red...what I described , demon looking monster. I was afraid...but at the same time I knew i had to fight to stop this thing. Candles came up with a circle and star and I grabbed a candle in thinking "He can't continue the ritual without all of them" but he got mad and gave me a look. I still fought not willing to give it back until he came around the table at me-I was sure he was prepared to hit me or do something if I didn't let it go. I did, and took of fin my dream running-calling my family to make sure my son was okay. In my dream I new i had to tell someone to let people know..but also felt if I did and opened my mouth he would come after me and destroy me to keep my mouth shut. In my dream I did anyways only to feel my family would think I was crazy-and they did- in my dream after tellingg them I was sent into a mental institution where I was wrapped up then awoke scared and freaked out.

MIND you i never watch nor follow the pope, I am NOT catholic (tho growing up I never told a catholic friend they were in the wrong or anything, merely that I could understand where or why they took their stances on some issues, but I didn't agree because it wasn't right for me) and that is the truth, no matter how differnt a person is from me or belives I never think they are wrong-i merely think it is right for them and jus not right for me.

Im so confused, i guess im looking for confort i want to know if i go through this, with a ritual or something im not going to be scared and freaked out and wishing regret or endouver in something that will harm my family or friends (or even myself) Im looking for answers, to help me better in life, to be more spiritial and find something that truly fits how I feel-but because of what I was taught and raised on to learn I feel in the back of my mind I will always have this slight fear of being wrong or tricked or decieved and not able to get out....please do not think of me as a bad person, i am not perfect by no means-and I wouldn't come here to make a post seeking answers if I didn't agree in some way with this site. I have no money so I can't go buy a book-and i have always been one to believe that science and religion go hand in hand- NOT against one another.

Why is it at one time in my life I thought or had a strong feeling I was 'saved' according to the christian religion and at the same time constantly feel like I do not know enough and wanting to be more spiritual with something i truly belive without the fear of being wrong...without tthe fear of harm....honestly I feel lost and no clue where to go now.

I wanted to so badly last night to do a satanic ritual, sign my name in blood...at the same time the only thing that poped into my head is seeing something that would scare me to the point of tears, and feeling of being followed by something unseen that would only tormet me.

Please Im here for answers, not criticism. Thank you



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[[email protected]]

I'm trying to find out who KY demon is but am having trouble. I.read the jos sight but can't use a pendulum or Ouija board in private because of my family. And everyone I am a female lol

A few years ago (before learning of Satanism) I had a meditation of meeting a woman who was half cat like ...dunno if that would help but haven't had a food meditation since. Again because of living with family..(my son and his dad tho legally we are divorced but trying to go in military) much would be appreciated! HAIL SATAN!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], James Makela <amaracer113@... wrote:

You have nothing to be afraid of your in the right place. Satan loves and cares about every Gentile. You sound like you've read the site and you should keep studying the site. You should also read the "Satanic Sermons" located on the JoS if you haven't already done so. In your post you sound scared and paranoid about Satanism. You should deprogram
Yourself by reading exposingchristianity.com this site will help you learn the truth about xianity and how you've been lied too. Start meditating. Do any of the basic meditations on the JoS and you can do the dedication ritual whenever you feel ready. Welcome to the group!

Hail Satan!

Sent from my iPhone

On Feb 28, 2013, at 11:02 AM, "jali29@..." <jali29@... wrote:

First of all, I am NOT here to judgde or to say someone is wrong in any way. I was raised to be a christian-as I got older I still had a sense of believing in a God...tho I rarely believed in hardly anything the Bible had said. I found contradictions in it, I didn't like how people would say if you were a woman you could not preach-I didn't like how it was strickly a 'mans' world....I questioned it all the time. I had always said if there was anything true about it at all was that a person should not judge another for any reason. (race, religion, sex, etc.) To me, a God would not judge you either-he/she/it would not say "because you have a vignia you can not teach my word" or say "because you are gay you cannot be apart of me" (so to speak) but for many years I claimed to be a christian-simply because I did believe that there was a God.

A few years ago I began research for astral projection, chakras, meditation, scrying, etc.. But I always had a fear of comming to something 'bad' and half the time I would be scared and never proceeded further. (one night while trying to astral prohect after weeks of trying I thought I was doing it-I felt a vibration like I was on a train, heard a loud whistling -then began to hear voices right by my head and heard someone say something like "is that her?" or "she is here" I freaked thinking that something was only waiting on the other side to try to scare if not harm me-since then I have not been as close)

This past janurary, around my birthday, I was doing research bout finding your spirit guide-when I came across this site. Joy of Satan. I initial reaction was "this is bad...this is evil...and if I continue I may endouver into something I can't get out of and wish to be dead and live in fear for the rest of my life" Yesterday while at work I thought about it again. I thought "I can at least read it...because if it does talk about killing, or anything I truly feel is wrong I can always just stop and know its wrong' so I went back to the site. Needless to change I was shocked and at the same time relieved it wasn't anything I THOUGHT it would be.

I do know the "christian" religion is just other religions put into one- I even knew about Horus which tells a very similar story as the one of 'Jesus' in the Bible-born from a virgin woman and such (and horus eye)

I've been reading so much in just two days...and while I'd very much like to continue-I still have some fear. Only in the sense of feeling 'tricked' If what I have read is true-then I do open it. I think what scares me is thinking that its absolutely okay-becomming a sanatist (which honestly I don't think I could let anyone know, even my family for fear of being outcasted and other things) I've always had an interest in 'witchcract' and when I was in high school began to endouver into that. I wasn't as afraid because I truly felt what the bible spoke about it was a lie-rituals happen its part of ANY religion-but I also was told and read in witchcraft there is no such thing as Satan only Gods and GOddesses-and I wouldn't do something to harm another person...that is until my step father found a poem I wrote, which initially was for a spell for a guy I was dateing at the time. In so many words it basically said that he would not find true love until he had been hurt just as much as he had hurt others (including me)....NOW....i live with him, and have a child with him and always felt it was the 'three fold' rule and I was being punished as well.

I did read that three fold, ten fold, etc are lies-but now I feel full of more questions and dont even know how to ask them.

I do feel people have power in them and no longer can tap into them due to the history and the way our world has progressed over time. At the same time I have met a few christians who have some really good lives-...so to speak. I have never met anyone who openly admitted to me to be a satanist...yet my brother last year did say he was studying about Sumerians and was believing in that-and when I read that on the site I felt even more compelled to learn more.


I am a capricorn...my 'chinese' astrology (with my birthdate) is a dragon..and my favorite colors are blue black and red....same as I have read about Satan form this time.

I am trying to rid my mind of what I've been taught and told for over 24 years now bout Satan being this red devlish looking thing (evil looking) but it is hard too. If you've read this far, please continue about a couple of dreams and feelings I've had...

One dream, my father told me about was when he was a kid, he saw a little man that said "he's comming" and in his dream my dad said he had a bad attitude. He mouthed off saying he didn't give a f...(bad word) but as soon as he said it, his room turned dark red, he had a VERY bad feeling come about it and was scared so bad he was paralyzed and couldn't move. I've had a similar dream of being paralyzed (just one) but nothing as detailed as my fathers. In mine, I was walking abck to my room and had a feeling to turn around like something was following me. When I did I felt paralyzed and feel on my back. I couldn't move and fought so hard to scream for help and thought if I didn't break free I was going to be harmed by this floating skull in front me with a glowing greenish blue light. (it was so long ago I honestly dont remember the exact color)

Now the dream I really want to talk about happened a few months back...in my dream I was at work, and the Pope walked in tho I didn't feel good at all-infact I felt bad like something bad was going to happen that he wasn't who he portrayed to be. (my initial thought was demon, or devil honestly...but at this time I am interpreting this as to something I THOUGHT was bad..before I came across this site) to make a long story short-the pope walked to another room with me and said "a storm is comming" when I looked out the window and saw nothing but bright clear blue skies and the sun rays I said no it isn't-then it was as if someone hit a fast forward button and I saw dark clouds roll in, heard thunder and saw lightening and rain. Then the He stripped down, as if taking off his human appaearance down to this large Red...what I described , demon looking monster. I was afraid...but at the same time I knew i had to fight to stop this thing. Candles came up with a circle and star and I grabbed a candle in thinking "He can't continue the ritual without all of them" but he got mad and gave me a look. I still fought not willing to give it back until he came around the table at me-I was sure he was prepared to hit me or do something if I didn't let it go. I did, and took of fin my dream running-calling my family to make sure my son was okay. In my dream I new i had to tell someone to let people know..but also felt if I did and opened my mouth he would come after me and destroy me to keep my mouth shut. In my dream I did anyways only to feel my family would think I was crazy-and they did- in my dream after tellingg them I was sent into a mental institution where I was wrapped up then awoke scared and freaked out.

