Probably Nothing But I Am Not Sure

[luna6illian]

Well, on Friday the 13th, during the ritual, I saw something, wings I want to say, slowly flapping but they were pretty vivid. Not my wings of course, no where near me, but across the room to my left. I assumed my astral sight was kicking in, perhaps it was my Guardian Demon keeping me safe, but I went on with the ritual and felt nothing more.
Five days later I experienced... Not passing out, but a brief black out if you will. Kind of like shutting your eyes for a moment and opening them quickly, but my eyes were open. I kind of chuckled a bit, figured I was just tired you know? But I saw  strange quick specks scuttling like bugs, but white glowing again, crawling on my vision. It was like a second and a half. 
After that I was dizzy for a bit, kind of hung my head back, but felt a huge pressure on my forehead. I feel I missed something during that, like maybe I wasn't looking hard enough. But the pressure faded away after awhile, still it was a but strange for me to have that so suddenly at where I am assuming was my third eye.
Now I meditated earlier before that event, silently as I could with my room mate sleeping, and I felt... Kind of nervous. Not afraid, but not at ease like I was before when I meditated. I don't want to say its an attack, I don't feel threatened or sick or in any real pain like I have seen other people post. I am not overly raging, not depressed or anti-social because of what is happening. I am just tired and anxtious, like I'm waiting for something to happen, whether it is bad or good I can't really tell.
I don't know what I am expecting, I don't expect some enemy grey to start harassing me, I don't feel worried, I'm just tired and my eye vision, all be it poor (for I am legally blind without my lenses) is seeing these white "things" very vividly and it's shocking without my lenses on. It's almost beautiful to be able to see something without them, but you can imagine my alarm right?
I guess I am asking is my lack of fear just my ignorance? Or is this just, hopefully, a result of the destruction rituals? I mean I don't WANT to be scared, but if these kind of effects are not normal or alarming or happening to others I would like to take some action.
I've cleaned my aura as well, I am beginning to do that regularly now when before I had not, a mistake on my part. Perhaps I am overly cautious but any insight or explanation or even a "It's okay just keep meditating" would make me relieved as opposed to simply ignoring these problems. But dont lie to me of course just to make me feel better haha. 
Thank you. 

 

[en_haradren_amlug]

The anxious feeling is one I'm all too familiar with. I was constantly attacked when I was a child by night terrors, I now know that these were enemy entities and thoughtforms surrounding me at night. These happened every night for as long as I could remember, up untill I found Satanism. I now never experiance these.
So this is a very clear sign of what these feelings are, if it isn't something you experiance often, or it isn't common (ie you don't commonly suffer anxiety attacks). I tend to feel it when there is an enemy entity nearby, they project this sence of dread, like there is something waiting in the dark, whenever they are around.
Cleaning your aura, putting up an aura of protection, doing a bannishing, all these will help and usually remove them. Calling apon your Guardian is also good if you feel you cannot handle it.
As for all this with your eyes, I would not give it a second thought. It sounds like you just had a dizzy spell. The 'crawling bugs' on your eyes are microscopic bacteria that swim in the fluid on your eye. If you look up into the sky, you can often see the sun/light reflecting off them, this is what the 'shinning' is. If you try look at them directly, they will scamper away.
The blackout/whiteout sensation in your eye, followed by a pressure in your head is cause by blood rushing to your brain. This often happens when you stand up quickly. I have this sensation quite often during Yoga when I get energy rushing up my spine to my crown.
And lastly, its okay, just keep meditating .
-En Haradren Amlug.

--- In [email protected], <[email protected] wrote:

Well, on Friday the 13th, during the ritual, I saw something, wings I want to say, slowly flapping but they were pretty vivid. Not my wings of course, no where near me, but across the room to my left. I assumed my astral sight was kicking in, perhaps it was my Guardian Demon keeping me safe, but I went on with the ritual and felt nothing more.
Five days later I experienced... Not passing out, but a brief black out if you will. Kind of like shutting your eyes for a moment and opening them quickly, but my eyes were open. I kind of chuckled a bit, figured I was just tired you know? But I saw  strange quick specks scuttling like bugs, but white glowing again, crawling on my vision. It was like a second and a half. 
After that I was dizzy for a bit, kind of hung my head back, but felt a huge pressure on my forehead. I feel I missed something during that, like maybe I wasn't looking hard enough. But the pressure faded away after awhile, still it was a but strange for me to have that so suddenly at where I am assuming was my third eye.
Now I meditated earlier before that event, silently as I could with my room mate sleeping, and I felt... Kind of nervous. Not afraid, but not at ease like I was before when I meditated. I don't want to say its an attack, I don't feel threatened or sick or in any real pain like I have seen other people post. I am not overly raging, not depressed or anti-social because of what is happening. I am just tired and anxtious, like I'm waiting for something to happen, whether it is bad or good I can't really tell.
I don't know what I am expecting, I don't expect some enemy grey to start harassing me, I don't feel worried, I'm just tired and my eye vision, all be it poor (for I am legally blind without my lenses) is seeing these white "things" very vividly and it's shocking without my lenses on. It's almost beautiful to be able to see something without them, but you can imagine my alarm right?
I guess I am asking is my lack of fear just my ignorance? Or is this just, hopefully, a result of the destruction rituals? I mean I don't WANT to be scared, but if these kind of effects are not normal or alarming or happening to others I would like to take some action.
I've cleaned my aura as well, I am beginning to do that regularly now when before I had not, a mistake on my part. Perhaps I am overly cautious but any insight or explanation or even a "It's okay just keep meditating" would make me relieved as opposed to simply ignoring these problems. But dont lie to me of course just to make me feel better haha. 
Thank you. 

