Mica Enriquez
New member
- Joined
- Jan 18, 2009
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Everyday people write about bieng suicidal or into self mutilation in this group like it is something new.
There was a time when I did these terrible things to myself as well . I was so depressed I was lucky I did not kill myself
I thought that If I killed my self my problems would end others and their lives would go on. I realized that If I died,
if I took my life that night when my parents were away I would be nothing more than a number. one of the many that
commit suicide for hating themselves, the world, or unable to cope with the realities that they faced. I was christian then.
That god did nothing to keep me from killing myself It was all ultimately my life and It would be a waste to throw all of it away
because of hardships I faced then. A trusted teacher told me life goes on and all things eventually pass.
When that dark time passed the scars on my wrists and the black clothes are the only remnants of then. I got myself through all of it by MYSELF
I held all of my hate and self loathing and the hate for my sister and the hate that I had for my family and The tears that Follow my anger
inside...for so long. everyone hated me and I hated them in return my life was hell. I never had strong roots in Christianity and my freedom from my building depression convinced me that Christianity was wrong and I lost all belief in god. I guess you could say I was atheist or something for a while.
whenever I went to Sunday school I never listened to the shit that they forced me to read and pretend ti understand.
I forgot about religion and wanted every person who was overly interested in the bible to drop dead. 3 months ago I found father satan and I know
that I am glad that I left that pile of hate behind.
Satan wants the best for you and you harming yourself would make him sad because he cares about you so much.
~Hail satan
im a cutter and i was just wondering if he minds
