Chad Jaskolski
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Hello,
I am new to Satanism, although I have been spiritual for 15 years. When I found the JoS web site, it reflected everything that had come to me through meditation throughout the years. I was raised lutheran, had sunday school, and occasionally went to church service, all of which had always felt wrong somehow. In 2000, after I graduated high school (public school) I joined the army, and ended up reading the fictional filth known as the bible. 3 times. It was here I came to the realization I didn't believe. I started going to wiccan service, which in basic training, has no set time, place, or person to run the "service" . I would go into the woods all day and meditate. I ended up leaving for medical reasons, but continued to just listen to the energy around me. In 2002, I started telling others my ideals/beliefs. My parents accepted it, and I actually turned quite a few people away from the church. In 2004, I had an incredibly vivid dream, where the "god" I was raised to believe in was angry, and we fought. A sword fight. My sword was of green flame, it was an epic fight. It ended with him on the ground, my sword against his throat. If I knew then what I know now, I would not have shown mercy. As I walked away, the bastard stabbed me in my back, lower spine. It forced me awake, and I cried. A few years later, I was diagnosed with MS. My meditation continued, and I could, after a few years, feel the energy rise from the ground up through my head. I have healed in the past, always in ways that jus felt right. I believe this was either Father Satan, or a Daemon friend guiding me.When I finally found the JoS site, and realized everything matched with the beliefs I now have, I knew it's right. I studied a lot of the site, learned about the chakras and the meaning of symbols. I used my divination pendulum to ask if I have a Guardian Daemon, it swung back and forth. Then I got a glass jar, and as described, asked the number of letters in his/her name. It went different for me. It would circle nonstop 8 times then stop, as opposed to a circling, stop, circle, until complete stop. After the 8 circles it would come to a dead stop, and I thought that meant one, so I counted one. It waited a bit, then circle 8 times again. It did this until I reached a count of 5. Then it just wouldn't anymore. I then went through the alphabet, and ended up with Eroth. I then asked, "Is my guardians name eroth?" the pendulum swung side to side. So I asked the closest name as per sound, "Is my guardian Astaroth?" and the pendulum quickly swung back and forth. The following night, I did my dedication, then meditated. During meditation, I focused on the energy surrounding me. It formed a ball of white, turned a light blue and started moving closer. I could make out blueish wings, then images flashed. A nude, feminine leg. Breasts in some sort of clothing. Ending with a set of pursed lips. It was the most intense meditation I had ever had. After, I was so full of happiness and so alert and energized.I am so happy to finally feel like I'm complete and ready to become more.HAIL SATAN
HAIL ASTAROTH
I am new to Satanism, although I have been spiritual for 15 years. When I found the JoS web site, it reflected everything that had come to me through meditation throughout the years. I was raised lutheran, had sunday school, and occasionally went to church service, all of which had always felt wrong somehow. In 2000, after I graduated high school (public school) I joined the army, and ended up reading the fictional filth known as the bible. 3 times. It was here I came to the realization I didn't believe. I started going to wiccan service, which in basic training, has no set time, place, or person to run the "service" . I would go into the woods all day and meditate. I ended up leaving for medical reasons, but continued to just listen to the energy around me. In 2002, I started telling others my ideals/beliefs. My parents accepted it, and I actually turned quite a few people away from the church. In 2004, I had an incredibly vivid dream, where the "god" I was raised to believe in was angry, and we fought. A sword fight. My sword was of green flame, it was an epic fight. It ended with him on the ground, my sword against his throat. If I knew then what I know now, I would not have shown mercy. As I walked away, the bastard stabbed me in my back, lower spine. It forced me awake, and I cried. A few years later, I was diagnosed with MS. My meditation continued, and I could, after a few years, feel the energy rise from the ground up through my head. I have healed in the past, always in ways that jus felt right. I believe this was either Father Satan, or a Daemon friend guiding me.When I finally found the JoS site, and realized everything matched with the beliefs I now have, I knew it's right. I studied a lot of the site, learned about the chakras and the meaning of symbols. I used my divination pendulum to ask if I have a Guardian Daemon, it swung back and forth. Then I got a glass jar, and as described, asked the number of letters in his/her name. It went different for me. It would circle nonstop 8 times then stop, as opposed to a circling, stop, circle, until complete stop. After the 8 circles it would come to a dead stop, and I thought that meant one, so I counted one. It waited a bit, then circle 8 times again. It did this until I reached a count of 5. Then it just wouldn't anymore. I then went through the alphabet, and ended up with Eroth. I then asked, "Is my guardians name eroth?" the pendulum swung side to side. So I asked the closest name as per sound, "Is my guardian Astaroth?" and the pendulum quickly swung back and forth. The following night, I did my dedication, then meditated. During meditation, I focused on the energy surrounding me. It formed a ball of white, turned a light blue and started moving closer. I could make out blueish wings, then images flashed. A nude, feminine leg. Breasts in some sort of clothing. Ending with a set of pursed lips. It was the most intense meditation I had ever had. After, I was so full of happiness and so alert and energized.I am so happy to finally feel like I'm complete and ready to become more.HAIL SATAN
HAIL ASTAROTH