 

[hailourtruegod1]

Hopefully someone can respond to this good because I've been thru something very similar. It happened like a week-ish or two ish ago. I didn't see no wings or white "things" but that thing you said with blacking out for a quick second and feeling dizzy (I started seeing faint colored dots right after when I got dizzy). I didn't know either if it was an attack or it was suppose to happen for some reason. I tried to stay alert right after all that happened to see if anything was suppose to happen but nope nothing as well. I did the aura of protection then. Idk what it was but I do know I did slow down on cleaning my aura but after they I picked it up again.

 

[hailourtruegod1]

Oops I didn't see En Haradren respond to this when I wrote that. But koo your respond to the OP helped me out alot Thanks bro.

 

[luna6illian]

 Thank you En Haradren and I will take your advice on putting up protection and doing banishing. I'm lucky because my room mate has left for the weekend, I mean I hate saying this but I am so happy that she is gone for a few days, can properly meditate and continue my program. I know it may sound strange but I never considered myself strong enough to be a threat, and this have enemies start to take interest and try to attack me. I should have given myself a bit more credit, after all I am participating in destroying the Jews with the destruction ritual. But after what you said and what's been happening I will start to take it more as a serious issue that could cause me harm if ignored, my aura will be sparkling clean and my room coated in protection. 
Thank you again, and I already feel a bit better now having a clear idea on what to do. 

--- In [email protected], <hailourtruegod@... wrote:

Oops I didn't see En Haradren respond to this when I wrote that. But koo your respond to the OP helped me out alot Thanks bro.

 

[en_haradren_amlug]

All Dedicated Spiritual Satanists are a serious threat to the enemy, do not doubt that, no matter what level you are at. If you are meditating, and working to spread the truth about Satan and the Gods, and working to fight the enemy, you are a serious threat to them.
-En Haradren Amlug.

--- In [email protected], <[email protected] wrote:

 Thank you En Haradren and I will take your advice on putting up protection and doing banishing. I'm lucky because my room mate has left for the weekend, I mean I hate saying this but I am so happy that she is gone for a few days, can properly meditate and continue my program. I know it may sound strange but I never considered myself strong enough to be a threat, and this have enemies start to take interest and try to attack me. I should have given myself a bit more credit, after all I am participating in destroying the Jews with the destruction ritual. But after what you said and what's been happening I will start to take it more as a serious issue that could cause me harm if ignored, my aura will be sparkling clean and my room coated in protection. 
Thank you again, and I already feel a bit better now having a clear idea on what to do. 

--- In [email protected], <hailourtruegod@... wrote:

Oops I didn't see En Haradren respond to this when I wrote that. But koo your respond to the OP helped me out alot Thanks bro.

 

[[email protected]]

 You do not consider your self strong enough, and yet you are here? Of course you are a threat to the enemy. You have knowledge and potential that they do not want humanity to know about. Common sense. 
My motto is to keep getting stronger. There is no limit. 

--- In [email protected], <amiraohs@... wrote:

 Thank you En Haradren and I will take your advice on putting up protection and doing banishing. I'm lucky because my room mate has left for the weekend, I mean I hate saying this but I am so happy that she is gone for a few days, can properly meditate and continue my program. I know it may sound strange but I never considered myself strong enough to be a threat, and this have enemies start to take interest and try to attack me. I should have given myself a bit more credit, after all I am participating in destroying the Jews with the destruction ritual. But after what you said and what's been happening I will start to take it more as a serious issue that could cause me harm if ignored, my aura will be sparkling clean and my room coated in protection. 
Thank you again, and I already feel a bit better now having a clear idea on what to do. 

--- In [email protected], <hailourtruegod@... wrote:

Oops I didn't see En Haradren respond to this when I wrote that. But koo your respond to the OP helped me out alot Thanks bro.