MIND you i never watch nor follow the pope, I am NOT catholic (tho growing up I never told a catholic friend they were in the wrong or anything, merely that I could understand where or why they took their stances on some issues, but I didn't agree because it wasn't right for me) and that is the truth, no matter how differnt a person is from me or belives I never think they are wrong-i merely think it is right for them and jus not right for me.

Im so confused, i guess im looking for confort i want to know if i go through this, with a ritual or something im not going to be scared and freaked out and wishing regret or endouver in something that will harm my family or friends (or even myself) Im looking for answers, to help me better in life, to be more spiritial and find something that truly fits how I feel-but because of what I was taught and raised on to learn I feel in the back of my mind I will always have this slight fear of being wrong or tricked or decieved and not able to get out....please do not think of me as a bad person, i am not perfect by no means-and I wouldn't come here to make a post seeking answers if I didn't agree in some way with this site. I have no money so I can't go buy a book-and i have always been one to believe that science and religion go hand in hand- NOT against one another.

Why is it at one time in my life I thought or had a strong feeling I was 'saved' according to the christian religion and at the same time constantly feel like I do not know enough and wanting to be more spiritual with something i truly belive without the fear of being wrong...without tthe fear of harm....honestly I feel lost and no clue where to go now.

I wanted to so badly last night to do a satanic ritual, sign my name in blood...at the same time the only thing that poped into my head is seeing something that would scare me to the point of tears, and feeling of being followed by something unseen that would only tormet me.

Please Im here for answers, not criticism. Thank you



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[James Makela]

It's probably an angel trying to scare you away from Satanism. You can do a Banishing ritual to get rid of any negative energy and/or entities from your living area. But idk if it will work because you aren't a dedicated SS.

Hail Satan!

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On Mar 4, 2013, at 10:06 AM, Ali <jali29@... wrote:

Yes last night I was meditating and heard a deep.voice and it scared me so bad I was pulled from meditation and couldn't go back.
Sent from Samsung Mobile

James Makela <amaracer113@... wrote:

You have nothing to be afraid of your in the right place. Satan loves and cares about every Gentile. You sound like you've read the site and you should keep studying the site. You should also read the "Satanic Sermons" located on the JoS if you haven't already done so. In your post you sound scared and paranoid about Satanism. You should deprogram
Yourself by reading exposingchristianity.com this site will help you learn the truth about xianity and how you've been lied too. Start meditating. Do any of the basic meditations on the JoS and you can do the dedication ritual whenever you feel ready. Welcome to the group!

Hail Satan!

Sent from my iPhone

On Feb 28, 2013, at 11:02 AM, "jali29@..." <jali29@... wrote:

First of all, I am NOT here to judgde or to say someone is wrong in any way. I was raised to be a christian-as I got older I still had a sense of believing in a God...tho I rarely believed in hardly anything the Bible had said. I found contradictions in it, I didn't like how people would say if you were a woman you could not preach-I didn't like how it was strickly a 'mans' world....I questioned it all the time. I had always said if there was anything true about it at all was that a person should not judge another for any reason. (race, religion, sex, etc.) To me, a God would not judge you either-he/she/it would not say "because you have a vignia you can not teach my word" or say "because you are gay you cannot be apart of me" (so to speak) but for many years I claimed to be a christian-simply because I did believe that there was a God.

A few years ago I began research for astral projection, chakras, meditation, scrying, etc.. But I always had a fear of comming to something 'bad' and half the time I would be scared and never proceeded further. (one night while trying to astral prohect after weeks of trying I thought I was doing it-I felt a vibration like I was on a train, heard a loud whistling -then began to hear voices right by my head and heard someone say something like "is that her?" or "she is here" I freaked thinking that something was only waiting on the other side to try to scare if not harm me-since then I have not been as close)

This past janurary, around my birthday, I was doing research bout finding your spirit guide-when I came across this site. Joy of Satan. I initial reaction was "this is bad...this is evil...and if I continue I may endouver into something I can't get out of and wish to be dead and live in fear for the rest of my life" Yesterday while at work I thought about it again. I thought "I can at least read it...because if it does talk about killing, or anything I truly feel is wrong I can always just stop and know its wrong' so I went back to the site. Needless to change I was shocked and at the same time relieved it wasn't anything I THOUGHT it would be.

I do know the "christian" religion is just other religions put into one- I even knew about Horus which tells a very similar story as the one of 'Jesus' in the Bible-born from a virgin woman and such (and horus eye)

I've been reading so much in just two days...and while I'd very much like to continue-I still have some fear. Only in the sense of feeling 'tricked' If what I have read is true-then I do open it. I think what scares me is thinking that its absolutely okay-becomming a sanatist (which honestly I don't think I could let anyone know, even my family for fear of being outcasted and other things) I've always had an interest in 'witchcract' and when I was in high school began to endouver into that. I wasn't as afraid because I truly felt what the bible spoke about it was a lie-rituals happen its part of ANY religion-but I also was told and read in witchcraft there is no such thing as Satan only Gods and GOddesses-and I wouldn't do something to harm another person...that is until my step father found a poem I wrote, which initially was for a spell for a guy I was dateing at the time. In so many words it basically said that he would not find true love until he had been hurt just as much as he had hurt others (including me)....NOW....i live with him, and have a child with him and always felt it was the 'three fold' rule and I was being punished as well.

I did read that three fold, ten fold, etc are lies-but now I feel full of more questions and dont even know how to ask them.

I do feel people have power in them and no longer can tap into them due to the history and the way our world has progressed over time. At the same time I have met a few christians who have some really good lives-...so to speak. I have never met anyone who openly admitted to me to be a satanist...yet my brother last year did say he was studying about Sumerians and was believing in that-and when I read that on the site I felt even more compelled to learn more.


I am a capricorn...my 'chinese' astrology (with my birthdate) is a dragon..and my favorite colors are blue black and red....same as I have read about Satan form this time.

I am trying to rid my mind of what I've been taught and told for over 24 years now bout Satan being this red devlish looking thing (evil looking) but it is hard too. If you've read this far, please continue about a couple of dreams and feelings I've had...

One dream, my father told me about was when he was a kid, he saw a little man that said "he's comming" and in his dream my dad said he had a bad attitude. He mouthed off saying he didn't give a f...(bad word) but as soon as he said it, his room turned dark red, he had a VERY bad feeling come about it and was scared so bad he was paralyzed and couldn't move. I've had a similar dream of being paralyzed (just one) but nothing as detailed as my fathers. In mine, I was walking abck to my room and had a feeling to turn around like something was following me. When I did I felt paralyzed and feel on my back. I couldn't move and fought so hard to scream for help and thought if I didn't break free I was going to be harmed by this floating skull in front me with a glowing greenish blue light. (it was so long ago I honestly dont remember the exact color)

Now the dream I really want to talk about happened a few months back...in my dream I was at work, and the Pope walked in tho I didn't feel good at all-infact I felt bad like something bad was going to happen that he wasn't who he portrayed to be. (my initial thought was demon, or devil honestly...but at this time I am interpreting this as to something I THOUGHT was bad..before I came across this site) to make a long story short-the pope walked to another room with me and said "a storm is comming" when I looked out the window and saw nothing but bright clear blue skies and the sun rays I said no it isn't-then it was as if someone hit a fast forward button and I saw dark clouds roll in, heard thunder and saw lightening and rain. Then the He stripped down, as if taking off his human appaearance down to this large Red...what I described , demon looking monster. I was afraid...but at the same time I knew i had to fight to stop this thing. Candles came up with a circle and star and I grabbed a candle in thinking "He can't continue the ritual without all of them" but he got mad and gave me a look. I still fought not willing to give it back until he came around the table at me-I was sure he was prepared to hit me or do something if I didn't let it go. I did, and took of fin my dream running-calling my family to make sure my son was okay. In my dream I new i had to tell someone to let people know..but also felt if I did and opened my mouth he would come after me and destroy me to keep my mouth shut. In my dream I did anyways only to feel my family would think I was crazy-and they did- in my dream after tellingg them I was sent into a mental institution where I was wrapped up then awoke scared and freaked out.

MIND you i never watch nor follow the pope, I am NOT catholic (tho growing up I never told a catholic friend they were in the wrong or anything, merely that I could understand where or why they took their stances on some issues, but I didn't agree because it wasn't right for me) and that is the truth, no matter how differnt a person is from me or belives I never think they are wrong-i merely think it is right for them and jus not right for me.

Im so confused, i guess im looking for confort i want to know if i go through this, with a ritual or something im not going to be scared and freaked out and wishing regret or endouver in something that will harm my family or friends (or even myself) Im looking for answers, to help me better in life, to be more spiritial and find something that truly fits how I feel-but because of what I was taught and raised on to learn I feel in the back of my mind I will always have this slight fear of being wrong or tricked or decieved and not able to get out....please do not think of me as a bad person, i am not perfect by no means-and I wouldn't come here to make a post seeking answers if I didn't agree in some way with this site. I have no money so I can't go buy a book-and i have always been one to believe that science and religion go hand in hand- NOT against one another.

Why is it at one time in my life I thought or had a strong feeling I was 'saved' according to the christian religion and at the same time constantly feel like I do not know enough and wanting to be more spiritual with something i truly belive without the fear of being wrong...without tthe fear of harm....honestly I feel lost and no clue where to go now.

I wanted to so badly last night to do a satanic ritual, sign my name in blood...at the same time the only thing that poped into my head is seeing something that would scare me to the point of tears, and feeling of being followed by something unseen that would only tormet me.

Please Im here for answers, not criticism. Thank you



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[Ali1]

Yea I've dedicated myself on Friday! Didn't get much blood out but I've done it already. The deep voice happened only a few days ago!
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James Makela <amaracer113@... wrote:

It's probably an angel trying to scare you away from Satanism. You can do a Banishing ritual to get rid of any negative energy and/or entities from your living area. But idk if it will work because you aren't a dedicated SS.

Hail Satan!

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On Mar 4, 2013, at 10:06 AM, Ali <jali29@... wrote:

Yes last night I was meditating and heard a deep.voice and it scared me so bad I was pulled from meditation and couldn't go back.
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James Makela <amaracer113@... wrote:

You have nothing to be afraid of your in the right place. Satan loves and cares about every Gentile. You sound like you've read the site and you should keep studying the site. You should also read the "Satanic Sermons" located on the JoS if you haven't already done so. In your post you sound scared and paranoid about Satanism. You should deprogram
Yourself by reading exposingchristianity.com this site will help you learn the truth about xianity and how you've been lied too. Start meditating. Do any of the basic meditations on the JoS and you can do the dedication ritual whenever you feel ready. Welcome to the group!

Hail Satan!

Sent from my iPhone

On Feb 28, 2013, at 11:02 AM, "jali29@..." <jali29@... wrote:

First of all, I am NOT here to judgde or to say someone is wrong in any way. I was raised to be a christian-as I got older I still had a sense of believing in a God...tho I rarely believed in hardly anything the Bible had said. I found contradictions in it, I didn't like how people would say if you were a woman you could not preach-I didn't like how it was strickly a 'mans' world....I questioned it all the time. I had always said if there was anything true about it at all was that a person should not judge another for any reason. (race, religion, sex, etc.) To me, a God would not judge you either-he/she/it would not say "because you have a vignia you can not teach my word" or say "because you are gay you cannot be apart of me" (so to speak) but for many years I claimed to be a christian-simply because I did believe that there was a God.

A few years ago I began research for astral projection, chakras, meditation, scrying, etc.. But I always had a fear of comming to something 'bad' and half the time I would be scared and never proceeded further. (one night while trying to astral prohect after weeks of trying I thought I was doing it-I felt a vibration like I was on a train, heard a loud whistling -then began to hear voices right by my head and heard someone say something like "is that her?" or "she is here" I freaked thinking that something was only waiting on the other side to try to scare if not harm me-since then I have not been as close)

This past janurary, around my birthday, I was doing research bout finding your spirit guide-when I came across this site. Joy of Satan. I initial reaction was "this is bad...this is evil...and if I continue I may endouver into something I can't get out of and wish to be dead and live in fear for the rest of my life" Yesterday while at work I thought about it again. I thought "I can at least read it...because if it does talk about killing, or anything I truly feel is wrong I can always just stop and know its wrong' so I went back to the site. Needless to change I was shocked and at the same time relieved it wasn't anything I THOUGHT it would be.

I do know the "christian" religion is just other religions put into one- I even knew about Horus which tells a very similar story as the one of 'Jesus' in the Bible-born from a virgin woman and such (and horus eye)

I've been reading so much in just two days...and while I'd very much like to continue-I still have some fear. Only in the sense of feeling 'tricked' If what I have read is true-then I do open it. I think what scares me is thinking that its absolutely okay-becomming a sanatist (which honestly I don't think I could let anyone know, even my family for fear of being outcasted and other things) I've always had an interest in 'witchcract' and when I was in high school began to endouver into that. I wasn't as afraid because I truly felt what the bible spoke about it was a lie-rituals happen its part of ANY religion-but I also was told and read in witchcraft there is no such thing as Satan only Gods and GOddesses-and I wouldn't do something to harm another person...that is until my step father found a poem I wrote, which initially was for a spell for a guy I was dateing at the time. In so many words it basically said that he would not find true love until he had been hurt just as much as he had hurt others (including me)....NOW....i live with him, and have a child with him and always felt it was the 'three fold' rule and I was being punished as well.

I did read that three fold, ten fold, etc are lies-but now I feel full of more questions and dont even know how to ask them.

I do feel people have power in them and no longer can tap into them due to the history and the way our world has progressed over time. At the same time I have met a few christians who have some really good lives-...so to speak. I have never met anyone who openly admitted to me to be a satanist...yet my brother last year did say he was studying about Sumerians and was believing in that-and when I read that on the site I felt even more compelled to learn more.


I am a capricorn...my 'chinese' astrology (with my birthdate) is a dragon..and my favorite colors are blue black and red....same as I have read about Satan form this time.

I am trying to rid my mind of what I've been taught and told for over 24 years now bout Satan being this red devlish looking thing (evil looking) but it is hard too. If you've read this far, please continue about a couple of dreams and feelings I've had...

One dream, my father told me about was when he was a kid, he saw a little man that said "he's comming" and in his dream my dad said he had a bad attitude. He mouthed off saying he didn't give a f...(bad word) but as soon as he said it, his room turned dark red, he had a VERY bad feeling come about it and was scared so bad he was paralyzed and couldn't move. I've had a similar dream of being paralyzed (just one) but nothing as detailed as my fathers. In mine, I was walking abck to my room and had a feeling to turn around like something was following me. When I did I felt paralyzed and feel on my back. I couldn't move and fought so hard to scream for help and thought if I didn't break free I was going to be harmed by this floating skull in front me with a glowing greenish blue light. (it was so long ago I honestly dont remember the exact color)

Now the dream I really want to talk about happened a few months back...in my dream I was at work, and the Pope walked in tho I didn't feel good at all-infact I felt bad like something bad was going to happen that he wasn't who he portrayed to be. (my initial thought was demon, or devil honestly...but at this time I am interpreting this as to something I THOUGHT was bad..before I came across this site) to make a long story short-the pope walked to another room with me and said "a storm is comming" when I looked out the window and saw nothing but bright clear blue skies and the sun rays I said no it isn't-then it was as if someone hit a fast forward button and I saw dark clouds roll in, heard thunder and saw lightening and rain. Then the He stripped down, as if taking off his human appaearance down to this large Red...what I described , demon looking monster. I was afraid...but at the same time I knew i had to fight to stop this thing. Candles came up with a circle and star and I grabbed a candle in thinking "He can't continue the ritual without all of them" but he got mad and gave me a look. I still fought not willing to give it back until he came around the table at me-I was sure he was prepared to hit me or do something if I didn't let it go. I did, and took of fin my dream running-calling my family to make sure my son was okay. In my dream I new i had to tell someone to let people know..but also felt if I did and opened my mouth he would come after me and destroy me to keep my mouth shut. In my dream I did anyways only to feel my family would think I was crazy-and they did- in my dream after tellingg them I was sent into a mental institution where I was wrapped up then awoke scared and freaked out.

MIND you i never watch nor follow the pope, I am NOT catholic (tho growing up I never told a catholic friend they were in the wrong or anything, merely that I could understand where or why they took their stances on some issues, but I didn't agree because it wasn't right for me) and that is the truth, no matter how differnt a person is from me or belives I never think they are wrong-i merely think it is right for them and jus not right for me.

Im so confused, i guess im looking for confort i want to know if i go through this, with a ritual or something im not going to be scared and freaked out and wishing regret or endouver in something that will harm my family or friends (or even myself) Im looking for answers, to help me better in life, to be more spiritial and find something that truly fits how I feel-but because of what I was taught and raised on to learn I feel in the back of my mind I will always have this slight fear of being wrong or tricked or decieved and not able to get out....please do not think of me as a bad person, i am not perfect by no means-and I wouldn't come here to make a post seeking answers if I didn't agree in some way with this site. I have no money so I can't go buy a book-and i have always been one to believe that science and religion go hand in hand- NOT against one another.

Why is it at one time in my life I thought or had a strong feeling I was 'saved' according to the christian religion and at the same time constantly feel like I do not know enough and wanting to be more spiritual with something i truly belive without the fear of being wrong...without tthe fear of harm....honestly I feel lost and no clue where to go now.

I wanted to so badly last night to do a satanic ritual, sign my name in blood...at the same time the only thing that poped into my head is seeing something that would scare me to the point of tears, and feeling of being followed by something unseen that would only tormet me.

Please Im here for answers, not criticism. Thank you



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[James Makela]

My mistake. Do a Banishing ritual. Also clean your aura and chakras and do an aura of protection daily. Welcome to the family! Congrats on your dedication

Hail Satan

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On Mar 5, 2013, at 12:24 PM, Ali <jali29@... wrote:

Yea I've dedicated myself on Friday! Didn't get much blood out but I've done it already. The deep voice happened only a few days ago!
Sent from Samsung Mobile

James Makela <amaracer113@... wrote:

It's probably an angel trying to scare you away from Satanism. You can do a Banishing ritual to get rid of any negative energy and/or entities from your living area. But idk if it will work because you aren't a dedicated SS.

Hail Satan!

Sent from my iPhone

On Mar 4, 2013, at 10:06 AM, Ali <jali29@... wrote:

Yes last night I was meditating and heard a deep.voice and it scared me so bad I was pulled from meditation and couldn't go back.
Sent from Samsung Mobile

James Makela <amaracer113@... wrote:

You have nothing to be afraid of your in the right place. Satan loves and cares about every Gentile. You sound like you've read the site and you should keep studying the site. You should also read the "Satanic Sermons" located on the JoS if you haven't already done so. In your post you sound scared and paranoid about Satanism. You should deprogram
Yourself by reading exposingchristianity.com this site will help you learn the truth about xianity and how you've been lied too. Start meditating. Do any of the basic meditations on the JoS and you can do the dedication ritual whenever you feel ready. Welcome to the group!

Hail Satan!

Sent from my iPhone

On Feb 28, 2013, at 11:02 AM, "jali29@..." <jali29@... wrote:

First of all, I am NOT here to judgde or to say someone is wrong in any way. I was raised to be a christian-as I got older I still had a sense of believing in a God...tho I rarely believed in hardly anything the Bible had said. I found contradictions in it, I didn't like how people would say if you were a woman you could not preach-I didn't like how it was strickly a 'mans' world....I questioned it all the time. I had always said if there was anything true about it at all was that a person should not judge another for any reason. (race, religion, sex, etc.) To me, a God would not judge you either-he/she/it would not say "because you have a vignia you can not teach my word" or say "because you are gay you cannot be apart of me" (so to speak) but for many years I claimed to be a christian-simply because I did believe that there was a God.

A few years ago I began research for astral projection, chakras, meditation, scrying, etc.. But I always had a fear of comming to something 'bad' and half the time I would be scared and never proceeded further. (one night while trying to astral prohect after weeks of trying I thought I was doing it-I felt a vibration like I was on a train, heard a loud whistling -then began to hear voices right by my head and heard someone say something like "is that her?" or "she is here" I freaked thinking that something was only waiting on the other side to try to scare if not harm me-since then I have not been as close)

This past janurary, around my birthday, I was doing research bout finding your spirit guide-when I came across this site. Joy of Satan. I initial reaction was "this is bad...this is evil...and if I continue I may endouver into something I can't get out of and wish to be dead and live in fear for the rest of my life" Yesterday while at work I thought about it again. I thought "I can at least read it...because if it does talk about killing, or anything I truly feel is wrong I can always just stop and know its wrong' so I went back to the site. Needless to change I was shocked and at the same time relieved it wasn't anything I THOUGHT it would be.

I do know the "christian" religion is just other religions put into one- I even knew about Horus which tells a very similar story as the one of 'Jesus' in the Bible-born from a virgin woman and such (and horus eye)

I've been reading so much in just two days...and while I'd very much like to continue-I still have some fear. Only in the sense of feeling 'tricked' If what I have read is true-then I do open it. I think what scares me is thinking that its absolutely okay-becomming a sanatist (which honestly I don't think I could let anyone know, even my family for fear of being outcasted and other things) I've always had an interest in 'witchcract' and when I was in high school began to endouver into that. I wasn't as afraid because I truly felt what the bible spoke about it was a lie-rituals happen its part of ANY religion-but I also was told and read in witchcraft there is no such thing as Satan only Gods and GOddesses-and I wouldn't do something to harm another person...that is until my step father found a poem I wrote, which initially was for a spell for a guy I was dateing at the time. In so many words it basically said that he would not find true love until he had been hurt just as much as he had hurt others (including me)....NOW....i live with him, and have a child with him and always felt it was the 'three fold' rule and I was being punished as well.

I did read that three fold, ten fold, etc are lies-but now I feel full of more questions and dont even know how to ask them.

I do feel people have power in them and no longer can tap into them due to the history and the way our world has progressed over time. At the same time I have met a few christians who have some really good lives-...so to speak. I have never met anyone who openly admitted to me to be a satanist...yet my brother last year did say he was studying about Sumerians and was believing in that-and when I read that on the site I felt even more compelled to learn more.


I am a capricorn...my 'chinese' astrology (with my birthdate) is a dragon..and my favorite colors are blue black and red....same as I have read about Satan form this time.

I am trying to rid my mind of what I've been taught and told for over 24 years now bout Satan being this red devlish looking thing (evil looking) but it is hard too. If you've read this far, please continue about a couple of dreams and feelings I've had...

One dream, my father told me about was when he was a kid, he saw a little man that said "he's comming" and in his dream my dad said he had a bad attitude. He mouthed off saying he didn't give a f...(bad word) but as soon as he said it, his room turned dark red, he had a VERY bad feeling come about it and was scared so bad he was paralyzed and couldn't move. I've had a similar dream of being paralyzed (just one) but nothing as detailed as my fathers. In mine, I was walking abck to my room and had a feeling to turn around like something was following me. When I did I felt paralyzed and feel on my back. I couldn't move and fought so hard to scream for help and thought if I didn't break free I was going to be harmed by this floating skull in front me with a glowing greenish blue light. (it was so long ago I honestly dont remember the exact color)

Now the dream I really want to talk about happened a few months back...in my dream I was at work, and the Pope walked in tho I didn't feel good at all-infact I felt bad like something bad was going to happen that he wasn't who he portrayed to be. (my initial thought was demon, or devil honestly...but at this time I am interpreting this as to something I THOUGHT was bad..before I came across this site) to make a long story short-the pope walked to another room with me and said "a storm is comming" when I looked out the window and saw nothing but bright clear blue skies and the sun rays I said no it isn't-then it was as if someone hit a fast forward button and I saw dark clouds roll in, heard thunder and saw lightening and rain. Then the He stripped down, as if taking off his human appaearance down to this large Red...what I described , demon looking monster. I was afraid...but at the same time I knew i had to fight to stop this thing. Candles came up with a circle and star and I grabbed a candle in thinking "He can't continue the ritual without all of them" but he got mad and gave me a look. I still fought not willing to give it back until he came around the table at me-I was sure he was prepared to hit me or do something if I didn't let it go. I did, and took of fin my dream running-calling my family to make sure my son was okay. In my dream I new i had to tell someone to let people know..but also felt if I did and opened my mouth he would come after me and destroy me to keep my mouth shut. In my dream I did anyways only to feel my family would think I was crazy-and they did- in my dream after tellingg them I was sent into a mental institution where I was wrapped up then awoke scared and freaked out.

MIND you i never watch nor follow the pope, I am NOT catholic (tho growing up I never told a catholic friend they were in the wrong or anything, merely that I could understand where or why they took their stances on some issues, but I didn't agree because it wasn't right for me) and that is the truth, no matter how differnt a person is from me or belives I never think they are wrong-i merely think it is right for them and jus not right for me.

Im so confused, i guess im looking for confort i want to know if i go through this, with a ritual or something im not going to be scared and freaked out and wishing regret or endouver in something that will harm my family or friends (or even myself) Im looking for answers, to help me better in life, to be more spiritial and find something that truly fits how I feel-but because of what I was taught and raised on to learn I feel in the back of my mind I will always have this slight fear of being wrong or tricked or decieved and not able to get out....please do not think of me as a bad person, i am not perfect by no means-and I wouldn't come here to make a post seeking answers if I didn't agree in some way with this site. I have no money so I can't go buy a book-and i have always been one to believe that science and religion go hand in hand- NOT against one another.

Why is it at one time in my life I thought or had a strong feeling I was 'saved' according to the christian religion and at the same time constantly feel like I do not know enough and wanting to be more spiritual with something i truly belive without the fear of being wrong...without tthe fear of harm....honestly I feel lost and no clue where to go now.

I wanted to so badly last night to do a satanic ritual, sign my name in blood...at the same time the only thing that poped into my head is seeing something that would scare me to the point of tears, and feeling of being followed by something unseen that would only tormet me.

Please Im here for answers, not criticism. Thank you



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[Igor Bedzor]

I understand you. But you must do a leap of faith. Hell, before I joined Satanism I didn't know myself, was always " lost" and had many traumas from my youth - that includes even FEAR OF THE DARK. Can you believe how hard it was for me -  A christian raised person that always had been programmed into believing the Devil was a monster , plus I was scared of the dark.
Today ? I have no more fears... I sleep and meditate with my room in complete darkness. I still have some visions if things that terrified me from my youth. All this is part of the healing of the soul trough meditation. I am a fearless , smarter and open-minded person than ever. Satan truly gave us the gift of meditation. I would never come to what I am today if it wasn't for meditation. And this is just the tip of the iceberg, for I am very new.
Satanism is a religion where NO FEARS ARE ALLOWED. If you are fearful you will fail - The courage and will to join something like Satanism is the first step. And to continue you must have much much more will and determination. Do not fear anything, and there will be no reasons to have fear. Satan guide us and shows us the truth.
Ave Satanas

On Tue, Mar 5, 2013 at 9:24 PM, Ali <jali29@... wrote:

  Yea I've dedicated myself on Friday! Didn't get much blood out but I've done it already. The deep voice happened only a few days ago!
Sent from Samsung Mobile

James Makela amaracer113@... wrote:

It's probably an angel trying to scare you away from Satanism. You can do a Banishing ritual to get rid of any negative energy and/or entities from your living area. But idk if it will work because you aren't a dedicated SS.

Hail Satan!

Sent from my iPhone

On Mar 4, 2013, at 10:06 AM, Ali jali29@... wrote:

Yes last night I was meditating and heard a deep.voice and it scared me so bad I was pulled from meditation and couldn't go back.
Sent from Samsung Mobile

James Makela amaracer113@... wrote:

You have nothing to be afraid of your in the right place. Satan loves and cares about every Gentile. You sound like you've read the site and you should keep studying the site. You should also read the "Satanic Sermons" located on the JoS if you haven't already done so. In your post you sound scared and paranoid about Satanism. You should deprogram
Yourself by reading exposingchristianity.com this site will help you learn the truth about xianity and how you've been lied too. Start meditating. Do any of the basic meditations on the JoS and you can do the dedication ritual whenever you feel ready. Welcome to the group!

Hail Satan!

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On Feb 28, 2013, at 11:02 AM, "jali29@..." jali29@... wrote:

First of all, I am NOT here to judgde or to say someone is wrong in any way. I was raised to be a christian-as I got older I still had a sense of believing in a God...tho I rarely believed in hardly anything the Bible had said. I found contradictions in it, I didn't like how people would say if you were a woman you could not preach-I didn't like how it was strickly a 'mans' world....I questioned it all the time. I had always said if there was anything true about it at all was that a person should not judge another for any reason. (race, religion, sex, etc.) To me, a God would not judge you either-he/she/it would not say "because you have a vignia you can not teach my word" or say "because you are gay you cannot be apart of me" (so to speak) but for many years I claimed to be a christian-simply because I did believe that there was a God.

A few years ago I began research for astral projection, chakras, meditation, scrying, etc.. But I always had a fear of comming to something 'bad' and half the time I would be scared and never proceeded further. (one night while trying to astral prohect after weeks of trying I thought I was doing it-I felt a vibration like I was on a train, heard a loud whistling -then began to hear voices right by my head and heard someone say something like "is that her?" or "she is here" I freaked thinking that something was only waiting on the other side to try to scare if not harm me-since then I have not been as close)

This past janurary, around my birthday, I was doing research bout finding your spirit guide-when I came across this site. Joy of Satan. I initial reaction was "this is bad...this is evil...and if I continue I may endouver into something I can't get out of and wish to be dead and live in fear for the rest of my life" Yesterday while at work I thought about it again. I thought "I can at least read it...because if it does talk about killing, or anything I truly feel is wrong I can always just stop and know its wrong' so I went back to the site. Needless to change I was shocked and at the same time relieved it wasn't anything I THOUGHT it would be.

I do know the "christian" religion is just other religions put into one- I even knew about Horus which tells a very similar story as the one of 'Jesus' in the Bible-born from a virgin woman and such (and horus eye)

I've been reading so much in just two days...and while I'd very much like to continue-I still have some fear. Only in the sense of feeling 'tricked' If what I have read is true-then I do open it. I think what scares me is thinking that its absolutely okay-becomming a sanatist (which honestly I don't think I could let anyone know, even my family for fear of being outcasted and other things) I've always had an interest in 'witchcract' and when I was in high school began to endouver into that. I wasn't as afraid because I truly felt what the bible spoke about it was a lie-rituals happen its part of ANY religion-but I also was told and read in witchcraft there is no such thing as Satan only Gods and GOddesses-and I wouldn't do something to harm another person...that is until my step father found a poem I wrote, which initially was for a spell for a guy I was dateing at the time. In so many words it basically said that he would not find true love until he had been hurt just as much as he had hurt others (including me)....NOW....i live with him, and have a child with him and always felt it was the 'three fold' rule and I was being punished as well.

I did read that three fold, ten fold, etc are lies-but now I feel full of more questions and dont even know how to ask them.

I do feel people have power in them and no longer can tap into them due to the history and the way our world has progressed over time. At the same time I have met a few christians who have some really good lives-...so to speak. I have never met anyone who openly admitted to me to be a satanist...yet my brother last year did say he was studying about Sumerians and was believing in that-and when I read that on the site I felt even more compelled to learn more.


I am a capricorn...my 'chinese' astrology (with my birthdate) is a dragon..and my favorite colors are blue black and red....same as I have read about Satan form this time.

I am trying to rid my mind of what I've been taught and told for over 24 years now bout Satan being this red devlish looking thing (evil looking) but it is hard too. If you've read this far, please continue about a couple of dreams and feelings I've had...

One dream, my father told me about was when he was a kid, he saw a little man that said "he's comming" and in his dream my dad said he had a bad attitude. He mouthed off saying he didn't give a f...(bad word) but as soon as he said it, his room turned dark red, he had a VERY bad feeling come about it and was scared so bad he was paralyzed and couldn't move. I've had a similar dream of being paralyzed (just one) but nothing as detailed as my fathers. In mine, I was walking abck to my room and had a feeling to turn around like something was following me. When I did I felt paralyzed and feel on my back. I couldn't move and fought so hard to scream for help and thought if I didn't break free I was going to be harmed by this floating skull in front me with a glowing greenish blue light. (it was so long ago I honestly dont remember the exact color)

Now the dream I really want to talk about happened a few months back...in my dream I was at work, and the Pope walked in tho I didn't feel good at all-infact I felt bad like something bad was going to happen that he wasn't who he portrayed to be. (my initial thought was demon, or devil honestly...but at this time I am interpreting this as to something I THOUGHT was bad..before I came across this site) to make a long story short-the pope walked to another room with me and said "a storm is comming" when I looked out the window and saw nothing but bright clear blue skies and the sun rays I said no it isn't-then it was as if someone hit a fast forward button and I saw dark clouds roll in, heard thunder and saw lightening and rain. Then the He stripped down, as if taking off his human appaearance down to this large Red...what I described , demon looking monster. I was afraid...but at the same time I knew i had to fight to stop this thing. Candles came up with a circle and star and I grabbed a candle in thinking "He can't continue the ritual without all of them" but he got mad and gave me a look. I still fought not willing to give it back until he came around the table at me-I was sure he was prepared to hit me or do something if I didn't let it go. I did, and took of fin my dream running-calling my family to make sure my son was okay. In my dream I new i had to tell someone to let people know..but also felt if I did and opened my mouth he would come after me and destroy me to keep my mouth shut. In my dream I did anyways only to feel my family would think I was crazy-and they did- in my dream after tellingg them I was sent into a mental institution where I was wrapped up then awoke scared and freaked out.

MIND you i never watch nor follow the pope, I am NOT catholic (tho growing up I never told a catholic friend they were in the wrong or anything, merely that I could understand where or why they took their stances on some issues, but I didn't agree because it wasn't right for me) and that is the truth, no matter how differnt a person is from me or belives I never think they are wrong-i merely think it is right for them and jus not right for me.

Im so confused, i guess im looking for confort i want to know if i go through this, with a ritual or something im not going to be scared and freaked out and wishing regret or endouver in something that will harm my family or friends (or even myself) Im looking for answers, to help me better in life, to be more spiritial and find something that truly fits how I feel-but because of what I was taught and raised on to learn I feel in the back of my mind I will always have this slight fear of being wrong or tricked or decieved and not able to get out....please do not think of me as a bad person, i am not perfect by no means-and I wouldn't come here to make a post seeking answers if I didn't agree in some way with this site. I have no money so I can't go buy a book-and i have always been one to believe that science and religion go hand in hand- NOT against one another.

Why is it at one time in my life I thought or had a strong feeling I was 'saved' according to the christian religion and at the same time constantly feel like I do not know enough and wanting to be more spiritual with something i truly belive without the fear of being wrong...without tthe fear of harm....honestly I feel lost and no clue where to go now.

I wanted to so badly last night to do a satanic ritual, sign my name in blood...at the same time the only thing that poped into my head is seeing something that would scare me to the point of tears, and feeling of being followed by something unseen that would only tormet me.

Please Im here for answers, not criticism. Thank you



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[Ali1]

Yes! I was for a very long time (and sometimes still am) afraid of the dark but I keep telling myself the same "fear means failure " so I just repeating it to myself!
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Igor Bedzor <igorbedzor@... wrote:

I understand you. But you must do a leap of faith. Hell, before I joined
Satanism I didn't know myself, was always " lost" and had many traumas from
my youth - that includes even FEAR OF THE DARK. Can you believe how hard it
was for me - A christian raised person that always had been programmed
into believing the Devil was a monster , plus I was scared of the dark.

Today ? I have no more fears... I sleep and meditate with my room in
complete darkness. I still have some visions if things that terrified me
from my youth. All this is part of the healing of the soul trough
meditation. I am a fearless , smarter and open-minded person than ever.
Satan truly gave us the gift of meditation. I would never come to what I am
today if it wasn't for meditation. And this is just the tip of the iceberg,
for I am very new.

Satanism is a religion where NO FEARS ARE ALLOWED. If you are fearful you
will fail - The courage and will to join something like Satanism is the
first step. And to continue you must have much much more will and
determination. Do not fear anything, and there will be no reasons to have
fear. Satan guide us and shows us the truth.

Ave Satanas

On Tue, Mar 5, 2013 at 9:24 PM, Ali <jali29@... wrote:

**


Yea I've dedicated myself on Friday! Didn't get much blood out but I've
done it already. The deep voice happened only a few days ago!

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James Makela amaracer113@... wrote:

It's probably an angel trying to scare you away from Satanism. You can do
a Banishing ritual to get rid of any negative energy and/or entities from
your living area. But idk if it will work because you aren't a dedicated SS.

Hail Satan!

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On Mar 4, 2013, at 10:06 AM, Ali jali29@... wrote:

Yes last night I was meditating and heard a deep.voice and it scared me
so bad I was pulled from meditation and couldn't go back.
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James Makela amaracer113@... wrote:

You have nothing to be afraid of your in the right place. Satan loves
and cares about every Gentile. You sound like you've read the site and you
should keep studying the site. You should also read the "Satanic Sermons"
located on the JoS if you haven't already done so. In your post you sound
scared and paranoid about Satanism. You should deprogram
Yourself by reading exposingchristianity.com this site will help you
learn the truth about xianity and how you've been lied too. Start
meditating. Do any of the basic meditations on the JoS and you can do the
dedication ritual whenever you feel ready. Welcome to the group!

Hail Satan!

Sent from my iPhone

On Feb 28, 2013, at 11:02 AM, "jali29@..."
jali29@... wrote:

First of all, I am NOT here to judgde or to say someone is wrong in
any way. I was raised to be a christian-as I got older I still had a sense
of believing in a God...tho I rarely believed in hardly anything the Bible
had said. I found contradictions in it, I didn't like how people would say
if you were a woman you could not preach-I didn't like how it was strickly
a 'mans' world....I questioned it all the time. I had always said if there
was anything true about it at all was that a person should not judge
another for any reason. (race, religion, sex, etc.) To me, a God would not
judge you either-he/she/it would not say "because you have a vignia you can
not teach my word" or say "because you are gay you cannot be apart of me"
(so to speak) but for many years I claimed to be a christian-simply because
I did believe that there was a God.

A few years ago I began research for astral projection, chakras,
meditation, scrying, etc.. But I always had a fear of comming to something
'bad' and half the time I would be scared and never proceeded further. (one
night while trying to astral prohect after weeks of trying I thought I was
doing it-I felt a vibration like I was on a train, heard a loud whistling
-then began to hear voices right by my head and heard someone say something
like "is that her?" or "she is here" I freaked thinking that something was
only waiting on the other side to try to scare if not harm me-since then I
have not been as close)

This past janurary, around my birthday, I was doing research bout
finding your spirit guide-when I came across this site. Joy of Satan. I
initial reaction was "this is bad...this is evil...and if I continue I may
endouver into something I can't get out of and wish to be dead and live in
fear for the rest of my life" Yesterday while at work I thought about it
again. I thought "I can at least read it...because if it does talk about
killing, or anything I truly feel is wrong I can always just stop and know
its wrong' so I went back to the site. Needless to change I was shocked and
at the same time relieved it wasn't anything I THOUGHT it would be.

I do know the "christian" religion is just other religions put into
one- I even knew about Horus which tells a very similar story as the one of
'Jesus' in the Bible-born from a virgin woman and such (and horus eye)

I've been reading so much in just two days...and while I'd very much
like to continue-I still have some fear. Only in the sense of feeling
'tricked' If what I have read is true-then I do open it. I think what
scares me is thinking that its absolutely okay-becomming a sanatist (which
honestly I don't think I could let anyone know, even my family for fear of
being outcasted and other things) I've always had an interest in
'witchcract' and when I was in high school began to endouver into that. I
wasn't as afraid because I truly felt what the bible spoke about it was a
lie-rituals happen its part of ANY religion-but I also was told and read in
witchcraft there is no such thing as Satan only Gods and GOddesses-and I
wouldn't do something to harm another person...that is until my step father
found a poem I wrote, which initially was for a spell for a guy I was
dateing at the time. In so many words it basically said that he would not
find true love until he had been hurt just as much as he had hurt others
(including me)....NOW....i live with him, and have a child with him and
always felt it was the 'three fold' rule and I was being punished as well.

I did read that three fold, ten fold, etc are lies-but now I feel
full of more questions and dont even know how to ask them.

I do feel people have power in them and no longer can tap into them
due to the history and the way our world has progressed over time. At the
same time I have met a few christians who have some really good lives-...so
to speak. I have never met anyone who openly admitted to me to be a
satanist...yet my brother last year did say he was studying about Sumerians
and was believing in that-and when I read that on the site I felt even more
compelled to learn more.


I am a capricorn...my 'chinese' astrology (with my birthdate) is a
dragon..and my favorite colors are blue black and red....same as I have
read about Satan form this time.

I am trying to rid my mind of what I've been taught and told for over
24 years now bout Satan being this red devlish looking thing (evil looking)
but it is hard too. If you've read this far, please continue about a couple
of dreams and feelings I've had...

One dream, my father told me about was when he was a kid, he saw a
little man that said "he's comming" and in his dream my dad said he had a
bad attitude. He mouthed off saying he didn't give a f...(bad word) but as
soon as he said it, his room turned dark red, he had a VERY bad feeling
come about it and was scared so bad he was paralyzed and couldn't move.
I've had a similar dream of being paralyzed (just one) but nothing as
detailed as my fathers. In mine, I was walking abck to my room and had a
feeling to turn around like something was following me. When I did I felt
paralyzed and feel on my back. I couldn't move and fought so hard to scream
for help and thought if I didn't break free I was going to be harmed by
this floating skull in front me with a glowing greenish blue light. (it was
so long ago I honestly dont remember the exact color)

Now the dream I really want to talk about happened a few months
back...in my dream I was at work, and the Pope walked in tho I didn't feel
good at all-infact I felt bad like something bad was going to happen that
he wasn't who he portrayed to be. (my initial thought was demon, or devil
honestly...but at this time I am interpreting this as to something I
THOUGHT was bad..before I came across this site) to make a long story
short-the pope walked to another room with me and said "a storm is comming"
when I looked out the window and saw nothing but bright clear blue skies
and the sun rays I said no it isn't-then it was as if someone hit a fast
forward button and I saw dark clouds roll in, heard thunder and saw
lightening and rain. Then the He stripped down, as if taking off his human
appaearance down to this large Red...what I described , demon looking
monster. I was afraid...but at the same time I knew i had to fight to stop
this thing. Candles came up with a circle and star and I grabbed a candle
in thinking "He can't continue the ritual without all of them" but he got
mad and gave me a look. I still fought not willing to give it back until he
came around the table at me-I was sure he was prepared to hit me or do
something if I didn't let it go. I did, and took of fin my dream
running-calling my family to make sure my son was okay. In my dream I new i
had to tell someone to let people know..but also felt if I did and opened
my mouth he would come after me and destroy me to keep my mouth shut. In my
dream I did anyways only to feel my family would think I was crazy-and they
did- in my dream after tellingg them I was sent into a mental institution
where I was wrapped up then awoke scared and freaked out.

MIND you i never watch nor follow the pope, I am NOT catholic (tho
growing up I never told a catholic friend they were in the wrong or
anything, merely that I could understand where or why they took their
stances on some issues, but I didn't agree because it wasn't right for me)
and that is the truth, no matter how differnt a person is from me or
belives I never think they are wrong-i merely think it is right for them
and jus not right for me.

Im so confused, i guess im looking for confort i want to know if i go
through this, with a ritual or something im not going to be scared and
freaked out and wishing regret or endouver in something that will harm my
family or friends (or even myself) Im looking for answers, to help me
better in life, to be more spiritial and find something that truly fits how
I feel-but because of what I was taught and raised on to learn I feel in
the back of my mind I will always have this slight fear of being wrong or
tricked or decieved and not able to get out....please do not think of me as
a bad person, i am not perfect by no means-and I wouldn't come here to make
a post seeking answers if I didn't agree in some way with this site. I have
no money so I can't go buy a book-and i have always been one to believe
that science and religion go hand in hand- NOT against one another.

Why is it at one time in my life I thought or had a strong feeling I
was 'saved' according to the christian religion and at the same time
constantly feel like I do not know enough and wanting to be more spiritual
with something i truly belive without the fear of being wrong...without
tthe fear of harm....honestly I feel lost and no clue where to go now.

I wanted to so badly last night to do a satanic ritual, sign my name
in blood...at the same time the only thing that poped into my head is
seeing something that would scare me to the point of tears, and feeling of
being followed by something unseen that would only tormet me.

Please Im here for answers, not criticism. Thank you



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[rishorishin]

About the half cat like woman, I frequently see animals like dogs and cats emerging from their bodies astrally, bipedally. [Their astral body is bipedal from what I have seen.]

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "jali29@..." <jali29@... wrote:

I'm trying to find out who KY demon is but am having trouble. I.read the jos sight but can't use a pendulum or Ouija board in private because of my family. And everyone I am a female lol

A few years ago (before learning of Satanism) I had a meditation of meeting a woman who was half cat like ...dunno if that would help but haven't had a food meditation since. Again because of living with family..(my son and his dad tho legally we are divorced but trying to go in military) much would be appreciated! HAIL SATAN!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], James Makela <amaracer113@ wrote:

You have nothing to be afraid of your in the right place. Satan loves and cares about every Gentile. You sound like you've read the site and you should keep studying the site. You should also read the "Satanic Sermons" located on the JoS if you haven't already done so. In your post you sound scared and paranoid about Satanism. You should deprogram
Yourself by reading exposingchristianity.com this site will help you learn the truth about xianity and how you've been lied too. Start meditating. Do any of the basic meditations on the JoS and you can do the dedication ritual whenever you feel ready. Welcome to the group!

Hail Satan!

Sent from my iPhone

On Feb 28, 2013, at 11:02 AM, "jali29@" <jali29@ wrote:

First of all, I am NOT here to judgde or to say someone is wrong in any way. I was raised to be a christian-as I got older I still had a sense of believing in a God...tho I rarely believed in hardly anything the Bible had said. I found contradictions in it, I didn't like how people would say if you were a woman you could not preach-I didn't like how it was strickly a 'mans' world....I questioned it all the time. I had always said if there was anything true about it at all was that a person should not judge another for any reason. (race, religion, sex, etc.) To me, a God would not judge you either-he/she/it would not say "because you have a vignia you can not teach my word" or say "because you are gay you cannot be apart of me" (so to speak) but for many years I claimed to be a christian-simply because I did believe that there was a God.

A few years ago I began research for astral projection, chakras, meditation, scrying, etc.. But I always had a fear of comming to something 'bad' and half the time I would be scared and never proceeded further. (one night while trying to astral prohect after weeks of trying I thought I was doing it-I felt a vibration like I was on a train, heard a loud whistling -then began to hear voices right by my head and heard someone say something like "is that her?" or "she is here" I freaked thinking that something was only waiting on the other side to try to scare if not harm me-since then I have not been as close)

This past janurary, around my birthday, I was doing research bout finding your spirit guide-when I came across this site. Joy of Satan. I initial reaction was "this is bad...this is evil...and if I continue I may endouver into something I can't get out of and wish to be dead and live in fear for the rest of my life" Yesterday while at work I thought about it again. I thought "I can at least read it...because if it does talk about killing, or anything I truly feel is wrong I can always just stop and know its wrong' so I went back to the site. Needless to change I was shocked and at the same time relieved it wasn't anything I THOUGHT it would be.

I do know the "christian" religion is just other religions put into one- I even knew about Horus which tells a very similar story as the one of 'Jesus' in the Bible-born from a virgin woman and such (and horus eye)

I've been reading so much in just two days...and while I'd very much like to continue-I still have some fear. Only in the sense of feeling 'tricked' If what I have read is true-then I do open it. I think what scares me is thinking that its absolutely okay-becomming a sanatist (which honestly I don't think I could let anyone know, even my family for fear of being outcasted and other things) I've always had an interest in 'witchcract' and when I was in high school began to endouver into that. I wasn't as afraid because I truly felt what the bible spoke about it was a lie-rituals happen its part of ANY religion-but I also was told and read in witchcraft there is no such thing as Satan only Gods and GOddesses-and I wouldn't do something to harm another person...that is until my step father found a poem I wrote, which initially was for a spell for a guy I was dateing at the time. In so many words it basically said that he would not find true love until he had been hurt just as much as he had hurt others (including me)....NOW....i live with him, and have a child with him and always felt it was the 'three fold' rule and I was being punished as well.

I did read that three fold, ten fold, etc are lies-but now I feel full of more questions and dont even know how to ask them.

I do feel people have power in them and no longer can tap into them due to the history and the way our world has progressed over time. At the same time I have met a few christians who have some really good lives-...so to speak. I have never met anyone who openly admitted to me to be a satanist...yet my brother last year did say he was studying about Sumerians and was believing in that-and when I read that on the site I felt even more compelled to learn more.


I am a capricorn...my 'chinese' astrology (with my birthdate) is a dragon..and my favorite colors are blue black and red....same as I have read about Satan form this time.

I am trying to rid my mind of what I've been taught and told for over 24 years now bout Satan being this red devlish looking thing (evil looking) but it is hard too. If you've read this far, please continue about a couple of dreams and feelings I've had...

One dream, my father told me about was when he was a kid, he saw a little man that said "he's comming" and in his dream my dad said he had a bad attitude. He mouthed off saying he didn't give a f...(bad word) but as soon as he said it, his room turned dark red, he had a VERY bad feeling come about it and was scared so bad he was paralyzed and couldn't move. I've had a similar dream of being paralyzed (just one) but nothing as detailed as my fathers. In mine, I was walking abck to my room and had a feeling to turn around like something was following me. When I did I felt paralyzed and feel on my back. I couldn't move and fought so hard to scream for help and thought if I didn't break free I was going to be harmed by this floating skull in front me with a glowing greenish blue light. (it was so long ago I honestly dont remember the exact color)

Now the dream I really want to talk about happened a few months back...in my dream I was at work, and the Pope walked in tho I didn't feel good at all-infact I felt bad like something bad was going to happen that he wasn't who he portrayed to be. (my initial thought was demon, or devil honestly...but at this time I am interpreting this as to something I THOUGHT was bad..before I came across this site) to make a long story short-the pope walked to another room with me and said "a storm is comming" when I looked out the window and saw nothing but bright clear blue skies and the sun rays I said no it isn't-then it was as if someone hit a fast forward button and I saw dark clouds roll in, heard thunder and saw lightening and rain. Then the He stripped down, as if taking off his human appaearance down to this large Red...what I described , demon looking monster. I was afraid...but at the same time I knew i had to fight to stop this thing. Candles came up with a circle and star and I grabbed a candle in thinking "He can't continue the ritual without all of them" but he got mad and gave me a look. I still fought not willing to give it back until he came around the table at me-I was sure he was prepared to hit me or do something if I didn't let it go. I did, and took of fin my dream running-calling my family to make sure my son was okay. In my dream I new i had to tell someone to let people know..but also felt if I did and opened my mouth he would come after me and destroy me to keep my mouth shut. In my dream I did anyways only to feel my family would think I was crazy-and they did- in my dream after tellingg them I was sent into a mental institution where I was wrapped up then awoke scared and freaked out.

MIND you i never watch nor follow the pope, I am NOT catholic (tho growing up I never told a catholic friend they were in the wrong or anything, merely that I could understand where or why they took their stances on some issues, but I didn't agree because it wasn't right for me) and that is the truth, no matter how differnt a person is from me or belives I never think they are wrong-i merely think it is right for them and jus not right for me.

Im so confused, i guess im looking for confort i want to know if i go through this, with a ritual or something im not going to be scared and freaked out and wishing regret or endouver in something that will harm my family or friends (or even myself) Im looking for answers, to help me better in life, to be more spiritial and find something that truly fits how I feel-but because of what I was taught and raised on to learn I feel in the back of my mind I will always have this slight fear of being wrong or tricked or decieved and not able to get out....please do not think of me as a bad person, i am not perfect by no means-and I wouldn't come here to make a post seeking answers if I didn't agree in some way with this site. I have no money so I can't go buy a book-and i have always been one to believe that science and religion go hand in hand- NOT against one another.

Why is it at one time in my life I thought or had a strong feeling I was 'saved' according to the christian religion and at the same time constantly feel like I do not know enough and wanting to be more spiritual with something i truly belive without the fear of being wrong...without tthe fear of harm....honestly I feel lost and no clue where to go now.

I wanted to so badly last night to do a satanic ritual, sign my name in blood...at the same time the only thing that poped into my head is seeing something that would scare me to the point of tears, and feeling of being followed by something unseen that would only tormet me.

Please Im here for answers, not criticism. Thank you



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